Like any other Sundays

I stayed at home and finished reading a book - The Perks of Being a Wallflower by Stephen Chbosky.

Woke up at about 11plus, had my breakfast and teh tarik (awesome instant teh tarik ^^) then sat in the living room to read from 12pm to 3/4pm. Thought the book will take me days but I couldn't help wanting to finish reading it. It was written like a journal (feelings so real, like raw and unprocessed and recounts that are just interesting, unlike my life :/) so I just felt like reading more after each entry.

It's like you want to find out what happened in this stranger's life after each entry - wonder if people read my blog that way.......


I tossed and turned in bed the night before and I was still wide awake at 4.34am. ZZZZZ
A lot of thoughts flooded my head - All pretty much random. I thought of the shoes I feel like DIY-ing and the colours I want to use (and I did do something to a pair of heels today. Shall see how it turns out tomorrow after the glue dries)~ I thought of how some people I know act differently now that they're attached and I thought of how they once had this screwed up notion when it comes to love and relationships but now, they talk/post all mushy and lovey dovey. Which is just, weird and contradicting...... And it reminded me of Shakespeare's A Midsummer Night's Dream somehow - Maybe the part about how people in love act/think irrationally. Oh, I remember the part when the love-juice comes in and how it made the characters involved act all foolish and dumb.

Shall try to sleep soon since I have work later on - finally, after one entire week of rest.

People are real funny

*Probably sound incoherent because the fatigue's setting in*

Time passed really quickly today. I woke up at er 11+am? and I was supposed to reach school at like 12pm? But anyway, I reached at 12 plus then there was dance prac and that photoshoot (which felt pretty anyhow. HAHAH It was like some.. random group shot)

After that, we just sat in the canteen to chat for awhile and later went to Macs@Serene Centre where we just talked while JH ate her milo mcflurry. Saw quite a lot of people I haven't really seen in awhile - in school and at Serene Centre.

then I thought about our shared memories during the 2 years spent in HC........ (You look at them and you think of how you used to be able to talk SO MUCH about I-don't-even-know-what but now, you feel like they're not even like a friend. Friend --> Acquaintance *who don't even say hi to each other* and the funny thing is, I look at it as something like a norm. Like, there's nothing surprising about that~)

How funny was it then.

Some things I realized today:

Everything has its own reason and time (don't ask me why/how I learnt that, I just did)

and

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"Dafuq" is a very useful expression. HAHAHHA It used to only appear in my head but now I can't help but say "Dafuq" to a lot of stuff. 

blahblah, shall sleep soon. Maybe read for awhile since I just finished a pack of milo.

Paint some bag

*I was really bored at home and so I went to town just to get the paint, glitter and the bag and then went back home*

Before I get started...

Some Blueberry Morning --> cereal + a pack of milo + Some music playing in the background ^^

"If I was your boyfriend, I'd never let you go~"

Ta da~

There is something I really don't like about it but I don't know how to edit it further. Damn my art sucks, what's with the squares, triangles and circles. One hexagon somemore LOL I should have attempted to draw something else zzzzzz Next time~

Am I even going to bring this bag out? LOLOL but I painted it from nothing..... so I shall keep it for now. HAHA

Make up your mind

12.30am :

I feel really really really warm. Milk tea or iced milo?
Think I'll go for the iced milo.

hmmm.. the entire pack or just a sip? Omg but a sip will leave me craving for more.

A pack will be too filling :/

Conclusion : I just want milo........................... or should I drink the oat milk???

Backtrack a few days

Scorpio Apr 25 2012

You want something big and wonderful and fulfilling to happen in your life, Scorpio. This may be a dream you've held close to your heart for a long, long time. This dream can easily manifest in reality for you, but first you will have to release yourself or cut your ties from something else that is standing in your way. You already know what this is, but you may be hesitant to give it up because its familiarity is somehow comforting to you. But only when you close that door can you open the door you've been dreaming of.

Went DN shopping with Chan again, this type at Paya Lebar where we walked through all 5 levels (zomg) then we took a bus down to Bugis for dinner and to continue shopping. Tiredttm.
But at least we sorta settled whatever we need to get? I don't know if my shoes can make it though. Bought this pair of platform shoes (and I tried to paint it today) and I wore it to dance prac just not but it wasn't very comfortable to dance in. :S And so, I don't think I'm going to wear it to dance. Thank God it was just 10 bucks.

I feel like I've been spending a lot of money. And the Gongcha addiction makes things worse because I just can't resist the temptation!!!!!!!!! >< Like just now, I met Chan for dinner before prac and Gongcha was just beside MOS burger - it was totally a shoutout to us. LOL And yes, I bought taro milk, 30% sugar  in the end. I was supposed to meet TW for dinner tomorrow ---> Laksa dinner eh, who can resist that. HAHAH But I forgot I already have dinner, think I will just go for the teh tarik tomorrow. (Teh Tarik's another one of my addiction)


and I keep spending money on stuff like mod podge & paints because I want to diy my old shoes. Almost bought a pair of plain shoes just so I could draw on them. Ahhhh I really need to spend VERY WISELY.

Anyway, somehow...................... People have been texting me to go out these days - though quite surprising (because I didn't expect these people to ask me out) but well, it's always nice to feel needed/wanted/to be thought of. But sadly, I'm asked to go out on days I'm most probably not free, either work or dance prac. :/

Camps are like the start of uni life, sighs.

All those fairy tales are full of shit, one more fucking love song I'll be sick


Woah emo or what. but I do feel that way.
Contrary to that, today was actually pretty awesome.

I woke up at 12 plus (Home alone so yayyy :D), watched one episode of some drama and two episodes of variety shows. Put some honey on my face, sang some songs, showered, met Chan for dinner then went back to school for dance.

The weather was NOT TOO BAD- cooling enough so I walked about outside wearing something with longer sleeves. Learnt half (??) of a new choreo so, at least I unlocked some sort of achievement today. Though not perfect (and probably quite far from it), I will....... IDK try my best.
It's rather inconvenient to get to HC from wherever I'm staying now since I have to take a train to Buona Vista then to Botanic Gardens then a bus instead of my usual 20+min 961 journey. Kinda missed that.

ermmmmmmmmmmmm. I have no work at all for the whole of this week so wish me luck - that my mum wouldn't go all crazy on me about work stuff again. Can't blame me! The manager doesn't need me in the shop. I've been replaced by a foreign worker *sob sob*

Who's way more hardworking than I am since she works FULL TIME i.e. 6 days per week, 11 hours everyday. 11 HOURS OF STANDING. :S
I'm thinking of finding myself a new job after DN and I really cannot decide if I should go for some NUS camp.......

The anti-social side of me is asking me to not go because firstly, I don't feel like engaging in orientation activities like CHEERING enthusiastically when I'm far from being an enthusiast. Secondly, I don't think I will talk that much during orientation period - just like how I was when I first got into HC. (++ I mean seriously, will we even keep in contact after orientation...?) Thirdly, I'm not in a very sociable mood............................ I like hanging out with like whoever I still hang out with right now. Not really keen to expand my social circle HAHAHHA Also, the camp costs $55? $60? I can go shopping with that sum of money.


The sociable side of me is asking me to go because "What do I have to lose?"
I can gain more random friends, meet more people so I'll be less sian (If I don't go for the camp, I'll be stuck at home, thinking of stupid emo stuff & trying to keep in contact with people who probably don't even care as much so why not just go for it~) Move onnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn. Talk more to my new random friends. Right?

Plus, accommodation's provided during the camp so isn't that great? (actually not that great since that means I'll have to bring clothes etc. which means I'll probably have to carry like some backpack? and there'll be so many stuff to wash and unpack when I get home after the 4-5 days zz)




Conclusion: I still cannot decide. I'm dreading uni. 

Shopaholic? Nah, not really.

"So, this is my life. And I want you to know that I am both happy and sad and I'm still trying to figure out how that could be."

-The Perks of Being A Wallflower, Stephen Chbosky (A book I've been wanting to get from Prologue but, not yet....)

April 23
I felt both happy and sad.

Woke up at 10 plus in the morning since I had no work.
My mum took off from her work for some reason I cannot remember because she tried to explain stuff to me while I was still half-asleep and buried underneath pillows and my blankie. All I remembered was her asking me to leave the house at 11 plus am because she asked somebody over to check out fengshui or something - thought my mum never quite believed in such stuff. Anyway, I refused to leave the house at 11 in the morning because where can I even go?! And what am I supposed to do outside? I asked my mum why I had to leave the house since her friend's checking the house, and not me, out.

Turns out that you're not supposed to be in the house if you're of a certain zodiac sign - affects the reading or something. It doesn't make sense to me. And so, I stayed in bed and my mum gave up on her fengshui thing because I didn't want to leave the house. At about 12 plus, I brought my mum for a tour around town. She was to be in town at 12.45pm to collect her watch from some place but the guy asked her to go back another day and since we were on our way to town, we just walked about and SHOPPED. I felt like I haven't shopped for a really long time. Quite? I guess~

Bought a top and a pair of denim shorts from Topshop and got the membership card so yay 10% off next time + discount vouchers if I'm not wrong. My mum couldn't decide if she should get that top she wanted because she thought it was too expensive. I forced her to get it and charge it on my card (HAHAHA LIKE AS IF I HAVE A LOT IN MY ACCOUNT). I wanted to have the chance to spend my salary on somebody what~~~~ But my mum still used her card to pay for everything we bought. -.-

Then after, we snacked at Taka and I walked my mum to A&F (because she wanted to see how hot the guys were. Weirdly, the guys standing outside A&F wore clothes but the guys standing inside A&F were half naked LOL) My mum left at about 3 plus? And I met Chan after that.

We had ~tea time~ at Medz. I had some Bread Butter Pudding + Irish Latte <3 while Chan had her Lava cake and some potato rosti. We stayed there for close to an hour - had to settle the bill before 5pm so that we still get our students' promotion. ^^ (*We talked about how sian we feel about uni, which I shall blog about maybe next time from my POV*)
Walked to Cine where we bought a ring each then to FEP to see if we could find some stuff for Dancenight. But we couldn't. Chan and I walked into this costume shop and the lady kept asking me "What are you dressing up as?" LOL I didn't know how to reply to that question because I wasn't trying to dress up as anything??? We sorta described the bottoms we're trying to find and she asked if we're dressing up as pirates. HAHAHAH

MM... we both bought a bag. Mine was a mini one though ^^ Like really small. HAHA Shall take a picture next time. I almost bought mini uno cards. ><
Then we walked to Ion for snacks - chillaxed at Tea Loft. 

Somehow, my mind drifted off to somewhere where it shouldn't really be and I felt damn sian. So I asked Chan if she wanted to walk about in F21 and I remember saying (LOL I JUST REMEMBERED ) "WE WALK ABOUT BUT DON'T BUY STUFF"

But as we entered F21, we just went crazy and took like 5 pieces? of clothing into the changing rooms LOL I couldn't take my eyes off the neon tops. NEONNNNNNNNNN!!!! HAHAHA I find neon colours really attractive but, how often do I even wear neon?! I bought some neon top from F21 once and wore it only like twice so far? **Neon heels are on my want list though**

I saw bikini tops on sale for $8.

$8.

The bikini was totally shouting at me. Asking, pleading, begging me to take it home.
And yes I bought it. Almost wanted to buy the other tops I tried but............. nah. Save some shopping for next time. I'm really tired and I felt like I went crazy shopping today because I wanted and needed to distract myself from unnecessary thoughts. It worked I guess?
I'm really pleased with my yellow bikini top though I have no idea when I'll wear it - I've been planning to go to the beach before A's started and like, how many months actually passed? LOL I haven't even worn the blue one I bought from H&M.

Conclusion: Retail therapy works.

Girlfriends and money make me happy. True story.

:/

A tad disappointed.

hmph

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again, who cares?

but I guess it doesn't matter anymore?

beep.

Dance night shopping - reminds me of all the trouble and time we spend at places like Bugis Street, FEP, Scape for the past two years. And not to forget, bad company for the first year. :S

and yup, I went DN shopping after dance prac at school. Everybody was exhausted but at least we got whatever jacket and so, guess we just have to settle the pants. Dancenight...............

Alumni item omg...... I'm old. Can't deny it.
Feel blessed that my friends actually make time to watch DN every year. *Much appreciated* :) It's going to be a Sian Sunday again - the one day I spend doing nothing at home and blogging about how I did nothing at home except reading the papers :/

WTF

My mum now thinks I've got a boyfriend who's in the army. Like wtff????????
I hate it when people (especially nosy relatives) say/think about stuff like that because I'm far from getting attached. And my mum probably sensed that I actually tell alot (ALOT) to my friends i.e. I'm hiding alot from her - which is true but, my mum's not supposed to know anyway.

I just came back from town with Amanda and wtf, my mum didn't believe me. She asked if I was out with my army boyfriend. Woah fml. fml. fml. fml. --> because she read a postcard from my friend which mentioned something about some army guy, but :( it wasn't even supposed to be like what my mum thinks it is. *sob sob* How can I even forget that postcards don't come in envelopes.

I guess my mum's going to ask who I'm going out with from today onwards. Great. Superb.

but thank God the postcard never mentioned anything about my blog. I don't even dare to think about what will happen. Yes, it's my blog and I can blog about ANYTHING but I don't want my mum to read and know this side of me - this side so different from the way I behave at home. :( I remember this one time during my primary school days when we had to write journals in exercise books? I had this one entry dedicated to complaints about my brother.  My parents (that was back then so BOTH of them found out what I wrote in my journal) got so pissed they caned me or something. They felt like I shouldn't be writing about my brother/family stuff - but, how wrong is it to write down how you really feel?

I don't even really feel that AT HOME when I'm home - how ironic.


Hope and pray she wouldn't bring up this topic - "The non-existent army boyfriend" again.

--
Haven't really been blogging much these days because I spent 4 days at the candy shop (where I wrap lollipops, sing in the shop, give out candies, crap with my manager and the chef.. well, the usual stuff) and 1 weekday for dance prac (which was ~sorta~ cancelled but there was "self prac").
My manager hired this new full-time promoter -> which means she'll do whatever I do but for 6 days/week. A Filipino lady~ It was pretty surprising because the previous manager didn't want to accept filipinos. She reminds me of my maids - partly due to the fact that she's from the Philippines -.-

Somehow, she was............. er, she's really caring (you can see from the way she interacts with kids. I dislike entertaining kids so thank God she was there), she's enthusiastic at work (she greets "Good morning sir, do you want to try some candies?" I'm... LOL Far from that. I had my *chronic bitch face mode activated*) I don't know, she just reminds me of my maids, Marisa and Jhona.
There seemed to be quite a crowd at Vivo this afternoon (which sucks because that means more people ignoring you but you have to be EVEN MORE ENTHUSIASTIC in giving out candies because you're supposed to PUSH SALES -.-) Thank God I got to wrap lollipops for an hour ++

Which meant I got to sit in the shop and not stand outside :)
Then there was this woman who brought two kids into the shop. I ignored because the new promoter was there to assist her. The two kids were so noisy I felt really uncomfortable. It was THAT loud you just feel like asking them to shut up but, you know you can't LOL I thought I was the only one who felt they were making alot of noise but my manager thought so too. :S Noisy children.

Oh

I survived 11 hours of work :D

Spent the entire day laughing and wrapping lollipops in the shop. How awesome is my life HAHHAAHA Then I saw R, an ex-schoolmate from STC and A, an ex-schoolmate from primary school days. R saw me first so she was like "EH? I KNOW YOU RIGHT?" LOL and she gave me a *hug* then A looked at us and went "I do know you too right?!" It was pretty amusing because I didn't even expect them to remember me.

I think everybody working at the candyshop - the guy making the candies, my manager + me were all quite sian so we just entertained ourselves. But I think I was the one entertaining them because they kept laughing at the questions I ask. My manager played all her techno, electronic, house music so I asked her "Do you actually walk to this music?"

I meant it like....... like I think I usually walk according to how fast the music playing in my ipod is. So if I'm listening to something like "Sexy and I know it" then I'll walk faster and if I'm listening to "I won't give up" by Jason Mraz then duh, I'll walk slower. HAHAHA My manager just laughed at my question because the image of her running to that techno music that was playing in the shop floated into her head and it just seemed ridiculous. Another 5.5 hours tomorrow then I'll meet ~The Usual Peeps~ at Jcube for a dinner.

I feel so much better today. (the hot earl grey milk tea from Gongcha helped too ^^)

Sigh

Scorpio Apr 16 2012

Something is on your mind, Scorpio. You could be feeling confused, agitated, and generally unclear in your thought process because of whatever is bothering you. This may be an issue that you just don't want to face. But if you deal with it now, you'll get it over with and you'll feel centered again. Once you resolve the problem, your clarity will return and you can get back to business. Face a challenge, and you'll breeze through it. But if you wait, it will only get harder.

--

Tell me it is that easy.

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On this lazy Sunday

I woke up at 10+ am and did nothing. Not really nothing nothing but maybe just reading - if you consider it something. What am I babbling about...

Somehow, I still don't feel very happy. Maybe I'm just bored at home - I can't exactly go out because my mum will say "Why are you always not at home". If I were to take out a book to read, she'll say "Why are you so free?". If I were to be at school for dance (but then again, there isn't any dance prac today), she'll say "Dance again? How will dancing help you in the future? You think you're going to make a living out of it?"

That was basically all she said this morning. I almost wanted to reply "Why can't I go back to school for dance? I know it doesn't earn me cash but then again, why are you playing tennis?"
but I guess the angel side of me convinced me not to say whatever was in my mind so as to prevent more nagging and arguments. uurg Sundays.
It's like I don't even know what I'm supposed to/can do on the internet. I googled "games" (hahahha "games" sound noob) but I am simply not interested in any. I went onto Youtube but huh.. what's on Youtube............
Tried to look for dramas but the links just wouldn't work. The video cannot be found - then why was the link even there? zz
So I ended up watching The Notebook - which makes me feel even more depressed because a love like Allie and Noah's probably doesn't exist --> The reason why I didn't want to watch it in the first place but today, I just needed something, anything.

I'm going to keep myself busy with work this coming week. Think I'm going to work on four weekdays and maybe dance on one day if there is going to be dance prac (and if there isn't then maybe I'll go out or something, I'll find something to keep me entertained). For now, I guess I just want to keep myself busy with my friends and whatever preparations for DN (Didn't even know it was that soon ><) --> guess it'll help reduce the ~overthinking~ part.

gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh hating this. MYALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL.

:(

I thought I'd feel better after singing out loud and jumping about but I'm tearing again oh noooooooooooo


I hope it's just pms. Maybe it is. SIGHS. (but I do have a reason to feel sad too)
Tom, you drive me crazy.

The good times and the bad times both will pass. It will pass. It will get easier. But the fact that it will get easier does not mean that it doesn’t hurt now. And when people try to minimize your pain they are doing you a disservice. And when you try to minimize your own pain you’re doing yourself a disservice. Don’t do that. The truth is that it hurts because it’s real. It hurts because it mattered. And that’s an important thing to acknowledge to yourself. But that doesn’t mean that it won’t end, that it won’t get better. Because it will.    

John Green (via creatingaquietmind)

emonemo

Scorpio Apr 13 2012

If you recently heard or overheard or saw something that has caused you to think that a once-loyal friend is not so loyal after all, you need to cling to your faith in this person instead. Something may not appear to be totally right on the surface, but there is almost certainly much more to the story. Having faith is a hard thing to master. Especially when you are someone with an analytical mind, like you have, Scorpio. But if you wait until the entire story unfolds, you'll see that your faith was justified.

What nonsense. No more faith!!!!!!!! Can't believe I woke up tearing at 9am zz

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:-|

SIGHS. WHAT A DISAPPOINTMENT. Shall go stuff myself with food.

Food makes me fat.

Food makes me happy.

Fat me is happy.

Ahh what nonsense.

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SMU Interview

So I went for mine this morning - had to wake up at 7+ since I was supposed to reach at 9am (seriously..... 9am?!).

Made a new friend because we were both lost while trying to find the entrance to the security counter. The interview was a group one and we had 15 minutes to read some article about US, Japan, Europe and China. Then after, we were split into two different groups for the interview (approx. 5 per group?). And well, you just answer whatever questions the interviewer asks. About 30 minutes for that session??

I kept quiet for the first 5-10 minutes because I really didn't know what to say. Though the interviewer was pretty friendly and he told us to treat it as a discussion and not some competition, I couldn't help but feel that it's still somewhat competitive since there were these two students who kept answering the questions i.e. Trying to impress the interviewer with whatever knowledge they have. Well, I'm not really that sort who likes to contribute my ideas because I think whatever I say will turn out to be something lame. Like... A "duh~"

Until I realized everyone in the room already said something then the interviewer asked me for my opinion. I think I gave him an awkward smile and my "hmmmm" + "er" lasted for about 30s? I didn't quite know how to reply to his question - something about whether if I think Japan's situation is considered some recession or if it's a normal thing, don't know what. I just started saying "er... Ok actually I wanted to add on to whatever we were talking just now, about Japan and Europe's decline. I thought maybe it's also partly due to the New International Division of Labour (NIDL)? So...... It's like because China has all the cheap labour and stuff so it makes the country more attractive to invest in? Which.... Kinda leads... To the decline of Japan and Europe also? Oh I'm sorry, I think I'm not answering your question." then they laughed at me. Zzzzzz but the interviewer was like "No no, I think it's a good point. So you're talking about comparative advantage blah blah blah"

It was considered fine overall? The whole idea was to let us feel how studying in SMU is like - that interactive learning style zz

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日有所思，夜有所梦

Is totally apt. HAHAHHA *Shows off Chinese* 

Last night, my dream was bizarre but still, it was pretty sweet and nice. Which just goes to show it's something that will not happen in reality LOL 

SMU interview tomorrow and I think it's going to be some group interview. Damn. :/

Raining~

Just talked on the phone for 1.5 hours and I think I said "sian" like n times.

I feel so warm......... shall go shower then maybe make myself hazelnut latte or something. ^^

So vexed

I just want to go to bed. Or maybe, a few minutes later when everybody's off to bed.

ahhhhh will you please stfu.

Squirrel Bites

Scorpio Apr 9 2012

Don't allow your imagination to wander to the dark side today, Scorpio. You may be presented with a project to complete or a problem to solve - either way, it could lead you to a wonderful opportunity that will be personally beneficial. But if you allow your mind to start imagining all that could go wrong, or what kind of mistakes you could make, or how you could look foolish in the eyes of someone you admire then you won't accomplish a darn thing. Don't allow your thoughts to turn to worry or fear. Think only of the best possibilities and that will lead you to success.

--

MYAL. But the horoscope answered whatever's been going through my mind and I can only hope it's accurate. ><

Half day shift at the candy shop today. Work was pretty laxing - I stayed in the shop to draw/design posters. HAHA Can't believe they put my poster up. ^^ Had Squirrel Bites for lunch.

Caramel Apple Cinnamon

Somehow it doesn't look that appetizing in the photo but it's actually not bad.

Mine was about $4.50? It's actually a fried dough pastry kinda thing and though it's called Squirrel Bites, it's not THAT small. Not bad. I shall try the other flavours and the Ice bites next time.

The Apple

I COULDN'T SLEEP LAST NIGHT.

Woke up (or rather, opened my eyes since I don't know if I actually slept) at 8.45am - because I think there's work at 11am. I think. I'm not even sure myself.

My manager said she's going to be off so I get to stay in the shop and not stand outside. But I don't quite know if she's referring to today.

Probably catching The Vow (Channing Tatum *squeals like a pig* HAHAHAHA) with GG @ Vivo later. Can't believe I'm staying in Vivo even after work HAHA

Blasting Far East Movement and Pitbull at 9am~?

Feelings and Situations I dislike

In no particular order

(what makes me think people actually want to know what I dislike, well I just feel like blogging something/anything right now because I'm bored)

1. When the weather gets so warm and I still have to be stuck in a crowd.
2. A really nice, boyband-like kind of song comes onto the radio but. What's the title of the song?!
3. When I'm alone in the house and I hear funny sounds, freaks me out. Just like how it was a few days ago.. (or at least, similar to being home alone) I was the only person still awake at about 2am? Then it started pouring and I heard ropes whipping against walls. >< Gave up watching my drama, ran into my room and hid under the blanket.
4. Not knowing if my bad mood's due to PMS or not. But still blaming it on TOM. 
5. When I spot a lizard/cockroach but then they disappear a few seconds later. Then it makes me wonder where they disappeared to...................... *paranoid prisoner in my own home*
6. Waiting for a reply from a specific somebody but I just get bombarded by texts/calls from everyone else except that one person.
7. To see my favourite singer/band getting featured in a song but somehow, the songs just sucks and I can't find any reason to like it but I'm SUPPOSED to like it.
8. BAD HAIR DAY. :( Ruins the entire day
9. Drawing something really ugly on Draw Something when my drawing's not that bad actually, HAHAH I think. Blame it on the fingers.
10. Turn on the TV to find out I didn't record the drama I missed last night :/
11. Waking up before the alarm goes off (the sian part is when you're just a few minutes away. So, to go back to sleep or to wake up? -.-)
12. Turning on my macbook but not having anything to do online - Not in the mood to go onto Facebook/Tumblr/MSN/Whatever and not having anything to blog at all.
13. "What are we going to do in town?" "I don't know" #boringlife
14. When time passes by so slowly while I'm at work
15. To text or not to text?
16. When I have to survive weeks that goes "Moooooooooooooooooooooooonday, Tueeeeeeeeeeeeeeesday, Wednessssssssssday, Thurssssssssday, Friday, Sat and Sun"
17. Realizing I don't have a towel hung up at the towel rack because the previous one's in the laundry and I forgot to put a new one up.
18. Seeing somebody you were once so close to but somehow, not anymore. But then again, who cares and whatever to that.
19. So lazy I don't feel like getting lunch so I just have to wait for dinner.
20. Oh. Time to top up my ez link card *$10++ gone*
21. Shucks, what's the pin number to my card? Nobody knows. (That just happened two days ago when I was out in town with Chan. I used my card at Ajisen then forgot my pin when I tried to pay for the stuff at Uniqlo a few minutes later.)

Ok actually I was pretty upset today but I think, my reason's so not legit HAHA So, why bother telling anyone.
And maybe it's really just... PMS.

Because everyone's like....

Don't know why but I feel so very uncomfortable. :S

Sighs it's alright. I had dimsum for breakfast, that's good enough.

I have no idea what I'm going to do for the whole of this week. Half day shift on one day, dance on one of the weekdays and then what..............................

ahhhhhh I don't like this feeling. Think I need a hug from Amma, the Hugging Saint. Just read in the papers that she's in Singapore. :/ and maybe stuff myself with some cheesecake or something.

Yeah yeah yeah whatever.

I know I shouldn't be upset over this so I shall not be.

Go to sleep. Or maybe get something to eat first.

Let's start from yesterday

I can't believe lazy me worked on Good Friday. Ok, actually I forgot it was a Public Holiday~
I was supposed to put on fairywings yesterday. Thank God the plan was cancelled :)
There was this J1 girl from HC who wanted to apply for a job at the candy shop too.

I remember getting quite offended because somebody called me aunty like wtf.
HOW CAN I BE AUNTY?! I mean, look at who you're calling aunty. You're much older than I am. -.- With a kid.
Yeah, the lady was telling this to her kid "Ask aunty for candy!" I just turned away because er, who're you calling aunty~ HAHAHA I don't like it when adults refer me as Aunty to their kids. Go grab a mirror.

Ended at about 4.30pm then met Amanda in town. We went shopping at the Uniqlo in 313 and later, walked to Ion to get more stuff from Uniqlo over there HAHA
Then, went back to school today. I felt quite odd. Like I'm old.................... and not in HC attire... HAHA Oh wells. Dance prac ended at about 4-5pm? then dinner at Cathay and bought gongcha at Bugis.

Tiredttm.

UT

Somehow, today feels more like a Saturday.

Met Chan at town after work where I had Ajisen for dinner (saw one of the staff from Japanese Gourmet Town in Vivo working at the Plaza Sing outlet HAHA How coincidental) and then we went shopping at Uniqlo.

Got to go back to school tomorrow~~~~~

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Google how to use a tampon

Like any typical work day.

I was late - omg, I really should learn to be punctual more often.
and my mood was damn lowwwwwwwwwww.

But thankfully, there was this customer who bought 20 bottles of candies so at least sales wasn't that bad and I wouldn't have to ~push sales~ when my mood is low enough.
So I slacked in the shop most of the time for today because the others had to attend some meeting and I was just supposed to stay in the shop, wrap lollipops and stuff. Everything was so laxing, so comfortable and under control until I felt like TOM was coming. That was when I started panicking because I was all alone in the shop and I can't possibly just ask some random person to take over the counter while I escape to the ladies.

Well, I could only patiently wait for the manager and the other staff to return. When the meeting was finally over, I asked my manager if she brought any pads out. That was nearly 4.30pm --> my shift was ending pretty soon but I couldn't take the risk, what if I stained my jeans or something :S

Anyway, my manager said this "Oh no, but I don't have any pads. I think I've got a tampon though."

OH MY. TAMPONS. One of my many fears.
"I don't know how to use!!!"

I CAN'T BELIEVE I SAID THAT. But it's a fact and I was just panicking already. Didn't want to use toilet paper because that's just plain gross and it may just fall off when you walk.
Sighs. I feel so noob for not knowing how to use a tampon. :/

I don't like this :(

I don't know if it's because my emotions were clearly displayed on my face or what.

When I went back to my granny's place for dinner yesterday, my uncle asked me about A levels. A LEVELS AGAIN. Oh how I hate talking about it.

Yeah, he asked "So how many As did you get"
Seriously? Did you just ask me that? What if I said none.

Does it mean I should just jump off the building or something?

Anyway, I told him how many I got and he was like "Huh? LIKE THAT ONLY AH?"
My face just turned....... ok, I'm not really sure what colour it turned to but my heart just sank. It's like, you make me feel so dumb and I hate it when people make me feel like I'm not smart/good enough because I already feel that way. It'd be great if well, nobody puts me down any further.

and what, my intelligence and worth is directly proportional to the number of As I score?

So yeah, I don't know if I looked like I was pissed with his reply because his wife said "Aiya, A levels leh. It's different from PSLE."

I felt embarrassed and hurt. Really. (60% embarrassed for myself, the other 40% for my mum because I mean, which parent wouldn't want to be able to tell their friends+relatives+colleagues "OH MY CHILD SCORED STRAIGHT As") Maybe it was just me getting all over sensitive..

Then when I was on FB, some acquaintance asked me about my A level results. I didn't reply.
Like how does it even concern you.................. *Angst*
You're just curious and not concerned and so I don't feel like I need to let you know how well I performed.
Which explains the NIL reply.

Guess I'll forever be haunted by my A level results since people only care about how many As I get.

I know what I will not do.

Floating about without much conscious thought or direction.