Today, I had reunion dinner at my maternal grandparents' place.
Well, it was merry. I think I took a short nap of 1.5 hours before the dinner.
My cousins came over but well, as usual, I just did my own thing. I really don't know how to entertain kids.
There were LOADS of food but I couldn't enjoy everything because I'm still having cough and also, I haven't regained my voice.
This morning, I received news that my paternal grandmother passed away.
I didn't really feel very sad because I'm not extremely close to her. After having reunion dinner at my maternal grandparents' place, I went for the funeral.
Actually, I don't know if I was supposed to go. Well, for those who don't know, my parents are divorced.
I called my dad to ask about my grandmother's condition but he said that she was fine and that we don't have to visit her. I was left speechless and also, in a spot.
I don't know if I should go or not. If I didn't go, it'll seem disrespectful of me. If I were to go, I'll definitely get scoldings.
I went in the end and as expected, I got scoldings.
My dad scolded my brother and I in front of everyone. I couldn't control my tears. My aunt saw and she just brought me over to the side. It seems like everyone doesn't really like my dad now. I could see the division.
My dad was sitting at a table, with his mistress and his friends. The rest of the family were sitting on the other side. Needless to say, I sat with them. I was sitting there feeling rather bad so I just helped out in folding the hell notes. Then, there was this ritual and we had to walk in circles (Or rather, ovals). I saw my dad's mistress pointing at me. She was pointing me out to my dad's friends I guess and all of them were pointing at me.
I just felt so uncomfortable. I know my dad wasn't happy that we came because after the ritual, he gave us money then he just asked us to go back. My cousins, aunts and uncles were really nice to me. They were displeased with my dad for some reasons.
My aunts asked me to attend the funeral tomorrow, Monday and Tuesday but I know I won't be able to do so. Firstly, my dad won't like it. Secondly, I've got to go to school.
I asked my cousin if that woman I was looking at was my dad's mistress and he said "Yeah." Well, to me, she sucks. I don't like her. She looks freakin' old and in my opinion, she looks like she's my maternal grandmother's age (50). WHATEVER.
I don't give a damn. It's not like I'll have to call her "Mum" so who cares?
I think that's all for the funeral. After that, my brother and I went back to "report" to my mum, aunt and my maternal grandmother. My aunt said that I should have given the mistress the finger when she was pointing at me.
But anyway, I'm fine. At least, I think I'm fine.
