I don't want to lose the faith.

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My last post was approximately 2 weeks ago? I haven't been doing much, besides all the meet ups with friends. Met Sylv, Kevin and Soh this week. The dinner with Sylv and KT was quite random HAHA but I'm kinda still glad it happened and that it wasn't awkward (thought it was potentially awkward initially). We took polaroid, albeit a not very nice shot because the picture was so off centre.

Then with Soh : We tried Canele at Plaza Singapura. I went to town 2/5 week days this week, its getting boring but town seems to be the perfect meeting point for everyone. Canele's a really nice place to just sit and chill at. Every time I walk past, I'm just filled with envy because the people in Canele seem like they're just enjoying their high tea session, having good life~ and I like that sort of lifestyle. The sort where you don't have to use your brains and where you can just sit, chill, be free of all worries (tentatively) and just enjoy a cup of coffee or a slice of cake. This type of indulgence is good every once in a while, when you need a break from everything else in life. We stayed there for a few hours-Not everyone can stand sitting in a cafe for a few hours, doing nothing else but talk hahhaha

then also met up with the usual peeps at Timbre. Idk why I felt so down that day.

I didn't know "Forever 19" existed lol It's this shop located in Plaza Sing that sells its stuff at 19 bucks. There were wedges and heels at $19 >< BUT I MANAGED TO RESIST THE TEMPTATION.

The only thing I remember from last week was shopping. I went shopping when I was out with Audrey  on Friday and then with Amanda on Saturday.
Actually I don't think I have anything to look forward to on Christmas so I guess I should stop feeling excited about it lololol I bought a few dresses though but.... well well, not sure when I'll have the occasion to wear them.

Hope things go well for me :)

Embrace ambiguity

FINALS ENDED YESTERDAY

I didn't feel as er euphoric as I thought I would, I just felt tired but yup, glad I'm liberated from the stress. Probably because I went to bed at 2+ the night before, trying to revise for my last paper and then woke up at like 9am  to continue studying till 1+ in the afternoon (which is like 1 hour before the paper). Still not quite sure what plans I'll have for this 1 month break.

Philo paper was the shortest because it consisted of a mere 20 mcqs. I finished it within 30 minutes (?), not because I know the answers to everything but because I chose what I already think are the right answers so I wouldn't change them even if I were to stay in the exam hall for the whole 2 hours. Accidentally left a pad on the table while taking out my exam essentials (i.e. bottle, jacket, sweet, pencil case) and I only realized it when the paper was about to start. But I had nowhere to hide it and having a pad on your desk.... what message does that even send?! "That I'm having my menses and I'm gonna change my pad in front of 20-odd people" lol so I ran back to my bag threw it in. Calculus paper was.. bad. I felt like we should be given >2 hours. Wouldn't mind if they reduced Philo paper to 1 hour and increased Calculus to 3 hours.

Anyway, everything's over so I'm looking forward to Christmas.

Like stress leh.

I'm not too sure if I'm feeling that stressed, but then I think I am.

I haven't been sleeping well these nights and that stresses me out because I WANT TO SLEEP. The thought of not having enough energy to study the next day and dark eye circles freak me out and pressurizes me to go to bed but I just can't seem to sleep. Knowing everyone's studying a lot more adds on to the pressure. So I get stressed and want to drink more tea/coffee (to keep myself energized for longer study sessions) and that perpetuates the vicious cycle. Can't wait for next week to be over and I don't feel very prepared for any of the papers despite studying more than I did back in JC.

Put all my other plans on hold and just, study first.

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Not sure if its just me or if everyone takes equally as long to finish reading just one chapter for Psychology.
Tomorrow, I shall attempt to wake up early, get some coffee from Koi then go to school and start studying. Not too early I guess? I don't want to tire myself out. I guess I don't really care if coffee shrinks my boobs anymore hahahahah

One week of studying then one week of exams and I'll be free. Press on ><

Sunshine & City Lights

Loving the rain and the company.

Currently listening to : Autumn Leaves by Ed Sheeran

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I went back to school in the afternoon - supposedly to meet Jiayan to study at the benches near S16 but I ended up studying there by myself (because I had a drink and couldn't go to the library anyway) while JY escaped to the library for air-con. I used to not like studying at benches but somehow, I find the ones near S16 quite nice to study at. And maybe because it was about to rain when I reached school so it wasn't warm at all. The one thing I dislike about studying in school on the weekends is that the stalls in the canteen will not be open :( So, I cannot have my usual steamed soups. The Subway stand is still available though. I bought cold cut today (and learnt that cold cut isn't cold - I always thought it was supposed to be......... because I always consume it cold?) The funny thing was when I paid for my subway and left the subway stand without my subway -.-
Stayed at the benches till about 8.30pm before JY came down to look for me and then we went Star Vista for dinner. I'll have to say that I really like Star Vista! I like that it feels peaceful and also, the steps before the fountain - like how you can just sit there and talk for hours (but then, that depends on who you're with).

Tomorrow's Sunday, don't think I'll go back to school..?
Life's been pretty good to me - I just got 3 new pairs of shoes and a new bag and I finally got my allowance. Probably will not spend much the next week since I'll just be camping in school to study. Good luck to everyone studying :)

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I haven't been blogging much because I've been trying really hard to keep myself focused on my studies - which is really really really tough because there are just so many distractions e.g. the new drama I'm watching, shopping, my mum (my mum is one major distraction, I can never study whenever she's at home) etc. I force myself to stay back in school after my lectures to do some revision because I know I'll get none done if I were to just go back home. Its tough, really and it takes a lot of self-discipline which hahahhaha I've kinda lost ever since JC. Tomorrow's Saturday but I think I'm just gonna go back to school because I don't want to waste another day doing nothing at home. Like today. I had no lessons and I woke up at 1pm, watched my drama till 3? 4? then had lunch at about 4+ and then napped till 8pm and then dinner and then... now, I don't know what I'm doing. So, going back to school tomorrow is a must-do.

What happened during the past week hmmm.
Oh I went out on a Sunday? I think? Because I needed to shop for something and I went back to school to look for Kellee after that. We stayed in school until 10+ and we didn't even realize it was that late because that part of school was still pretty crowded. We didn't even know if the shuttle bus services were still operating but well, it was a good experience.
Then was Deepavali on a Tuesday. That day didn't turn out as planned but it was still a rather good day for me I guess. I was supposed to go out but someone fell sick so I stayed home to do differential equations hahahaha I guess I was a tad disappointed but it doesn't matter. Then I went for my mum's Deepavali celebration (that celebration I thought I wouldn't go but went eventually) and got 50 bucks for attending. My mum's colleagues said the same thing when they see me - I guess its pretty obvious, "19? SO SMALL? She looks 13/14/15" Yeah, that was the range I got i.e the secondary school range and that's like... younger than my brother. I was glad I went for it because I was so broke this week (I didn't get my allowance). Then I went out after dinner because I just had to hahaha
Then did I mention going for some paid experiment on Monday? Maybe I did. I was so hungry while doing the experiment, my stomach kept growling and I was glad I was kept in this small room by myself. I told the person-in-charge that I was hungry though, because she heard my stomach growl in the first few minutes of the experiment ><


I don't think I should be at home for the whole of next week. Ask me out to school please HAHA
or keep me somewhere like in the Chinese Room.

mehhhhh

So I received this mail from Mediacorp saying that they want to use our place for filming which I thought was pretty random.

I went for some paid experiment while in school today. Had to do so to earn some money hahahahahah Actually I didn't think I'd need that additional 10 bucks (like I merely wanted to try it) but I was wrong, I needed the 10 bucks because I don't have allowance this week! (my grandmother went overseas and she's usually the one who gives me my allowance) Paid the fee for the application to transfer - which was 10 bucks so....... I'm back to being broke. Not sure what we'll end up eating when we're out tomorrow HAHA I should sign up for more paid experiments - easy way to earn some petty cash.