Lovetoday.

And today, I was kindaaa late for consultation.

Consultation with my math tutor.

Me consulting her, not the other way round.

OMG. I'm sooo lame. -_-

Ok. Whatever. Studying wasn't exactly VERY PRODUCTIVE today. Got myself a random classroom thennnnn.. Had some sushi "picnic" with Audrey. HAH. We "braved" the rain and wind to get ourself sushi, coffee, 1.5litres of carrot juice. I think this should totally be our "PROMO PACKAGE". Studying in school was quite fun today. HAHAHA! A little gossip here and there. Then dinner with Amanda Chan and we were just, spilling our true feelings - HAH. Bad bad bad. I feel guilty for feeling that way but damn, I kinda like "now".

Life tomorrow shall and will be better. Love today. :) And Karin Ng sent me some message and that made my day too! Plus, Charis's phone call. HAHA! What's better than having my besties with me. Please, let me go on a "happystreak". I don't want to have to type another emo post tomorrow. I hope and pray. Let life continue just like this.

No mood to be an angel already. HMPHHHH.

Woah, damn pissed today. Damn damn damn damn damn pissed. I never ever flared up before, at least, to my friends. Woah, today was damnnnnnn. AARG.

I was totally fuming. And mmmm.. I think I just gave that attitude to whoever who tried to talk to me also. AAARG.

Incensed. Outraged. Livid. I think "AARG" sums it up.

I totally was so not angelic. :(

But I realllllly couldn't take it. It was too friggin embarrassing and I just couldn't take it. Charis Liew called and I just. AARG. Tears just streamed down my cheeks okkkk. :'( HMPHHHHH.

I cursed and swore in my sms-es (BUT I don't do that in life ok). Besides that, I was just, also pissed because people seem to just think I won't get angry or they don't even take me seriously. HMPH.

And, I should thank a few people also. HAH. For tolerating whatever nonsense and crap I was up to. Thanks Ongyongle, Charis Liew, Yuming (Who saw my tears) and Kellee.

OK CHILL.

Chill. Chill.

But actually, today's a bit like the 塞翁失马，焉之非福。 Something like that.

When I reached home (Feeling muchhh better now), I asked my mum "WHAT. Did you just say." Although I know, she didn't even say a word. HAH. I was just being irritating. Then she told me, she won some money from the lottery.

AARG.

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Just saw someone posting something related to O levels, entry proof on Facebook. Discussing/planning on how to burn their stuff after the papers etc.

Then I got reminded what I did with that entry proof.

I went to Sentosa (rainy day unfortunately) --> Woah. I actually still remember.

Then used the entry proof as some mat for all of us to sit on. Hah.

HAH. Happy stuff in smaller font because the main thing for today was about how BAD it actually was. AARG.

Hope for the flowers

I don't care if I cannot finish my revision.

I don't care if I did badly for blocks.

I should nottttt be so weak!! "Oh god, have mercy on me. Give me strength." Hah.

Faith.

I must get promoted and I will get promoted. Comeoncomeoncomeon. Studied at Westmall's Burger King today. Hmmm, quite efficient, I would say. Since I completed something (Hurrrrray!)

I gave myself earlier break from school today. Skipped PW and left school at 1 plus? Felt kinda illegal but heck, I need to study much. Much more than the others -_-

Sian. Couldn't bring myself to sleep that night. And I think I found out the reason.

I drank one whole bottle of Pokka premium milk tea before I slept. Before that, at dinner time, I drank a cup of almond teh tarik. I guess that explained why.

The next day was just, I don't know~ I felt a little dizzy~~ HAHA! I wanted to take short naps but couldn't seem to do so. :o/

Then today, Rena, Audrey and I were already planning what to do after promos. HAH! Probably buying poppers on Friday to celebrate. Comeoncomeon~ It's gonna be over soon! Just one week. ONE. ONE. ONE. Gogogo!

NO SIAN-LOOK! Gogogo!

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Charis Liew's message definitely made my day.

At least I don't feel worthless.

Had laksa for lunch and dinner yesterday. THEN again, for dinner today.

MM. Nothing much.

Aarg. Now I'm getting nagged at again.

I'm trying not to spread my emo-ness about by hiding my feelings. Sighs. How fake can I be.

Stupid mask I'm wearing. But I know if I were to display my feelings clearly, people will feel awkward. There'll be like awkward silence since I'm usually the noisy one. There'll be awkward smiles. Awkward conversations. Everything will just turn out plain weird. Nevermind.

People who care will care. And I guess, I know who these people are. Thank god for them.

I guess I've been trying a little too hard, trying to please others and I end up feeling crappy myself.

I'm so in the Christmas mood.

If only everyday's Christmas!

This really kept me entertained. When everyday's Christmas..

HAHA!!!

Christmas cartoon from Fairly Oddparents. Aarg. I feel weird.

I'm all down then now, I'm fine again. Not too fine, just fine. Ok shut up. I shall keep myself occupied with some other stuff.

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Today's better. A slap back to reality.

I feel like Humpty Dumpty. Oh, speaking of Humpty Dumpty. Today, I was thinking about it- "Is Humpty Dumpty an egg?" , "Did the yolk flow out or something when it cracked?", "Why was it even on the wall in the first place?" Then I went to search for Humpty Dumpty on Youtube and there were quite a few videos BUT, the way they sang Humpty Dumpty was just different. HAHAH! Amongst all those I watched, there was no yolk when Humpty Dumpty fell.

Ok. I'm so lame. As usual.

Just remembered how I was actually frightened by "Happy Tree Friends" when I was young~ Actually, I still don't have the courage to watch the videos. They're so not happy. -_- Inculcate the wrong values tsk tsk tsk. This is such a random post.

Shall go search for some fairy tales on Youtube. HAHAH!! If only we can all be children once again. Hansel and Gretel-my favourite!! :D Mickey mouse version HERE.

Fairytales tell us that there'll always be a way out.

Not to forget! The Little Miss and Mr Men series! HAHA! LITTLE MISS NAUGHTY FTW!

OMG. How funny everyone sounds. I wanna go live with them. HAHAHA! Small enough to do so~

Love the way you lie.

Fk.

Thanks for lying.

Why make empty promises.

You just reaffirmed that there's simply no trust. I guess I can trust no one but myself.

SPL-IT personality.

Now what, I've joined wordpress just so I can type out my emo posts.

Yeah, sometimes.. emo posts are just so not meant to be read by public since I guess, I'll be judged. I may say I don't care but there're just some things you wouldn't exactly want to share to the whole wide world.

Just sometimes, when you feel like typing someone's name out and not to have them know. Some things I'll just won't say but it doesn't mean I'm oblivious, ignorant.

I wouldn't say "Life's been bad"- so bad I had to create Wordpress to rant, to blog out whatever I'm feeling. There're definitely the ups and the downs. Downs, I won't elaborate because they're all within me. Like as if I'm having some battle within myself huh. The ups were, I don't know, I hope I was happy- genuinely. I hope my laughter/smile wasn't forced. (??)

The password to the posts. I guess, only with people I'm comfortable with.

Can try asking me for it. If you don't get them then, 1) I just don't feel comfortable sharing stuff with you. 2) You are involved in the post. Oh well.

Today, I went out. Supposedly to study but I ended up chilling like what Goh Shao Wee will say. Oh mannnn. After hearing that part on having to stay in school for 1/2 more week if you underperform, I don't know why but I felt a sudden surge of stress.

Went to Plaza Singapura for lunch/dinner, saw Darren Ho- my classmate in primary school and Sucks, got "bullied" again. As usual~~~ Charis Liew and Darren Ho- Tsktsktsk.

It's funny how I don't even remember talking to him when we were classmates and now, he bullies me. :'( HAHAHA! SAD-DED. Just staring is enough to make me go all... "tickly" in a way. And then I'll burst out laughing. HAHA! Oh well, but it was great catching up.

You know what. Life's so weird.

We always say it's better to be optimistic even when things seem bleak. But what do optimists get? I mean, when you're happy on the outside, nobody gives a shit about what you're feeling inside. When you start to go all emonemo, it appears to be self-pity to others. Sighs.

Heck.

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And today, I finally got "caught" for not attending PE.

I reached school at like, 9 plus? 10? Didn't want to come initially sighs, but I knew studying early in the morning wouldn't be any productive so I went to school anyway.

Walked into school, all smiles and I think I was laughing (Not to myself) when I saw some of my classmates and damn~ There came Miss Chen.

So she said "Woah Cheryl, I haven't seen you for like 2-3 weeks." Then she just kept talking, asking me how I managed to get pass all those previous Thursdays. My lies weren't entirely lies ok. I couldn't even remember what I did on those previous Thursdays. I know I came late on one day, studied in the library for I think a few Thursdays also.. I really couldn't remember so I just told her about me going to the library to study (Isn't that what I'm supposed to do??) Oh wellll~

I felt like I should have came later.

So I went down to the venue for PE, stood around then escaped to go to the canteen after a short while. Rena and I were just like, plotting our "escape route" and whattt. We had to walk naturally, speed up a little when Miss Chen's not looking.... (Takes some skills)

Studied at OC today. PR over there already. HAHA! And we saw the same Mediacorp artiste at the "Rock-climbing" area. AGAIN. Walao. These mediacorp artistes seem to have like nothing to do. Always rock-climbing. When I'm sitting over there studying. -_- Today was Julian Hee and that Channel 8 actor (who attempted to crash our camwhoring session). Then that day was Terence Cao and a few others. Those aunties gathered over there to look at them okkk~ HAHA!

PW+Chemistry.

(My pink DKNY is running VERY VERY VERY low :(((((( )

That one unforgettable "flasher"

Went out with CharisL (Just the way you like it) and Jing Rong today, to study. :D

On our way there, we were just crapping about random stuff. Talked about CharisL and her encounter with a Bangladesh flasher. Then some Nigerian man who wanted to get to know her. HAHA! And I just remembered my own experience. I think after posting this up, I'll be labelled DUMB with a captial D (BOLD + Underlined)

I remember that time was my first time, using the webcam I think. (I think I just got my laptop)

Then, I tried Speed date because I received invites on Facebook. Speed dating goes like this, you've got 1 minute (I think?? Or maybe 4? 3?) to interact with some random people. They'll have this window and this "doorbell" so whenever someone pops online on Speed date then you'll be connected to the person (I think). Tried it out of curiosity. Of course, I didn't go there to look for what. Life long partner. Or to be engaged in some relationship. I just wanted to know how it worked and why some of my friends were using that application. So then, because you're only given a limited time to chat with the stranger, in most cases, they'll ask you for your MSN then you'll continue chatting on MSN. Yeah, so this guy (From US I think) added me on MSN (I didn't see the harm what~) and we just chatted. Me, being me, talked about random stuff like errr.. subjects we study etc. etc. Like, NORMAL chatting. Then the guy seemed ok also but I think, after 1/2 hours, he spammed me with "I'm horny". -_- I was just errr 15 I think.

I didn't know what to do because I thought he was just being random. Then, I tried to change topic and I remember saying something like "Why not lets play some games". By games, I meant. Like, normal ones. Nooo dirty games or whatever. And yuckyuck, he kept asking me to show my body and stuff. And if I lost to him or something, then I'll have to do what he wants. -_- Then I think he couldn't take it anymore, and he just flashed his thing to the webcam. Until today, I still don't know if what I saw was what I thought - He did say he was going to flash but I just "No.No.No.No.No." sooooo~ But it definitely scared me. HAHAH!! After that, I realized, almost all the guys who go onto Speed date, they were just lusty pervys. HAHAHA! And I think I wasted quite a lot of their time because I just refused to show or whatever. HAHAHA!

When I told CharisL and Jing Rong, walao, they thought my games meant like... naughty games. -_- PLEASEE~ I'm like, so innocent. I remember, I said something like, "Truth or dare" or "Scissors, Paper, Stone". Something along those lines- CLEAN games okkk~

But fortunately, I never met a real one in my life. Unlike errrhummm. CharisL whose life is so interesting.

5albums.

Oh no. I need to sleep like, RIGHT NOW.

Took 5 albums worth of photos today. BUT. I must say. I did study something today. So.. it was both, productive and fun. :D I broke my own record.

Almost fell off an escalator because my bag was too heavy- fell backward yeah.

FORTUNATELY. AHHAHA! If not, the photos wouldn't have been uploaded tonight. MMM.. Fell asleep during class today, or rather, during CLASSES. Don't know why, just tooooo tired. And couldn't bother to even, force myself to copy those Math stuff anymore.

Finally finished "For One More Day". Can't wait for promos to end!!! I want to read "Have A Little Faith" like, right nowwww. But no no no. Control. Discipline. SLEEEEEEEPING TIME.

Lalala~

YES YES YES! I'm finishing my Mitch Albom book soon. HAHA!! I'm so glad. The fact that I chose to buy this book already shows how good my taste is. :D HAHAHAH!! Shucks. But it's not like we're tested on Mitch Albom for Promos. My revision ain't even complete yet!

Looking forward to tomorrow. :DDDDDD

But I can feel, my wallet getting heavier and heavier. That's not a good thing. BECAUSE. Notes are turning into coins. Lunch at some Italian place today (and we heard "Shape Of My Heart" by BSB), studied at Galare. I wish. I can just live there.

Now, the only thing that's stuck on my mind is "Sequence and Series". I hate that topic and I totally dao-ed the tutorial. (Oh nooo~ That's so not the way since we're tested on that too) AND THEREFORE. I told Jing Rong "We're gonna conquer this sh*t")

It's just dumb patterns. WHY CAN'T I SEE IT?! Aarg.

One achievement for today? I KNOW HOW TO GET HOME FROM ORCHARD ALREADY. BY BUS SOMEMORE. It's not TOO easy ok~ Given the fact I'm kinda bad at directions, I'm bad at remembering how to get to someplace, that I'm always blurrrr, that I can't exactly recognize roads at night, that I changed my address etc. etc. AND FOR THIS, I deserve compliments. :)) "Good job Cheryl!!" OK. Done crapping. Need to get back to (SIAN) Geography revision package. Aarg. I just feel like packing the teacher up now~~ It seems like Geography's some self-study subject. Whatever's being taught are already in the booklet (Which contains like EVEN more extra readings). SIGHS.

And shucks. I did something today, some gesture. And I tried re-telling the scenario to my classmate, and did THAT SAME gesture and she just laughed at me. That was when I realized, how stupid I actually looked. HAHAHAHA! But it's alright! Since we should all learn to laugh at ourselves. :DDD

On a random note, I corrected my mum on some Chinese idiom yesterday -SMILEEEESSSSS-

IMPROVEMENT! HAHAHA! ANDDDD! Alyson said my Chinese is still quite fluent. HAHAHAHAH!! :D

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Going crazy from studying. Need a break. And THEREFORE, I reactivated my Formspring. HAHAH! SIAN........................

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"Now that child," he said, "reminds me of something our sages taught. When a baby comes into the world, its hands are clenched, right? Like this?"

He made a fist.

"Why? Because a baby, not knowing any better, wants to grab everything, to say, 'The whole world is mine.'

"But when an old person dies, how does he do so? With his hands open. Why? Because he has learned the lesson."

What lesson? I asked.

He stretched open his empty fingers.

"We can take nothing with us."

Have A Little Faith, Happiness- Mitch Albom.

And today, I bought a second book. Just couldn't resist and fight the temptation because it was 13 dollars- orignally, approximately 17 dollars.

"Have a Little Faith is a book about a life’s purpose; about losing belief and finding it again; about the divine spark inside us all. It is one man’s journey, but it is everyone’s story." I shall save this book for "Post-promos" activity.

When I read "For One More Day" today, I started tearing somehow. HAHAHA! (WHEN I WAS SUPPOSED TO BE STUDYING GEOGRAPHY)

Just can't bring myself to stop reading these books. Bought the first book with the Borders card and this one, I bought it using NETS.. So I guess, I'll have some explaining to do some time later...

School was rather empty today, and because it was empty, nothing really interesting happened? Couldn't decide if I should spend money on another book or to just, go home straight. Saw 961 but eventually, decided to make my way down to Orchard, Borders. Without hesitation, I took the book because I knew it'll make good company. :)) So farrrr, I've got Tuesdays With Morrie, For One More Day and Have A Little Faith. NEXT ON THE LIST will be "5 People You Meet In Heaven". I think that's like the second book but ohhh well, shall get that on my birthday then I'll have like one collection of Mitch Albom's. Books like these are worth buying and worth the space on my shelf. For now, the "shelf" is in the storeroom. BUT WHEN I GET TO MY NEW PLACE, I'll display them, alongside some other books I bought last time. Time to get book wrappers! Can't afford to get them dirty/folded/any of the slightest damage.

Recently, I found out I've got Wii at home. THIS JUST SHOWS how long I haven't actually sat in the living room, to just chill and watch TV. Oh welllll~

For One More Day

I KNOW JUST THE RIGHT THING I'LL GET MYSELF ON MY BIRTHDAY.

Oh mannn~ That's so random but I know just the perfect gift. Eh shucks, but before this, I need to get myself prepared for promos first. If I were to do badly, I'll feel damn guilty, spending money on myself (Despite it being my birthday).

Sighs.

I don't know if I'm being too harsh on myself sometimes.

Bought a book today with my Borders' card. Damn it, I regret not doing BETTER for O levels.

As in, I did not regret slacking and cruising through the year BUT if I did better, I would have gotten a Borders card with a higher value then!! I would be able to get myself a few more books!

Books are like the only thing that can get me away from my laptop. I was so engrossed reading it, I totally dao-ed MSN.

Late for school today. I don't know, perhaps I'm used to being late already.. or maybe it's just me not wanting to go to school. I took quite some time to get myself prepared whereas my brother rushed out almost immediately knowing he'll be late. What I thought was : Since I'm late, it doesn't make any difference anyway. Even if I took a taxi down to school, I'll still be late so why not just chill and have a relaxing journey to school. I meant, WHY stress myself out when I'll be late anyway. But my brother's just different. And I guess, as he rushed out for school, he was probably pissed and maybe grumbled a little for waking up late?? (Since my mum's the "alarm clock".)

And that was it. The nagging started. But what.. I was the one who had to tolerate all those shit. BECAUSE my brother left home already and I was still in the room, packing my bag etc. etc.

I totally didn't say a word since I woke up. I just did everything as usual. But people were panicking for me. -_- My mum just kept saying "Next time, set your own alarm clock. Don't give me attitude... blah blah blah~" And I just kept quiet because I didn't want to start my day off being pissed/irritated. THEN. My granny said it to ME. She said the same thing as my mum but DIRECTED to me. And I just didn't like it. I mean, what the hell did I even do? I didn't grumble. I didn't stomp about the house. I didn't give any friggin attitude and I'm the one getting the nagging.

So I just said "I didn't even say a word since I woke up" and my aunt heard and sooooo, she told my granny "Don't talk too much to them. Let's just care about ourselves." SOMETHING LIKE THAT. I wanted to curse and swear. BECAUSEEE I didn't even say anything and it seems like now I'm the one with bad attitude for trying to defend myself. What the hell.

And because I've been forcing myself to stay in school till like 9 (??) these days, whenever I reach home, I'll be like damn tired. Then I'll just respond to their questions with a nod, shake my head orrrr maybe just "MM". And then they'll just think I ignored their questions.

Oh mannnnn. Whyyyy. I really am that tired. I just want to chill and not talk (since I already talked so much in school). And then again, my attitude will be deemed as "BAD".

Then, I'll take my time bathing and then what, that also, gets interrupted. After I bathe, I'll just switch on my laptop, put in my ear piece and what. I hear my granny's convo with my aunt about her video on the desktop not loading and she can't watch and then my aunt will say "It's because too many people are using laptops/computers at the same time." And that seriously makes me feel kinda bad. It's like, so it's because of me.........

Sighs. Ok, done with my rant. Today was purely chilling because I just couldn't take it anymore. My head felt like, exploding. We had some University talks during CT. Charis Liew and I got interrupted by some teacher, because we were sorta having our own convo during the talk. Some SUTD university teacher I guess? HAH. Can't wait for promos to end then we're gonna celebrate our birthdays together. Somehow, I think, people around us heard Charis's story. HAH! Damnn. I was totally covering my face because it was so embarrassing- whatever that came out from her mouth. HAHA!! Would have been better if only we were outside then I can just laugh out LOUD. What "Sexual University of Transmitted Diseases" (Don't know what other stupid ones we came up with.) Something about flashers and stuff.

Hilarious.

OK. I'm just gonna let myself unwinddddd today. Tomorrow shall be another day for studying.

It was raining today!! Pitterpatterpitterpatter and it was sooooo cooling when we left the classroom. If only it was that cooling everyday. Oh right, then I sorta walked about Marks and Spencer in Orchard ION (After getting my book) then I saw the price of their clothes. DAMN EX. And it's like what. MARKS AND SPENCER. They should just stick to selling biscuits and cereals.

AND YESSS. I remember. Dao-ing someone because the person called for "Cheryl". HAHA! Ever since that flea market incident, I decided not to respond unless I'm certain I'm the "Cheryl". IS IT THAT HARD TO CALL ME "CHERYL TAN SI RONG"?! HAHA!

But oops. The person who called for "Cheryl" was calling for me. :D

CRY ME A RIVER.

I'll probably watch Futuresex/Loveshow ALL OVER AGAIN. :D The dance, the songs. Justin Timberlake remains (HAHA) to be my favourite singer. :))

Stress

I think I might just go crazy any time. Ha ha ha.

I actually forgot my way to school today. Like, how is it possible right??! I just stood there, at the crossroads and somehow, I just can't remember which way to turn. Like, the alternative to the "Dead cat" route.

And today, I almost cried again. HAHA! It's always the "Almost" then I just "Nonono. It's just the friggin promos." I really just stood at the right wing then, didn't know where to go. I wasn't feeling hungry? But it was lunch time! But I didn't want to study either? Because I suddenly just felt, stressed. Hang in thereeeeee~

Everyone around me are studying sooo hard.

But somehow, I really feel kinda stressed. And I just. Don't know what to dooooo. You can't stop when everyone's like studying (Although I always want to be the unique one). Sighs. Whatever. Continue to mug. I guess.

Camwhoring de-stresses

SICK AND TIRED. OF STUDYING.

Today, I just felt like going to school laterrrrrrrr. And yup! Here I am, still at home.

Don't knowwww. I feel damn sian already. Studying like, almost everyday and the information- don't know if it's even stored or not.

And you have people always saying "Aiya, you study a lot already what. Confirm will do well."

"Confirm". Right. How confirmed can an "outsider" even be. -_-

I don't even think I met my own expectations.

Camwhoring early in the morning. Anyway, since I'm already considered to be late, perhaps, I'll just go over when Econs starts?

When I woke up in the morning, looked at my own reflection in the mirror, I felt kinda grossed out because I thinkkkk I look so haggard now. HAHA!! Siannnnnn~

I took using "Normal" but omg, I think I looked like A spongebob with all the water squeezed out and like~ JUST. DRY.

And just check out that big pimple on my face. -_-

Upload the collage. That one, a bit blurrer so the pimple wouldn't be that obvious. HAHAH!!

OMGGG~ I feel so crazy uploading my own camwhore photos. Oh wellllll~ That's my way of de-stressing. After this, I'll go to school. :))

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Today's advice: Give someone a bear hug.

I'll give myself a hug.

I'm so tired. Almost fell asleep on my way home from school (Kinda just reached home and bathed). Tired tired tired. Today wasn't as productive because Jeslyn Tan and I just kept yakking away~ But it's alright, we lent each other a listening ear and I guess it's just like, beneficial for the both of us.. After releasing all the complaints.

But this is what? LIFE. L.I.F.E

When life gives you lemons, make lemonade out of it! Which is what I'm doing/did. DAO everything that's making me unhappy. Yup, the starting is kinda hard but once you get the hang of it, you'll know when to block and WHAT to block.

But after that, you'll probably feel guilty. Which was what I felt.

Ok shut.

On the bus ride home, there was this guy who kept playing with a laser -_- A man.

He was like, pointing the laser to the OUTSIDE from where he was sitting in the bus. I just stared blankly at him. He seemed so free, doing lame stuff like that. Or perhaps, he had a hard day and was just looking for lame stuff to relive those childhood memories.. SIAN.

The security guard chased us out of the classroom at about 9.30pm.

That day, my mum asked me "Why not you just camp in school?" I wish I could.

Tired tired tired. I stay in school for 15 hours? Or 14?

Check what God has got to say to me and then, I shall go to bed.

Pimple pimple go away.

I'm like, reading on "Living Underground" now. Maybe next time. I shall consider.

Then I'll pop up, from beneath as and when I feel like it. And also, have a life without noise.

I hope I can build a treehouse next time. And I'm craving for nuts somehow.

Oh noooooo. Not a squirrel am I. Nonono.

And I suddenly felt like crying today. :( Because I was thinking - I read the damn notes quite a few times but how come, I can't seem to STORE it in my brain :((( I'm really making an effort to study already :((( And I'm eating so much :((( I wanna go running :((

I want to just chill :((((

-Breathe in- and OUT.

Please let me get through this. Staystrong.

I'm way stronger than a squirrel. Gogogo~ That reminds me, I haven't been drinking "Go!" milk.

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My birthday's coming. HAHAHAHHA! Right right~

I'm just finding reasons to allow myself to spend money, without feeling guilty.

Today, I spent like err... 50 dollars on the notes and I had like only 10 dollar plus left. Then minus, what I spent during break+what I spent during the second "break"+what I spent for dinner :(

I think I have only 5 dollars and some coins left in my wallet. :(

And I'M SO UNHAPPY because I've got a pimple!!! Somewhereeeeee on my cheek. TSKKKK.

Studied in A315 till like 6 plus then dinner then back to studying but I was totally not in the mood already. I was just sitting there, reading some Readers' Digest and I read about the "evolution" of toilet bowls. I think there's some museum on the VARIOUS kinds of toilet bowls over the years.. SOOOO COOL :D Suddenly, I'm feel the need to appreciate toilet bowls. Somewhere in November, there's an appreciation day for toilet bowls.

I want I want I want a toilet bowl with blinking lights. So whenever you play music, the lights will Blink and Blink and Blink with different colours just like you're in some disco. I think it's not bad an idea! So we can save on the electricity meant for the light in the toilet (As a whole).

Then, I read about some dumb acts committed by criminals. Totally felt like L-O-L-ing when I read those acts. There was this guy who tried to steal the cash register away. The police caught up with him (record time for breaking a case) very quickly. Simply because the receipts led up all the way to his house. -_-

Then there was one who dropped his phone at the site, where he tried to steal someone's stuff. The police suspected it was the criminal's and true enough, it was because the last text the guy sent was "I'm going to steal some old lady's handbag."

HAHAHAHAHAHA! I hope I'm not the one with a weird sense of humour.

MMMM.. Today, someone made a random comment/observation about the way I walk.

That is, my ponytail bobs up and down and up and down as I walk. HAHAH! And it's obvious that it's ME. -_- Oh welllllll~

SOOOON. Promos will end. OMGGGGG. I really really want to go get a book and just sit at Gelare/Gloria Jeans' whatever then just CHILLLL. I want to find somewhere quiet. Maybe have just a few friends around (because all I want to do is to sit down and read a book for one whole day with a cup of mmm.. cappucino/mocha/hot chocolate/whatever) Then maybe, after that ONE relaxing day, I'll just start to go for random gatherings. Looking forward to that. And oh right, camwhoring too.

WHEN ARE THEY GOING TO GET THE DEAD CAT AWAY???? :(((

NOTHING.

YAY. So I managed to NOT WALK by that path - with the dead cat.

And I brought this Adidas "jacket" that couldn't keep me warm AT ALL, in the reading room.

Chemistry revision lecture, the lecturer called me by my Chinese name. WTHHHHH~

ERRRRRRRR. Nothing interesting happened at all today. Besides the gossip session with Amanda Chan.

EHHHH. REALLY NOTHING HAPPENED AT ALL TODAY. OK. SO GOODNIGHT.

Third post of the day

Oh man. And I just saw that Chemistry revision lecture thing. HENG the worksheet to be done is "FILL IN THE BLANKS" Ooooh. How I love filling in blanks.

HAHAH! Just filled in a few blanks so that JUST IN CASE, they check on our worksheets.

I remember those fine days, when we just need to FILL IN THE BLANKS for those Chinese idioms. My favourite activity. HEE HEE~ HAHA!!

And I'm listening to Backstreet Boys again. All thanks to that day, when we went to Orchard Central, I heard "As Long As You Love Me". GOOD OL' DAYS.

Tell me why, I never want to hear you say. I want it that way~ TELL ME WHY AIN'T NOTHING BUT A HEARTACHE. AIN'T NOTHING BUT A MISTAKE~ I WANT IT THAT WAY~

This is like my third post for the day?

MMM. On my way home, I almost got hit on the chest by some guy. HAHA! HENGGGGG. Almost screamed. He was like just swinging swinging swinging his arms~ Like how I always do in trains then I hit people on their butts.

Don't care what you did as long as you love me~

Random singinggggggg. 11 pm. I shall go to bed soon.

It seems like we're meant to be~

Today, I was trying to Robo.to myself with like, flies around me and I'm like shooing the flies away BUT. There was always people walking about! I moved to like every possible corner in the house but SIAN. ALWAYS SOMEBODY WALKING ABOUT.

I meant, since I was doing something so retarded, I should not let anyone see me rightttt~

Another brand new school day. Oh right!!! I hope I remember not to walk by my usual route tomorrow because!!! There's some dead cat lying around.. I don't know where but somewhere near where I'm supposed to walk.. The grass patch probably. OMGGGG. I HOPE AND PRAY I REMEMBER. I'll scream. FOR SURE. If I were to see it.

Don't need any "wake-up" call.

Awaiting much.

Hiatus.

This made me think

"Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one so that when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift.

When the door of happiness closes, another opens, but often times we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us.

The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.

It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.

Don't go for looks; they can deceive. Don't go for wealth; even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Find the one that makes your heart smile."

(by: Peter Gerhard)

I took only part of it. The BOLD words are the ones which struck me the most.

What's with me and all this INSPIRATIONAL stuff again huh. HAHAH! I don't know, I love giving people inspirational stuff like cards etc. HAHA! Becauseeeeee, I mean, if I bought it, there must have been something special I felt towards it right? And I hope the message got through..

I want to buy another book by Mitch Albom. HAHAHA! "Tuesdays with Morrie"'s the only one I have nowwwwwww. This is where the 15 dollar Borders card will come in. And YOU KNOW HOW I GOT THAT CARD? Thanks to my pro Chinese. HAHAHAH!

Not too PRO but seriously, it was because of my Chinese results. My HMT results that got me that "voucher". HEE HEE.

Until today, I still don't understand how I could actually top HMT. AS IN SERIOUSLYYY. My Chinese is so damn poor. Or maybe, just God's blessings huh. the least expected always happens. ;)

That's what's good in life. Surprises. HAHA! And I like it how things will always go right somehow~ Troubles and everything will definitely go right someday. And when we look back at it, we'll just laugh at how silly everything was.

Blogged twice today already. OK, time to bathe! HAHAH!! Smellllly me.

A Smile. Goes a long long way.

OKKKKKKK. No more emonemoshit. HAHA! I'm so waiting to get my hands on the Cheryl Cole album. WEEHEEE~

Chemistry tuition in like 2 hours time? OK! I'M SOOOO LOOKING FORWARD TO THAT. HAHA! Seriously! In lectures, I hardly absorb anything. Therefore, this is the best time to catch up. I'm gonna stuff my brain with more useful information and go as crazy as I possibly can for the remaining days of this year. I want to live 2010 to the MAX. I think, quite a lot of crazy stuff happened this year and SO, they shall just be stored as memories... and no no no no more emonemo. After all, I spent more than half of this year being emonemo. Whatttttttever~

I guess, there's always something that can make all of us happy (no matter how short lived it is) each day. Today, I guess.. I was glad to receive some 15 dollars Borders card SOOO I can go get myself a book. :D

In the past, I used to make smiling to strangers a habit. (How lame was I~)

I just felt like, I'll be able to make someone's day but somehow, I feel like, it just wasn't appreciated. Then I stopped. Like, who the hell am I. Why would they even give a damn as to whether I gave them a smile or not. But then, I came across this:

SMILE!!!!!

She smiled at a sorrowful stranger...
The smile seemed to make him feel better...
He remembered past kindnesses of a friend
And wrote him a thank you letter...
The friend was so pleased with the thank you
That he left a large tip after lunch...
The waitress, surprised by the size of the tip,
Bet the whole thing on a hunch...
The next day she picked up her winnings,
And gave part to a man on the street...
The man on the street was grateful;
For two days he'd had nothing to eat...
After he finished his dinner,
He left for his small dingy room...
He didn't know at that moment
That he might be facing his doom...
On the way he picked up a shivering puppy
And took him home to get warm...
The puppy was very grateful
To be in out of the storm...
That night the house caught on fire...
The puppy barked the alarm...
He barked till he woke the whole household
And saved everybody from harm...
One of the boys that he rescued
Grew up to be President...
All this because of a simple smile
That hadn't cost a cent...

Written by: Barbara Hauck

So I guess, I should wear a smile MOREEEE often. At least, I will feel like, I did my part in helping to make this world a happier place. HAHAHAH!

COLOURFUL NOW OKKKK~

OMG. I'm like living in some wonderland where only cheery dwarves, fairies, elves exist.

Then you can just pluck small mushrooms from the ground and they can EXPAND to become umbrellas~

Whatever. Lalalala~

Don't read this because it's just all random emo stuff.

Just a few days ago, I had this really weird dream.

I think I told Kelz only part of it, because the second part will just make things kinda awkward.

Though it was all in the past. I didn't really want to blog it down because I know there'll be people reading all this shit. But whatever. Since this is my blog.

OKKK.

In my dream, I owned some Famous Amos cookie machine. I could get as many cookies I wanted. Never ending supply, somehow. Then, somehow, weirdly, I was with him again. We went out together, as friends. He sent me home and thennn, for some reason, I just kissed him.

And I remembered the reason- because I didn't want things to end up like how it is now. Because I thought, it would mean, everything will just not, stop.

Imma retard~

But oh well. It was just a dream. I doubt if anything would've changed. But anyway, no use pondering about it. What's meant to be will be.

AND I MUST SAY I'M OVER THISSSSSSS.

MAF today.

At first, I thought I overdressed. -_-

Then I was praying for somebody to wear a gown or something.

Somehow, I feel like I did something kindaaaaa embarrassing? I totally shouldn't have sent that out. Sighs. So now what, I'm like some retard. Always a retard.

Don't care don't care don't care. I shall just give a "WHATEVERRRRR" clap to everything in my life.

Life will unfold- the way it should be.

I shall not try to interfere with nature. HAH. Ok, let's see if I can keep my promise to myself. I acted like a clown once and I shall do it no more.

FLEA MARKET

First time. I think? I don't remember ever buying stuff from flea markets.

But yeahhh, thanks to Kelz, I bought myself more stuff.

Not like A LOT. Since everything you see over there is like, of a FIXED size and yeah.. firstly, not my size, secondly, not my type.

But at least, I bought stuff. So I didn't exactly waste my time after all.

They sold like, quite a lot of stuff... Clothes, accessories, err, shoes etc. etc. And to think, I thought flea markets=Handmade crafts/furniture.

And at the flea market, I embarrassed myself. The first one was LIKE. DAMN PAISEH!!!

Kelz and I were like looking at some shelf.. then, I heard someone calling "Cheryl! Kellee!" I SWEAR I HEARD OUR NAMES. The person called like, quite a few times so I thought she was trying to get out attention. So I looked up and the person, from quite some distance away, looked kinda familiar. So I waved back. AND SHIT. The "real" Cheryl walked over to talk to the caller. WALAOOOOOO~ The shop keeper was like, laughing please. Aarg. And she said something like "It's ok, it's ok. I pretend I never heard anything." SERIOUSLY. I wasss just. DAMN PAISEH and I tried to explain why I even waved to somebody I didn't know.

The second time was when I forgot to pay for the dress I bought. -_-

I just took the plastic bag then left.

I really didn't mean to ok. I just totally forgot about it. Woah heng, the shopkeepers were nice people.

Studied at Orchard Central. Woah, thanks to Kelz and her good recommendation.

Had expresso at Gelare and yuckyuck, we'll never try it again. I heard expresso was strong but I didn't know it was THAT STRONG. That explains the SMALL,LITTLE portion they served us.

OH YEAH! Then at Orchard Central, before we left for the flea market, I went to use the toilet.

I don't remember ever using the toilets there. Ok, anywayyyy, so I sat on the toilet seat (WARMMMM~) then right, there're like quite a lot of buttons at the side of the cubicle so me, being inquisitive, I tried to press like everything. Then water squirted out of nowhere and it's like WOAH. Musical fountain~ So I just quickly "Stopstopstop" the thing.

Almost bought a dress for 30 dollars? at some shop in Orchard Central. LUCKILY I went for the flea market. The dress I bought was like new and yeah, much more value for money.

Shucks. Totally forgot about Geography.

And today, I realized I just dao-ed my phone all the way. Maybe soon, I'll go back to my "Switch off my phone for 1 whole month" mode.

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And I just realized how weird this is. It's like, when you're trying to reassure everyone else that things will be ok but then, somehow, within yourself, it's like you don't even know what to do.

I shall dao everything, everyone probably.

-Pokes a hole in bubble and steps back into it-

"Closed."

Why.

Now. I feel like a failure.

I've missed out too much.

My bad.

NO NO NO. Cannot tear.

Hummingbird Heartbeat.

Shucks. Don't tell me I'm like SLACKING again. Nonono cannot.

You make me feel like I'm living a teenage dream.

The way you turn me on, I can't sleep.

Let's run away and don't ever look back, don't ever look back.

My heart stops when you look at me~

Teenage Dream.

Crap.

KL!!! You're so lucky. One fortunate kid.

I feel so old, calling you a "kid". I think right, if I were you, seriously, I wouldn't have the courage to tell my mum. You know the image in my head right now is like:

Mom: Come sit here.

-Takes a chair and put RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE of the living room.-

Then I can like, totally imagine everyone staring at me.

"So when did you get yourself a boyfriend?"

WOAH. KNS.

That shall be like FARFARFAR away. May God bless me.

Public holiday tomorrow is sooooo wrong. Why is it on a Friday?! Then the reading room will most probably be closed. Oh wellllll~

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Foooooolstop. I feel like I haven't been talking a lot at home.

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Finally updating myself on whatever songs that are playing on the radio these days.

ERRRR.. I haven't found anything worth to store in my 2GB iPOD. HAHA!!

The space is already so limited so I cannot afford to waste it on rubbish music.

Ok, I JUST found one song worth listening to. By The Script. :)

TIREDDDDDDDDDD. Kinda.

I didn't study a lot today. Just can't seem to settle on ONE subject to revise on. Fickle me.

Nothing interesting since my whole day was in school. To be more specific, in the reading room.

And it's not like anything exciting will happen there when everyone's just studying. SIAN.

We gotta stay strong man.

My "messages from God" these days keep asking me to take a break. To what, NOURISH my soul. Like, how can I even do that at this crucial moment. (Moment reminds me of dipole moment). Omg. Shit. What's with me and Chemistry.

Though I have been doing badly for Chemistry (not to mention, the other subjects too), I thought I shouldn't just let myself fail SO I should at least pass Chemistry.

Overspilled perfume on myself today and I think it was damn strong. I was sneezing partly because of that too.

I'm running out of DKNY Pinkkkkk. Now, I can't smell like a peach anymore. HAHA!

Had dinner with Kelz at Plaza Singapura. Pizza HUT! Finally, one time at Plaza Singapura without having to eat Ajisen.

On a random note: omg.omg.omg.omg. HAHA! I HOPE AND PRAY I won't be NUMBA2. No I won't.

Ok. whatever. End of Tuesday.

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I'M SO TIRED.

Stayed in school till like 10pm. omgggggggggggggg.

I hope. The information don't go away that quickly. Stay in there. Retain at least something.

I don't want my efforts to go to waste.

I officially FAILED to scare people with the worm I bought from 7-11.

Yesterday's attempts were just. FAIL. I left the worm on the instant noodles I bought then those stuff moved along the conveyor belt.. and I thought I would at least be able to scare the cashier but NOOOOO! :( She just looked back at me and was like "Huh?"

-_-

Then I tried to let the worm dangledanglewrigglewriggle in front of this man who was packing some stuff in Fairprice BUT omg. Like, no reaction.

TODAY, I tried to scare Chen Xu HAHA!! Then FAILED ALSOOOO! Aarg.

Someone said the worm looked a little too friendly. Oh wellllll~ Stupid worm. Cheated me of my money. AND PLUS, my "supposedly invisible thread" broke IMMEDIATELY after I tried to unwindddddd~

TIREDTIREDTIRED. And my eyes are DRYDRYDRY.

Dinner at Thai Noodle House at 5PM. BECAUSE someone had to leave then I would have no company later onnnnn. But anyway, it was not bad. FUNNY. HAHA!!

THANK YOU OYL.

MMMM... I forgot to bring snacks to school todayyy!! But I guess my GO! Milk helped a little??

Reached home at like 11pm and I ate rice... egg, vegetables, soup. Now, finally full.

Oh right! THANKSSSS Jing Rong for asking me out for breakfast today. HAHA! If nottt, I would have missed out the beautiful morning... With children playing at the playground yayyayyay. HAHA! Simply love waking up early in the morning... AFTER promos, I shall plan for breakfast dates then we can just spend every morning like today. :D

Tomorrow shallllllll be another schoolday. Goodnight!!

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Today's message from God asked me to cut myself some slack, give myself time to rest and that I've been working too hard.

HOW CAN I?!!!

I finally did my table thing for PW.

No time to slack man. I think.

Today, I was thinking "What am I even doing with my life?"

Seriously. I don't know.

Aarg. Maybe I should have just gone to Poly then take Psychology. I think my dream of being some archaeologist... A bit far fetched. But isn't that what DREAMS are??

I've always been interested in those.. Theory of evolution/creation, fossils, cavemen, dinosaurs etc etc. HAHA! All the fascinating life before homosapiens came about. Like... maybe find some hidden dinosaur egg, discover a caveman etc. etc.

We'll see how.

GP lesson tomorrow. MMM. Woke up at 6.30am to go to school for Geography lesson. Studied awhile in school. Lunch. Tuition. My life.

Ok, whatever. JC life will be over soon. Now, I feel like life's kindaaaa dead. Study study study. But I guess, after I graduate, I'll start to miss everything. It's always like that. Like how I used to say "Pinafore always makes us feel so warrrrrrm." All the complaining about having to wear.... triple layers. HAHA! But now? I miss the IJ uniform. -_-

All the irony and contradictions in life.

Got lost on my way to Bukit Batok today BUT I learnt my lesson. I shall not take buses just because they SOUND right next time. Time to do something more productive.

On a random note: I almost tripped over a dog today.

Start of the holidays?

School tomorrow. But I don't feel like sleeping now.

Today's been a rather FAILLLLLL day because all I did? Lunched at Ajisen (satsfied my tofu craving) BUT I didn't get to eat Famous Amos.....

At Ajisen, I was like teaching my brother to do stupid stuff. We saw some toothpicks thrown into the suggestion box then I was like, errr.. "Let's give some suggestions too!" and I just yaknow.. threw in a toothpick. Then I was like looking for more things to throw inside but I thought of how childish this is.

I went into Challenger, saw the Macbook Air and I was abit, I don't know. I sorta threw a tantrum. HAHA!

It all started when I was telling my mum that I'm like more interested in having a Macbook Air as compared to the iPOD touch. Because it's way lighter than Macbook then I can bring it around more easily. My Macbook, I only bring it out when I have nothing else to carry because I find it heavy. SIANNNN. And all the crap about being more satisfied with what we have in our life.

My mum said something about "Wait till the contract renews..." And I just, "Huh? 10 years later?"

Aiya, me and my sarcasm. Sometimes, I really don't mean to. Then I felt really down after that because my mum just kinda, nagged nagged nagged..

I know I shouldn't have said whatever I did but sometimes, I just wish for things to be better.

Wish for things to be normal. Wish for myself to have a complete family. Wish for myself to be smarter. Wish for more money so that I can just spend without having to care. But I know. It's not possible. Live with life as it is.

But after a while, I was better...

All the irony.

Wanting to help my mum save money by not wanting to go for tuition, on the other hand, craving for Macbook Air when I have a Macbook.

While I was at home, I tried to converse in proper Mandarin. BUT I failed.

My mum usually sign up for those free gym classes with some card. Then I was saying "Huh?? Why do you have to go through all the trouble to call and book appointment and stuff.. Why not just go for the proper ones?"

"Because the fee for those proper membership ones is expensive."

"But isn't what you're doing now like 过街的老鼠? "

Then there as this, silence because apparently, my mum didn't understand what I was trying to say.

But mmm.. Sometimes I really don't know how to put things into words also. TSK. Soooo. Whatever. As long as I get what I was trying to say.

TEEHEE. Sometimes, I do think I'm an idiot.

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O-M-G.

I can stay at home today?! Finally, one day without having to travel...

Probably going to Sakae Sushi later on.

Aircon+Simple Plan+Japple= Good life.

Today, I found out my VV drama was actually.... like, one of those "free trial" channels. SIAN.

I was kinda unhappy about that. BECAUSEEEEEEE that's like the only channel I actually watch? :(

Then all my recordings for some drama. DISAPPEARED. Because the channel's gone :(

But WHATEVER. Then that means, I'll have to watch it on the net. But I guess, after promos.

Yesterday, I was telling my mum about the new iPOD touch then she got reminded- "Oh, and I said I'll buy you one right?" Yeahhhhhh~ That was how long ago man.

But LUCKY, it's ME, Cheryl Tan Si Rong she's talking to. I bet if it was my brother, he'd have complained everyday till he get hold of whatever she promised to get him.

Sian, actually I don't really want to get an iPOD touch.. since so many people already own one.

I emo-ed for a while in the morning. HAHA! Random EMONESS.

It was because of some tuition stuff. I got reminded of how I refused to go for tuition lessons in the past because I wanted to prove that I can solve everything with my brains. HAHA! SO DUMB HUHHH. I wanted to prove that I can do things all by myself. But now, sadly, my brain doesn't seem to be working anymore. Then I thought, because now, my mum got me to join some Chemistry class, then she'll have to pay even more.... and plus, I think my brother needs tuition. Aarg damn. Then I just felt like.. If only I were smarter then my mum wouldn't have to spend as much money. Yeah, and that surge of.. stress just built up in me and I teared JUST a little.

Ok. Chillax.

IhavesomethingtosaybutIcan'tsayithere.

SIAN. I'M SO SIAN I'M PLAYING WITH MY BROTHER'S BATMAN BLANKET. WTH.

PW PW PW PW PW.

School on Saturday again.

Kinda messy in the background huhhhhh.

This stupid title for today's post explains why I'm like this in the photo above. But NVM.

SIAN. I don't even know if I'm doing correctly for Chapter 3.

Finally, after months, I got myself a new bottle of hand santitizer. Yeah, clean freak.

Watched this show "Compulsions" today and I was just, mmm.. squealing like a pig throughout the entire show because I just had to. It was on people cutting their wrists... Yuckyuckyuck.

I'll never never never ever do that. I hope. I saw the blood, on TV, and I was eating.... I think, salad. GROSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.

I felt like puking already.

Backstreet Boys playing in my ears now. Hopefully, life tomorrow will be good. Meaning, productive? I guess. But Sundays are usually not.

LOVE TODAY.

Today's been a WONDERFULLLLLL DAY :D

Met up with my BESTIES :D

Mhmmmmmmm.... And we talked loads of crap. HAHA! But that's the way to spend LAST DAY OF SCHOOL. :D

Went back to STC for just a short short while.

Stayed in Long John Silvers... (Or is it Long John's) Whatever...

For quite some time. Saw a lady dressed in bikini? in Sheng Siong/Shiong whateverrr. Tried the new flavour for Ben and Jerry's ice-cream - peanut butter! It's not bad! Because I like the taste of peanut butter but not the normal one... since that one feels kinda heaty but peanut butter ice-cream is just different. It's like peanut butter + COOLING. :D

Long John's was like our studio. We shifted the furniture here and there, positioned the camera at different angles... HAHA! But we helped cleared our stuff also! And helped them by ringing the bell! :)

Smiley faces everywhere. And yay yay yay. We took quite a lot of photos but I think I looked quite bad in a lot because SIAN. My eyes were so dry I could barely open. I was feeling damn warm... then my hair was in a freaking mess. BUT WHO CARES...

"LOVE YOU!!" HAHAHAHHHAHAH!

Supposedly a formal shot.

Yay! I look taller!

IN CONCLUSION. I LOVE TODAY :D

Iwantanapbadly.

I AM TIRED TTM.

After mmmm.. a few hours of CIP and though I wasn't the one doing the talking.

HAHA! THANKS CHEN XU!!! For bringing me to a Sim Zhi Jian's place then the three of us went to do CIP. And THANKS Sim Zhi Jian for the instant noodles.

I must thank Chen Xu for reminding me how good my Chinese actually is.

On the bus ride, we tried conversing in Mandarin. I think, I'm not badddd~

I managed to get CO2 in Mandarin. WOOOOOOHOOO! And I got Oxygen partly correct. :D

Although I used a few inappropriate idioms....And shucks. I don't get it. How can I remember the stories behind those idioms but not the idioms themselves?!

The security guard was epic.

So irritating. But he's old sooooooo let's forgive and forget. HAHA!

And yay yay yay. I did a good deed today. :D I gave my up seat on the bus and the old lady said "You're a good girl!" YAYYY. HAHA! I was really glad okkk~ It's been quite some time since I ever received a compliment like that.

How deprived huh.

I almost fell asleep on my way home, on the train. Tried scouting for places that might make a good study location but to no avail.

As I was walking, walking, walking.. I was grossed out by the floor... it looked as if some sweet flavoured drink was spilled on it. Damn grossssss~ And there were like all those plastic bags... those you see when people buy "plastic bags" of drinks from the hawker centre.

Most probably belonged to the group of secondary school boys. SO CHILDISH~ HAHA!

They were playing at the playground, left their bags at one side then dirtied the floor. Just can't stand this sort of stuff. Because it's soooooooo inconsiderate!!! Then now that they've dirtied the floor, then our shoes... HOWWWWWW?!! The sole will probably be like.. sticky. Yuckyuck.

Somehow, everytime I look at those small kids playing, I'll feel like "I'm mature." HAHA! Oh welll~ I am.

And as I was walking, I had like random thoughts. Thinking about how "normal-sized" I actually am. Seriously. Aren't Asians supposed to be like, petite? And Asian women, aren't they like supposed to be gentle, demure etc. etc. I possess all the above. HAHA! Okkk. I'm going crazy~ Need a short nap probably then... Geography test tomorrow.

I had my Down then my Up.

DOWN:

For some unknown reason, I felt kinda... stressed. Perhaps it's due to the "forced studying".

I went to school (with my "Go!" Chocolate malt milk as usual), sat there for a while and felt like "All these can't go into my head right now."

I missed GEMS because I overslept and just as I wanted to leave house, my contact lens sorta.. tore into half so I had to look for a new one. Sooooooooo... I went to school at about 2 plus? Then I felt like leaving school already.

UP:

Just needed a break. And SO. I went over to Yvonne's place and we had barbecue! :D

Had a HTHT and felt good after that. Because now, at least I know someone who UNDERSTANDS how I feel. Thank God man.

Our HTHT was disrupted a few times and everytime someone came in, "Change topic".

So I guess, I made the right decision by going over for the party instead of just staying in school.

At the function room, I felt totally RELAXED. You can just lie by the "windows" then look at the passing scenery- children playing in the pool, by the pool, people walking past, look at the clouds... damn nice view.

Just watch the world go by... And take away all forms of stress, troubles etc. etc.

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My cousin was asking me if I wanted to go over to work part time at her shop. Some makeover studio and also, selling clothes. WORK as a sales assistant EHHHH!

Shall see how. HAHA! I just want the money... yaknow, when it's the holidays... no allowance sometimes.

But for now, STUDYING is priority. Promos.

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Now that I'm feeling better, I guess it's time to "Go!" again.

ALLLLLLLL THE BEST TO PEOPLE TAKING THE PRELIM PAPER TOMORROW.

SOOOOON. We'll all be able to party. <:o)