Like stress leh.

I'm not too sure if I'm feeling that stressed, but then I think I am.

I haven't been sleeping well these nights and that stresses me out because I WANT TO SLEEP. The thought of not having enough energy to study the next day and dark eye circles freak me out and pressurizes me to go to bed but I just can't seem to sleep. Knowing everyone's studying a lot more adds on to the pressure. So I get stressed and want to drink more tea/coffee (to keep myself energized for longer study sessions) and that perpetuates the vicious cycle. Can't wait for next week to be over and I don't feel very prepared for any of the papers despite studying more than I did back in JC.

Put all my other plans on hold and just, study first.

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Not sure if its just me or if everyone takes equally as long to finish reading just one chapter for Psychology.
Tomorrow, I shall attempt to wake up early, get some coffee from Koi then go to school and start studying. Not too early I guess? I don't want to tire myself out. I guess I don't really care if coffee shrinks my boobs anymore hahahahah

One week of studying then one week of exams and I'll be free. Press on ><

Sunshine & City Lights

Loving the rain and the company.

Currently listening to : Autumn Leaves by Ed Sheeran

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I went back to school in the afternoon - supposedly to meet Jiayan to study at the benches near S16 but I ended up studying there by myself (because I had a drink and couldn't go to the library anyway) while JY escaped to the library for air-con. I used to not like studying at benches but somehow, I find the ones near S16 quite nice to study at. And maybe because it was about to rain when I reached school so it wasn't warm at all. The one thing I dislike about studying in school on the weekends is that the stalls in the canteen will not be open :( So, I cannot have my usual steamed soups. The Subway stand is still available though. I bought cold cut today (and learnt that cold cut isn't cold - I always thought it was supposed to be......... because I always consume it cold?) The funny thing was when I paid for my subway and left the subway stand without my subway -.-
Stayed at the benches till about 8.30pm before JY came down to look for me and then we went Star Vista for dinner. I'll have to say that I really like Star Vista! I like that it feels peaceful and also, the steps before the fountain - like how you can just sit there and talk for hours (but then, that depends on who you're with).

Tomorrow's Sunday, don't think I'll go back to school..?
Life's been pretty good to me - I just got 3 new pairs of shoes and a new bag and I finally got my allowance. Probably will not spend much the next week since I'll just be camping in school to study. Good luck to everyone studying :)

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I haven't been blogging much because I've been trying really hard to keep myself focused on my studies - which is really really really tough because there are just so many distractions e.g. the new drama I'm watching, shopping, my mum (my mum is one major distraction, I can never study whenever she's at home) etc. I force myself to stay back in school after my lectures to do some revision because I know I'll get none done if I were to just go back home. Its tough, really and it takes a lot of self-discipline which hahahhaha I've kinda lost ever since JC. Tomorrow's Saturday but I think I'm just gonna go back to school because I don't want to waste another day doing nothing at home. Like today. I had no lessons and I woke up at 1pm, watched my drama till 3? 4? then had lunch at about 4+ and then napped till 8pm and then dinner and then... now, I don't know what I'm doing. So, going back to school tomorrow is a must-do.

What happened during the past week hmmm.
Oh I went out on a Sunday? I think? Because I needed to shop for something and I went back to school to look for Kellee after that. We stayed in school until 10+ and we didn't even realize it was that late because that part of school was still pretty crowded. We didn't even know if the shuttle bus services were still operating but well, it was a good experience.
Then was Deepavali on a Tuesday. That day didn't turn out as planned but it was still a rather good day for me I guess. I was supposed to go out but someone fell sick so I stayed home to do differential equations hahahaha I guess I was a tad disappointed but it doesn't matter. Then I went for my mum's Deepavali celebration (that celebration I thought I wouldn't go but went eventually) and got 50 bucks for attending. My mum's colleagues said the same thing when they see me - I guess its pretty obvious, "19? SO SMALL? She looks 13/14/15" Yeah, that was the range I got i.e the secondary school range and that's like... younger than my brother. I was glad I went for it because I was so broke this week (I didn't get my allowance). Then I went out after dinner because I just had to hahaha
Then did I mention going for some paid experiment on Monday? Maybe I did. I was so hungry while doing the experiment, my stomach kept growling and I was glad I was kept in this small room by myself. I told the person-in-charge that I was hungry though, because she heard my stomach growl in the first few minutes of the experiment ><


I don't think I should be at home for the whole of next week. Ask me out to school please HAHA
or keep me somewhere like in the Chinese Room.

mehhhhh

So I received this mail from Mediacorp saying that they want to use our place for filming which I thought was pretty random.

I went for some paid experiment while in school today. Had to do so to earn some money hahahahahah Actually I didn't think I'd need that additional 10 bucks (like I merely wanted to try it) but I was wrong, I needed the 10 bucks because I don't have allowance this week! (my grandmother went overseas and she's usually the one who gives me my allowance) Paid the fee for the application to transfer - which was 10 bucks so....... I'm back to being broke. Not sure what we'll end up eating when we're out tomorrow HAHA I should sign up for more paid experiments - easy way to earn some petty cash.

I need everything to work out perfectly :|

Can't believe I stayed in school till 10++ pm on a Sunday.

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Shopping was tiring

This song is nice~

In addition to the cold, rainy, snuggly, sweater weather, I didn't have to go to school so today was pretty much perfect. I woke up at 9 but went back to sleep because the weather was perfect for it and I woke up near 12? Made myself hot coffee and watched some drama for awhile and then the thought of "shopping maybe?" popped up in my head so I decided to whatsapp Kelz - the only other person with a slack Friday and we went out to Bugis.

I bought a maroon coloured dress (the sales assistant said I looked good in maroon. I thought so too hahahah) and a top yay :) After shopping, we had dinner at Ajisen and then I had this random desire to trim my fringe and so I did. I think we spent only 5 minutes in the salon? And it was back to shopping, but not for myself. That part of today's shopping was tough. Its tough because you will want to get something nice (in your opinion) and also to make sure that the receiver thinks its nice so............ meh.

While I was trying to top up my card just now, I heard some girl telling her friends that she liked my card sticker i.e. the Justin Bieber sticker on my card hahahahha I turned and gave the smug face I think HAHAH (The Whatsapp smug face look)
Yesterday's chilling session with Jiayan and Daphne was nice too hahahah I think it's the weather and together with good company, everything just seems so much better. I stayed for like a few minutes then went for my RP (MY LAST RP. YES) which took like only 15 minutes then I ran back to look for JY and Dng. Tried the pancakes from Humble Origins (Jiayan's "Humble Pie") and well, I thought they were just so-so but I was hungry so I just needed food. I don't like their menu though, its quite hard to comprehend...... the one thing that didn't make sense to me was "Maple Syrup and Butter OR Ice-cream" I asked JY if it even made sense, and there was "French toast (or was it pancake? I cannot remember) with bacon, banana (COMMA? Shouldn't it be like AND/OR?) It was just so weird I couldn't stop laughing.

Feeling sleepy already, I spent so much more this week I don't think I can afford to do so the next week. Oh noooo then there goes my plan to go to Paradise Dynasty@Ion for lunch/dinner :|

I've been using my NUS ID to enter gmarket.

I lazed for the past few days.

Met Wannqin for lunch in town yesterday. Our initial plan was to study after lunch but we ended up shopping for presents hahahha Although I did nothing much (actually, nothing) for the day, I was glad to have spent it with a new friend ^^ Then I met Gordon for ice-cream (actually to watch him eat because I'm saving money for something). Somehow, I feel a need to maintain my shrinking social circle. After that, I went back to town again because I wanted to buy stuff from Spotlight and saw WQ again so I joined her + Chen + her og for dinner before going back to shop for my stuff.

Like a chill life.

I haven't explored the extension of Plaza Sing though, someday~

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I have nothing to say.

Thank you friends :')

I have some very cute friends.

Hm, so today I was supposed to go out with Audrey for lunch. I was lateeeeeeee (partly because of the rain and the other part was because I was watching Modern Family) and thought maybe I should cab down. So I went into this cab and I told the uncle I wanted to get to Orchard but he said there was a heavy jam and my reply was "No choice. I still have to get there." HAHA And we were already like moving so I thought he would just ignore me and continue to drive on but he offered to drive me to the nearest train station FOC - not like the train station is super far but I was really thankful that he drove me there because I was in heels and I was feeling lazy about having to walk to the bus stop/mrt station.

Before that, I fell down when I was at home. Somehow I thought that was quite funny, though painful.

Then while in the train, I kicked/stepped on somebody's feet accidentally. I was so tall (for the day lah hahahah) I didn't see her and I bet that must have been really painful and I felt so bad.

Then I met Audrey and we did the usual walk-about-randomly-in-town and we were thinking of what to have for lunch. We went into LV, Chanel for the fun of it~ and I thought Audrey was unusually busy on her phone for that day then she suddenly said we should go Ichiban Sushi because her friend recommended it. We went and I saw our classmates at a table and was quite shocked. Shocked because I thought they were having a class gathering without Audrey and me :'( And I was thinking "omg how awkward is this.... so are we supposed to join them or sit somewhere else", until I realized it was for me lol It was a good surprise since I really didn't expect it. I was still drowning in yesterday's emo mood.

and they got me Someday by Justin Bieber <3 align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;" table="table">

"OMG! Is that the Cheryltan?!" LOL

Somebody got me the eye ring eh HAHA I couldn't stop laughing at that because I didn't mean it when I said I liked it. But I will like it now hahahahhaAnyway, it really was a very good day. I guess my birthday wasn't as bad as I thought it was.

And the magic for that one day disappeared

I slipped, fell and let out a yelp. Now I'm bleeding :|

How I spent my day

My morning was pretty much a mad rush because I was late for tutorial

Ok I don't even want to talk about school.

I left school and met Kellee in town for lunch and we decided to try Marmalade Toast Cafe. As you can already see, we ordered a pizza - that's the tandoori chicken one and I tried the almond latte too ^^

The pizza was pretty filling for me actually.

then what else did we do,

nothing. We went shopping but I didn't buy anything else after my impulse shopping at Clementi mall. I wanted to wear something nicer to meet Kelz and so, I took 96 from FASS to Clementi Mall and headed straight to one particular shop, took a dress, went into the changing room, came out and asked the sales assistant if they sell belts too and then asked them to help me cut the tags.

I even asked for their opinion - actually I already knew/thought it was nice but I just needed reassurance. I felt soooooooooooooooooo much better with the new dress on.

The only person I know with slack Fridays is Kellee hahahaha and I'm glad I spent my birthday with her too :)
Probably will meet everyone else (as in whoever who wants to meet me) on the weekends or..... idk, whenever.

Turning 19 is really nothing worth celebrating imo. I was rather upset about it because I still feel like I don't know what I'm doing with my life. People seem to know what they're doing, like they have it all planned or under control or something but I'm still........ here. And then I thought of the people who sent me birthday messages, I've been gone for like a huge part of their lives (vice-versa) and I missed having them in my life. The thought of it saddens me.

I'm not sure if I'm just pms-ing LOL Pretty emotional today. I teared while reading some messages.

I'd say this combination of turning 19 +  impending menstruation is an awful one. But nonetheless, I'm thankful for the heartfelt messages.

I always feel like crying on my birthday because the people you never thought will remember you actually still bother to leave you a birthday message and it just makes you feel a little more special, even if it means just one day.

Just one more year before I hit 20

How timely~

The parcel reached one day before my birthday (That's one of the better things that happened to me today) 

My day started pretty badly. I think it all started with that Calculus homework (because I was irritated with myself for not knowing how to do the questions and it was to be handed up today) - that really ruined my mood for the day. Then I also realized I forgot to print lecture notes so despite already being late, I had to make a trip to the library to print them then walked to the LT. And I got a bit lost while on my way there, in the elevator. I forgot which level the LT was on and I pressed 4 then realized it was wrong so I pressed 3 which was also wrong so I tried 5 then 6 then 2 and yeah, the LT was on the second floor. Lucky for me, I was the only person in the elevator. So I missed like half of math lecture and then I had to miss half of Calculus lecture because I had RP~ (Yay, +2 points so I have 8 now)

The person who delivered the parcel called me during Calculus lecture and asked me if there was anyone at home - which I obviously wouldn't know so I told her "maybe you want to try pressing the bell?". But anyway, she passed my parcel to my neighbours (and also lucky for me, my neighbours are pretty nice people and I always wave/smile to them, except on days when I'm running out of the house because I'm late for school)

I completed my RP (which was supposed to take me 40 mins - 1 hour) within 15 minutes and met Jiayan and Hazel @Starbucks where they surprised me with some oreo cheesecake and a balloon and Justin Bieber badges, so cute :) (I meant, so cute of them) *THANKS AGAIN, if you're reading this* So my day ended on a really positive note.

+ Did I mention I saw the cute guy from Calculus lecture hahahhahahaah
++some friendly lady called me cute somemore hehe and she liked the ribbon on my hair ^^ (which I liked too. Obviously, if not why is it even on my hair~)

All the little things that made my day better. Actually, I think I was freaking out about turning 19 earlier in the day; because after 1st Nov then I'll be officially 19 :| and I kept thinking of how I should spend my last day as being 18 until I got all flustered.

but now its here so... Happy Birthday to me.

oops I cannot remember what I wished for earlier in the day when Jiayan and Hazel presented me with the cake. 2nd November will just be another day for me to get through - I'll have like one tutorial then some paid experiment to attend hmm