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My last post was approximately 2 weeks ago? I haven't been doing much, besides all the meet ups with friends. Met Sylv, Kevin and Soh this week. The dinner with Sylv and KT was quite random HAHA but I'm kinda still glad it happened and that it wasn't awkward (thought it was potentially awkward initially). We took polaroid, albeit a not very nice shot because the picture was so off centre.

Then with Soh : We tried Canele at Plaza Singapura. I went to town 2/5 week days this week, its getting boring but town seems to be the perfect meeting point for everyone. Canele's a really nice place to just sit and chill at. Every time I walk past, I'm just filled with envy because the people in Canele seem like they're just enjoying their high tea session, having good life~ and I like that sort of lifestyle. The sort where you don't have to use your brains and where you can just sit, chill, be free of all worries (tentatively) and just enjoy a cup of coffee or a slice of cake. This type of indulgence is good every once in a while, when you need a break from everything else in life. We stayed there for a few hours-Not everyone can stand sitting in a cafe for a few hours, doing nothing else but talk hahhaha

then also met up with the usual peeps at Timbre. Idk why I felt so down that day.

I didn't know "Forever 19" existed lol It's this shop located in Plaza Sing that sells its stuff at 19 bucks. There were wedges and heels at $19 >< BUT I MANAGED TO RESIST THE TEMPTATION.

The only thing I remember from last week was shopping. I went shopping when I was out with Audrey  on Friday and then with Amanda on Saturday.
Actually I don't think I have anything to look forward to on Christmas so I guess I should stop feeling excited about it lololol I bought a few dresses though but.... well well, not sure when I'll have the occasion to wear them.

Hope things go well for me :)

Embrace ambiguity

FINALS ENDED YESTERDAY

I didn't feel as er euphoric as I thought I would, I just felt tired but yup, glad I'm liberated from the stress. Probably because I went to bed at 2+ the night before, trying to revise for my last paper and then woke up at like 9am  to continue studying till 1+ in the afternoon (which is like 1 hour before the paper). Still not quite sure what plans I'll have for this 1 month break.

Philo paper was the shortest because it consisted of a mere 20 mcqs. I finished it within 30 minutes (?), not because I know the answers to everything but because I chose what I already think are the right answers so I wouldn't change them even if I were to stay in the exam hall for the whole 2 hours. Accidentally left a pad on the table while taking out my exam essentials (i.e. bottle, jacket, sweet, pencil case) and I only realized it when the paper was about to start. But I had nowhere to hide it and having a pad on your desk.... what message does that even send?! "That I'm having my menses and I'm gonna change my pad in front of 20-odd people" lol so I ran back to my bag threw it in. Calculus paper was.. bad. I felt like we should be given >2 hours. Wouldn't mind if they reduced Philo paper to 1 hour and increased Calculus to 3 hours.

Anyway, everything's over so I'm looking forward to Christmas.

Like stress leh.

I'm not too sure if I'm feeling that stressed, but then I think I am.

I haven't been sleeping well these nights and that stresses me out because I WANT TO SLEEP. The thought of not having enough energy to study the next day and dark eye circles freak me out and pressurizes me to go to bed but I just can't seem to sleep. Knowing everyone's studying a lot more adds on to the pressure. So I get stressed and want to drink more tea/coffee (to keep myself energized for longer study sessions) and that perpetuates the vicious cycle. Can't wait for next week to be over and I don't feel very prepared for any of the papers despite studying more than I did back in JC.

Put all my other plans on hold and just, study first.

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Not sure if its just me or if everyone takes equally as long to finish reading just one chapter for Psychology.
Tomorrow, I shall attempt to wake up early, get some coffee from Koi then go to school and start studying. Not too early I guess? I don't want to tire myself out. I guess I don't really care if coffee shrinks my boobs anymore hahahahah

One week of studying then one week of exams and I'll be free. Press on ><

Sunshine & City Lights

Loving the rain and the company.

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I went back to school in the afternoon - supposedly to meet Jiayan to study at the benches near S16 but I ended up studying there by myself (because I had a drink and couldn't go to the library anyway) while JY escaped to the library for air-con. I used to not like studying at benches but somehow, I find the ones near S16 quite nice to study at. And maybe because it was about to rain when I reached school so it wasn't warm at all. The one thing I dislike about studying in school on the weekends is that the stalls in the canteen will not be open :( So, I cannot have my usual steamed soups. The Subway stand is still available though. I bought cold cut today (and learnt that cold cut isn't cold - I always thought it was supposed to be......... because I always consume it cold?) The funny thing was when I paid for my subway and left the subway stand without my subway -.-
Stayed at the benches till about 8.30pm before JY came down to look for me and then we went Star Vista for dinner. I'll have to say that I really like Star Vista! I like that it feels peaceful and also, the steps before the fountain - like how you can just sit there and talk for hours (but then, that depends on who you're with).

Tomorrow's Sunday, don't think I'll go back to school..?
Life's been pretty good to me - I just got 3 new pairs of shoes and a new bag and I finally got my allowance. Probably will not spend much the next week since I'll just be camping in school to study. Good luck to everyone studying :)

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I haven't been blogging much because I've been trying really hard to keep myself focused on my studies - which is really really really tough because there are just so many distractions e.g. the new drama I'm watching, shopping, my mum (my mum is one major distraction, I can never study whenever she's at home) etc. I force myself to stay back in school after my lectures to do some revision because I know I'll get none done if I were to just go back home. Its tough, really and it takes a lot of self-discipline which hahahhaha I've kinda lost ever since JC. Tomorrow's Saturday but I think I'm just gonna go back to school because I don't want to waste another day doing nothing at home. Like today. I had no lessons and I woke up at 1pm, watched my drama till 3? 4? then had lunch at about 4+ and then napped till 8pm and then dinner and then... now, I don't know what I'm doing. So, going back to school tomorrow is a must-do.

What happened during the past week hmmm.
Oh I went out on a Sunday? I think? Because I needed to shop for something and I went back to school to look for Kellee after that. We stayed in school until 10+ and we didn't even realize it was that late because that part of school was still pretty crowded. We didn't even know if the shuttle bus services were still operating but well, it was a good experience.
Then was Deepavali on a Tuesday. That day didn't turn out as planned but it was still a rather good day for me I guess. I was supposed to go out but someone fell sick so I stayed home to do differential equations hahahaha I guess I was a tad disappointed but it doesn't matter. Then I went for my mum's Deepavali celebration (that celebration I thought I wouldn't go but went eventually) and got 50 bucks for attending. My mum's colleagues said the same thing when they see me - I guess its pretty obvious, "19? SO SMALL? She looks 13/14/15" Yeah, that was the range I got i.e the secondary school range and that's like... younger than my brother. I was glad I went for it because I was so broke this week (I didn't get my allowance). Then I went out after dinner because I just had to hahaha
Then did I mention going for some paid experiment on Monday? Maybe I did. I was so hungry while doing the experiment, my stomach kept growling and I was glad I was kept in this small room by myself. I told the person-in-charge that I was hungry though, because she heard my stomach growl in the first few minutes of the experiment ><


I don't think I should be at home for the whole of next week. Ask me out to school please HAHA
or keep me somewhere like in the Chinese Room.

mehhhhh

So I received this mail from Mediacorp saying that they want to use our place for filming which I thought was pretty random.

I went for some paid experiment while in school today. Had to do so to earn some money hahahahahah Actually I didn't think I'd need that additional 10 bucks (like I merely wanted to try it) but I was wrong, I needed the 10 bucks because I don't have allowance this week! (my grandmother went overseas and she's usually the one who gives me my allowance) Paid the fee for the application to transfer - which was 10 bucks so....... I'm back to being broke. Not sure what we'll end up eating when we're out tomorrow HAHA I should sign up for more paid experiments - easy way to earn some petty cash.

I need everything to work out perfectly :|

Can't believe I stayed in school till 10++ pm on a Sunday.

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Shopping was tiring

This song is nice~

In addition to the cold, rainy, snuggly, sweater weather, I didn't have to go to school so today was pretty much perfect. I woke up at 9 but went back to sleep because the weather was perfect for it and I woke up near 12? Made myself hot coffee and watched some drama for awhile and then the thought of "shopping maybe?" popped up in my head so I decided to whatsapp Kelz - the only other person with a slack Friday and we went out to Bugis.

I bought a maroon coloured dress (the sales assistant said I looked good in maroon. I thought so too hahahah) and a top yay :) After shopping, we had dinner at Ajisen and then I had this random desire to trim my fringe and so I did. I think we spent only 5 minutes in the salon? And it was back to shopping, but not for myself. That part of today's shopping was tough. Its tough because you will want to get something nice (in your opinion) and also to make sure that the receiver thinks its nice so............ meh.

While I was trying to top up my card just now, I heard some girl telling her friends that she liked my card sticker i.e. the Justin Bieber sticker on my card hahahahha I turned and gave the smug face I think HAHAH (The Whatsapp smug face look)
Yesterday's chilling session with Jiayan and Daphne was nice too hahahah I think it's the weather and together with good company, everything just seems so much better. I stayed for like a few minutes then went for my RP (MY LAST RP. YES) which took like only 15 minutes then I ran back to look for JY and Dng. Tried the pancakes from Humble Origins (Jiayan's "Humble Pie") and well, I thought they were just so-so but I was hungry so I just needed food. I don't like their menu though, its quite hard to comprehend...... the one thing that didn't make sense to me was "Maple Syrup and Butter OR Ice-cream" I asked JY if it even made sense, and there was "French toast (or was it pancake? I cannot remember) with bacon, banana (COMMA? Shouldn't it be like AND/OR?) It was just so weird I couldn't stop laughing.

Feeling sleepy already, I spent so much more this week I don't think I can afford to do so the next week. Oh noooo then there goes my plan to go to Paradise Dynasty@Ion for lunch/dinner :|

I've been using my NUS ID to enter gmarket.

I lazed for the past few days.

Met Wannqin for lunch in town yesterday. Our initial plan was to study after lunch but we ended up shopping for presents hahahha Although I did nothing much (actually, nothing) for the day, I was glad to have spent it with a new friend ^^ Then I met Gordon for ice-cream (actually to watch him eat because I'm saving money for something). Somehow, I feel a need to maintain my shrinking social circle. After that, I went back to town again because I wanted to buy stuff from Spotlight and saw WQ again so I joined her + Chen + her og for dinner before going back to shop for my stuff.

Like a chill life.

I haven't explored the extension of Plaza Sing though, someday~

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I have nothing to say.

Thank you friends :')

I have some very cute friends.

Hm, so today I was supposed to go out with Audrey for lunch. I was lateeeeeeee (partly because of the rain and the other part was because I was watching Modern Family) and thought maybe I should cab down. So I went into this cab and I told the uncle I wanted to get to Orchard but he said there was a heavy jam and my reply was "No choice. I still have to get there." HAHA And we were already like moving so I thought he would just ignore me and continue to drive on but he offered to drive me to the nearest train station FOC - not like the train station is super far but I was really thankful that he drove me there because I was in heels and I was feeling lazy about having to walk to the bus stop/mrt station.

Before that, I fell down when I was at home. Somehow I thought that was quite funny, though painful.

Then while in the train, I kicked/stepped on somebody's feet accidentally. I was so tall (for the day lah hahahah) I didn't see her and I bet that must have been really painful and I felt so bad.

Then I met Audrey and we did the usual walk-about-randomly-in-town and we were thinking of what to have for lunch. We went into LV, Chanel for the fun of it~ and I thought Audrey was unusually busy on her phone for that day then she suddenly said we should go Ichiban Sushi because her friend recommended it. We went and I saw our classmates at a table and was quite shocked. Shocked because I thought they were having a class gathering without Audrey and me :'( And I was thinking "omg how awkward is this.... so are we supposed to join them or sit somewhere else", until I realized it was for me lol It was a good surprise since I really didn't expect it. I was still drowning in yesterday's emo mood.

and they got me Someday by Justin Bieber <3 align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;" table="table">

"OMG! Is that the Cheryltan?!" LOL

Somebody got me the eye ring eh HAHA I couldn't stop laughing at that because I didn't mean it when I said I liked it. But I will like it now hahahahhaAnyway, it really was a very good day. I guess my birthday wasn't as bad as I thought it was.

And the magic for that one day disappeared

I slipped, fell and let out a yelp. Now I'm bleeding :|

How I spent my day

My morning was pretty much a mad rush because I was late for tutorial

Ok I don't even want to talk about school.

I left school and met Kellee in town for lunch and we decided to try Marmalade Toast Cafe. As you can already see, we ordered a pizza - that's the tandoori chicken one and I tried the almond latte too ^^

The pizza was pretty filling for me actually.

then what else did we do,

nothing. We went shopping but I didn't buy anything else after my impulse shopping at Clementi mall. I wanted to wear something nicer to meet Kelz and so, I took 96 from FASS to Clementi Mall and headed straight to one particular shop, took a dress, went into the changing room, came out and asked the sales assistant if they sell belts too and then asked them to help me cut the tags.

I even asked for their opinion - actually I already knew/thought it was nice but I just needed reassurance. I felt soooooooooooooooooo much better with the new dress on.

The only person I know with slack Fridays is Kellee hahahaha and I'm glad I spent my birthday with her too :)
Probably will meet everyone else (as in whoever who wants to meet me) on the weekends or..... idk, whenever.

Turning 19 is really nothing worth celebrating imo. I was rather upset about it because I still feel like I don't know what I'm doing with my life. People seem to know what they're doing, like they have it all planned or under control or something but I'm still........ here. And then I thought of the people who sent me birthday messages, I've been gone for like a huge part of their lives (vice-versa) and I missed having them in my life. The thought of it saddens me.

I'm not sure if I'm just pms-ing LOL Pretty emotional today. I teared while reading some messages.

I'd say this combination of turning 19 +  impending menstruation is an awful one. But nonetheless, I'm thankful for the heartfelt messages.

I always feel like crying on my birthday because the people you never thought will remember you actually still bother to leave you a birthday message and it just makes you feel a little more special, even if it means just one day.

Just one more year before I hit 20

How timely~

The parcel reached one day before my birthday (That's one of the better things that happened to me today) 

My day started pretty badly. I think it all started with that Calculus homework (because I was irritated with myself for not knowing how to do the questions and it was to be handed up today) - that really ruined my mood for the day. Then I also realized I forgot to print lecture notes so despite already being late, I had to make a trip to the library to print them then walked to the LT. And I got a bit lost while on my way there, in the elevator. I forgot which level the LT was on and I pressed 4 then realized it was wrong so I pressed 3 which was also wrong so I tried 5 then 6 then 2 and yeah, the LT was on the second floor. Lucky for me, I was the only person in the elevator. So I missed like half of math lecture and then I had to miss half of Calculus lecture because I had RP~ (Yay, +2 points so I have 8 now)

The person who delivered the parcel called me during Calculus lecture and asked me if there was anyone at home - which I obviously wouldn't know so I told her "maybe you want to try pressing the bell?". But anyway, she passed my parcel to my neighbours (and also lucky for me, my neighbours are pretty nice people and I always wave/smile to them, except on days when I'm running out of the house because I'm late for school)

I completed my RP (which was supposed to take me 40 mins - 1 hour) within 15 minutes and met Jiayan and Hazel @Starbucks where they surprised me with some oreo cheesecake and a balloon and Justin Bieber badges, so cute :) (I meant, so cute of them) *THANKS AGAIN, if you're reading this* So my day ended on a really positive note.

+ Did I mention I saw the cute guy from Calculus lecture hahahhahahaah
++some friendly lady called me cute somemore hehe and she liked the ribbon on my hair ^^ (which I liked too. Obviously, if not why is it even on my hair~)

All the little things that made my day better. Actually, I think I was freaking out about turning 19 earlier in the day; because after 1st Nov then I'll be officially 19 :| and I kept thinking of how I should spend my last day as being 18 until I got all flustered.

but now its here so... Happy Birthday to me.

oops I cannot remember what I wished for earlier in the day when Jiayan and Hazel presented me with the cake. 2nd November will just be another day for me to get through - I'll have like one tutorial then some paid experiment to attend hmm

I must get this done asap

I just need two more RPs worth 3 points in total and I'll be done with it ^^
and as much as I'm reluctant to do so, I'll have to leave halfway during Thursday's Calculus lecture for this RP worth 2 points.

While at math lecture

I almost bought this on impulse - added it to my cart already, all I had to do was to click on purchase

I've been wanting to get one!!!!!! (I wanted a scooter the other time because I thought it was cooler than walking hahahahahah but my mum gave mine away and I didn't want to spend on another one)

WHY I SHOULD BUY:
40 BUCKS...... Why not
Its colourful and so it brightens up my life a little, maybe?
Because my birthday is coming - just use this reason until my birthday's over

WHY I SHOULDN'T:
I don't know when/where I can skate. I thought of bringing it to school and I was scouting for places where I can actually put this skateboard to use but the thing is,

its just a little weird since its not like I'm skating with my friends.
So that'll leave me with skating by myself and then meet my walking friend at a particular end point, that seems retarded. It defeats the purpose of getting to a place within a shorter time because I still have to wait for my walking companion.................  (and I'm not ok with leaving my companion to walk alone)

Hazel asked me to skate about at the void deck but no wayyyyy! So many kids are doing that downstairs and although I like skateboards because I think they're cool, I don't think I want to join the kids hahahahhaah

Conclusion: I didn't get it.

but anyhow, I still have to use up some coupons from Gmarket so I shall find some other stuff to buy.

Mmm I talked for the first time during Philo tutorial yay (class participation *smug*) It wasn't much, I said something like "Robert?" HAHA That was some Philosopher's name but I couldn't remember his last name (which explains the Robert? something?) And when I was asked to explain - lol my reason was that I chose it randomly (because it was mcq). But at least I talked and so I'm glad for that already.

then I met Daphne for lunch at Science fac and I had papaya milk ("For my boobs" haha)

I think I'll nap then start on my work (and watch the matchmaking show at 8pm :D)

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6 MORE POINTS TO COMPLETE MY RP.

HAHA I think my whole RP is a joke but its not bad - making progress and I think its rather commendable (I commend myself lah) given that I started only like a week ago?

Amount of work left undone:

Calculus homework + tutorial
Math homework + tutorial
(I'm sure there will be more as the week progresses)

so I actually did nothing much this week. Ever since uni started, my posts have been all about Calculus and math (which basically sums up my life in uni thus far).

Met up with the usual peeps on Friday and visited Gardens by the bay on Saturday. I still cannot believe I spent only 20 bucks the previous week (hehe so maybe I can go shopping on my birthday, maybe~) I'd like the shopping but I'm dreading the fact I'm turning 19 because I'm still so small :|

Its been 18 years, I should just come to terms with my size - how can I forget I get to enjoy benefits such as shopping at the kids' section




er Should I skip school on my birthday~? hahahahahah

and I think I've been MIA-ing (deleted some of them) on a lot of social networking sites so k, shall post something on fb before people forget I actually exist.

I really don't

feel like studying :'|

Hm so I was thinking of buying the Fujifilm instax wide polaroid camera (I wanted the mini 25s initially but then that's a little more expensive and lol I don't even know if my mum will allow me to spend on a polaroid cam) But anyway, I told her and showed her the one I wanted to get and she said she'll help me to ask my aunt who buys stuff online frequently and my aunt replied saying she actually has one.

I'm not sure how to react because erm I thought I asked MONTHS ago and I kinda got a nil reply to my question (i.e. to whether she has a polaroid cam) and now that I want to actually buy one, my aunt says she has one. And the model is not exactly the one I want so erm, idk if I should just settle for it or... (I still prefer the one I wanted to get but then again, I have no reason to turn down my aunt's camera because its a new one)

What.... its Monday again tomorrow

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I don't feel like studying for anything this weekend, not sure if its because I was too overwhelmed by the amount of work I had to complete last week but anyway, I finished my Calculus tutorial so I have only math tutorial to complete and I'll be free of assignments for this week :D

So mmm back to Friday, I stayed in town till like 5+ and decided that I did not want to stay outside any longer because I wasn't even studying and I just felt like showering then maybe take a nap and so I went back home. Somehow, I had this feeling that I might end up meeting Amanda for dinner or something but I brushed it off - like, shower first then see how (if she messaged me or anything).

and true enough, she messaged me for dinner hahah so I went back out to town. But it wasn't too much of a hassle or anything because my bag was so heavy that day and I just had to go home to put everything down, shower and change my clothes so as to make myself feel way comfier + I like spending Friday nights outside to mark the end of a school week.

I don't like that the public holiday's on this Friday because Fridays are already like my no-school days but I guess, at least I don't have any make-up lessons since I won't miss any.

P.S. FIRST RP (Research Participation - for Psychology) TOMORROW LOL I FINALLY GOT TO CLICK ON "PARTICIPATE"  Probably will have to rush from Philo tutorial to wherever that place is.

So unproductive today

So I came to town with the intention of studying but now, I just feel like sleeping. Went to school for like an hour? The tutorial was supposed to last for about 1hour and 30-40minutes but it ended much earlier today + I was late for it. The only lesson I was late for, for the entire week.

This person sitting in front of me must be studying for O levels.......

LIFE SO BUSY (but still pretty good actually)

JUST ONE TUTORIAL AND I'LL HAVE MY WEEKENDS WHEEEEEEEEEEE

not like I'm actually going to do anything exciting during Saturday/Sunday but at least, a break from all the studying (?)

Attended Calculus lab today and again, I was lost. But at least I know how to turn on the computer now lol I don't understand how everyone seems to be able to manipulate and navigate themselves through the software with ease, that much ease. I had so many doubts to clarify and I bet the tutor thought my questions were dumb. I asked her what's with the "%" and if I was to substitute it with some function then she looked at me and replied "You don't know what the % is?" like as if its some concept/symbol that universally understood or something. I hate using that software yuck, probably the only one thing I detest for math modules.
But still, I think I should go torrent the software to practice before the lab assessment.

then during math lecture, Hazel and I sat in front of this guy who talks to himself (and he always sits by himself, on the floor at the back of the lecture). Guess it wouldn't be that weird if he were just voicing out his opinions but he actually holds some sort of debate/conversation, like as if he is playing a few roles back there. I was telling Hazel that he seemed to be holding his own lecture at the back; with him being both the lecturer and the student (and also the clicker buddy - students are supposed to pair up and participate in the lecture by clicking on this device you see). Idk its just quite creepy because he will just say stuff like "HAHA I GIVE UP LAH. I DON'T CARE. I THINK I WILL GET THE WRONG ANSWER" (huh but nobody asked) but anyway, I guess he is too engrossed in his own lecture back there and so he will not actually bother with everyone else in the LT. (And I dreamt I had some sort of mental disorder last night..... and the name of the disorder was actually something mathy?! like some Fibonacci Sequence or something >< hopefully studying math wouldn't turn my dream into reality)

I was pretty much distracted during Calculus because I was just looking forward to Friday, thinking about my Friday plans etc. I saw this really cute guy before Calculus lecture ended - Really the first guy I deem attractive. I've seen him a few times but he was always at quite some distance away so I wasn't sure if my eyes were playing tricks on me hahahahah Like maybe he's just cute from a distance x m  away and when x--> 0, he will be just normal or something. But I saw him up close today and I still think he is damn cute ^^ And I just had to show Hazey because after all, the one person I find attractive in the whole of NUS?! How can I not? She saw his back/side view first and decided he was not as attractive as I described because of his curly hair but then, she changed her mind after seeing the front hahahahaha

I guess I find him attractive because he doesn't look like he's 21 at all. He just looks like this cute, young boy who hangs around town during the weekends, likes math, maybe skateboard HAHA

but that's all there is to it, I merely find him attractive so, back to reality - where I'm supposed to be doing sociology tutorial.

Oh I have cheescake in the fridge

So I'm done with my Sociology paper - I almost wanted to take the paper tomorrow (because there are two slots, one was today and the other's tomorrow) but then I realized I cannot skip math lecture (that is, even if I want to) because we're supposed to submit math homework 3 tomorrow and I finished it AND I refuse to have points deducted just for submitting after the lecture. It rained so heavily while I was on my way to FASS but anyway, I'm glad I (ignored the inner devil in me who wanted to leave school because it was raining too heavily to get to FASS) went for it. I don't think I could have absorbed/studied any more even if I chose to take the paper on Thursday so... decided to just get it over and done with. The paper was an hour long, managed to even snack on my cereal bar halfway because I was pretty much done writing (lol couldn't think of any more to write but at least I filled up >2 pages so that's good enough? Not too sure about my content though).

The first thing I did when I reached home was to plug in my ipod to the speakers, then I just sat on the sofa with a glass of water and......... sing hahahahah (Now I'm really wondering if my neighbours can hear me)

and I just completed my philosophy summary wheeeee

so now I can go back to doing calculus.
K GOODNIGHT. Calculus lab tomorrow, hope I actually can do some mathy stuff on the com, like everyone else (and not just read the lab notes over and over again + feel lost about it).

no time to breathe

lol I don't know why the research participation timeslot is always full but,

I FEEL SO MUCH BETTER AFTER FINISHING MY MATH HOMEWORK (and it was on sets - I felt pretty lost about it but I managed to complete the homework anyway so, that just made me slightly happier for the day) :D Now I have one less thing on my to-do list for tomorrow after sociology mid term paper. Can't wait for the paper to end. I don't think I prepared enough for it. Probably will read for a little while then wake up at 8am tomorrow to continue reading then attend Calculus tutorial and then go back to Soci after that since I have 4 hours of break.

Went to town to study after math tutorial + lunch with Kelz in school. I probably studied for like 4 hours straight(?) then Amanda joined me halfway to finish her work~

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This week's ending wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Looking forward to Friday where I'll probably head to town to study for awhile then.... mmm meet up with whoever's free/go home to nap.

Can this week be over soon....

Collected sociology assignment and got an A (But I really don't think I did well, as in... I think a lot of people got A hahahahahhahah) Soci mid term paper on Wednesday and I don't feel prepared *insert appropriate Whatsapp emoticon* I FEEL SO OVERWHELMED IDK WHAT TO DO.

Just submitted the application for the transfer over to Science.
Then I also went to collect some bursary -about $2900? That bursary was some awkward shit. I went there thinking it'd be like some prize/award-giving ceremony, like something more formal (I made the effort to dress up ok~) but we were all gathered in some conference room?! And there was this awkward photo taking session - I told my mum to "PLEASE DON'T TAKE ANY PHOTOS OF ME AND DON'T TAG ME IN ANY" lol because I was so tired.

I saw this jumping rat on my way home - literally jumping. I'm not sure if it was a toy or....... but anyway, I ran away from it. Then I had to walk through another dark route so all I was thinking of was if some rat will just run out from the bushes again. *on tenterhooks* then this cat ran past me and I just screamed, my mum just laughed because my scream startled some dude (who turned around to see what happened, with his eyes wide open HAHA).

Want this paper to end soon

I feel as if I'm studying for A level Geography all over again - lost. Its like, I don't even really know what I'm supposed to memorize (and yuck I hate having to memorize, I hope my application to transfer over to science fac will be a successful one so I can just do calculations all day long or something).

I should adopt the habit of looking through the peephole

ok so I just opened the door and yelled "WHY DO YOU HAVE TO KEEP PRESSING THE BELL" at someone, thinking it was my mum

but unfortunately, it was some man trying to sell me durians.

Went out to town to study and finished some stuff so I guess I made the right decision. Met Amanda for dinner@Soup Spoon then we walked about town aimlessly as usual, from PS to H&M. I felt pretty good about the stuff I bought - I bought this JB tee hahahah for 10 bucks and this pastel pink jeans for $15 ^^ From the H&M kids section but who cares, as long as they look nice +  I can fit into them + affordable then why not~ I showed my mum what I bought (because I want to stop hiding my shopping loot lol so I walked in with the H&M bag in my hand) and she thought the JB shirt was worth less than $10, but well, she's got this thing against him so nevermind. I like it, that's all that matters :)

VERY PLEASED WITH MY PURCHASE. Although the day started with me feeling guilty for not doing any work, it ended with me having completed at least 1/4 of my work for the weekend + new clothes + good company on a Friday night wheeeeeeeeeeeeee~

My date with WQ is cancelled and so I'm just, doing pretty much nothing at home but still thinking if I should go out to study because I'm so distracted at home.

I insist on taking a few pictures on a day when I look..... not as tired.

I WOKE UP AT 6AM (big deal because I'm not in the army)

I feel much better after napping for 3 hours. Felt so tired after school.

mmmm so I went for Psych tutorial in the morning. Received some email from my tutor asking me why I skipped lessons. HAHA The funny thing was the part where he included that I can approach him if I have any personal problems and he also included the hotline/address for counseling services - LOL My only problem is that the class is too early and I have trouble going to sleep at night.

but well, I was glad I went for it today and got to know a few people from my class. I talked to this girl beside me and asked her if we actually need to bring the textbook for class because Idk anything then it turns out that she skipped the previous class too hahahahah Think she skipped it because she thought the people were quite scary because they seem to know everything/already studied a lot for Psych. :|

*Don't look at me, I do math only lol* In fact I was reading a little bit of math before the psych tutorial.

I guess I'll be pretty busy this weekend. I've got Sociology to study for and then Calculus and math assignments+tutorials. So much to do ><

Meeting Soh in town tomorrow (I didn't expect us to go to town ok~ I thought WQ will want to go somewhere else but she said she feels like going to FEP, yup I'll be in town again)

hmm Think I better put a reminder to submit the online application for the transfer to Science faculty. K I shall go watch 2 Broke Girls (and I just said I have a lot to finish. Let me escape for a little while)

Did I mention that they sent me some newsletter on NS Women seminar?! "Secure your future with an army career"

Omg I need to stop skipping the 8am classes.

:| GOODNIGHT.

Need to stop procrastinating.

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School
Went to school for only Calculus tutorial today.

1. I was early (HAHA It is a big deal). 
2. The HC girl talked to me during tutorial (because I realized she was my FB friend and I commented on her post). At first, I was wondering if I should then switch seats - to the one next to her or what, but I still prefer sitting at the last row of the class and she's just like diagonally one seat across me so I guess it doesn't matter.
3. My Calculus and math tutorial classmate sat beside me today. Its funny because initially I was the only one sitting in the last row of the class (everyone else seems to know someone). Then after like maybe 2 weeks, that classmate (together with his friend) moved to the last row but there was always like 1 or 2 empty seats between us. But they sat right next to me today~ and it just feels good because then I look less like some unfriendly, loner girl hahahah And they found out that I was from HC and gave me that sort of reaction like how others usually do but its not surprising.

Jesse and Celeste Forever
then I left school to have lunch with Karin at Clementi mall and left at about 2pm to go to town to meet Amanda for a movie. It was pretty funny but the ending was kind of unexpected. Best friends should end up together because they obviously love each other and they have soooooooooo much fun together, its just this really comfortable relationship :'/

I thought it was pretty sad.

Shall go tumblr for awhile ^^

Just saying

I SOLVED THE HEMISPHERE QUESTION WOOOHOOOOOOOOOOO

Just feel happy for me hehe

Want

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Can we just go to some random cafe (preferably in town lol) and have coffee and tiramisu and read and talk and just not think about anything............... I'm just craving for some quiet time in a cafe actually.

So I met Audrey in town after my 40 mins math tutorial (I'm glad I was early today, though I couldn't believe it hahahaha) and we had lunch/brunch at Pique Nique and then we went to Ion to supposedly window shop - but you know what always happen eventually *insert smug face*
Took a nap that lasted for like 4 hours maybe?

sighhhhhhhhhhhhh. :| Shall go back to my Calculus tutorial (doing applications of differentiation hehe).

Na na na na na na~

Last night was horrible. I felt like I was drunk or something hahahahhaha I wasn't even in a right state of mind and like it was a rollercoaster of emotions. 30 minutes before I leave for school. Gonna meet Audrey for lunch in town later yay. Watched some matchmaking show on channel 8 yesterday and couldn't stop laughing but the prizes are quite attractive!!! I want to join for the prizes hehe

I hope my eyes will stop feeling tired, sting-y. :|

I've been staring at this picture of a hemisphere on top of a sphere and I don't get its dimensions.

#nerdy.

anyway, omg its Sunday and 5pm already. I felt like I just woke up because I haven't done much for today (and the past few days because I felt like I needed a break. I'm always giving myself breaks HAHA).

*Jedward and Chris Brown on replay*

Don't wake me up up up up up up

I'm so tired :| but overall, it was a pretty good Saturday.

My mum didn't nag at me for going out - or more like she didn't get the chance to because I left before she even came home. But anyway, I went out and made it in time for dinner at my grandparents' place.

I was pretty glad to be out in town on a Saturday for reasons other than studying. Although someone made me wait for like an hour++ (or nearly 2?!). He took all the way to what Jurong (some faraway, out of town area)?! and then to Little India and then ended up at Central because he mistook Central for Orchard Central and we were supposed to meet at Orchard Central, while I was still waiting at OC.

But that's ok, because I know how it feels to be like that hahahhaha
I saw Amira and there was this Cheryl (some pretty random acquaintance from STC) and quite a few HC schoolmates. I went to town in this white dress but brought another dress just in case tom decides to come all heavy on me (are you asking me then why did I wear white in the first place? if you are then its because I felt like it and I always do stuff when I feel like it and don't really think too much about if I should really really really really be doing it). Although I didn't stain my dress, I still changed while at Ion because for some reason, I felt.... weary and empty and maybe bored of myself and I needed something different - I almost wanted to buy an outfit then to change into, purely to experience some sort of excitement. **But I didn't**

Quite glad you bought the bottom I chose. I've got good enough taste and I made you look good *insert smug face* hahahahhahaha

actually, I expected myself to leave after 2 hours? but it was fine~

So my life is just like this

I'm finally at Thursday of this week!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Had 3 mid term papers - Psychology, Calculus and math and I wouldn't say they went well hahahhaha but they're over and that's all that matters ^^ On top of the papers, there was Calculus homework, Philosophy summary (despite knowing that the summary is to be handed up every Thursday, I realize most people rush it through the night before hahahahha), Psych assignment and Sociology tutorial (I don't feel like attending class tomorrow lol)

I was pretty overwhelmed by it all. Especially last night when I was still trying to solve some questions from the Calculus homework and then there was the philo reading+summary and it was already 1+ when I finished them. Not like I left my math revision to the last minute but I wanted to go through it again before the paper on the next day :| So I set the alarm at 7am so that I can wake up to revise for a bit and do my helpsheet before leaving for school.

but hehe, I'm pretty glad because I bought a pair of heels the other day, though I said I'll only reward myself after mid terms.......

then mmmm, had one hour of math paper today and it was funny to look at how people did their helpsheets. (FYI helpsheet: a piece of a4 sized paper on which you can write anything on, formulae, theorems whatever) Mine was pretty colourful (colour coded so I can find whatever I need within split seconds) but I'll definitely have to improvise on it! Both the Calculus and math paper reminded me of how much I actually really do need to study - some questions were pretty much basic but because they're so basic, you'll tend to neglect them when you're revising which reminds me of the Psych mcq paper. Time wasn't that much of a constraint though it was 100mcqs within an hour. The paper tested from like everywhere i.e. from the case studies, examples, stories There was this question on what animal they used in the experiment?

I thought it was pretty thoughtful of the lecturers/tutors because they did quite a lot to help us with our revision. By tutors/lecturers, I meant the math and calculus ones here lol (yeah, because I attend those lessons). Like there was this math chatroom thing on the school portal yesterday where the lecturer will be there to answer whatever questions you want. I was pretty curious to see how this chatroom works and so I went but I went at 12am? HAHA The lecturer left at 10pm. I was telling Hazel that its quite embarrassing because they generate this timestamp when you enter the chatroom. I entered and there were only a few students online so I left hahahha Heard from Hazel that only a few people asked questions and there was this period when nobody talked/asked anything so the lecturer was like "So I presume you guys are doing your helpsheet?" (because nobody was talking to him) I thought that was funny HAHA
but yup, the lecturer's really nice. Then during the break of Calculus lecture today, the lecturer walked up to talk to random students and again he stopped at the row where Hazey and I were sitting at and he asked us about the paper yesterday, which school we're from etc. and he said something like he actually knows quite a lot of math teachers from HC. I think my reply was "Oh.. actually I don't really go to school that often so I don't know many teachers" and he was listing names but I didn't know any of them.

I cannot wait to dress up and be out with the rest of the world on Saturday [but I don't think I can wear that dress I intended to because tom is here :(  ] Didn't have the time and the mood to want to/feel pretty for both last and this week. I just felt like I looked lethargic and pale and I just want to leave school asap because I don't want people to be looking at me in this state and not to mention, the weather sucks. lol appearance-conscious and I know it, hopefully I'll feel (like I look) better on Saturday hahahah

Allow me to look/feel better because I'm already deprived of the chance to wear that white dress and I really was looking forward to wearing it!!!!!!!!!!! ><

Was supposed to wait till the mid terms are over before I go shopping but, well~ ok bought essentials so its not really considered shopping (I always cannot resist colourful lingerie, bought this neon coloured one ^^) Met Weiqing for lunch then we just walked about town and did nothing much actually, just catching up with each other's lives. Can't believe recess week passed just like that. Need to get a haircut soon.

Met up with Amanda in town yesterday, to study. Was pretty thankful for that because I was watching more episodes of 2 Broke Girls at home. Went out and finished some Calculus revision set, at least I finished something for the day~

bah bah black sheep

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I think I just need something to perk me up. Just drank my usual hot honey though. Thinking of studying as much as I can before I start to not feel like studying again - and probably meeting Weiqing this Friday for lunch and shopping (no no, I'm not shopping. It'll just be a break from all the studying ^^) Not sure if I'm actually studying enough though. Yesterday, I was distracted by the Android store. Today, I watched two episodes of 2 Broke Girls (but all the torrenting before that took quite some time). My eyes are dry, maybe I should just go to bed.

or maybe just watch another episode of 2BG

P.S. I feel like buying a new pair of heels

my life revolves around MA1100

**that's my math module lol

I quite like being this busy. Probably will go out in the afternoon tomorrow then continue studying when I get back.

Went for my relative's birthday party last weekend at Pasir Ris. The chalet was located in some really secluded and remote area, semi d style. There was buffet and this really huge patch of grass before the place with swings and slides. I would have gone there if not for the kids playing around that area (a bit awkward since I'm so old as compared to the kids) The buffet wasn't exactly good -not value for money imo, about $13/person and I think my relative paid about $700 for that. Then the birthday cake cost like $300. My mum was telling me to not spend so much for my 21st birthday, tbh I didn't even think of holding some sort of birthday bash? Because I think it'd be awkward with so many different groups of friends around (Heard my mum organized some sort of dance party on her 21st though lol).

Wonder how will mid terms be like, hope it wouldn't be toooooo tough. >< (but I'm only studying for math so far, better start studying the other subjects asap)

I will go shopping after mid terms ^^ Went for the Fred Perry sale that weekend after studying+filming at SMU and didn't buy anything and the standard of the flea market@Scape's dropping drastically (one, because they're all selling similar stuff. two, the prices aren't exactly THAT cheap. three, the stuff looks really worn out, where are the newer stuff....)

Liking this :)

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Hair chain

I like how the chain drapes over my ponytail and I think it matches with my gold hair cuff (didn't secure it in the picture but I will if I wear it out) That was a some random chain I found in my drawer, I think it was the leftover from making the slave bracelets the other time.

Felt weird facing the wall while waiting for the picture to be taken HAHA

Tell me its nice, no?

Beaded bracelet

This bracelet was on my to-do list. Wanted to head to town to get waxed linen cord to make this (just trying to find a reason to be at town HAHA) but decided to just use wire.

so I have another simple bracelet to wear to school ^^

Busy (Quite)

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Completed my Sociology essay, like finally. Actually I wouldn't have known that it's due on Friday if I hadn't checked Whatsapp and read about Daphne trying to get it done hahahahhaha Although I'm not sure if I did it the right way, but at least I finished it.

I've been forgetting quite a lot - like today, I forgot to bring my math homework (the one I stayed up to complete a few days before it was due) and I had to do it on the spot, within 30 minutes because points will be deducted if I hand up after the lecture and MC will have to be submitted + points deducted if I hand it in tomorrow -.-
Watched Ted in town with Amanda yesterday~ It wasn't really THAT funny actually? Feel like watching Hope Springs because there's Steve Carell in it hehe

Was supposed to go to school just to hand in the Sociology assignment tomorrow but I think Wann Qin's helping me to print and submit :))))
Then today, I also got the name of that guy from my math+Calculus tutorial class hahahahah like finally. Its been pretty weird seeing him around without knowing his name (but he still will wave/smile to me when he sees me and that reminds me of how I didn't ask him for his name when he asked me for mine.. so I told Amanda like a day ago? that I have to get to know his name because I don't want to appear that unfriendly and rude) Recess week starting tomorrow~ I think I have quite a lot to study for?

Er what?

Decided to surf the net a little bit before going to bed. I just finished the math homework due this Thursday (At least I finished something). I would have finished much more if I didn't go town this afternoon - but then again, I don't regret my choice HAHA Because I had good lunch +  good company (met Audrey) and then after Audrey left for her lesson, I went to shop for stationery and also bought a pack of gold beads. Then I went window shopping (a successful one since I didn't buy anything) at Ion~

I don't really like the route from NUS to town because it seems pretty long..............
+ Today's weather was so hot it didn't make me feel good at all. I felt so dirty I just wanted to get home asap and shower. I took a bus to Kent Ridge then trained to Farrer Road and waited for 174, idk it just feels so troublesome and time consuming :|

I should be feeling tired but I'm not exactly feeling so,
was feeling quite perturbed by something awhile ago

that was seriously damn childish and it does not reflect any better on you so maybe, you want to stop telling your friends stuff because its not helping/will not help.

Again, I'm wide awake

Woke up to "Be Your Everything" this morning

Finished part of math tutorial, read a bit of Psych (my textbook looks so clean and new) then went out for dinner. Wanted to go to MAF initially but then cancelled the plan and decided to stay home to finish some work (but was quite distracted by some of those diy blogs I bookmarked and was looking through). na na na na na na another of week of school and then it'll be recess week~

Now playing : Tears and Rain

This totally sent chills down my spine >< The video was linked from some article I was reading.
My mum was just telling me how some of her friends said she still looks the same after 10 years and so my mum threw me a challenge, to take a photo of myself and see if I still look the same 10 years later.

I don't even dare to think about that. 10 years - imagine how I'll look, how my life will be, who will I be hanging out with, is my job a stable one? (do I even have a job?), will I be married (actually I kinda hope so hahahhahaha I'll be nearly 30 by then!) etc.

So, its Sunday again. I guess that'll mean throwing my phone into some obscure corner because I'll most probably not feel like talking/replying to anything (not anything personal, just the pre monday blues as WQ coined it)

Can't sleep so I tried making some simple bracelet

ok lah, I know it looks quite noob. I just needed something to do.

Good life.

I'm smiling to myself hahahahhahahaha because today was a good day.

I felt good after Sociology tutorial ended (although I was a few minutes late and I gave an awkward "hello" to the class)

and I met Amanda for lunch+shopping ^^ You can not understand how I'm feeling right now HAHA We bought matching dresses! And you know how I don't really like people having the same stuff as I do but THIS IS DIFFERENT BECAUSE firstly, we're talking about my good friend, Amanda here so the rules don't apply. Secondly, I think the two dresses were the only two and if only both of us have it, then how awesome is that?! (Its rhetorical, I know its awesome and so it is! hehe Even if its not the only two..........its still awesome.) I got the beige one while she got the black ^^ Lunch was good, shopping was good~ then we walked down to Ion and chilled for awhile at tea loft before heading home. Both of us ordered milk tea (another dose of caffeine againnnnn), guilty pleasure~ After I finished my hot milk tea, Amanda asked me to finish her iced milk tea LOL I told her I could feel my boobs shrinking with every sip.

Almost forgot, I explored Haw Par Villa while waiting for Amanda to reach the mrt station. While walking about in there, I saw a few groups of secondary school students - some excursion~ And because there were a few groups of them, my path was obstructed. Their teacher started explaining and telling these students the history of the structures and stuff like that so I kinda, stopped there to listen since I was amidst the crowd.

:) so, today was really nice hehe Mostly, I'm just glad I survived another week of school.

So little time

I feel so busy this week.

The usual tutorials coupled with assignments >< Then I attended Calculus lab today (my first lab) and I was totally lost. Everyone around me seemed to be plotting graphs and stuff but lol, I couldn't even turn on the computer. Asked the girl who sat beside me a few questions like what we're supposed to do, do I just type stuff in or...?  but not too many questions because because she looked engrossed with the lab notes and Maple (that's the software we're supposed to learn how to use), didn't want to irritate her. I wasn't sure if everyone were just rushing to finish the exercises or what and I really had no idea as to how to go about using the software. Not a single clue. Lab is like only once per two weeks so I'm not really sure how I'll learn to use this software and catch up with the rest.

Headed home straight after my last lecture to try to finish Sociology tutorial. I didn't realize we were that many chapters into the textbook (because we use the powerpoint slides for lecture and they are really brief so its pretty much self-study using the textbook?) Wonder how much we'll go through tomorrow though. Then once Friday ends, the whole thing repeats itself with me having to attempt math and Calculus tutorial on the weekend then Monday will come and Tuesday (go through math tutorial) and then Wednesday (go through Calculus tutorial) and then do Gary's philosophy summary and it'll be Thursday then Friday (but since its even week, I will stay home to just wait for Philo webcast and not go to school) then it'll be recess week. The weeks are passing by so fast.

New faces.

I'm feeling despondent now because I don't know how to do a few questions from the Calculus assignment :|

but besides that, my day was actually pretty good.

I woke up 9.20am (supposed to leave my house at 10am for my 11am tutorial). Thought it'll be a mad rush but I didn't rush actually. I wasn't even late for tutorial HAHA --> which is hard to come by. I've been punctual for my tutorials this week ^^ I went into the class and saw the same guy from yesterday's math lesson (the one who smiled to me a few times and looked quite nice to be friends with). He asked me for my name when he came over to pass me the attendance list, because as usual, I took the last row and sat by myself. lol I like it like that. So I felt glad that someone actually noticed my existence, maybe I'll get to know his other friend (he's got this friend who looks like a bear) the next Calculus tutorial or something.

+++ I woke up and had a pretty good hair+face day, the sort of day where my self-esteem rises a bit higher than normal because I feel good

Then I met Karine for lunch~ Went to Clementi Mall and saw Nat Ho.
I wanted to skip Sociology lecture (Almost) because lunch at Fish and Co spent like only 1/4 of my 4 hours break? Close to 1/2 I think but still, the thought of having to hang around school for another 2 hours+ is just damn siannnnn. So I thought if I could whatsapp my new friends from Soci tutorial~~~ then maybe attend lecture together or something. And we did meet up :) The lecture was so boring, we were actually talking throughout hahahaha Glad I did something so random like whatsapping my tutorial classmates when the last time we saw each other was like 2 weeks ago? (The tutorial's on alternate weeks) I think we click~~ We talk about stuff beyond Soci (imagine if we only talk about Soci, that'll be quite boring). Probably will stay in our mini group of 3 for the next tutorial on this Friday.

Sweater weather pleaseeeeee

Pretty pleased with myself today. (Except for the part where I cabbed to school because I overslept, thinking it was Saturday today? Idk why I thought it was Saturday but I still reached in time and probably like the first few? So I got to choose my seat ^^ BACK ROW + CORNER HAHA but I kinda got to know someone. Not friends yet but probably soon because I think I'll see him again for Calculus tutorial tomorrow. He looks like someone pretty cool to hang out with, like those who will say funny and stupid stuff but not the the extent that it seems irritating. His other friend seem irritating though, I laughed when I heard the friend ask "How come you all know that composite numbers are > 0 ?" lol, thought it was known to all. I saw that friend of his later in the afternoon again and he was making quite a lot of noise in the library)

Ended my one and only tutorial for today at 10.40am then met Kelz after that. I finished reading some stuff for Sociology, had lunch in school then went to Science library to read Thomas' Calculus hahahha

Left school at about 3+pm?

Prevented myself from over slacking - watched tv for like an hour plus then forced myself to finish Calculus tutorial before I can have dinner. So glad I finished my work (at least, the one tutorial due tomorrow).

I want tomorrow's weather to be nice and chilly :) 

Ask her if she wants to stay awhile

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I've always wanted to roll in a bed of flowers. Maybe it sounds retarded but someday, I'll do just that, and have white fluffy clouds over my head. Or a starry sky, fine with both :) I'm such a dreamy little girl~ hahahah

Loving the weather these days - puts me in the mood to play Justin Bieber's Christmas album ^^ (ON REPLAY)

Anyway, Sunday was boring. I don't really enjoy Sundays and it seems like I just don't feel like smsing/whatsapping i.e. my phone will be left untouched or sometimes, deliberately buried under my pillows so that I will forget about it for awhile. Which just sucks. Really, when I'm not in the mood to sms/Whatsapp, I feel like the receiving party can feel my forced attempt to try to keep the conversation going. Lol so I'm going to end this (or maybe reply a few hours later, or maybe tomorrow when I feel like I can continue the conversation because I don't really want it to end either. See how~)

Been thinking about something:

I'm pretty surprised people can actually remember what I like/dislike. Not sure if its because they pay attention to whatever I say/do or because I'm just someone who will say/do stuff and tell you blatantly what I like and not like. But either way, I guess it takes effort.

Guess I should expend more effort to listen, pay attention to what people's likes and dislikes?

5th week of school - one month has passed since uni started and my life lol is still the same. Not saying that I expected drastic change or something but, I'M REALLY QUITE BORED. Daily horoscope's so not accurate!!!!

how wonderful

I'm really glad the whole thing turned out well.

The party wasn't like awkward... 
People turned up...
I was not unsociable....

hehe anyway, I'm quite happy about it. I came home with one cut and a lot of bruises though, not sure how I got them, weirdly. Then also, I'm glad that we're as close again.

Almost lost my ez link card while on the train back because I didn't realize I was sitting on it until this guy sitting opposite pointed to me.

Good things are coming my way, I guess? I hope.
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Met up with some of the usual peeps yesterday in town. I bought a new pair of shoes ^^ Actually I remembered I promised to reward myself with shopping if I sat through the Philosophy lecture on Monday (because it was so freaking, idk.. that lesson made me feel rather uncomfortable. With everybody sitting soooo closely to each other. My life seems pretty boring these days but, thankful for having friends like *shan't name them all but actually, I realize I still have quite a number of people in my life and that's enough*

Good morning and HAPPY BIRTHDAY HANRUI!!!!!!!

EPSILON AND DELTA

That's just a little something from Calculus.

I feel so irritated for not knowing how to start to prove all these functions and stuff. Although the lecturer already said that this particular tutorial is tough but................

if you really grasp the concept then I believe you can solve anything?
If you're wondering what I'm learning in school now, its something like this:

*This is a very interesting video*

Actually I like proving and stuff but ever since epsilon and delta came into the equation, I don't really understand how I'm supposed to fit them into my workings (or maybe because I just really really detest functions so I'm not trying hard enough)

I should end my math rant HAHAH Past few days of school were, well, the same. There were people selling some sort of foldable bicycle in school on Monday and the bike looked pretty cool. Supposedly the lightest foldable bicycle~

Then I was late for math tutorial today (I thought I wasn't too late but somehow, I was the latest). Missed probably like just the first question? Tutorial was not exactly boring because I kinda did my work so I just wanted to know if I got my stuff right. The girl who sat beside me kept asking questions (some I thought pretty.. redundant). She called the tutor over to our table while he was waiting for some students to present their workings on the board. The conversation between the two of them made me laugh because she sounded more like the tutor than he did, she was just firing away questions and statements and asking him "Do you get me?" LOL
Then when the tutor stopped to think, the girl turned to me and said something like "What is he doing, I'm waiting for his reply" I just gave her an awkward smile, definitely will feel scared if I were the tutor.

Feels like I've been pretty muddle-headed lately. First, I got the dates wrong for Y's departure (I totally forgot it was already September). Then I got the time wrong, thinking I was supposed to be at the airport at 10am when it was 10pm (and I woke up at 8am.....) Took past Tanah Merah and had to take from the opposite platform to go back to TM then to Changi. Then on Monday, I printed my math notes wrongly - 4 of the same slides on one page -.- Since it was 4 same slides on one page, I cut out 3 and stapled the remaining 1/4 of each page together and it turned out to be a small, handy stack of math lecture notes hehe ^^

Since its even week, I don't have as many tutorials as compared to last week. Watched a movie with Kelz at Jcube after school today (I ended at like 10.45am). We caught "The Watch". The cinema was sooooo empty I thought it was just going to be the two of us and I started trying to talk damn loudly and make random noises HAHAH Then this one guy walked in. I don't think he heard... So it was just the 3 of us watching in there. Felt like we booked the entire cinema or something. ++ We didn't know there was one-for-one promotion so we spent about 4 bucks each? ^^

k shall end my post now. I think I'll give myself a break from epsilon and delta and just see how it goes during tutorial tomorrow.

Just forget it

Is it possible to think that you really like someone but then erase those thoughts after a few seconds and then convince yourself you actually are not that into them? for like what, a year? Pretty much bewildered by my own thoughts/feelings but then again, I think its nothing so I will just try to ignore this for as long as I can I guess?

Hello September

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That's fast, its September already

Met Chan in town today and I was quite surprised I didn't buy anything hahaha maybe I just wasn't really really really that into the shopping mood + I was trying to not withdraw cash from my bank account. Life's been boring, nothing much to blog about.


Think I'll be going to the air port tomorrow (again). Friends are flying off while I'm still here, not saying that its a bad thing though because going to study abroad feels quite intimidating since you're all alone in a foreign land. I was just thinking, what if I was the one going overseas

Who will be there at the airport to send me off..............

Just a random thought.

I hope September will be good to me because August was a little boring.

ok so I've survived one week with tutorials.

Friday was just another like any other day - went to school for Sociology tutorial and Philosophy lecture. Got to know two girls from my Soci tutorial and I kinda like them ^^ Got their numbers so we can go for lecture together next Wednesday or something.
Tried to look for some guy in a blue shirt after Philo lecture with Karine HAHA (Because he's supposedly handsome and I haven't really seen anyone I consider handsome.... so I thought I should see him and end my day with something pleasant hahahahaha but we didn't get to see him so nvm~) Then I met Daphne for lunch/tea-time at Utown and well, that concludes another day.

Think I'm going to meet Chan tomorrow (LIKE FINALLY!!!!)

I'm not exactly liking today but since its going to be over soon then.... goodnight.

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Day's events:

Today, I realized I made a mistake in my timetable - my Calculus tutorial should be 11am to 12pm tomorrow instead of today.

And since I didn't know I got the days wrong, I went for what I thought was Calculus tutorial in that classroom I'm supposed to go to tomorrow and sat in the class for 10 minutes? I was so embarrassed I just ran out of the classroom lol (while the tutor faced the whiteboard) Idk why the girl beside me didn't realize I was reading MA1102R and my tutorial was obviously different from hers but I realized and I asked her if I was in the wrong class, if I was in MA1102R. She said YES.
Then after a few minutes, I saw that the tutor asked a few students to go up to present their work and the questions+answers on the board was not even similar to my tutorial and so I asked the girl beside me again "Are you sure I'm in the right class?!" then we both realized I'm not.
But nvm, not like anyone in that class knows me.

mmm then I met Kelz for lunch at Utown and then went back to the library to read a bit of stuff before heading home (and Kelz goes for her next lecture) So now I know I only have one tutorial on Tuesday That is, if I decide to skip my Calculus lecture because I'm attending Hazel's one - which is way more effective and the lecturer is much more interesting. He's got this rather high pitched voice and you can feel his zest for the subject. We even stayed after the lecture because we wanted to clarify some doubts --> at least he makes you want to know what you're doing and not just, not care~

But I have to say, some of the students kept spamming him with questions and Hazel and I had to wait and queue behind all of them. -.- (There was this dude who asked a few questions and then went back to his book, flipped a few pages then went back to ask again ++ These students will hang around to hear what you've got to ask and then scribble down more stuff on their notes. Which I find rather annoying.) The lecturer thought we were about to leave without asking him the questions we wanted to ask (because we were walking away from the table) and he stopped us to say he will answer our questions in that high pitched voice of his HAHA (which shows that he wants us to ask him questions and will gladly explain them to us)

Anyway, I think the math lecturers/tutors are pretty nice so far. Had to sit next to the math lecturer (who sat in to observe the class or something) since I was late for Math tutorial this morning. He was rather nice and he asked me how I find the tutorial. I told him what I don't understand and he explained to me  right there and then (while the tutor continued to go on about the other questions) Wouldn't mind sitting next to the lecturer again for the next tutorial because then I can just ask him whatever I want easily. I thought the tutor looked like he....... hmmmm like the sort of teacher who will get bullied by his students if he went to some secondary school because he seemed scared and unconfident.

but still, I like the lecturers so far. :) That's why I think the lecturers/tutors matter just as much (and not just the students) when it comes to learning.