Wake you up in the middle of the night to say I will never walk away again
I'm never gonna leave this bed~
Listening to Maroon 5~
Hm. So today wasn't pretty much of a half-day but we ended half an hour earlier than we usually do. 1.30pm. Then after, I met Yow and we caught a movie - Larry Crowne, at Cathay.
Make me your radio, and turn me up when you feel low.
This melody was meant for you to sing along to my stereo
Thennnn. We studied for awhile. Now that we're talking about studies. Hah.
Ong talked to me again. What's new~
"You have the potential but you don't have the drive or determination"
"Do you want to have to see me everyday? I'll make you come see me if you continue to do badly"
"I talked to your mum a few times..yadayadayada"
Zz Same old thing. Yeah, I have no idea why I'm like this too. This is why I hate myself.
I hate myself for always being so.......... slack. This "I don't really care~" attitude.
So yes, I've been pretty irritated with myself and I'm trying to really change myself. But I don't know how much I'll change and if I'll be able to................
I just took some test that was printed on the newspaper. The analysis was rather accurate. 85 percent childish and I don't give a damn to a lot of stuff. I only do things I'm interested in. I won't pay any attention to the things I'm not interested in, I simply ignore. And because of this, I end up hurting the people who care for me and those who attempt to change me.
I sound.. quite rebellious. And problematic.
I know. That's why I don't understand myself.
I do have a lot of issues within myself~
And words can never really express how I truly feel/think. The meaning will just, not be the same, somehow. So I don't know how to say how I'm feeling.
Anyway, I just found out that my friend is pregnant. Pregnant at 18.
Cool or not.
Not really a friend, maybe... acquaintance? I was shocked. I wonder what her final decision will be - Abort? Or to give birth to the child?
I wouldn't know what to do if I were in her shoes. And apparently, she's going to have to raise the child by herself because the guy left her.
*Ouch*
Sighs.
Shall meet Soh after school tomorrow. 12PM.
I END AT 12 PM TOMORROW~ ^^
