SAY SAY SAY SAY

YOU LOVE MY BLOG SONG RIGHT NOW. HAHA!!

I seriously am so hooked on this song- Waiting For The End.

It rained so heavily today. :(

And my umbrella wasn't with me...... so, once again, I walked in the rain.

So it'll be no wonder if I do fall sick eventually.

Morning passed by reallyreallyreally fast. Woke up at like 10am? when I was supposed to be up earlier to do my thing. OHWELLS. Ok, I have till like 3pm to do it tomorrow. Gotta get it done.

After eating two really mini pankcakes, I went to school to pass Junan my speakers thennnn.. headed for tuition but I was a little too early. :o/

So I spent a little me time at the playground near Miss Chua's place. Sat there, ate the sushi I bought from Coronation Plaza and the soybean milk from Golden Rooster and also read my book... I feel like camping at Kinokuniya!! :S But nono. Tomorrow's meant for me to finish at least one of it!!! And then at about 4pm, I'll have tuition again.

After tuition, had dinner at LeWu with Amanda. YAY! I had today's serving of vegetables. :))

SATISFIED. Though I could have finished another plate (I bet I could!! Because my lunch was those 6 small, teeny, weeny sushis and soybean milk).

But before Amanda reached, I was just roaming around. I sat at the bus stop, staring at the rain, waiting for it to stop... then went into Fairprice where I encountered a dilemma.

I saw so many packets of nuts but I couldn't decide which to buy. Then I came down to TWO choices - almonds or cashews.

BUT. Both choices were like close to 5 bucks and I'm trying to control my spending. :(((

So I didn't buy. SIGHS.

Then, both of us went back to school and stayed till like, 9 plus?

I was feeling quite tired throughout the entire day so now's like totally comfy because I'm resting against two pillows with my laptop resting on more pillows and a quilt and my tummy..

Dance camp on Thursday..............................

Christmas very soon.

Will there be magic?? Or will anything special happen if I were to make a Christmas wish at 12am????

No Santa.

No reindeers.

No Christmas socks/stockings--> I HAVE ONE PAIR or maybe more, at home.

I've grown up. :o/

Anyway, I can't help but think "iYiYi" by Cody Simpson sounds quite retarded. But hmmm, it's that sort of stupid enough song to make you smile like an idiot.

5 more mins to 11.11

Today's a little weird. Ohwells.

I'm gonna do it tomorrow~

WAIT!! THIS IS LINKIN PARK!! DON'T MUTE YOUR COMPUTER!! :D

The one song I'm hooked to currently. Liked it the first time I heard it but now I'm lovin' it so it's going to be on my blog.

BUT I MISS THE JB SONG TOOOOOOOOO!! Ohwells.

YAY!!!! I finally bought the stuff I need and I guess, tomorrow will be the day. OMG. I hope nothing goes wrong.

It's gonna be beautiful. (I hope) I'm so excited. :)

YAYYYYYY!!

Anyway, today was a rather well-spent day.

Met Amanda for brunch in the morning then went for dance prac. THENNNNN.... We went to roam around Orchard again. HAHA!!

We were supposed to meet at like 11.15am but we ended up meeting at about 12.

BECAUSE someone woke up late. HAHA! But aiya, I ended up staying longer online, listening to songs... camwhoring... ( I think I take a photobooth at least once a day) --> That was my orignal plan though, to take a picture every day to show so I can see how much I've changed over the years. Why didn't my mum think of thattttt?!

Orchard, orchard, orchard. I kinda know my way around there already. :) Yayy!! Another achievement! Teehee!!

I left the house with just 2 Sing dollars and 5 Yuan. HAHA!! How broke.

So I withdrew 50, paid 15, spent erm probably 20 on food today.

Brunch at KFC, Lunch at ION --> I had my milk tea again ;)

Dinner was at Thai Express at Plaza Singapura.

Went to Art Friend and omg, "Amanda! I think we made a new friend at Art Friend."

There was this guy who works at Art Friend and he recognized the both of us when we were over there today. "I remember you two. Same bag."

COOOOOOOL. Then he kept making some comments while walking past the both of us. HAHA!!

Amanda and I spent quite some time at Kinokuniya, reading some educational material. HAHA!! OMG~ (I really learnt quite a lot. ^^)

"We know where to go if we don't feel like spending money+want to spend some time reading+able to talk and laugh freely".

Next time, perhaps, I'll just sit there and read the Archie Comics. Andandand. You know they have this Justin Bieber book and on the cover it says

"Super cute. Super hot. Super cool. The only one Justin Bieber" --> Something like that. Costs about 30? (Still can't decide if I should get his album or not which costs about 20?)

Amanda and I are just going to the same place everyyyyyyday. HAHA!! And the amazing thing, we don't see any familiar faces. :o/ I wonder what everyone else is up to....

Damn. Today's supposed meet-up was screwed up. :o/

Tomorrow's gonna be tuition then school. FINALLY! I'm going to schoooooool!! It's been quite some time since I last went back. And guess I'll probably come home late again tomorrow.

I'm listening to young boys again.

HAHA!! I CHANCED UPON IT OK~

Now it's Cody Simpson--> Champion swimmer in Australia and he's inspired by Justin Timberlake. (Good taste he has over there)

Someone said he looked like a fish. -.-

I think, JB is still better. :)) Guess I need to create a playlist titled "pedophile" with all these songs by Greyson Chance, Justin Bieber, Cody Simpson...

I want to get my hands on the new JB album :o/

Just standing next to his poster that day made me quite happy. HAHA!!

Back from watching Easy A with Amanda Chan.

Had dinner at Swensen's.

And omg. I have only one note left in my wallet now. And the worse thing is that I can't even use that note - because it's 5 yuan or something. :o/

And I've got quite a few foreign coins in my wallet too so I'm broke again. What did I spend my money on this time.... (oh right, the taxi yesterday because I missed my last train home then plus the movie ticket and then dinner).

Ohwells, but the money spent on movie was well-spent. The one useful thing that I did today would totally be watching Easy A with Amanda.

Another war between my bro and mum again today. -.-

As usual, I was just doing my own thing, packing my bag, choosing my clothes etc.

I feel like my brother and I are really total opposites.

First, I support Justins whereas he doesn't. --> Ok, I know a lot of people are not on my side for this one (I'm rolling my eyes~)

Secondly, I'm always thinking of "escaping" from home, can't stand doing nothing at home whereas my brother seem to enjoy so.

Third. I'm very sociable as compared to my brother and I talk a lot more than him.

I'm way more childish in actions but more mature in thoughts. (Teehee).

There are quite a few others, but mainly the personality. I don't dare to talk to him much because I have this feeling he thinks I'm lame. (WHATEVER~~~)

**Did I ever say this? People always think I'm the younger sibling and I was once mistook for my brother's girlfriend.

Sighs. So today's war started because my brother couldn't make up his mind as to whether he wants to stay at home or to go out with my mum. And he was taking veryveryveryvery long to decide and so my mum got pissed. :o/ And my mum was discussing with me about trying to change him. -.- (which in my opinion, will be kinda futile. I mean, no point trying to change someone when he/she doesn't feel like doing so. The plan will only backfire. That's IMO.)

Whatever. Anyway, Amanda Chan just told me she got "attacked" by a pervy dude.

AAARG!!! YUCKYUCK!! It's bad it's bad.

I'm listening to JB, thinking of all the positive things that can possibly happen in life and then Amanda encountered a horny bastard. THIS IS NOT GOOOOOOOOD!!!

"HE SHOULD GO GET A WHORE OR SOMETHING!!!" CURSE HIM!!

He needs to listen to more JB music. Then he'll be like me. CLEAN. PURE.

HAHA!

Today is yet another day.

Except there's no tuition today.

*1 New Message*

AMANDA CHANNNN!! :D

Oh yay! So I was thinking of catching a movie and the only one person who came to my mind was Amanda Chan. I seriously couldn't think of anyone else who likes impromptu meet-ups.

This is greatgreatgreat. :))

A few movies I feel like watching: Easy A, Hello Stranger (something like that~), Yogi Bear..

I see my money flying away... but I think it's a better alternative to cooping myself at home and letting my active imagination/thinking take place.

This year, I will have no Christmas tree to decorate. :o/

But then, just that day, Karin was saying something about volunteering during Christmas period. Ohwells. Hopefully, I'll be free (that's the one thing since so many things are unconfirmed). If I get to be part of the volunteering event then *omg* my Christmas will be veryveryveryveryveryvery meaningful. :)

- - - - - - - - -

And yesterday was the only day I felt like I did read my notes even though it was a short few hours and plus there were intervals of crapping.

I don't know why

but everytime I'm listening to a Justin Bieber song on my itunes, I feel the need to show it on my MSN or perhaps, enlarge the album artwork on my itunes. HAH!

Tuition postponed to 5pm so here I am, sitting right in front of Japple again and, listening to JB.

I really love this song playing on my blog (Heehee).

Anyways, I made a discovery. For some unknown reason, I feel like, old people like talking to me. HAHA! There were quite a few times when random old men talk to me. Old women like smiling to me. Ohwells~

But I feel happy talking to them, like, the smiles on their faces make me feel like "I made your day at least a little".

My days seem to be filled with tuition. -.- But I don't mind actually, at least I'll be "forced" to do some work.

As usual, I slept at 1 am (++) then woke up at like 12pm. Had one Chipsmore cookie and a little bit of coffee for "breakfast". I have no idea if I'm losing weight or what because my shorts felt a little loose on me when I thought it fit well that last time I tried it.

Haven't been checking on my weight.

My mum kept telling me I should get those bands from Power Balance because I'm so weak/I look like I'll fall anytime/I look like I'll fly away with the wind and so I need something to keep me stable on the ground. -.-

Finally, I get my apples. It's been very long since I last ate one.

And since I was bored, I camwhored with the apple.

EH! The apple on the first picture looks like pacman! :)

If only I can spend my days on this grassy field, eating apples.

Today's post is very short because I can't seem to think of anything else to blog about.

Oh yeah, because I was overwhelmed with the unlocking of my password on my macbook, I forgot to thank someone (I think I thanked you on MSN but here's another one):

THANK YOU VERY MUCH GOH SHAO WEE even though I didn't need to use your mac os install disc afterall.

And once again

I couldn't sleep at all last night.

And I wonder if it's all because I drank like, latte before dinner. Oh wells.

I was still on my bed, wide awake when the sun was up.

Because I couldn't sleep, I was like thinking of stories- hoping that "story telling" will make me go to sleep eventually. And one particular story came to my head.

It was related to the chinese idiom: 塞翁失马，焉之非福。

I love that idiom simply because I love its story.

So anyway, the story was like playing in my head, about how the guy lost his horse and he just felt it wasn't something to be unhappy over and true enough, the horse returned with another horse so it was double happiness. But it wasn't something to rejoice over as soon after, the guy's son broke his leg while riding the horse or something so it was supposedly a bad news but then, due to his broken leg, his son was spared from being enlisted into the army or something...

THEN SUDDENLY, I got reminded of my OLDER phone number.

Remember that one day when I was so super pissed because dumb Adium couldn't work and I wasn't able to download some other messenger because I didn't know the password to my Macbook account. The clue they showed me was : handphone.

And I remember that night, when I was like so frustrated and I tried every possible handphone number I remember but nothing worked.

So when I got reminded of that one number yesterday, I immediately stored it in my phone. Just tried it. But it showed "incorrect password".

But I couldn't think of any other handphone numbers so I re-tried all the numbers and I found it.

It's just my CURRENT handphone number. -.-

So I guess, today wouldn't be so bad a day??

Waiting for the finale of ANTM Cycle 15!! Just watched the second last episode and I found out one of the models over there is actually a JB FAN. HAHA!!

Shall have lunch later on then off to tuition and it'll be night by the time I reach home so, another day will be over soon.. ..

BACK.

So I'm back from my supposed study session which was really. HAH. Fail.

Immediately after blogging (the second post for today), I felt hungry so I went for dinner at Ajisen.

OVER at Ajisen, I eavesdropped on someone's conversation by accident~~

Recently, there were quite a few posts on Sam Tsui and Christina Grimmie's cover on Nelly's "Just A Dream". So yeah, there were this two guys who was sitting at the next table, discussing about that - from Sam Tsui's nationality to sexuality.

FYI, Sam Tsui actually works with this person named "Kurt Hugo Schneider". (Something like that~)

Back to the two men. So man number 1 was saying that Sam Tsui's gay and his partner is Kurt.

Then man number 2 said something like "GAY?! How can it be?! Bieber is what I call gay."

Fortunately, I finished my ramen. TSK. Bieber is not gay.... :o/ I don't understand, when his voice was at its original pitch, people called him gay. Now that it's deeper, he's still gay. -.- DUMMMMB people.

Finally, I synchronized my iPOD and all I listened to was the songs from My Worlds Acoustic, and maybe just that one new song by Eminem - I Need A Doctor.

Tuition again tomorrow. Thank God I found "new" songs today.

On my way home from Tiong Bahru, I just kept listening to the acoustic version of Baby from My Worlds Acoustic (and I realized I have 3 different versions of Baby)

One is the original one.

The second is the acoustic version is his not-yet-deepened-voice.

The third is the acoustic version with his deepened voice.

And I have two versions of "One Less Lonely Girl" and 3 versions of "One Time" also. :D Teehee. I'm not crazy over Bieber as a person ok, just the songs.

I don't know, I think I was too engrossed in my music and I thought I missed the station --> I alighted one station earlier and I ran out of the train somemore. -.- Then I realized the doors were still opened so I ran back in. -.- (I ran into the cabins further down so that I won't look as stupid.) HAHA! And on the train, I saw like three adults trying to tickle each other or something. (Aren't they childish?)

And because my music was quite loud, I couldn't hear the surrounding NOISE (I was listening to MUSIC). Everyone who was talking just seemed like they were singing along to "Baby"~

+++I THINK I'M FALLING SICK.

IMMA BELIEBER (L-O-L) / BIEBER LINGO

I thought it was over but OMG, no. Now I'm listening to all his songs ALL OVER AGAIN.

DON'T MUTE YOUR COM. Seriously. Just listen on and I really think it's not too bad. This is the acoustic version of Baby. It's slightly different (not just his voice, the lyrics too).

Had tuition and I'm supposed to be studying NOW but ANYWAY,

The second song on the playlist is a remix of One Time --> For this one, his voice is at its original pitch.

Then the third one is by Eminem (released about a week ago?) so if you don't like Bieber.. (BUT I still think we should all listen to Bieber first.)

I keep hearing how sucky he's gonna sound with his new deepened voice but no. I think he sounds good. :D

If they're going to sell this:

in Singapore, I'LL BUY IT. Eh, it's really not tooooo bad ok.

I haven't been updating myself on Bieber for quite some time already, until today when I saw this song "Pray" on the 913 charts then I went to search for it on Youtube and I was linked to some of his other songs - there's this remix version of "One Time" --> Remixed with "Just The Way You Are" and it was this one song that made me feel like today actually wasn't veryyy bad.

(Today's supposedly quite bad because of some incidents sighs which made me feel like, I agree with Charlie Brown even more now --> one of the post on my Tumblr.)

BIEBER LINGO:

Bieberfied
To write Justin's name or "I love Justin Bieiber" on your personal possessions such as pencil cases, school bags or siblings.
Context: "I totally Bieberfied my whole bedroom today."

Eager Bieber
A fan who will do anything to meet Bieber.
Context: "She's such an eager Bieber, she was waiting for him at the signing at 5am."

OMB
The acronym for "oh my Bieber", a phrase used by many excited Bieber fans.
Context: "OMB! Justin just tweeted me!"

Bieber cut
The name given to Justin Bieber signature hair styled.
Context: "My brother asked the barber for a Bieber cut"

Bieber bullied
When a Bieber fan is given a hard time by friends who is a non-Beliebers.

--> Sometimes, I think I'm Bieber bullied. (WOAH, MY ZAO JU NOT BAD RIGHT.)

OK. ENOUGH. STOP.

Trying to study now but I thought, I'd want to try to get connected to the Internet.. and so here I am. Shall publish this first then.

I hope you listened to Bieber. :)

AND! If you want, I'll always be very willing to send the songs to you. HAHA!!!!

MY WORLDS ACOUSTIC!! :D

To become a true Belieber (I'm not TRULY one yet), check THIS out.

DON'T MUTE YOUR COM

BECAUSE THIS SONG IS GOOD. (IMO)

YES! I FINALLY.

Can get MORE money.

In need of money DESPERATELY.

Actually, not REAAAAAALLY that desperate but I have quite a lot of stuff to buy.

And ALSO, I have a rough idea as to what to do for Christmas already.

I've been thinking of how to tell people how much they mean to me, I mean, you see we all WANT to do that BUT the question is HOW?

We can't just go up to someone randomly and just tell them how much they mean to you in your life ALL of a sudden? Ok, you CAN but it'll be AWKWARD.

So I have an idea. HEEHEE!!

And I know I'll spend LOADS so the desperate need for money.

PLUS, I spent money again today.

Went to Orchard with Amanda Chan today but today wasn't exactly as SIAN because we *sighs* spent money eventually. Couldn't resist the temptation. UURG.

Spent a total of $17.50 on clothes and I'm planning to spend more on a pair of shoes and something else (TEEHEE). --> Belated birthday present from my mum.

Dinner was at Yoshinoya, Somerset. They have this new drink "Lychee Ume" or something. It kinda sucks. But it comes with the bowl so~ (Or you can change the drink but then you gotta pay more for it) --> Amanda and I decided to spend less on food so we'll have more for clothes etc.

And, I decided not to cut my hair for now also.

Andandand. The Christmas lights are up and they look kinda pretty at night so Amanda Chan and I took a few photos here and there. My favourite tree is the one in Takashimaya, the one made up of teddy bears!! :DDDDD

Because we fail at taking photos of ourselves, together with the trees so we got people to help us take them.

Today, we met this man who was *omg* so professional when he helped us take our photo. :D

Amanda and I were like, wondering if anyone will actually bother to squat down to help take US and the TREE and only one guy did so. :) HE GMH. :D HAHA!

Then also, we saw little kids playing this rubber band thing with lights. IT LOOKED FUN!!! Both of us were like squealing and we were trying to find the place where the kids got those toys from. It's like, the band has lights or something then you can shoot the rubber band high up and the lights will still be like flickering and ohsopretty, like a shooting star. :D

Once again, our INITIAL plan : to watch a movie wasn't carried out.

Because the movies we wanted to catch weren't showing yet -.-

+I didn't even bother to bring any notes or whatsoever today. PUREFUN today.

Even the song playing on itunes is high

"HEYHEYYOUYOUIDON'TLIKEYOURGIRLFRIEND~"

Ohyayyayyay I feel great today~~~

So today was a really great day because I got to drink milk tea (AGAIN).

Tomorrow will be a better day. I'm sure. :D

Now, time for tumblr.

Is it possible..

to have two sets of name?!

This post is totally unnecessary but I just felt like sharing the thoughts swirling in my head right now.

I thought about it for very long. Sometimes, when I'm showering... random thoughts at random places.

I like how it flows "Cheryl Tan Si Rong" but I thought of a new Chinese name for myself and when I told Alex, he laughed at me!!

I thought the name sounded quite retarded. 陈心

你说好听吗？？ 哈哈！！

Or it can be 杨心 if I feel like changing my surname to my mum's. HEEHEE. I've secretly changed it actually. Like, the name on Japple is actually Cheryl Yeo. (Though I still prefer my birth name duh)

This post is so very random but I really do feel like having more names though I have many others already - Squirrel/P6/kid/Squeaky

I know there are manyyyy more but I can't remember.

"Cheryl Tan Si Rong" sounds good on its own.

陈思蓉也行！

陈心／杨心 shall be some other names I acknowledge. HAHAHA!!!

So you see what I mean when I blogged about how I think too much.

Lazingaround.

HELLO. TODAY. WAS. ANYTHING but studying.

And I just remembered I haven't do up the study plan I'm supposed to submit.

So today was another day spent in Orchard.

Our original plan was to find someplace to do some work then maybe camwhore during self-proclaimed breaks or something. BUT. The whole plan changed.

I was the first person who reached Somerset. The time set was 12.30pm but I reached at 1pm maybe later. Then Charis reached at 1.30pm? And Jing Rong reached at 2pm.

We're so punctual~

CAN YOU BELIEVE I SPENT ONLY $1.10 TODAYYYY?!! I'm quite proud of that achievement. HEEHEE!

That $1.10 was spent on the milk tea (again) at Food Opera Hall area. Not ninety cents because I bought the larger one. And while waiting for Jing Rong, Charis and I roamed around. OH and to say what we encountered today. ERRRHUM. Charis Liew, I shall share YOUR encounter with everyone else. Thanks for making my day. HAHA!

So we were walkingwalkingwalking then this lady and this guy with a camera came over. For some unknown reason and instinctively, I walked away, leaving Charis with them. The people were from Razor TV and I wasn't like dressed impressively or whatever so I knew it shouldn't be me they want to interview. SO. I stood there and just watched in awe and amazement as Charis answered those questions and posed in front of the camera man, showing off her blingbling accessories as instructed by the camera man. Throughout the entire thing, I was just standing there, laughing. Well, the whole thing was about like them wanting to know how much people spend on their clothes... Ok. That's about it.

We were basically just roaming around freely the entire day. Lunch was at Ajisen at Takashimaya. But I didn't eat.

Not on diet. I had my "Brunch" at home so.. We camwhored a little there.

Actually, I saw quite a few stuff I'd like to buy and I've got an idea as to how to get the money from my mum. It'll definitely be a win-win situation for both my mum and myself. TEEHEE!! ^^

I wanted to cut my hair but I couldn't trust any of those shops somehow. Like, I prefer the saloon I frequent where they WASH and CUT for $22. But 22 for washing and the cutting of fringe (considering my hair length isn't veryyyy long?) is kinda, not value for money.

There was this shop playing JB's songs and now I'm thinking, why did we stay in there for so long? (I bet Charis Liew enjoyed the music too.)

Anyway, I'm kind glad today. BECAUSE. I did a good deed. Then, I made a stranger smile (OLD LADY so it wasn't the wrong kind of smile) on my way home. PLUS. I found my ex-maids (ok, foreign domestic helpers) on Facebook. Which explains why I changed my profile picture last night - because I wanted them to recognize me and not like "who's this squirrel?"

It's been kinda long since my maids left me. *sobsob* Because they were my closest friends alsoo. And whenever my younger brother tries to bully me, they'll be there. Now I'm left to defend myself. MORAL of the story: It sucks to be SMALL when you're the elder sibling. -.-

And my MSN continues to hang on me.

My life's not super exciting so

I guess, I'll blog about some stuff I just bought yesterday and today.

With pictures. (So I suggest you don't read this post because there're quite a few pictures --> I camwhore. )

I think I smell heavenly now --> because I just showered. HEEHEE!!

Woke up at 6.30 am this morning and I didn't get to sleep the entire night because I just couldn't.

Flipped myself from side to side like some toast BUT I just couldn't get to sleep. :o/

Ohwells. But I was kinda glad to wake up early because mornings are just simply beautiful and I was glad I didn't miss it today. You know some mornings, when you walk along the road, then overhear some aunties gossip or talk about some certain recipe etc. I don't know? These simple joys in life.

Met my cousin on the train coincidentally. Thank God for my mum's presence because if I were alone, I wouldn't know a single thing to say. I think the only thing I said was "Hello" and "Bye". OH! I did say something when he asked "Eh? Sec what now?" Like hello~

I'm in JC already ok.

Didn't wake up all smiles because I had a bad night and plus, I was screwing my own head with stuff I think I shouldn't even care right now. So after the collection of my passport, I was left alone. Thought I could head over to Orchard Central to study by myself but the shops weren't opened yet... It was approx. 9am?? Everywhere seemed close.

I took a rather slow walk down to Plaza Singapura, to Macdonald's. Sat there and tried to force myself down to work but my brain just couldn't function and I was letting unnecessary worries take over me.

Today, I came to a conclusion that I should not be left alone. Not because I'm afraid of being alone but because, I know how far my imagination can stretch when I'm alone. No joke. I think a lot. Way too much for my own good. (If only I'd think as much when it comes to studying)

Ohwells.

Ok, so anyway, I met up with Charis after that. We went to catch a movie - Harry Potter.

Weirdly, Plaza Singapura didn't have student price because it's the school holidays. So, we went over to Cathay to get the tickets. Had MOS burger for lunch.

And today, once again, I was told how easy it is to read me. Is it really that EASY??

I know my emotions are clearly displayed on my face (as told by many) but my inside thoughts?? I don't know? I think if I were to take a test and the subject's "Cheryl Tan Si Rong", I think I might fail because I somehow feel I don't even know myself well.

Oh yes, so before Charis reached Plaza Singapura, I bought something.

ARCHIE COMICS! 6 dollars for the Double Digest and Digest. :D The usual price's about $5.95?? for the Double digest and one Digest magazine will be like $3.95 sooo.. I couldn't resist the temptation. (I know the picture's laterally inverted. That's Macbook for you.)

I'm at home. Not in heaven.

Because I took these photos like in the afternoon. And because I'm sitting near the window where sunlight can just stream into the room and so explains the angelic effect.

So yesterday:

YAY. New HAIR TUBE from Watsons! I love these bands because there are so many colours to choose from. I always use Pink though.

I don't understand how my rubber bands got lost. There're like 25 bands and my current tube has like only 5? left.

And sometimes, when you feel like, you need some bands on your wrists, I think these are just perfect. :D And they won't exactly leave a "mark/dent" on your hair.

THEN THESE. Are. HAND SANTIZERS!!

I'm not obsessed with hand santizers. It's just that I thought these bottles with the pictures of a cow and a pig are kinda cute. AND. If you notice, there're like hooks so you can just hook them onto your bags. So now, I have a bottle in every bag. (I can't help it I'm a clean freak. And I'm not being fussy. It's just that, at times, the thought of bacteria on your hands really makes me feel sick so...)

I wanted to buy this set of lip gloss/lip care stick. It's by Paul Frank and 3 costs like $14.90?

Actually, I don't finish using my lip care sticks.

The Paul Frank one had like cotton candy flavour!!!!! but nah, I didn't buy them eventually.

Anyway, I was so in love with the "angelic effect", I took even more photos.

HAHA!! YES. I'M A CAMWHORE but this is my blog so I do as I please. :)

GO SHOWER IF YOU HAVEN'T so you can look as fresh as I do. AND I didn't sleep at all last night. HAHAHA!! The wonders of water.

Wanted to take a nap but it's 6.02pm so.. guess I'll just read my comics and wait for dinner.

And tumblr! :D

Things to do when you're bored.

Kinda saw this on someone's blog that time and since I was bored, I tried it out too.

And erm. I guess. It worked to a certain extent. *BLUSH* HAHA!!

Here: Crush Compatibility Test.

Takes less than 5 minutes only so why not right~ Ok, I shall go watch videos. Have fun.

Actually,

I think I'm involved in some CIP today. But there wasn't any notice and it was like 1am? When I heard about it. :o/

I was supposed to pass Ting Wei her belated birthday present todayyyyy.

(Hopefully, it's still edible) So TINGWEI! Please plan the dinner ASAP. And make sure you turn up for it.

Wonder what's going on in everyone else's lives.. because I do feel empty (Ignoring those stuff I have to do) I'm kinda looking forward to tomorrow, because I'll have to wake up at about 7plus? thennnn collect my passport (and YAY I found my IC) and after that, my mum will leave for work and I'll be FREE. Which I don't know to be happy about or ?

Oh wells. I'm waiting for Karin Ng's reply. Or maybe I should just go someplace by myself to do my work? WHY AM I SO INDECISIVEEEEEE...

I do want to do work. But at the same time, I can't resist talking. And Karin reminded me that day that we said we wanted to go to some cafe to just talk and look at the cars and people passing by... BUT THEN. That'll be my work's still left undone. (But I don't want to do work.)

BUT YOU KNOW I have to do them :'(

What a struggle.

Got myself new earpiece. Actually, it was my mum who bought them. I was surprised ok. Just the day (night) before, she lectured me. Then the next morning, she asked if I received her sms, then showed me the stuff she bought and I think I was like this -.-

Ohwells. (The earphones are like YELLLLLOW. Guess they'll help brighten my day a little)

Spent my night watching random cartoons on Youtube yesterday. For some unknown reason, I felt like watching Archie's Weird Mysteries and yayyyy I did manage to find them. And I found Casper the Friendly Ghost and Mr Bean Animated series tooooo!

Hopefully, the day will be over soon because I'm looking forward to tomorrow. And I have this feeling I'll end up roaming around Orchard area tomorrow. (I feel like buying Percy piglets- the gummy from Marks and Spencer)

THIS SONG IS SO CONTRADICTORY TO WHATEVER I'M DOING WITH MY LIFE NOW.

I'm going to ignore Adium.

For now.

This is weird. When Adium was fine, I chose to appear invisible. And now that it's down, I only want to stay online. Oh wells. But it's not working and I called Singtel customer service. BUT it wasn't the Internet I think. Everything else is working fine, besides Adium. -.-

Had tuition --> Nothing much went into my head today. AARG. I'm starting to wonder if my brain's dead.

Met Kelz at Westmall and we had dinner at Old Chang Kee. That was new. I never knew Old Chang Kee served like PROPER meals. But I think that was the only branch.

Then went home.

On my way home, I almost LOL-ed at this guy who kept flipping his hair.

It was long. And gross BECAUSE it was just so messy, like you couldn't find the parting. Then he "forced" his fringe to stay in a position, across one of his eye. But because the train was moving and so he just kept doing his hair flip (which reminds me of Bieber to some extent). The fact that he was keeping soooooo still so that his fringe wouldn't move (like as if some balancing act) just makes me feel like laughing.

I think I forgot to mention this, I saw someone walking into a pot of plant in school that day. And he was brushing the petals off, probably thinking no one saw but HA. HA. I was behind ^^

Didn't mean to laugh but sometimes, I thought, we should be more appreciative when someone attempts to make some jokes. Ohwelllls.

I woke up at like 11plus so.. approx. half the day was gone.

Thinking if I should wake up earlier tomorrow. But WHAT am I going to do once again. Hmm.. this feels a little like the post-O level period. Except I know I have work to do. :o/

Heard about the prom night this year. How glamourous *clap clap clap* Because the school was moving out or something during our year, we had prom in school and this year's one is at some grand hotel or something. It's just way better than ours. But ohwells, I guess having prom in school wasn't too bad in a sense, we didn't actually have to spend a bomb on our dresses and stuff. And after all, I guess, the people who were there was what mattered most.

Just read a bit of the newspaper and yuck, there was this article on this lady in China who sat on a rabbit. The sick part was that she filmed the process, and after sitting on the rabbit, she actually still danced about and sang some songs and fiddled with the dead, squashed rabbit. :S

SICK.

Anyways, since I can't go onto Adium. Guess I'll be stuck here.

I don't wish to be unhappy but sometimes. things suck.

Ok. I left my unhappy blogpost in Tumblr.

Once again, I didn't manage to keep my emotions in check. I failed to stay strong. :o/

Actually, yesterday wasn't too bad a day. One whole day of activities in school, though tiring but still not toooooo bad. As compared to just, staying at home (where I do nothing. where I'm silent. where my mum nags at me for things I just don't understand at times. etc.)

I always tell myself not to complain about life because there're many others having a rougher time out there. BUT. I always fail to do so. :'(

I can't express my feelings at home, or rather, I don't. I don't exactly talk to people about these stuff because it'll just make both parties awkward and why do I even want/need to put my friends in an awkward position right. So I can only blog. blog. and blog even more.

Anyway, I saw some stickers I felt like buying the other day because they're squirrrrrrrels.

I thought it was quite rare to find stickers of squirrels. But on the other hand, I'm saving up.

Yesterday, before I reached home, I was just daydreaming.... thinking how will things turn out to be if I'm really some queen with a kingdom of my own. HAHA! (That was on my way home)

I can totally imagine how my kingdom will be like:

There'll be like vending machines with many, different kinds of nuts and so people can get to satisfy their craving for nuts wherever, whenever...

And there'll be cotton candy machines so people can make their own cotton candy...

Colourful bubbles will be blown from my palace...

Then I'll leave my palace via a hot air balloon through a window... (DAMN COOL RIGHT)

OK. STOP. I shall take my shower now.

And try my best to stay silent for the rest of the day.

OMG.

I seriously feel like crying now. ADIUM sucks.

I can't reset my friggin account because I can't remember the password. :'(

And my mum's nagging at me.

I just feel like pulling my hair. SO WHAT. I CAN'T GO ONLINE FOREVER ALREADY?!

And WHAT. Am I not able to configure my settings anymore since I've put on some fking lock and NOW I CAN'T UNLOCK IT MYSELF. I think the password's my OLD phone number but what is ittttttttt. OMG. Why am I sooooo smart. Why did I even put it as my password. AAAAAAARG.

AND now what. My mum switched off the lights and I'm typing in the dark?!

I just feel like crying now. AARG.

Back back back

THANK YOU AMANDA CHAN.

I think if you didn't ask me out today, I'd have spent half my day(??) in the library. -.- Doing nothing. Ok, actually, not exactly nothing. I was reading some books. Self-help/Self-improvement. HAHA. "How to spot a liar" and "8 secrets to finding Happiness".

-.-

Met Amanda for dinner ,though I already had mine at home, at Plaza Singapura. I don't understand why I just can't stay at home. :o/

Went shopping for paper and knowwhatttt, the Christmas deco's kinda up already. There's this huge Christmas tree outside Plaza Sing. If not for the fact I'm saving up, I'd have my dinner at Ajisen already. Sighs. I went there and ordered a cup of hot green tea. -.-

I'm supposed to go to school tomorrow and I don't know if I can wake up in time or not.

I've been waking up at like 1? 12 plus?

And this Adium is getting on my nerves. I CAN'T STAY ONLINE. What's the problemmmmmmm....

Anyway, on my way home, I think I saw someone I know. Like, an old friend. But not a close one. So I pretended not to see him since I didn't feel like talking to anyone - I wanted to just be alone with my music. I looked at him: he was strumming an imaginary guitar. And like, showing some dance moves while waiting for the train. :o/ And the way he dressed, kinda like some...ok, he just looked like an adult. And it struck me, "woah, he's grown up." And I'm like. still me. still childish. Oh welllllls.

ADIUM. YOU SUCK. I HATE YOU. NOW I CAN'T TALK TO ANYONE. :'(

and what. I'm alone on Skype. (KELLEE LIM. Where are you? :o/ )

You are currently listening to:

Waiting Outside The Lines by Greyson Chance

You’ll never enjoy your life, living inside the box You’re so afraid of taking chances, how you gonna reach the top?

Rules and regulations, force you to play it safe Get rid of all the hesitation, it’s time for you to seize the day

Instead of just sitting around and looking down on tomorrow You gotta let your feet off the ground, the time is now…

I’m waiting…waiting…just waiting… I’m waiting…waiting outside the lines Waiting outside the lines Waiting outside the lines

Try to have no regrets even if it’s just tonight How you gonna walk ahead if you keep living behind?

Stuck in my same position, you deserve so much more There’s a whole world around us, just waiting to be explored

Instead of just sitting around and looking down on tomorrow You gotta let your feet off the ground, the time is now, just let it go

The world will force you to smile I’m here to help you notice the rainbow Cause I know, What’s in you is out there

I’m waiting…waiting…just waiting… I’m waiting…waiting outside the lines Waiting outside the lines Waiting outside the lines

I’m trying to be patient (I’m trying to be patient) the first step is the hardest (the hardest) I know you can make it, go ahead and take it

I’m Waiting…waiting…just waiting…I’m waiting I’m waiting…waiting…just waiting I’m waiting…waiting outside the lines Waiting outside the lines Waiting outside the lines

You’ll never enjoy your life Living inside the box You’re so afraid of taking chances, How you gonna reach the top?

Oh no. I feel like a pedophile.

I haven't heard good music in a while. And I finally UPDATED my playlist. HEEHEE!

++The songs by James Blunt and Stan Walker.

Here I am

Drinking my NESCAFE Mocha againnnn.

But nah. I shan't camwhore. HAHA! Amazingly, I'm not feeling as SIAN today.

AND YOU KNOW WHAT'S MAKING ME FEEL EVEN BETTER????

The radio's playing "One In A Million" by Ne-Yo. RIGHT NOW. As I'm blogging! HEEHEE!

AND PLUS PLUS!! OMG. I finally can watch my America's Next Top Model Cycle 15 (I know I'm lagging). NEVERMIND. As long as I'm happy with it. :)

Today's totally way better than yesterday. I was supposed to go Orchard with my mum this afternoon but I thought staying at home was a better idea since I've been going to Orchard quite a few times these days... I wanted to stay at home to do work. BUT. I ended up watching ANTM. :o/

How. -.-

"Baby cuz you're so one in a million.. you are baby you're the best I ever had.."

I have no idea why. I can't sleep at night.

And then I'll wake up like 12 plus in the afternoon. Which sucks. Because I love mornings. :o/

Don't know if I should watch Harry Potter because I actually can't remember what the whole entire movie's about already... Ah, but since I'm broke. I can only stay at home and try to force myself to get down to some work (when I know I won't do anything at home). And I'm procrastinating. WHICH SUCKS once again.

But I'll let this off since today's not bad. I haven't said "OMG-I'M-SO-SIAN" yet. :)

I haven't been shopping online these days. Ah shucks, can't forget I'm broke. Hmmm.. just remembered something Kellee shared with me that day when we were at Ajisen. Sometimes, I guess, we just all have to be a little bit more sensitive towards others. When you told me about your friend who was so broke who couldn't even afford to eat, I felt kinda guilty. We always say we're broke (Broke= having insufficient cash but still have a card in my definition so I pay with my card to get cash back sometimes. :o/ ) but I guess, there're always people out there who are really BROKE. Even though they might not show it. And you mentioned about your friends who wanted to watch 3D when that girl was broke. Ahh, I guess sometimes, out of peer pressure.. if you don't want to get left out, you end up spending more than you know you can afford/should and then you just up getting poorer.. SIGHS.

I kinda forgot the prayers we said during our secondary school years already. Weird enough, I'm missing all those times when we said prayers. They somehow, seem to bring peace - in a way I can't explain.

For now, I just want to learn to control my spending. But I don't think it means eating less because I can't afford to eat any lesser, my mum's always saying how skinny I am (I'm not skinny what... I think I'm fine --> Healthy weight). MM. EAT at home MORE OFTEN.

AND. The value in my ezlink card's depleting veryveryvery quickly. :o/

I just realized. How convenient traveling actually is, in our country. OK. Enough crap for today. Back to watching ANTM.

Hope everyone out there had a good day.

It's tough

I don't exactly like living here. Not because I'm further away from Vivo City (That's just a smallllll and rather insignificant part).

SIAN. (I don't know how many times I actually said this today)

Guess it's really tough when you have to live under someone else's roof and when you find out, that there're times when we all just do things differently.. and so conflicts arise.

Ever since we moved in to my grandparents' place, there have been quite a few times when the way my mum does her stuff differently from my grandparents. Then my brother complains about speakers (don't-know-what) and me, not wanting to actually get involved in all conflicts, try to be silent. And that ended up wrong too. -.-

Tell me what to do.

So just now, I was showering and when I came out, I just heard my granny and my aunt talking about like ever since we moved in, we don't communicate as much... then about the conflicts and stuff. Which is kinda sad. In the past, when I visit my grandparents once every week, I will actually still bother to greet them. But now, I don't feel like I even talk at home. I just shower, dry my hair then sit in front of my laptop. Pouring out whatever unhappiness bottled within me to my dearest blog. :o/

And now, my brother and my mum disappeared from home. I seriously have no clue as to what happened just now. Must there always be disharmony. . . . . And can someone just tell me what happened because I'm so lost.

My day didn't go very well because I just so, wasn't in the mood. Left immediately after performing... All the cigarette smoke around me made me feel even worse. Cigarettes suck BIG TIME because they just remind me of some stuff I don't want to be reminded of. Oh wells. The world doesn't revolve me.

I can just hope that things get better tomorrow.

CAMWHORING with a can of coffee

To Anon: SEE. MY BLOG HAS PHOTOS. HAHAH!!

Back from my supposed study session with Kellee and here I am, camwhoring.

LAST performance. When will I start studying like seriously. Wanted to do Econs today but we ended up talking and talking and talking.... Guess I'll have to distance myself socially from everyone else. Had Ajisen for dinner and I satisfied my craving. HEEHEE.

BUT freak, guess I'll eat at Kopitiam the next few days if I go to Vivo to study by myself.

Why Kopitiam. Because, I have the Kopitiam card so I won't have to use cash. I'm broke-

And so, today was another day spent in Orchard. I think, I'm in love with the 90 cent milk tea Jing Hui intro-ed.

AND I'M SO HAPPY because I just broke up with Tom. WEEHEE~

I realize

I really don't take a lot of photos.

ERHUM. That's excluding camwhoring with friends. But actually, I don't camwhore a lot..

It's been quite some time since I last spammed Facebook with my photos isn't it?

Oh yeah, I like Steph Pang's photo effect on her iPhone. It's something similar to "glow"+"enhanced". Can't remember if I said it before, Macbook's my camera. That's actually, the main reason why I love Macbook. If only it can be smaller+slimmer... then I'll have photos on my blog like E-VERY-DAY.

Sian. Actually, I feel like getting a camera.

But. A camera's a WANT. Not a NEED. So I shouldn't be spending money on WANTS right... because NEEDs are like Food and I think I really spend most of my money on food. Plus, the recently bought stuff from Cotton On (Woah damn. Amanda Chan! I don't think I dare to walk into Cotton On already).

Just yesterday, Amanda and I became friends on Facebook which was really weird. I only remember that one time when I told her I'll try to block her on Facebook to see how to unblock again. HAHA! Then I did unblock ok~

I miss my Bryophyllum. It gave me something to do when I feel bored enough. HAHA! *Help disperse "seeds" *

And I don't know why, for some unknown reason, everytime I see the pitcher plant, I just feel like pouring something into the "pocket". Like as if, you're giving it something to drink. Ok nevermind, I'msick. Hah. :P

WATCH YOGI BEAR NEXT OK EVERYBODY.

CAN YOU SEE IT'S STARRING THE SEXIEST MAN AGAIN-

Ok whatever. HAHAH!!! DON'T TRY TO say he's not sexy okkk. And OMG, if you didn't catch what I was trying to say- SEXIEST MAN= Justin Timberlake. His voice. OMG. Woah, this small bear is damn lucky. Like OMG. You get JT's voice????!!! OMGOMGOMG. Can't wait. HAHA!

I'm gonna meet Kellee later. She suggested meeting at Orchard and I was like "Hmm. So am I supposed to bring stuff to study?" Eh, Orchard. It's hard for to sit down and study when you're at Orchard, when people around you are shopping. Then I remembered somewhere we can go. OK. So we shall try to study something.

Stop floating about like some lost jellyfish. *Blooop**Blooop*

Shall go shower then have lunch and weehee! Time to go with just. 8 pathetic dollars in my wallet. AND THEREFORE, I shall fill myself to the max before I leave my house.

-

My "Appear Invisible" on Adium failed once again.

I was just wondering why people could still chat with me online. Oh well, I decided to go offline.

TODAY, I watched "The Social Network". LIKE FINALLY~ OMG.

HAHAHA!! It's the first NC16 movie I actually enjoyed. (Not because there's Justin Timberlake in the movie okk~~ But that played a huge role. *WINK*)

Roamed around Orchard trying to find something. Which reminds me. So I'll continue my search.

-->If only I'm as persistent when it comes to studying. -.-

I think it's time to hit the books/notes/tutorials/packages.

OP's over and remember what we all promised? "I'll do them after OP."

Now that's OP's over, I just want to have more fun to make up for those I lost before OP.

Bad~ No dance prac tomorrow. So..... . . .

Regarding the jobs part, I seriously don't know if I should or not :o/

There'll be dance, I'm SUPPOSED to be studying but on the other hand, I really need money.

I can't synchronize my iPOD. :o/

+ I think we should have more benches at Plaza Singapura. Seriously, nowhere to sit ok. And I didn't want to fight with the elderly for those massage chairs they have on level one.

++ Why is it that everything when I'm looking for something, I just can't seem to find them. I know there's some Chinese idiom on this. I'll think about it later-

My legs are aching. And therefore, I shall sign out of blogger. Then Tumblr probably.

Artemis Facouting.

I thought it was the best amongst all.

Or maybe because there was air-con. :o/

The food part was hilarious. The queue was sooooooooooo long and so, Amanda Chan and I just had to find some way to get our food FAST. Thankfully for ZhengXiang. HAHA!! "Give us a portion enough for two people okkkkkkk.."

Then we had some KTV session in some room and omg, the music videos looked damn old-fashioned with all those corny, sleazy scenes.

Today is a very boring day because I don't have anything to do AT ALL.

From wherever I'm sitting, I can see this packet of nuts on the table. And I'm so very tempted to just snack on them. *CONTROLCONTROL*

Finished reading my books so I really have nothing to do.. . . ...

Just bought some stuff from Cotton On. (Cotton On is reallllly everywhere)

Yesterday's venue was funny I thought. When I left to go to the toilet, I saw like all the elderly queueing to get into the club. HAHA! Couldn't help but L-O-L because I was thinking "Imagine if we saw our grandparents over there.."

Trying to source for songs but I can't seem to find any good songs. -.-

I think there's some "Tree Planting" ceremony/activity near my place. I never tried planting trees before. The only planting I remember doing is.. THAT plant, OH. Bryophyllum or something. I thought they were damnnnn cool because they've got like plantlets on themselves and the idea of being able to play a part in helping them grow - by simply plucking the plantlets and throw them into some other spot. :D

Oh. I'msolame. Ok. Let's hope I'll find myself something to do tomorrow.

Apollo Facouting.

Wavehouse.

Damn warm.

Aarg. Take away the heat, it probably would have been better.

Had breakfast with Jayy, Yingyen and Yume at KAP. It's been quite some time since I last had Big Breakfast.

It rained in the morning. :( And that sucks because I just hate to have to hold onto an umbrella, then board the bus when everyone's like (yuckyuck) wet.

Sorry, I'm a clean freak. I don't know how bad my obsession with cleanliness is. Every single morning, I make sure I spray hand sanitizer before I leave for school.

I think my main problem is with shoes and socks. I tried. I tried to just ignore the fact I just touched my shoes and socks and then leave for school but I realized, I just won't allow my hands to touch any part of my body because they just feel "contaminated".

I really can't help it. Also, the same problem with perspiration. I just can't get the thought of bacteria out of my head. DISLIKE DISLIKE DISLIKE whenever someone tries to touch me when I'm sweaty too.

Ok, all the above were random.

Sooo. Rehearsed a few times in RUA then we just left for Sentosa.

Had Ygloo!! Cookies and cream and blueberry. That was sorta, lunch?

At Ygloo, there's this section with all the fruit toppings then the other section with all the nuts and seeds. For some unknown reason, I just dao-ed all the fruit toppings. So my toppings were just all nuts and seeds. DAMN nice. (I REALLY LOVE NUTS AND SEEDS - especially sunflower seeds)

Performance time came so abruptly today. I was just eating then all of a sudden, "Eh, we're the next to perform." Then we just ran over to the "stage" and left our food just over there. When we returned to look for our food, they were gone. :o/

Oh well, not much of an appetite anyway.

After the outing, we went to Vivo City's (err.. I forgot what's it called) Skypark?

I miss drinking Avocado juice. When can I get it?

And I miss Vivo City too. :'(

OK. Shall end here. Goodnight. Shall go shopping in the morning/afternoon tomorrow (probably) then again, facouting performance - but this time, with air-con.

TODAY, I'M HIGH.

I smell coffee. <-- Not the reason as to why I'm high.

First: Because OP's over and I don't care how I performed, whatsoever (I seriously can only remember myself smiling during the OP - I guess, out of nervousness).

Slept at 12am and I felt sooooooooo drained today.

Second: We had a 1hour plus break after OP then went back to be some audience for OP in the afternoon session. HAH. That break time was well spent with Weiqing and Rena. Omg. We totally laughed like SUPERCRAZY. Luckily the J2s weren't there at that time, if not, I think we'd be shushed.

Third: Dance prac today was hilarious too.

After a few rounds of "rehearsal" then we played what, "hang man" with vulgarities, then sat there and yakked for like don't-know-how-long and after that, went to Orchard with StephPang, Amanda, Jinghui and Yingyen. Don't know why, but everything really seemed funny to be today. Or maybe because I was going crazy due to lack of sleep.

Dinner at Orchard ION.

Steph, Amanda and I were discussing on a topic you'd never think of us speaking on. WAR.

HAHAHA! Actually, who started it huh? Can't remember. We went from piercings to ball bearings in the skin to don't-know-what-skin-tearing to people who wear rings on their necks to the different ways of killing and dying and what war porn (Because I remember reading that in Newsweek) then all the gory and gruesome stuff. And I just felt like fainting because ahh, the images were sorta forming in my head (not like I WANT to imagine).

The funny thing was that, we were saying how gross the killings were but we were sipping our milk tea, StephPang eating some meat on stick, me with Laksa... -.- And we spammed even more information and knowledge we had.

Today was really good. And it's also good that I'm feeling so sleepy so that'll mean? I'll be able to get a good night's rest!!

BUT SADLY.

Tom just had to pay me a visit- right before OP somemore. Curse Tom. :o/

PERFORMANCE at Apollo fac outing tomorrow!!

Shall turn in probably after reading my novel. Need some peace now. *WINKWINK*

AMANDA CHAN! OP WILL BE OVER SOON!! :D

Now that OP's over, am I supposed to start studying? (What the hell... -.-)

Finish my novel first. And I really want to watch "The Social Network". :o/

This morning,

someone sent me a really touching message. Thanks babe. <:o)

I was so touched I teared on the bus ok. HAHA!!

Since we're kinda in the same shit, if you ever do emo, don't forget me ok. OH. I forgot to return you your hug *HUGS BACK*

Thank you for showing concern when I least expected it. (Ahh.. you see, angels have angelic friends. HAH.)

It's funny how I always want to try to cheer people up but I don't exactly try to do the same to myself. HMM. Whatever.

OPOPOP tomorrow. Finally, I printed my entry proof. I just couldn't find it- I dug out the registration slip, found my O levels entry proof but just not the PW one. Thank god we don't have to pay for that slip of paper.

I've been rehearsing over and over and over again today ok. In the RUA also. Then I was just rehearsing in front of the mirror. Just one problem to correct: STOP moving (or dancing as some people call it). --> But seriously, actually, I thought moving about meant your kinda comfortable with presenting..like you can be so comfortable you can actually just skip about, make a few turns.. flash a widddde smile :D Hee~

Let's pray everything goes well tomorrow.

Charis's birthday is tomorrrrrrrow. *Pass me some of your birthday luck pretty please* ;)

And because I don't think I can stay till 12 am (gotta force myself to go to bed earlier) since I've got to wake up earrrrly tomorrow, Jing Rong and I recorded a video for her.

Ok, not just 1 video. 3.

BECAUSE. The videos somehow got muted when we recorded one full length video soooo I guess, we had no choice but to split the video into 3. I'm too embarrassed to watch it actually.

NG-ed like 4 times? and imagine how many times we had to sing "Baby" <-- EH, Not embarrassed by the song. Just that. I know many people dislike Bieber.. then later, we won't know if there're any Bieber haters out there who might just attack us. (Throw chopsticks probably scream obscenities at us in Japanese. HAHA. Can you imagine~)

OH YEAH. STUPID YOSHINOYA. Everything they serve is FRIED besides the BEEF. -.-

OH. I laughed at something for quite long WHEN I think, it actually wasn't SUPER funny. (Because Jing Rong didn't laugh but I laughed till people looked at me :o/ )

OK. SO here's what happened:

There was this lady and this guy. Then I think both of them were talking about some friend (Ok, we call him "X") who sang some song. So the lady said "Yeah.. X was singing "Girlfriend"<--the song by Avril Lavigne" Then she sang "... I want to be your girlfriend~"

then the guy replied "I sing "Boyfriend" eh"

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

PLEASE. Tell. me. I'm not the only one laughing.

I have a wound inflicted within me

All parents damage their children. It cannot be helped. Youth, like pristine glass, absorbs the prints of its handlers. Some parents smudge, others crack, a few shatter childhood completely into jagged little pieces, beyond repair.

Nah, it's not all too bad but bad enough.

I used to think I've got everything under control until last night when all of a sudden, everything came crumbling down. If I were to name one regret, that'd be you, dad.

My greatest ever.

Yeah man.

Do you know how I feel exactly whenever it's nearing occasions like, Chinese New Year, Father's Day, Christmas....

I don't know :o/ When everyone's out there celebrating all together, and when they tell me about the stuff they do with their dads.. I can only acknowledge with silence. Smile then probably try to change the topic or something.

I haven't been strong enough.

We all know some people try to relieve themselves of pain through cutting.

And I don't know whether to feel happy for myself- I don't cut simply because I'm too afraid to see blood oozing. flowing. dripping. Though also, I know, cutting wouldn't solve anything.

All in all. I feel really bad sometimes whenever I get reminded of how, I actually did nothing. How I always keep mum. But what could I have done differently.

My life's indeed way better with you out of my life but. still.

While others will run towards their dad, give him a hug perhaps if they see him on the streets.

As for me. I think, I'd most probably turn and walk in the other direction.

Am I really supposed to wait and find out your side of the story in heaven?

I have a wound inflicted within me. And I guess the only thing I am going do is - Smile, ignore the pain and continue walking. After all, I've done it long enough.

+Don't worry. I won't cut myself. I really just needed to blog and I guess if people do judge then so be it. Thank you for "hearing" me rant.

Sucks.

Lethargic.

Just today, I finallllllly took out the stuff we're all supposed to do for holiday homework.

*Oink oink* (Grunts like a pig)

So, we have.

1. GP --> I think I finally know, so the homework is that small booklet on crime and violence?
2. Math Revision Package (Oh gawd~)
3. Chemistry.
4. Geography --> Only a few questions (right?)
5. ECONS.

This is damn sian. I can't remember when was the last time I actually studied/did my work.

I think I kinda ruined my own life.

Besides dance, actually, there don't seem to be any other accomplishments? --> I meant, like at least I know we did practice and perform for something so you see, there's a "something" I did at least. But I don't even remember what I did academically. :o/

Inspiration didn't visit me at all this whole entire year.

And I just realized, the people who actually inspired me to do well academically, so far... are all Math teachers.

In primary school, I had this "Mr Goh" who was rather strict but somehow, he really made me feel like studying even more just so to impress him. (Erm, he's an old man ok~) I remembered something he once taught "Procrastination is the thief of time". Hee~

Then in secondary school, there was Mr Ng. He realllllllllly reallllllllly made me feel like studying (he totally made me fall in love with Math please~). My love for math only started when I was in like sec 3? when he took over --> So sometimes, it's really important that we all have good teachers (It's not all on the students part, at least that's what it seems to me :o/ )

In HC, there's nothing to inspire me. I come here, it seems, purely to socialize. -.- And my reason for coming to this school was really lame.

How. Next year, it'll be my turn for A's.

Next year, this time, I definitely shouldn't (because given my current "motivation level" I might-) be sitting here, just blogging and listening to the radio..

Don't know and don't care if I made the correct choice by coming to this school because I can't turn back now. So, the only thing I can do is to find myself motivation to continue studying.

Whenever my mum tries to compare my bro's results with mine, I feel a little guilty because I don't think I actually did well this year.

Whatever. I shall go back to reading Mitch Albom.

Then WR later.

Weird.

It's weird to think how I actually feel guilty soooo easily.

And it started since young.

Everytime I feel like I did something really bad, I'd tell someone about it.

There was this one time when I remember I was fighting with my brother, and I think I hit him on the tummy. As kids, I don't think we'd actually think of apologizing and stuff? But somehow, I actually apologized to my parents for fighting when they didn't even know it happened.

Then once, I had this really weird idea. I felt like everyone deserved some appreciation, even the garbage collectors. So, at the place where I used to live in, there's this rubbish "bin" where your rubbish goes allllll the way doooown right (I can't remember what's it called but anyway..) I thought of writing this very big "THANK YOU" on the bags of rubbish so that the garbage collectors can see and feel our heartfelt appreciation for them. (-.- I know. This is totally like some joke.)

Ahh.. whatever. I don't know why they came into my head today anyway.

Met up with Jing Rong at Plaza Singapura. (Ehh.. I had Famous Amos cookies for breakfast today. HEEEHEEE) And I finally bought my Mitch Albom book.

The cash in my wallet is depleting. :o/

It's all because I had to top up my bus card and also buy the concession pass for bus. (then 30 plus bucks gone.)

Bought something from Cotton On Body at 15. Then had dinner at Thai Express (Eh, this time, it's like a set meal thing ok~) which cost 10? Eh, but it was totally worth it. :) I still salivate at the thought of the tom yum soup I had. (Damn good~ and there was this tapioca with coconut cream(??) for dessert.)

Now that I've got my book, I guess, I can just stop facing my Macbook already.

++ I sorta reactivated my Tumblr. The link's over there. Goodnight world.

Another day of celebration.

This week had been good.

Went out to celebrate my belated birthday with KimJiwon, Adeline, Karine, Kelz, Hazey and NgYi! AND AGAIN, I saw Jiayan. (Always so randomly) --> I guess this shows you're in my heart because I read once, if someone is truly in your heart, he/she will appear at the most random times in the most random places. HEEHEE!!

Today's plan failed! And who spoilt it?! THE BIRTHDAY GIRL Alyson Yeo Tin Wei. -.-

We planned to "forget" her birthday and organized this outing to be MY belated birthday celebration and invited Ting Wei to celebrate MY belated birthday but someone just had to have some family buffet~ HAHA!!

Anyway, I want to say a "THANKKKK YOUUUUU" to my wonderful friends who spent time to celebrate with me and also, bought me gifts, gave me cards, bought and designed a cake for me. Thank you all. <:o) Because I seriously didn't expect all these things.

Then because Ting Wei didn't come, we had to sing her a birthday song at some random corner in Plaza Singapura. ONCE AGAIN, Happy Birthday to youuuu~

I really loved the gifts and cards even though Kelz, you thought your card was small. Don't worry, you can't beat Jiwon's. DAMN SMALL. I wonder if she was trying to imply - small people deserve to get smallerrrr cards (I SWEAR THE CARD IS DAMN SMALL) but nevertheless, thanks for the earring Jiwon and also, the Tinkerbell necklace with the "small bottle of golden dust" from Daphne and Adeline!! I haven't read Karin's card yet!! Thank youuuu all and the cake too!! :) Thank you Jing Rong for your card too!!

I guess the most wonderful present I got this year, was knowing the fact I've got many friends who really cared for me. I'm blessed.

This week passed really quickly, with a lot of laughing- But if I can make one more final wish-

I'll just wish for the people around me to be as happy, definitely, not always since it'll be impossible. Hm. I'll hope for all of us to find joy in life ASAP.

Forgive me.

I'm blogging right now. As a seventeen year old and ok. Fine. PLUS one more day. 17years+1day.

I was touched yesterday ok~ HAHA!

The MADpeeps treated me to Island Creamery and totally treated me like the queen. HAHAH!! Thanks Gordon Goh for being the guard, Weiqing for being my "lowly servant maid"<-- you called yourself that and of course, StephPang my pet monster. HAHA!! (Woah, but today's attitude huh! HAHA!!)

Ahh~ A very BIG THANK YOU to everyone who wished me "Happy Birthday!!" :) And my classmates who treated me to lunch. And the friends who gave me gifts. All the old friends I didn't even think would remember~ I have too many people to thank but I think I replied to EVERYONE so! YES. Very much appreciated.

I was kinda surprised when I received my brother's sms. He's definitely not that sort who will express himself - like, even if he cares etc, he shows it through very very subtle actions. So... though it was a simple "HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIS!! :)", I totally felt like crying ok~ HAHAHA!! (I'm sorry I cry so easily) I was thinking of how to reply to that very simple message of his. Then I got reminded of how upset he looked when he knew how badly he did for his exams. I remember that night, when my mum was just telling me how poorly he performed, I didn't know how to respond and I just stared at my laptop without saying a thing. So... I kinda replied to him, saying that I understood how he felt and that I hope he wouldn't give up but continue to work hard. I think that's totally like the first time I ever said these sort of stuff to my brother.

Aiya, everyone (even the person we find most unlikely..) needs to hear some words of encouragement at times so I thought it should totally come from someone like CLOSE to you.. and thus explains. (I remember I once cried because I felt like I never played my role as an elder sibling) Instead, my brother totally seems more mature than I am. All I do is what. Irritate him by throwing stuff at him.. calling him then say "NOTHINGGGG~". Ahh. I'm so childish.

So that was how I spent my birthday. And I hope I'll learn to be more, hm. Sensitive towards my family members because afterall, I guess, they are the people who care most about me and because they're always THERE, I guess I've neglected them a lot. I'm sorry. :o/

On a happier note, school now is totally FUN. We are totally like having holiday~ Check in and out of our "hotel room" --> A403. :D There's this section where we all can LAN. Then this other section you see people lying on chairs (Like me) or on tables. Totally like some chalet already~