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I often spend time thinking about things that should not even be bothering me

and neglect the things I should actually be devoting my time and attention to.

Is that normal?
Just like how I don't treat the people who care the way they deserve to be treated but yet, try to be nice to people who just simply don't give a fuck?

Not emoing. Far from that. I'm just reflecting upon my rather lame and childish 18 years of life thus far.

I kinda want to know what I'm supposed to do from here.
Or maybe, I should just. study. (It's kinda hard though. I tend to not move away from something until I get it. But I think I have no choice, I have to do what I need to do......)

Should be thankful for the people who genuinely care for me.
Fuckkkk the fakes.