I must get this done asap

I just need two more RPs worth 3 points in total and I'll be done with it ^^
and as much as I'm reluctant to do so, I'll have to leave halfway during Thursday's Calculus lecture for this RP worth 2 points.

While at math lecture

I almost bought this on impulse - added it to my cart already, all I had to do was to click on purchase

I've been wanting to get one!!!!!! (I wanted a scooter the other time because I thought it was cooler than walking hahahahahah but my mum gave mine away and I didn't want to spend on another one)

WHY I SHOULD BUY:
40 BUCKS...... Why not
Its colourful and so it brightens up my life a little, maybe?
Because my birthday is coming - just use this reason until my birthday's over

WHY I SHOULDN'T:
I don't know when/where I can skate. I thought of bringing it to school and I was scouting for places where I can actually put this skateboard to use but the thing is,

its just a little weird since its not like I'm skating with my friends.
So that'll leave me with skating by myself and then meet my walking friend at a particular end point, that seems retarded. It defeats the purpose of getting to a place within a shorter time because I still have to wait for my walking companion.................  (and I'm not ok with leaving my companion to walk alone)

Hazel asked me to skate about at the void deck but no wayyyyy! So many kids are doing that downstairs and although I like skateboards because I think they're cool, I don't think I want to join the kids hahahahhaah

Conclusion: I didn't get it.

but anyhow, I still have to use up some coupons from Gmarket so I shall find some other stuff to buy.

Mmm I talked for the first time during Philo tutorial yay (class participation *smug*) It wasn't much, I said something like "Robert?" HAHA That was some Philosopher's name but I couldn't remember his last name (which explains the Robert? something?) And when I was asked to explain - lol my reason was that I chose it randomly (because it was mcq). But at least I talked and so I'm glad for that already.

then I met Daphne for lunch at Science fac and I had papaya milk ("For my boobs" haha)

I think I'll nap then start on my work (and watch the matchmaking show at 8pm :D)

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6 MORE POINTS TO COMPLETE MY RP.

HAHA I think my whole RP is a joke but its not bad - making progress and I think its rather commendable (I commend myself lah) given that I started only like a week ago?

Amount of work left undone:

Calculus homework + tutorial
Math homework + tutorial
(I'm sure there will be more as the week progresses)

so I actually did nothing much this week. Ever since uni started, my posts have been all about Calculus and math (which basically sums up my life in uni thus far).

Met up with the usual peeps on Friday and visited Gardens by the bay on Saturday. I still cannot believe I spent only 20 bucks the previous week (hehe so maybe I can go shopping on my birthday, maybe~) I'd like the shopping but I'm dreading the fact I'm turning 19 because I'm still so small :|

Its been 18 years, I should just come to terms with my size - how can I forget I get to enjoy benefits such as shopping at the kids' section




er Should I skip school on my birthday~? hahahahahah

and I think I've been MIA-ing (deleted some of them) on a lot of social networking sites so k, shall post something on fb before people forget I actually exist.

I really don't

feel like studying :'|

Hm so I was thinking of buying the Fujifilm instax wide polaroid camera (I wanted the mini 25s initially but then that's a little more expensive and lol I don't even know if my mum will allow me to spend on a polaroid cam) But anyway, I told her and showed her the one I wanted to get and she said she'll help me to ask my aunt who buys stuff online frequently and my aunt replied saying she actually has one.

I'm not sure how to react because erm I thought I asked MONTHS ago and I kinda got a nil reply to my question (i.e. to whether she has a polaroid cam) and now that I want to actually buy one, my aunt says she has one. And the model is not exactly the one I want so erm, idk if I should just settle for it or... (I still prefer the one I wanted to get but then again, I have no reason to turn down my aunt's camera because its a new one)

What.... its Monday again tomorrow

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I don't feel like studying for anything this weekend, not sure if its because I was too overwhelmed by the amount of work I had to complete last week but anyway, I finished my Calculus tutorial so I have only math tutorial to complete and I'll be free of assignments for this week :D

So mmm back to Friday, I stayed in town till like 5+ and decided that I did not want to stay outside any longer because I wasn't even studying and I just felt like showering then maybe take a nap and so I went back home. Somehow, I had this feeling that I might end up meeting Amanda for dinner or something but I brushed it off - like, shower first then see how (if she messaged me or anything).

and true enough, she messaged me for dinner hahah so I went back out to town. But it wasn't too much of a hassle or anything because my bag was so heavy that day and I just had to go home to put everything down, shower and change my clothes so as to make myself feel way comfier + I like spending Friday nights outside to mark the end of a school week.

I don't like that the public holiday's on this Friday because Fridays are already like my no-school days but I guess, at least I don't have any make-up lessons since I won't miss any.

P.S. FIRST RP (Research Participation - for Psychology) TOMORROW LOL I FINALLY GOT TO CLICK ON "PARTICIPATE"  Probably will have to rush from Philo tutorial to wherever that place is.

So unproductive today

So I came to town with the intention of studying but now, I just feel like sleeping. Went to school for like an hour? The tutorial was supposed to last for about 1hour and 30-40minutes but it ended much earlier today + I was late for it. The only lesson I was late for, for the entire week.

This person sitting in front of me must be studying for O levels.......

LIFE SO BUSY (but still pretty good actually)

JUST ONE TUTORIAL AND I'LL HAVE MY WEEKENDS WHEEEEEEEEEEE

not like I'm actually going to do anything exciting during Saturday/Sunday but at least, a break from all the studying (?)

Attended Calculus lab today and again, I was lost. But at least I know how to turn on the computer now lol I don't understand how everyone seems to be able to manipulate and navigate themselves through the software with ease, that much ease. I had so many doubts to clarify and I bet the tutor thought my questions were dumb. I asked her what's with the "%" and if I was to substitute it with some function then she looked at me and replied "You don't know what the % is?" like as if its some concept/symbol that universally understood or something. I hate using that software yuck, probably the only one thing I detest for math modules.
But still, I think I should go torrent the software to practice before the lab assessment.

then during math lecture, Hazel and I sat in front of this guy who talks to himself (and he always sits by himself, on the floor at the back of the lecture). Guess it wouldn't be that weird if he were just voicing out his opinions but he actually holds some sort of debate/conversation, like as if he is playing a few roles back there. I was telling Hazel that he seemed to be holding his own lecture at the back; with him being both the lecturer and the student (and also the clicker buddy - students are supposed to pair up and participate in the lecture by clicking on this device you see). Idk its just quite creepy because he will just say stuff like "HAHA I GIVE UP LAH. I DON'T CARE. I THINK I WILL GET THE WRONG ANSWER" (huh but nobody asked) but anyway, I guess he is too engrossed in his own lecture back there and so he will not actually bother with everyone else in the LT. (And I dreamt I had some sort of mental disorder last night..... and the name of the disorder was actually something mathy?! like some Fibonacci Sequence or something >< hopefully studying math wouldn't turn my dream into reality)

I was pretty much distracted during Calculus because I was just looking forward to Friday, thinking about my Friday plans etc. I saw this really cute guy before Calculus lecture ended - Really the first guy I deem attractive. I've seen him a few times but he was always at quite some distance away so I wasn't sure if my eyes were playing tricks on me hahahahah Like maybe he's just cute from a distance x m  away and when x--> 0, he will be just normal or something. But I saw him up close today and I still think he is damn cute ^^ And I just had to show Hazey because after all, the one person I find attractive in the whole of NUS?! How can I not? She saw his back/side view first and decided he was not as attractive as I described because of his curly hair but then, she changed her mind after seeing the front hahahahaha

I guess I find him attractive because he doesn't look like he's 21 at all. He just looks like this cute, young boy who hangs around town during the weekends, likes math, maybe skateboard HAHA

but that's all there is to it, I merely find him attractive so, back to reality - where I'm supposed to be doing sociology tutorial.

Oh I have cheescake in the fridge

So I'm done with my Sociology paper - I almost wanted to take the paper tomorrow (because there are two slots, one was today and the other's tomorrow) but then I realized I cannot skip math lecture (that is, even if I want to) because we're supposed to submit math homework 3 tomorrow and I finished it AND I refuse to have points deducted just for submitting after the lecture. It rained so heavily while I was on my way to FASS but anyway, I'm glad I (ignored the inner devil in me who wanted to leave school because it was raining too heavily to get to FASS) went for it. I don't think I could have absorbed/studied any more even if I chose to take the paper on Thursday so... decided to just get it over and done with. The paper was an hour long, managed to even snack on my cereal bar halfway because I was pretty much done writing (lol couldn't think of any more to write but at least I filled up >2 pages so that's good enough? Not too sure about my content though).

The first thing I did when I reached home was to plug in my ipod to the speakers, then I just sat on the sofa with a glass of water and......... sing hahahahah (Now I'm really wondering if my neighbours can hear me)

and I just completed my philosophy summary wheeeee

so now I can go back to doing calculus.
K GOODNIGHT. Calculus lab tomorrow, hope I actually can do some mathy stuff on the com, like everyone else (and not just read the lab notes over and over again + feel lost about it).

no time to breathe

lol I don't know why the research participation timeslot is always full but,

I FEEL SO MUCH BETTER AFTER FINISHING MY MATH HOMEWORK (and it was on sets - I felt pretty lost about it but I managed to complete the homework anyway so, that just made me slightly happier for the day) :D Now I have one less thing on my to-do list for tomorrow after sociology mid term paper. Can't wait for the paper to end. I don't think I prepared enough for it. Probably will read for a little while then wake up at 8am tomorrow to continue reading then attend Calculus tutorial and then go back to Soci after that since I have 4 hours of break.

Went to town to study after math tutorial + lunch with Kelz in school. I probably studied for like 4 hours straight(?) then Amanda joined me halfway to finish her work~

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This week's ending wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Looking forward to Friday where I'll probably head to town to study for awhile then.... mmm meet up with whoever's free/go home to nap.

Can this week be over soon....

Collected sociology assignment and got an A (But I really don't think I did well, as in... I think a lot of people got A hahahahahhahah) Soci mid term paper on Wednesday and I don't feel prepared *insert appropriate Whatsapp emoticon* I FEEL SO OVERWHELMED IDK WHAT TO DO.

Just submitted the application for the transfer over to Science.
Then I also went to collect some bursary -about $2900? That bursary was some awkward shit. I went there thinking it'd be like some prize/award-giving ceremony, like something more formal (I made the effort to dress up ok~) but we were all gathered in some conference room?! And there was this awkward photo taking session - I told my mum to "PLEASE DON'T TAKE ANY PHOTOS OF ME AND DON'T TAG ME IN ANY" lol because I was so tired.

I saw this jumping rat on my way home - literally jumping. I'm not sure if it was a toy or....... but anyway, I ran away from it. Then I had to walk through another dark route so all I was thinking of was if some rat will just run out from the bushes again. *on tenterhooks* then this cat ran past me and I just screamed, my mum just laughed because my scream startled some dude (who turned around to see what happened, with his eyes wide open HAHA).

Want this paper to end soon

I feel as if I'm studying for A level Geography all over again - lost. Its like, I don't even really know what I'm supposed to memorize (and yuck I hate having to memorize, I hope my application to transfer over to science fac will be a successful one so I can just do calculations all day long or something).

I should adopt the habit of looking through the peephole

ok so I just opened the door and yelled "WHY DO YOU HAVE TO KEEP PRESSING THE BELL" at someone, thinking it was my mum

but unfortunately, it was some man trying to sell me durians.

Went out to town to study and finished some stuff so I guess I made the right decision. Met Amanda for dinner@Soup Spoon then we walked about town aimlessly as usual, from PS to H&M. I felt pretty good about the stuff I bought - I bought this JB tee hahahah for 10 bucks and this pastel pink jeans for $15 ^^ From the H&M kids section but who cares, as long as they look nice +  I can fit into them + affordable then why not~ I showed my mum what I bought (because I want to stop hiding my shopping loot lol so I walked in with the H&M bag in my hand) and she thought the JB shirt was worth less than $10, but well, she's got this thing against him so nevermind. I like it, that's all that matters :)

VERY PLEASED WITH MY PURCHASE. Although the day started with me feeling guilty for not doing any work, it ended with me having completed at least 1/4 of my work for the weekend + new clothes + good company on a Friday night wheeeeeeeeeeeeee~

My date with WQ is cancelled and so I'm just, doing pretty much nothing at home but still thinking if I should go out to study because I'm so distracted at home.

I insist on taking a few pictures on a day when I look..... not as tired.

I WOKE UP AT 6AM (big deal because I'm not in the army)

I feel much better after napping for 3 hours. Felt so tired after school.

mmmm so I went for Psych tutorial in the morning. Received some email from my tutor asking me why I skipped lessons. HAHA The funny thing was the part where he included that I can approach him if I have any personal problems and he also included the hotline/address for counseling services - LOL My only problem is that the class is too early and I have trouble going to sleep at night.

but well, I was glad I went for it today and got to know a few people from my class. I talked to this girl beside me and asked her if we actually need to bring the textbook for class because Idk anything then it turns out that she skipped the previous class too hahahahah Think she skipped it because she thought the people were quite scary because they seem to know everything/already studied a lot for Psych. :|

*Don't look at me, I do math only lol* In fact I was reading a little bit of math before the psych tutorial.

I guess I'll be pretty busy this weekend. I've got Sociology to study for and then Calculus and math assignments+tutorials. So much to do ><

Meeting Soh in town tomorrow (I didn't expect us to go to town ok~ I thought WQ will want to go somewhere else but she said she feels like going to FEP, yup I'll be in town again)

hmm Think I better put a reminder to submit the online application for the transfer to Science faculty. K I shall go watch 2 Broke Girls (and I just said I have a lot to finish. Let me escape for a little while)

Did I mention that they sent me some newsletter on NS Women seminar?! "Secure your future with an army career"

Omg I need to stop skipping the 8am classes.

:| GOODNIGHT.

Need to stop procrastinating.

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Went to school for only Calculus tutorial today.

1. I was early (HAHA It is a big deal). 
2. The HC girl talked to me during tutorial (because I realized she was my FB friend and I commented on her post). At first, I was wondering if I should then switch seats - to the one next to her or what, but I still prefer sitting at the last row of the class and she's just like diagonally one seat across me so I guess it doesn't matter.
3. My Calculus and math tutorial classmate sat beside me today. Its funny because initially I was the only one sitting in the last row of the class (everyone else seems to know someone). Then after like maybe 2 weeks, that classmate (together with his friend) moved to the last row but there was always like 1 or 2 empty seats between us. But they sat right next to me today~ and it just feels good because then I look less like some unfriendly, loner girl hahahah And they found out that I was from HC and gave me that sort of reaction like how others usually do but its not surprising.

Jesse and Celeste Forever
then I left school to have lunch with Karin at Clementi mall and left at about 2pm to go to town to meet Amanda for a movie. It was pretty funny but the ending was kind of unexpected. Best friends should end up together because they obviously love each other and they have soooooooooo much fun together, its just this really comfortable relationship :'/

I thought it was pretty sad.

Shall go tumblr for awhile ^^

Just saying

I SOLVED THE HEMISPHERE QUESTION WOOOHOOOOOOOOOOO

Just feel happy for me hehe

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Can we just go to some random cafe (preferably in town lol) and have coffee and tiramisu and read and talk and just not think about anything............... I'm just craving for some quiet time in a cafe actually.

So I met Audrey in town after my 40 mins math tutorial (I'm glad I was early today, though I couldn't believe it hahahaha) and we had lunch/brunch at Pique Nique and then we went to Ion to supposedly window shop - but you know what always happen eventually *insert smug face*
Took a nap that lasted for like 4 hours maybe?

sighhhhhhhhhhhhh. :| Shall go back to my Calculus tutorial (doing applications of differentiation hehe).

Na na na na na na~

Last night was horrible. I felt like I was drunk or something hahahahhaha I wasn't even in a right state of mind and like it was a rollercoaster of emotions. 30 minutes before I leave for school. Gonna meet Audrey for lunch in town later yay. Watched some matchmaking show on channel 8 yesterday and couldn't stop laughing but the prizes are quite attractive!!! I want to join for the prizes hehe

I hope my eyes will stop feeling tired, sting-y. :|

I've been staring at this picture of a hemisphere on top of a sphere and I don't get its dimensions.

#nerdy.

anyway, omg its Sunday and 5pm already. I felt like I just woke up because I haven't done much for today (and the past few days because I felt like I needed a break. I'm always giving myself breaks HAHA).

*Jedward and Chris Brown on replay*

Don't wake me up up up up up up

I'm so tired :| but overall, it was a pretty good Saturday.

My mum didn't nag at me for going out - or more like she didn't get the chance to because I left before she even came home. But anyway, I went out and made it in time for dinner at my grandparents' place.

I was pretty glad to be out in town on a Saturday for reasons other than studying. Although someone made me wait for like an hour++ (or nearly 2?!). He took all the way to what Jurong (some faraway, out of town area)?! and then to Little India and then ended up at Central because he mistook Central for Orchard Central and we were supposed to meet at Orchard Central, while I was still waiting at OC.

But that's ok, because I know how it feels to be like that hahahhaha
I saw Amira and there was this Cheryl (some pretty random acquaintance from STC) and quite a few HC schoolmates. I went to town in this white dress but brought another dress just in case tom decides to come all heavy on me (are you asking me then why did I wear white in the first place? if you are then its because I felt like it and I always do stuff when I feel like it and don't really think too much about if I should really really really really be doing it). Although I didn't stain my dress, I still changed while at Ion because for some reason, I felt.... weary and empty and maybe bored of myself and I needed something different - I almost wanted to buy an outfit then to change into, purely to experience some sort of excitement. **But I didn't**

Quite glad you bought the bottom I chose. I've got good enough taste and I made you look good *insert smug face* hahahahhahaha

actually, I expected myself to leave after 2 hours? but it was fine~

So my life is just like this

I'm finally at Thursday of this week!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Had 3 mid term papers - Psychology, Calculus and math and I wouldn't say they went well hahahhaha but they're over and that's all that matters ^^ On top of the papers, there was Calculus homework, Philosophy summary (despite knowing that the summary is to be handed up every Thursday, I realize most people rush it through the night before hahahahha), Psych assignment and Sociology tutorial (I don't feel like attending class tomorrow lol)

I was pretty overwhelmed by it all. Especially last night when I was still trying to solve some questions from the Calculus homework and then there was the philo reading+summary and it was already 1+ when I finished them. Not like I left my math revision to the last minute but I wanted to go through it again before the paper on the next day :| So I set the alarm at 7am so that I can wake up to revise for a bit and do my helpsheet before leaving for school.

but hehe, I'm pretty glad because I bought a pair of heels the other day, though I said I'll only reward myself after mid terms.......

then mmmm, had one hour of math paper today and it was funny to look at how people did their helpsheets. (FYI helpsheet: a piece of a4 sized paper on which you can write anything on, formulae, theorems whatever) Mine was pretty colourful (colour coded so I can find whatever I need within split seconds) but I'll definitely have to improvise on it! Both the Calculus and math paper reminded me of how much I actually really do need to study - some questions were pretty much basic but because they're so basic, you'll tend to neglect them when you're revising which reminds me of the Psych mcq paper. Time wasn't that much of a constraint though it was 100mcqs within an hour. The paper tested from like everywhere i.e. from the case studies, examples, stories There was this question on what animal they used in the experiment?

I thought it was pretty thoughtful of the lecturers/tutors because they did quite a lot to help us with our revision. By tutors/lecturers, I meant the math and calculus ones here lol (yeah, because I attend those lessons). Like there was this math chatroom thing on the school portal yesterday where the lecturer will be there to answer whatever questions you want. I was pretty curious to see how this chatroom works and so I went but I went at 12am? HAHA The lecturer left at 10pm. I was telling Hazel that its quite embarrassing because they generate this timestamp when you enter the chatroom. I entered and there were only a few students online so I left hahahha Heard from Hazel that only a few people asked questions and there was this period when nobody talked/asked anything so the lecturer was like "So I presume you guys are doing your helpsheet?" (because nobody was talking to him) I thought that was funny HAHA
but yup, the lecturer's really nice. Then during the break of Calculus lecture today, the lecturer walked up to talk to random students and again he stopped at the row where Hazey and I were sitting at and he asked us about the paper yesterday, which school we're from etc. and he said something like he actually knows quite a lot of math teachers from HC. I think my reply was "Oh.. actually I don't really go to school that often so I don't know many teachers" and he was listing names but I didn't know any of them.

I cannot wait to dress up and be out with the rest of the world on Saturday [but I don't think I can wear that dress I intended to because tom is here :(  ] Didn't have the time and the mood to want to/feel pretty for both last and this week. I just felt like I looked lethargic and pale and I just want to leave school asap because I don't want people to be looking at me in this state and not to mention, the weather sucks. lol appearance-conscious and I know it, hopefully I'll feel (like I look) better on Saturday hahahah

Allow me to look/feel better because I'm already deprived of the chance to wear that white dress and I really was looking forward to wearing it!!!!!!!!!!! ><