Friday Forever

I kinda liked today's chilly weather :D
Reached school without getting drenched so that was nice~
but felt damn sian once I reached school.

Probably still in yesterday's rather ~pissed-off~ mood. Or maybe because I was still sleepy.
Oh wells.
I felt damn sian all the way until school ended at 9.30am. Fell asleep during one section of the debriefing of the papers and felt great after that. So I guess I was sian in the morning because I didn't get enough sleep.


As I was walking out of school, I felt much better - more awake and just less sian, then some girl who was smaller than me kept walking in circles before me and just had to block my way...
but nevermind, since I was in a much better mood. So Rena and I just kept laughing, all the way out of school (sounds crazy).

Out at the HC bus stop, I encountered some pervert together with Yvonne and Rena.
When we first walked past him, I already caught him staring and he just looked kinda weird to me - the way he dressed, like, generally.
But I just ignored.

A few minutes later, I felt like there was somebody standing VERY VERY CLOSELY behind me but I didn't know if I was thinking too much or what so I asked Rena "Eh. Is he like... standing a little too close?"
Maybe he was checking the board for the bus what~

Then Rena just pulled me away. And he followed behind. Then we took a few steps in front and he continued to follow and I was sooooo irritated, I just stood near the road so that he cannot follow - unless he stands on the road. Then he tried to walk over to Yvonne's side. Ohmy. yuck. ><

He looked kinda mentally unsound? But I just didn't like it. wth. There were a few other people at the bus stop. Why not target the lady who was by herself -.-
And I hated it lah! We had to take a cab because HE JUST KEPT FOLLOWING. When he saw that we were making a move towards the bus, he looked in our direction and Rena was saying it will be worse if he suddenly joins us on the bus.

So yeah.. we took a cab. During the process, Yvonne kept umchioing then we all had this *awkward silence* because we didn't dare to make any moves- in case he suddenly "attacks" us.
And Rena said she gave a scary stare - but I bet it wasn't scary at all lah. I was just like... "What lah. What the hell. He can rape us here meh"
OH YEAH! I forgot to mention. His pants was freakkkkking looooooose. Like as if they will just drop any time. The funny thing was that he had a belt, but still......... he was just holding onto his pants. What if he just dropped them, seriously. -.- zz

Studied for awhile at OC before we got chased out of somewhere.
Went over to Rena's place after that. Studied..... dinner..... talked crap....... then went down by the poolside to chillax. Under the twinkling stars (lol, I saw only one)~ Nice :D

Not too bad. My day started off sucky but ended well. :))

**On the way home, I received my mum's sms which I felt was pretty weird because the it started with "My dear gal, there's rice at home..."

"MY DEAR GAL"

why? It's not my birthday or what~ lol. I just felt.... weird.

-

I often spend time thinking about things that should not even be bothering me

and neglect the things I should actually be devoting my time and attention to.

Is that normal?
Just like how I don't treat the people who care the way they deserve to be treated but yet, try to be nice to people who just simply don't give a fuck?

Not emoing. Far from that. I'm just reflecting upon my rather lame and childish 18 years of life thus far.

I kinda want to know what I'm supposed to do from here.
Or maybe, I should just. study. (It's kinda hard though. I tend to not move away from something until I get it. But I think I have no choice, I have to do what I need to do......)

Should be thankful for the people who genuinely care for me.
Fuckkkk the fakes.

BEST OF GOLDIE CHEUNG

Woah omg. I can't stop laughing. I rewatched that video I saw yesterday and it still makes me laugh.
And I found more. But the embedding was disabled by request. -.-
So here are the links:

1. AUDITION
2. GROUPS AND SPECIAL PERFORMANCE
3. Song : Feeling Good (freak. She made really funny sounds)

She totally reminds me of Evelyn Ong.
Shall go shower now~ Bye. :D

Young and retarded.

I was late for math lesson today.

Woke up at 7am, brushed my teeth, washed my face then went back to sleep.

Until 8.15am?! When lesson was at 9am.

School was pretty fun because it was just laughing all the way. Liked that.

Met Kelz after school to study for awhile (my paper ended last Friday so I kinda have no excuse to party).. actually, still, it was quite fail.

We were supposed to study till Kelz leaves for her tuition but we started talking about dress and I remembered seeing this dress in Ion which costs 205 dollars? But it looked really really nice on the mannequin. And so, we just stopped studying and went off to Ion to window shop ^^

Saw a few HC people here and there also. Not surprising as well, since today's like the last prelim paper for quite a lot of people.

Anyway, while I was on the bus with R to town, I saw this girl who was from my secondary school. I looked at her (OH YEAH. @KELLEELIM! I FORGOT TO TELL YOU ABOUT THIS. We were talking about the same topic just now!) and I looked at myself. WOW. I'm so not 18.

Actually, how does 18 look like? I really don't know... Kelz and I were saying that some of the people from our secondary school seem to dress way older than they are. I don't know if it's good or bad though.

The OLDEST I've looked is like.. "a poly student" = 18?19? And the youngest. I THINK IT'S NOT ACCURATE but it's anyway, yeah. Primary 6.

So not accurate.

I am 18 (17 going on 18..... about the same lah) but people always say I don't act/look like one.

Honestly, I used to get irritated because I don't enjoy looking THIS young. Like, everywhere you go, people all say the same thing "You look like a kid" and my reply? "Thanks"

How does 18 really look like? 

I don't know how 18 is supposed to feel like~

All I know is that I'm having a lot of fun being just me right now and I don't want to act like I'm any older. LOL

I look at the people I know who wear leopard prints (I associate leopard prints with adults *personal opinion*), the thick make-up, the revealing of cleavage~

I look at the way people younger than me dress... and I'm like why do people want to look older than they really are?

I feel really.................................................... small.

I really feel like I'm totally like a kid next to them lah. And I'm kinda sick of people saying how kiddish I look and stuff. zzz

But then again, it's better than looking older than you actually are~ So I give up trying to argue whenever someone says I look like a kid.

R and I were looking at someone FB profile today and oh my... her profile pictures, all the make-up......... eeyer. I wouldn't even think she's 18 if I didn't know she's from our school.

Don't know lah, I think it's better to just be the way you are~ I'm not exactly THAT adult and I don't wish to be one that early. Blah blah~

Shall end off with

PICTURES FROM MY "PENGUIN ISLAND" album. HAHAHA! (call me childish. I don't really care. :D )

MINI Booklight ^^

Retarded and proud of it. I will grow up when it's time to. LOL

** I thought this part of X factor was hilarious. Enjoy~

Goodnight.

A very boring Sunday.

Kept myself occupied with Lives of Omission for the whole day. The loading took exceptionally long today. >< So I watched a little of Sex and the City while waiting.

ok. My Sunday was really Boring. With a capital B.

I wanted to go out but now that Prelims are over, I don't have that desire and want to shop anymore.

I don't know what I want to do outside. 

I don't know who will actually be outside.

I don't know if I should even be outside.

I don't know how long I can stay outside.

I don't know what I should wear to go out.

I don't know where I should go.

don't know don't know don't know.

So I ended up staying at home, waited patiently for Lives of Omission to load and  finished the whole series. Enjoyed my drama with a cup of cappucino~ ^^

But still, it was boring.

Is it really better this way? zz

Not like I have a choice. Shall enjoy my remaining journey to A levels. How fun.

Nerd talk + F1

School on Mondayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
Ahh whatever, at least the prelims are over.

After yesterday's Chemistry paper 1, I went off with Audrey and JR to watch the F1 show (because there was G Dragon for JR).
We reached at mmmm.. 3 plus 4? And the show started at 8.30pm with Charice first.
Ok, we were not fans of Charice but we thought it was better that roaming around Esplanade for a few more hours. So we stood in the fanzone area and watched. Actually, I think we were watching her guitarist. LOL

Can't seem to remember how he looks like now. But when she introduced her band yesterday, oh my.... the guitarist >< Audrey and JR took a few pictures of him ^^
Next time, they should put "Charice, featuring her guitarist". Her guitarist WAS hot. or maybe just HFFA (hot from far away). I don't know, have to look at Audrey's photos again.

After that, there was this 2 hour intermission and we just stood there and watched the practice session for the cars until..............it was time for GDragon, TOP and some other dude (I can't remember his name). Not a fan of KPOP so I just stood there and watched the crowd get high. The guy in front of me was a crazy fanboy. HAHA!!

Everything ended at 12am? And woah, my legs were seriously aching after that. And I felt like I was losing my voice. When I didn't even scream? Maybe for the guitarist. But that was only awhile. ><
Reached home at about 1? Not too bad an experience.

I will not want to go for some outdoor concert thing again next time actually. Unless I'm exceptionally patient that day and the weather's not toooooo bad.
I was amazed I actually survived the whole thing. I thought I was going to die standing amidst the crowd and it was warm, stuffy, and I didn't dare to drink because the toilets were kinda farrrrrr away? And it was the mobile toilets. >< I always feel so insecure using those toilets. It's like, what if somebody just start pushing the toilets while you're still inside. MOBILE toilets what~

Yup, so that's about it. MV for Blame It On September is out!! ^^


Time to continue to watch my drama~
Have a nice day.

Definitely not the best of me

Today wasn't that good. I meant, my mood.

Same rainy weather. That was kinda good because I hate feeling warm.
Derived much joy from R's fringe after Math paper. Had lunch at our usual Thai noodle house.
Nothing much actually. The day before math paper, I was looking forward to the end of the paper. After the paper ended, I felt like.. like as if A's were over.

Which isn't. Like, obviously.
Going to watch some F1 thing (I don't even know what I'm going for. lol) with Audrey and JR tomorrow. Actually, I'm just going because it's not like I'll study after an afternoon paper of Chemistry MCQ (last paper). So, yup.
But I kinda not like crowded places. :/
Nevermind, shall just go and gain some experience... I don't know, spend Friday differently.

I don't know why I'm feeling so sian now. Ok, lying. I know why. But I don't know if it's a cause for me to even feel sian. I don't know if the cause that's supposedly making me sian now is even like the way I think it is. *insert a very sian look and a forced smile*


Maybe I'm just sleepy.

Ok, I'll wake up feeling better in the morning. 12.41am. I spent so much time watching some drama today.
Something to look forward to: I don't have to come to school from Monday to Wednesday. Hurray.

Rain over me

not.

I think I'm supposed to stay at home since it's raining and I haven't bought an umbrella. -.-

Hate the rain these days. Especially when you have to go to school and the roads are like, flooded. omg, I hope it doesn't rain tomorrow. I don't want to have to carry that huge old man's umbrella to school again. ><

Anyway, I saw this on tumblr and I think it's freaking nice. :) I kept staring at it.

I just want to have hot mocha and curl up in bedddddddddddd - with Chem notes preferably, if not, I'll just fall asleep. (Just look at how fail studying at home is for me) I've tried hiding my laptop but it's certainly not working. Because I know where I hid it. -.- I can't lock it with some password since I will know the password. Wanted to try typing in a few random alphabets/numbers with my eyes closed but what if I'll need to use it some other time? Then I'll have to what, use PNC to try to get the password right?

zz Shall go get lunch then it's time for more studying.

Still Blaming September.

Camwhored in the morning before Econs paper.
Ever since I screwed my fringe up with the 10 dollar hair cut, I never took any photos. But it's growing longer... or at least, it seems like that to me. So~ Why not.
Nothing much happened besides Econs paper. Tom kept me at home - don't really feel safe staying out for long.......
Currently watching random episodes of Sex and the City.

Anyway, it was raining today but I didn't have an umbrella (I remember throwing my umbrella away a few weeks ago - because it was rusty)Almost wanted to just leave house and walk in the rain but my grandfather passed this umbrella (its length is approximately 0.4 to 0.5 of me) and I was like 0.0

Oh my. It was red. And huge, for me. But I had no choice. It was so embarrassing.
LOL me, with that huge umbrella was seriously, quite a funny sight. I felt it was really too big for me. :/
But whatever, the day's over. I shall go have dinner~ Then study.
Time to get a new umbrella. Probably the colourful one from Smiggle. ^^

Shall go out to study tomorrowwwwwwwwww. HAVEFUN~

Econs econs econs.

Cheryl Tan, studyyyyyyyyyyyy.

Blame it on September

I will be right here waiting for you~
Whatever it takes, or how my hearts breaks I will be right here waiting for you~

Listening to oldies while waiting for my download of The Wanted to be complete. ^^
I put this song on replay yesterday.


My cousins came over yesterday. I just cooped myself in the room because I don't know what to say to them. Bleh. I suck with children. I really gave this super lame reply when my cousin asked me "what are you doinnnnngggg??"

"Er. Nothing much? Just. chilling?" Then there was the awkward silence.
Ok ok. After A's, I'll go see if there's a dummy's guide for interacting with children.

Feeling quite sleepy already. Probably will take a shower then time to study >< Afternoon paper tomorrow.

Eternal Youth.

I had a nightmare yesterdayyyyyyy!!!! Still remember parts of it because I was so disturbed by it.
It was like this, I was at some classmate's birthday party or something. Or maybe it was mine. I'm not quite sure.
But what I remembered was that. I was FREAKING. OLD.
Grey hair. And just maybe 20 strands of grey hair? Haggard-looking.
omg. >< It was terrible. I felt like hiding myself in some cave where I didn't have to see anyone anymore. But I had to be present at that birthday party in my nightmare. omgggggggggggggg. :( I think I really fear getting old.

The first thing I did when I woke up was to touch my head to see if my hair's still there. At that time, I didn't even care if my fringe was screwed by that 10 dollar haircut (which I went for on impulse because the weather was as warm that day). I just wanted more than that 20 strands of hair.

Everytime I see old people outside, and I look at some of the stuff they wear. Some will wear colours which are so contrasting and bright, which I hope I wouldn't end up wearing. Like, purple top and lime green pants. I don't want to dress like that.
And some will wear tops and bottoms of the same colour. oh myyyyyyyy.. I don't want to be like that next time. (Not that it's bad, some old people look ok with it. Or maybe I'm just used to seeing them wear like that.)
I read somewhere that dress sense is inversely proportional to age. When age increases, your dress sense will just suck more.
I know ageing is inevitable but omg, I hope my children will remind me of my dress sense next time. I mean, imagine if there's someone like the current me and she will be like "omg. Look at that old lady, I don't want to dress like her next time." Woah fml.

I don't like growing old but actually, I feel older than quite a lot of people I see outside. You know you're old when you can call someone a kid.
Like wth, all those kids having nothing to do, running about and playing when I'm just freaking studying my life away. That's when I feel old. I'm studying and using my brain whereas they are not.

Today's weather suck. It was tooooooooooo hot. And Tom made it worse.
But nevermind, I finally ticked something off my to-do list for today. :) On to the next few things after showering and lunch.

WEEEEEKENDS. 
hahahahahaah. Allstar Weekend~~ Zach Porter ^^

** GO WATCH JOHNNY ENGLISH IF YOU HAVEN'T**

Watched it yesterday with Kelz and it was hilarious. HAHA! Sitting at the 3rd row from the screen was worth it all. :)

Inside every woman..

There is a vamp waiting to be let out. Just saw that at the bus stop~

Anyway, I'm freaking tired now. After 6 hours of paper, I went out for lunch/dinner with JR at Manhattan Fish Market. Then after, we window shopped~ I know what I want to buy already. ^^

This morning started off quite badly for me. It was drizzling and I had no umbrella (threw it away last rainy Saturday -.-). So I just walked in the rain.. got onto bus 855 and I MISSED THE BUS STOP for school. wth lah. I just cursed on the bus because I felt so irritated. There was this HC guy on the bus as well and omg, like, did he not know that we were supposed to alight at that bus stop. (Ok, he looked like he didn't know or probably his first time taking bus 855 but yeah, I was just irritated because exams are already not something FUN to look forward to and all these additional shit just have to happen. When they could have been prevented. I was reading some stuff on the bus and when I pressed the bell, the bus JUST passed the bus stop.)

Oh wells. So I just walked to school from some Bible College area. Thank God, I thought I was going to end up at Macritchie or what since 855 goes there.

Wrote a few swear words on the math question paper because I was pissed with myself for not remembering stuff that should already be in my head by now. But whatever, it's over~
There was this girl on my left who poured herself this cup of hot tea/water/I-don't-know-what just before the paper started. It was SO hot you could still see the steam. Amusing.

Initially, I thought I was not going to sit for the geography paper because I really didn't know how to study this time round. Like.. I read through some of the stuff, understood the readings which made sense but the summarized points just kinda not make sense and everything was so messy, it got on my nerves.
I went out to study yesterday and oh my.. I actually cried lah. HAHAHA! It was embarrassing because I went out alone, hoping that there will not be anyone for me to talk to and I will have no choice but to study Geography. I flipped through the notes and tried to link the points together but some parts.. I don't know how to explain, maybe it's just me (but there are people who said the same thing about the messy notes too~). Ok anyway, I just tried to absorb as much as I could but I felt myself feeling stressed out and so frustrated with the Geography notes I just started tearing. LOL
After I came back from my ~toilet break~, I felt so stressed, I didn't even feel sane. And I almost walked to someone else's table. -.- So I ordered some tomato soup and spammed myself with songs like errr.. "Baby", "Hold on Till the Night" err.. just all those that can possibly make me feel better.

And seeing people window shopping etc just made it worse. Like some lady whom I saw shopping at Diane Von Furstenberg and later at wherever I was studying at.
+++ the few other JC people who are just mugging their asses out as well.

Still, there was geography to read. So I just met up with Megz and tried to get some help. :/

Yeah, so... it was stupid. I hate stressing myself out over study stuff but I really didn't know how to study for Geography. And I just didn't want to do tooooooo badly for math again this time round.
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WELL, since I took the paper in the end~ Shall just wait for the results.

So today, I saw this thing outside Cineleisure (the initial plan with JR was to catch a movie) about some Halloween thing. JR and I were looking at it then some funny old dude tried to scare me from behind. I didn't scream though ^^
At 313, the metal thing containing toilet paper fell and hit my face while I was trying to see why I can't get the toilet paper out of it. >< Sian.

Probably will go out to study tomorrow. Probably~
damn tired. Shall go eat something then just relax for tonight. :)

NO PAPER TOMORROW

but it was be another full day mugging again.
Because I'll have Geography paper 2 and Math on Thursday.
How great.

Today was pretty crazy because it was Chemistry and Geography paper 1. I didn't really study for Chemistry, just read through it in the morning. Doesn't make much of a difference for Chemistry.
People said I looked damn tired. >< I felt so too. I didn't even feel awake and was muttering nonsense and singing random songs before the Chemistry paper. Supposedly trying to distract myself from the pretty stressful environment - when you know that you are surrounded by people who studied for Chemistry~

I shall try to read more Geography now because. I kinda have only one day for Human Geography and it will be really crazy tomorrow.

Happy Studying

I keep giving myself early breaks to go to bed. Like yesterday, I went to bed at like 12am?
and I didn't even do a lot when I was awake. So I set the alarm clock at 7.30am but I woke up at 9.30am instead. Zz  [And I can't stop eating. After dinner yesterday, I went to get biscuits. THAT'S quite. a lot. Since I don't usually eat that much.]

This morning was pretty nice. Breakfast, read the papers, watched TV for awhile then study Econs.
On the papers, I read about the rat pack in China and the migrants in Jakarta - related to Geography ^^

There was this article on campus bribery in China. Parents will spend loadddddddds on gifts for teachers because they want the teachers to devote more time and attention to their child. It's crazy. Like what, 6 days travel packages, Chanel and just all sorts of luxurious goods. Students who come from poorer families cannot compete on the same level but they will still give their parents will still give the teachers gifts whatever they can afford to give - like, eggs? Rice?

Thank God I'm not in China.

OH. I drank coffee today. DON'T CARE. Fight breast cancer first.
Alright. Back to studying. Have fun :)

MAF 2011

Nah, I decided to not go. (After a pretty long debate with myself)

Today's weather is niceeeeeeee and I just want to curl in bed with my Macbook. But, I still have quite a lot to study for.

Will embark on my learning journey after dinner.

Anyway, so I went for tuition this morning and studied with TW at Westmall for awhile before heading home. I wasn't hungry but I ate 4 mexican drumlets. And ordered hot tea. (WHICH REMINDS ME. 2nd day without coffee. Not bad not bad.) It was just like a few minutes after I finished the drumlets then I said I feel like eating onion rings. Or the chicken tenders, don't know what. omgosh.

I think I must control my diet. No no, not trying to lose weight (never will) but I think I'm eating quite a lot these days. ><

oh yeah. I want to complain about the toilets in Westmall.

SERIOUSLY. There is nowhere for you to put your stuff in the cubicle. I had one heavy file filled with Econs notes, Econs TYS (which was pretty heavy - not the thinnnn one) and foolscap paper on my hands. And oh my... I was struggling in the cubicle. Using just one hand (the other hand's got to hold on to the file+book+foolscap), you have to manoevour (perform or cause to perform a movement or series of moves requiring skill and care - the definition explained what I was doing in the cubicle) yourself onto the toilet seat and undress+ whatever you need to do.

But you'll feel a sense of achievement when you leave the cubicle.

Or maybe it's just me lah. 

Still. THE TOILETS IN WESTMALL NEED SOME IMPROVEMENTS.

I just googled "West Mall toilets" and so many camwhore pictures appeared. LOL@"Miss Vibrant youths pose at Westmall"

Thank God I've grown out of it (Not like I was INTO it. But can't deny, I took photos with my friends in toilets before) But. WHY did we do it? SIGHS. Don't think I have a lot of photos in toilets right... (Oh. I just remembered I took photos in HC toilet before. -.-)

Really young and ignorant. ZZ

Boring Friday

Didn't realize the mv was out. Love this song.



Just watched the 8 o clock Channel 8 show. Something like sex ed for teens. LOL
I just felt like laughing while watching because ..I just find it lame.
And it'll probably make my mum start an awkward convo with me. Which I wouldn't like.

To all the people camping out there

Starbucks, Coffeebean, The Coffee Club, TCC.. whatever

Caffeine. shrinks. your boobs.

[You probably wouldn't want to read this if you're a guy?/easily offended/overly conservative. :) ]

After ~math clinic~ with R today, we went to Coffeebean. Oh yeah. Coffeebean's got new unfused cappucino ^^
I liked it so much I ordered twice. [R ordered large hazelnut iceblended]
I don't know why I was so random but anyway, these days, I felt like my boobs have shrunk and I thought I remembered (vaguely) that drinking coffee will make your boobs smaller but I never checked it.
So when I was drinking my second cup, I asked R "Eh. Coffee will make your boobs smaller or not huh?" She stopped doing her Econs and LOL we started searching online.


Google "Coffee and breast size"
And yes. There were many articles on how caffeine makes your boobs smaller.
omgoshhhhhhhhhh >< But it sorta helps reduce the risk of getting breast cancer or something.
"The more coffee the women drank, the smaller their breasts, the researchers also found.

Almost 300 women took part in the study, which questioned them on how many cups of coffee they drank in an average day and measured the size of their bust.

According to the results, published in the British Journal of Cancer, drinking three or more cups a day was enough to cause a smaller breast size.

The effects of the stimulant rose for every cup drunk."

"Coffee-drinking women do not have to worry their breasts will shrink to nothing overnight.

"They will get smaller, but the breasts aren't just going to disappear."

STILL. THAT'S A BIG ENOUGH DEAL.

So yeah, we said we will stop drinking coffee. For our future, I said.

I was seriously freaking disturbed by it. I've drank.............. a lot. In my life span of 18 years. :((
Therefore, we have to stop. What's done is already done. We can only try to ~retain~ whatever that we still have. Or try to. try. to. ~improve~? So yup. We ended up googling on how to ~improve~
Soybean products help, supposedly. The most common advice was to avoid alcohol and caffeine. :(


After that, we moved over to MOS burger and we were still discussing about it. A while later, R said "woah. I feel like getting coffee."
And I totally was like 0.0 NOOOOOOWAYYYY!! OMG. HOW CAN YOU BE SO SELFISH. YOU MUST THINK ABOUT YOUR HUSBAND AND YOUR KIDS. OMG NO!!!!!!!!!
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But she bought it anyway. -.-
Last cup, supposedly.

:( I will try to abstain from coffee. Starting from today.

ABCDEFG

I'M SO TIRED.

Tried using my book light yesterday (ok. this morning... since it was past 12) because I totally forgot I had some stuff to do. And I slept at 2am. and woke up at 8 plus. TIREDTTM.
And I'm supposed to meet TW to study over at Anchorpoint later on.

Anywayyyy. Today was pretty awesome. After tuition, I went out for lunch with TW and VK at Ikea and omg............. chocolate mousse at 90 cents?
So I ate quite a lot - baked salmon, chocolate mousse, two pieces of chicken wings ^^
And and and the ice-cream and refillable coffee downstairs was at 50 cents. ^^

not too bad~ I think this is probably the most I've eaten for this week?
I skipped dinner a few times because of ~late lunch~ ZZ
Hmmmmmmmm. Considering to give my relative tuition - $$$$$$
She's like Primary 2? Actually, I wouldn't mind but I kinda tend to have awkward moments with children, seriously. See how first.

Going for some math clinic with Rena tomorrow. Math clinic. wth.
Not bad lah, quite apt. Since I tend to feel sick everytime I go to school. Should I actually, take a nap or~ study...... now......till 7......
then continue to study again at anchorpoint.. >< oh my............. I don't know if I can last till the night

Hold on till the night~ ^^ (I REALLY REALLY REALLY WANT TO GET THE GREYSON CHANCE ALBUM ><) My Geog tutor saw my phone's wallpaper that day and she was like "How old is he?" HAHAHA!

Screwed.

I just cannot stand the way some people screw up other people's lives.

*I'm just ranting based on what I've heard recently (like my friends etc.)*

It's alright if you are just simply, screwed up as long as it doesn't affect how other people feel/think/make them feel depressed.
Or at least, that's what I think.
Uurg. I don't know how to put this but seriously, the world's full of people with really screwed up notions/beliefs/ideals/whatever and when they try to impose all their screwed up shit onto others, that's when they screw other people up and it's just a vicious cycle. IMO.
Everyone who had their head/heart screwed will then think it's acceptable for them to do it to other people (Perhaps, as a form of protection for themselves?) and more people get hurt.

So yesterday, I was telling JR about this - About how I think the world's full of crazy people who makes others sad and that we must ensure that we stand outside this vicious cycle and not play a part in it. I don't want to be tainted by the ugly side of our society. >< It's true that there are people who don't exactly give a shit even after they've hurt you but I don't think we cannot make things any better by hating them/getting angry/trying to seek some sort of revenge/give them the same badass attitude they've given you.

I don't know. I don't waste time on all that. At most, I'll just rant on my blog then delete the post/rant to people/emo then I'll just leave it at that.

In fact, I think we should treat people with seriously bad attitudes or those who have hurt us, very. nicely. Not in a fake way of course. Get angry if you must but I just think it will not exactly get you anywhere. (And angry people tend to say or do the wrong things. You know how people act when they're not thinking~ Then you'll probably regret after that.) I always feel that everyone have their reasons for doing what they did, even if it meant hurting others. But I believe if we continue to be nice then they will realize it someday. It may not be a few days, or a few weeks or months but they'll realize it someday. If we treat them with hate and sarcasm then how will things even get any better.

Yesterday, my mum was ranting on about some colleague she dislikes at work because that colleague of hers is rude and pretty arrogant. And my mum was saying "Yeah. I really hate talking to her. She's got really poor manners so when she talked to me today, I didn't even bother looking at her and I just answered her while staring at the computer screen." -.-

I told my mum that she wasn't being any better by treating her colleague that way and she said "Why should I treat her well when she was being rude and disrespectful in the first place?"

SIGHS. I don't know. Everybody's all so into this.
Not trying to be saint right here but sometimes, we all ought to think about how our actions will actually leave an impact on other peoples' lives and how it reflects on us.

^^ I just found a quote which is pretty apt. And it justifies how I think things should actually be like.

Maybe I'm naive. or Ignorant and disillusioned.

Clock 10 hours of studying everyday

Is it possible? Actually, I think it is but I don't think I'll be able to endure the same routine everyday. ><

Anyway, I saw this video on Facebook yesterday. There were lots of comments, mostly on how it'll make you tear and stuff. So I clicked on it to see if it was THAT touching.

Ok. I teared after watching. HAHAHA!

Omgosh. I didn't know people actually bother about how their knees look like.

I'm freaking myself out with the other ~related~ videos on Plastic surgery. :S

Feeling quite sian all of a sudden. PMS? Not sure.
I want to try Choco marvel when I'm having TOM!!!!! Not like I experience too much of a discomfort but anyway, it seems like a pretty nice drink. ^^
Sometimes, I feel lucky I'm in HC. Because everyone seems to be studying 24h, so I have to study too. Although I'm definitely far from ~10 hours~

Have a nice day. My Sunday was boring. :/

**Okok. GREYSON CHANCE shall be my motivation to study. His newly downloaded songs I meant.

H&M OPENING

Yeah. I didn't manage to get in. -.-

Let me share how I spent my day on Saturday.
In the morning, I was debating with myself if I should or should not go for the H&M opening.
The crazy long queues were as expected. But I thought it wouldn't be THAT bad and perhaps, it will just be crowded. But no. I was damn wrong.
The queue was so freaking long. I felt tired watching people in the queue.

OK ANYWAY. So I texted A LOT of people that day. Ok, not really A LOT. Mostly my secondary school friends and a few HC people. I know most HC people will still be studying so what's the point of texting~ Couldn't think of anyone who would possible be out. But well, everyone seemed so busy on Saturday. :/ Tuition etc. SO I thought: Nevermind. I'll go window shopping by myself after studying.
And so I did.

But I finished window shopping in like perhaps, an hour? Then I had NOTHING to do in town.
And I brought this kinda~ small~ bag so there were no study materials with me as well.
So I began texting again.
I scrolled through phonebook and kept cancelling names "Out. Confirm studying at home. Out. Parents too strict. Out. A bit too random." and I was left with just a few people who could possibly be out.

yes. Indeed, they were out. But at some other place. -.-
SO I WAS STILL WANDERING BY MYSELF.

Not a very big problem actually but I just felt lame for coming to Orchard for just like an hour? Isn't that lame?! (I realize I always make impromptu meetings. I usually leave for some place alone then ask people out.)
And the only thing I did was...... went to Prologue at Ion, Muji then Cineleisure to check out some shop. That's it. And I helped a few people with their surveys. One guy was like "So what's a JC student like you doing around Town alone?" (I received this question a few times today. -.-)
"Oh. You look like you're 16" ---> 16! NOT BAD. :) I liked being 16.
Speaking of which, I made a few new friends because I was walking about in Town randomly and they were also carrying out their surveys in town randomly.
There were these two guys who saw me and almost surveyed me twice.
but he ended up just chatting with me the second time. He was like "Wow. Did you like tour the whole of Singapore or something?" - He saw me once in the day then the second time was night. HAHAH!
Not bad. So I made friends while walking about randomly.

Conclusion: I ended up meeting Megz because she was thinking of coming to Town to study.
So we spent approximately 3 hours in OC - me reading her Chem notes. Until 11 plus?
Thank God Megz came over. If not, I would really have wasted my day. And luckily, I forced myself to study in the morning so it wasn't toooooooooooooo bad. >< but still bad enough.

This Friday night.

Didn't stay till 11pm tonight.

Anyway, I felt today wasn't really productive. It wasn't too bad in the morning when I met Yvonne to study at Ion. Then after Yvonne left for tuition, I wandered around..... and went to OC where I thought will be a nice enough place to have my loner lunch and SELF-study session.
So yep. I went to Burger King and took the loner spot (in the very extreme corner of BK where there is only one seat- duh it's the loner spot). Had my loner lunch there (spent 5 dollars plus? On a meal) and thought "OK. I'M GOING TO GET STARTED ON MY PRODUCTIVE STUDYING"
but.
It was so freaking cold. LIKE VERYYYYYYYY COLD.
Totally like ~brain freeze~ and I really didn't do anything over at BK's.

The guy sitting in front of me was watching a video on his laptop. It was FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS!!!!! So I was peeking at his screen while having my loner lunch. HAHA!
But what the hell. His head blocked the screen. And after awhile, he minimized the window. Changed to some itunes/word document.

I was thinking if he was feeling awkward - the idea of watching an M18 show with sex scenes, and having somebody sitting behind him.. so probably he felt ~exposed~ HAHAHA!
But I wanted to watch that movie toooooooo! But I can't because it's M18. M18. M18.  ><
Maybe I should have just told him "Eh. It's ok lah. We can watch it together. I want to watch it too." HAHAH!! (BUT NO. Studying should come first right..... :( )
The last time I wanted to watch a movie starring Justin Timberlake, it was NC16 - and I wasn't 16 then. SIAN. Always like that.

Anyway, yeah. So I wanted to migrate to Coffeebean which was just downstairs. BUT IT WAS SO PACKED. :(
In the end, I went over to Tully's and bought a bottle of cranberry juice.

But dinner wasn't too bad. GG came over, what a good friend lah~
I don't know what I'm going to do tomorrow. :( I want to study but WHERE. Orchard will be packed. ><