A little something I made

Pretty glad with my product. It's called a slave bracelet.

Made this while Megz made her dreamcatcher necklace in Coffeebean today. And because I've got small hands so I still have quite some chain left. ^^
Shall make a few more (different kinds duh, unless anybody else requests for me to make them an identical one) when I'm free and when I get myself more chains or something.
Now I feel good about having small hands HAHAHAH I always find it quite hard to buy myself rings/bracelets because my fingers and wrists are just... skinny. ee, I don't like the word "skinny"

Then we met TW and we gamed for 3 hours (Some xbox Marvel Alliance game). It was pretty fun partly because I got to play Captain America and Human Torch (both characters played by Chris Evans in the movies) so yaknow~~~~ I was some hot dude for 3 hours HAHA

Then we got stuck in some rock in the game - that got us frustrated because it was just retarded. Superheroes getting stuck in some cave?! But still, it was fun :) On my way home now, listening to Justin Bieber's new song - Die in your arms.
K goodnight~~

Ok so I was painting

I used magenta for the background then glow-in-the-dark yellow for the words. It was supposed to be neon yellow though, I forgot mine wasn't NEON :(
I couldn't really take a picture of its glow in the dark but anyway, it glows. And so I'll bring it to the cinema soon HAHAHA :D *SHOW OFF*

Anyway, today this old man called me "xiao jie" but he apologized and changed it to "xiao mei"
so... er, am I supposed to be happy about that? HAHAHA

Breakfast at work

Can't seem to decide what I want to do. Feel like making this slave bracelet but I can't find chains in that colour..... :/ sighs shall see how tomorrow. Tom's making me damn sian.

Oh the boredom

Just finished another one.

Posting on my blog as if it's Twitter/Instagram. Zz

Another product out of boredom

It's a friendship bracelet if you didn't realize.

Anyway, approx 5.5 more hours of work today. Then maybe I'll go buy more embroidery thread or something.

Oh money.

Guess I'm not going for the HK trip anymore.

Ermmmm I'm not exactly disappointed because anyway, I wasn't really sure if I should go for it.
Why I feel I should not go

I think I'm not earning alot from my job - yes it pays $8/hour but I work for only 3 days/week (er, I'm supposed to only work 3 days/week) which is fine because I still want to be able to enjoy my holidays, and that means I earn nearly 200 each week. Sufficient for my expenses - 200/5 = $40 per day.

If I were to go for the trip, I'll have to pay $600+ for the flight and accommodation which is actually pretty fine but considering the amount I earn? Not really THAT fine after all.
That's 3-4 weeks of pay at the paint shop and I'm working like 4-5 weeks at the paint shop so that will mean I'm left with 1 week's pay which is probably already spent on my shopping. And so, any further expenses for the trip will be from my bank account which isn't like... a lot.

Then also, uni's starting - I don't really want to have my mum giving me allowance every week. At least, IDK.. I want to spend what I earned and not just leech from my mum's savings.
I wonder how I'll survive in uni.......... SIGHS.

The adult world is so expensive. :(

Why I want to go
shopping duh.

With GSS, the world is even better.

Anyway,my mum wasn't really keen on letting me go for the trip so guess that's decided.

Shall try to look for another job.

DREAMCATCHER

Finally completed. Just a noob one. It's hanging by the window right beside my bed. Great World City in the background~
ignore the unglam reflection.

My mum asked if I'm trying to cast some sort of black magic on her. -.-
No please, dreamcatchers are meant to protect us from nightmares.

The Ojibwa believe that a dreamcatcher changes a person's dreams. According to Konrad J. Kaweczynski, "Only good dreams would be allowed to filter through… Bad dreams would stay in the net, disappearing with the light of day." Good dreams would pass through and slide down the feathers to the sleeper.

Another version from the same article was, "Nightmares pass through the holes and out of the window. The good dreams are trapped in the web, and then slide down the feathers to the sleeping person."

*OBVIOUSLY FROM WIKIPEDIA*
From what I googled, I think you're not supposed to have more than 1 hanging in your room and you're not supposed to make it for yourself - it's supposed to be received as a gift so I'll see who I feel like giving it to or maybe I'll just leave it hanging in my room.

Don't really believe in them but they just look nice and I was bored + the materials were rather cheap and easily obtained.
The ring's like $3?
Then the strings - use whatever you have/want HAHA I used Megz's yarn for this.
Feathers come in a pack at like $2+?

or you can pluck them off birds or feather dusters.

The knot used throughout is basic and repetitive so~
Have fun if you're going to try to do it as well LOL

June hols are damn sian - though it's not like I need it to study but it means more people probably studying at cafes in town (I know I used to do it too.. >< ok, I just hope they won't crowd up the entire cafe. Leave me some space to read and do my crafts with Megz thanks HAHA)

This is nothing serious

Ok I don't know if I'm right to feel this way but anyway, here's what happened:

So, my brother was asked to collect our dinner from my grandfather at the mall nearest to wherever I stay. He came back with the food (duh), some other stuff and $20 richer.

It felt weird because usually and MOST OF THE TIME, when my grandparents give US money..
like for eg. 50 bucks - I'll get $30 and my brother will get $20
or else it'll just be 25-25.

but this time, only my brother got $20.
It's not that I actually need that additional 10 bucks from my grandparents but it just feels kinda weird yaknow. Like, did you just forget my existence? IDK.
But I just brushed those thoughts away because well whatever, I'm working and I earn my own money and I feel like it's sufficient for me right now so I just kept quiet.

then later, my mum asked me if it was ok with me that my brother got $20 from my grandfather and that I got none. The truth was that I was indeed a tad disappointed - again, not because of the money but because I just feel... left out to an extent. But I didn't say anything. Then my mum just said "Well, anyway you're working and you have money of your own so it should be ok right" WHICH IS.. JUST NOT THE MAIN POINT but. IDK how to continue.


I don't know what I'm trying to say but... ahh I'm just bored. Shall go find something to eat/drink.

Happy Birthday Hazey

Somehow I just feel like drawing something - not exactly anything, I feel like drawing Captain America and Spiderman HAHA
Then maybe when I feel confident enough, I'll buy another canvas bag to draw and paint on or just buy canvas then I'll......... probably put them on my table as deco or something. Waiting to watch The Amazing Spiderman ^^

Celebrated Hazey's birthday with The Usual Peeps and our planned prank failed zz The original plan was to make the Birthday Girl come in a dress and heels/make-up whereas the rest of us appear in super casual +bright clothes but who knew, the Birthday Girl didn't follow the dress code and came in jeans -.-
Then after, we went to Cine and played Band Hero, it was pretty fun because we just started screaming in the room which we later came to find out wasn't sound proof. Before the dinner with The Usual Peeps, I already met Megz earlier in town to get materials to make our dream catchers. The materials weren't too expensive and dreamcatchers aren't THAT hard to make --> totally chillax. We just sat at Coffeebean (and I tried the Hot toffee latte which was not bad) and did our crafts, laughed about Andreas, Justin Beaver etc. HAHAHA oh and we saw this caucasian dude who was really good looking- The type that'll make you stop and stare because he's just tall and attractive. A rare find in Singapore.

Shall take a picture of the dreamcatcher after I'm done hanging all the feathers and stuff.

I'm going to start reading my new book tomorrow, pretty excited about it. That'll make me stay at home and not spend more money outside. I think I really need to find some sort of app to help me manage my finance. ><

Yay no work tomorrow

but I still have to travel to JE to deposit the payslips.

Weather's pretty fine today, thank God. mmmm well, as usual, I had nothing to do at the paint shop so I bought myself mac breakfast with latte which was my breakfast + lunch.
Saw Justin Beaver (FYI, he's actually some random caucasian dude who appeared when I was making jokes about the name "Justin Beaver" and he's superrrrrrrrr tall. But the awkward kind of tall though) when I was on my way to the paint shop in the morning.

Then watched Dark Shadows with JR later in the night. Thought the plan would be cancelled because it was impromptu and there most of the shows were either like 7 (and I couldn't make it that early since I was still ON MY WAY HOME at like 6...... Needed to shower, change my clothes and have dinner before going out) or later in the night, close to 9 or 9+

but anyway, we managed to catch the one at 8.50pm. ^^
and I drank Gongcha - hot Ovaltine, 30% --> REMIND ME TO NEVER BUY IT AGAIN. Ok it wasn't bad BAD but I wanted like hot milk tea sort and it was more like oatmeal to me. At least I tried it and now I know how it tastes like.

Put Usher's "Scream" on replay today


so, that concludes today. Most probably going to dye my hair tomorrow so, good luck to me.

What the gongcha.

I always look forward to time after work even though my job is already so slack.

Like today, I met Chan after work and we went ~window shopping~ like what I've suggested but I ended up buying something. Not really surprising since I went with the intention to try on some dress, look for some belts and some skirts. "Window shopping" just made me sound... more frugal, like I'm trying to save money or something.

After dinner and shopping, Chan felt like she needed to satisfy her craving for waffles with ice-cream and I also wanted to get something to drink while waiting for her to finish her dessert so I got myself hot earl grey milk tea from Gongcha HAHA Then we went to Medzs which was pretty crowded as compared to the usual empty afternoons for her waffles. I didn't see any sign with "No outside food and drinks allowed" so I brought my gongcha in. I sat down with the gongcha on the table and nobody said anything either.

UNTIL WHEN I TOOK SIPS OF GONGCHA then this lady came over to tell me "No consumption of drinks bought outside of Medzs" so fine, I nodded my head and said ok but took a few more sips.
Then I just left it there and not touch it but... I just didn't get why I can't drink gongcha inside and why wasn't I stopped when I first entered. -.- Anyway, so I just left my gongcha at one corner and the staff there kept staring at it.

Then came another lady who pointed at my gongcha and said something which summarized to "no outside food and drinks allowed" but the way she said it............ it was hard to comprehend.
And like er, I asked her so what am I supposed to do with my gongcha.
I'm already not very pleased with having my hot gongcha turn cold under the air con and what now. (LOL ANGST)
Then she just pointed to the drink and told me (once again) that no outside food and drinks.
But fine, so tell me what you want me to do with the gongcha right? To finish it outside or you're going to throw it away, WHAT?

She just didn't really seem to understand and I didn't understand what she wanted to do with my gongcha. LOL And I just told her "Yeah, I understand that I cannot drink this in here and I'm not drinking right?"
Then she just smiled and walked away or something.

It was torturous ok - seeing and feeling my hot earl grey milk tea turn cold. zzzzzzzzzzz

One last day of work for this week. Persevere! :D

Bored at the paint shop

See the paint in the background HAHA

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Lala.

2 more days of work and I'm done for this week :D

Well, as usual... spent like 8 hours at the paintshop and even saw someone from HC today.
But er, I didn't know if I was supposed to be friendly or not and the heat made me feel damn irritated so I just continued to look at my phone.

Bought Koi from town after work and watched Avengers (FINALLY). There were quite a lot of lol moments (lol ≠ LOL) in the movie and the dude who sat next to me (some middle-aged, male adult) kept LOLing. Hardcore Marvel Fan. HAHA

I still don't like Hulk because it's big and green and it just seems like a brainless and crazy creature to me.
Captain America <3 I was shivering when we left the cinema and oh, how I wish Captain America was there to hug me HAHAHHA Can't wait for The Amazing Spiderman to screen!!

THIS IS NOT AN EMO POST.

Hello~ *awkward wave*

I guess we're all probably still feeling a little blue after our last performance yesterday. The flowers from the two performances have already wilted and the balloon's deflating :/ Nobody posted anything in the "Alumni item" Whatsapp group so I think I'll just post my notes to you guys here - in addition to those I've written with Amanda the other day.

To the awkward alumni :

I had a really really really great time with all of you guys!

Especially during the past week - when we encountered freaky happenings in the RUA, trying on the helicopter dance with high ponytails, danced to Glad You Came using the On The Floor choreo, breakfast in school @ 9.30am but we all reached at 10am nonetheless (forever half an hour late), going out of school to have lunch/dinner before the runs...

++

The ever-so-troublesome dancenight shopping, complaining about the heat when having pracs at Scape.....

the constant vibration from the Alumni item whatsapp group because we cannot decide on the dates and timings for pracs when everybody's available.

The awkward circle where we're supposed to try to do awkward waves........ "It's a new generation~~~"

The cursing and swearing in the backstage before our turn (more like just Chan and me for this part)

Walking about school (when we have pracs/runs) feeling awkward because everyone else is in the brown HC uniform and it's just.. weird because we're old. LOL And colourful.

When Yangxi asked if we sung "Happy Birthday" to Yingyen when we haven't and it was supposed to be a surprise.

Sylvia forever in her costume.

How some people dance while showering - holding their own DN performances and curtain call HAHA

The walks to Botanic Gardens after dance pracs and sometimes, a little snacking at Serene Centre's Macs.

Randomly walking about and smacking people's butts during pracs HAHA

Steph Pang's awkward 3 fingers pose

Working out in the gym before a rehearsal

How "Bang That" sounds like a swear word to me

The awkward piece of meat that never fails to appear in our lunchboxes provided during runs and performances

When Jinghui helps me with the eyeliner because I'm just too noob at make-up.

*Actually, I think a lot of people helped me with my make up for the past 3 years HAHAH THANK YOU ALLLLLLLLL*

I think I kept really quiet after yesterday's performance because I didn't know what to say, I felt like I could just cry if somebody looks at me and say something like "It's our last performance *frowns*"/"Don't be sad.. we'll see each other again" IDK, I just felt like crying because we'll probably not meet up as often.

I'M LIKE A FRAGILE LITTLE FLOWER K. HAHA I didn't even really said BYE to people because this quote popped up in my head

“Never say goodbye because goodbye means going away and going away means forgetting.”
― J.M. Barrie, Peter Pan

(Damn it, Peter Pan) and I don't ever want to forget you guys. :/ SO I REFUSED TO SAY BYE!!!

and I remembered I tried to "drown my sorrows" with a sip of beer from Amanda's Carlsberg HAHHAHAHA

Apart from that, I wanted to try to remember everything I was feeling at that particular moment.

I was absorbing everything from waiting to perform for our item, before and after curtain call, the part where the audience can come up on stage to present the dancers tokens of appreciation to returning to our holding room because it'll be my last time staying in some random classroom in HC, then removing our make-up in the toilet (OH YINGYEN, your facial foam is awesome) because it'll also be my last time going to the toilets in HC (ok, the toilet's not the important part)

OK I END HERE BEFORE I START TEARING. THANK YOU AND I'M GLAD I HAD THE CHANCE TO PERFORM WITH YOU GUYS FOR THE LAST TIME.

LOVE YOU ALL!! <3

CHERYLTAN.

oh, I think I should also thank Bihou for removing the thorns on the flowers he gave us. THANKYOU!!

Craving for Blueberry morning

Sentimental attachment to the school and everyone else,weirdly.

I woke up feeling like the past two days were just a dream.

Nothing much to blog about because I'm still feeling pretty low after everything. Thank God my mum's not in her pms-y mode. Outside's hot as usual - 34ºC :S

Just received $200+ for working 3 days at the paint shop last week.. I still have to work till the end of June :( Since I work 3 days/week, I guess I'll just buy a book (I think I want to buy "One Day" by David Nicholls) and sit at the cafe in Prologue to read on the other two days. Maybe catch a movie on one day or something.

I have no idea how I should tell my manager at the candy shop that I want to quit (since this paint shop thing ends like a month later). Perhaps partly due to the fact we're more like friends than just a employer-employee kind of relationship..... #sighs

Dancenight 2012

Dancenight ended.

I don't know how many times I cried teared. :/ I was really upset that everything's like our last time - our last time dancing together as a group, our last time dancing on the audi stage, our last curtain call, our last time feeling the anxiety just before a performance, our last time cursing and swearing at the backstage because we were just too nervous, our last time having pracs in the RUA..

and probably the last time I'll get to go back to school with a reason.
Don't know if I make sense but I.. I doubt I'll go back to just walk about the school aimlessly after today because it's just weird. Like ~ULTRA AWKWARD ALUMNI~ HAHA
Then I was also upset because I didn't get to take pictures some people.

Everything feels surreal. The afternoon show felt like it was just a few hours ago when we were all still NOT SO hyped up and I remember when I told Megz (Thank you to all my friends came down on Friday night ^^) 


"omg..... this is all going too fast. Friday's ending soon and I'll wake up in a few hours time and it'll be Saturday and then it'll be the afternoon show and before I know it, it'll be my last performance in HC."

Can't believe I now belong to the ~AWKWARD ALUMNI~ Category. It was pretty awkward after curtain call because I didn't quite know where to go and who to look for though I sorta know who went but it's just... IDK, it felt more natural to have somebody looking for you after your performance and not like the other way round right?

But anyway, HAHAHA Shuting and Fiona's flowers from the afternoon show saved the awkward alumni after the show LOL THANK YOU FOR YOUR FLOWERS.
but flowers wilt :( Thank God I got a cactus from Megz so.. it'll probably be like the one thing that keeps me reminded of DN 2012 when I performed as ALUMNI HAHA
Good morning~

Why did the hair band even break?!

Hello everybody, I'm freaking out.


Went out to town with Chan today and we watched "What to expect when you're expecting" which convinced us that pregnancy and child birth is indeed painful and scary.
Then after, we went for dinner and a little shopping. We went into this shop selling accessories and I got myself two hairbands (again). I can't help but still feel guilty whenever I look at the hairbands I bought because I kinda.... broke one accidentally in the shop. ><

I don't know if it was already faulty in the first place or what because I merely pulled it over my head (like how I did for the other hairbands) and it just snapped. I was left stupefied. Seriously.

Part of me felt like it was not my fault because how can that hairband just snap so easily when it's supposed to be ELASTIC and the others I tried (using the same method) didn't snap.
However, the other part of me felt like it really was my fault because it snapped while it was still in my hands. I was the user at that point of time and that means I broke the hair band. :(

I was so scared I just left the hair band back wherever I took it from and I just wanted to leave the shop immediately. So I went to the counter to pay for whatever I bought, together with Chan and the sales assistant said "You get one more free when you buy two" so I just got another hair band I tried on just now.

Guilt took over me as soon as we left the shop and I just told Chan "omg........ I cannot take it. I broke a hair band. It snapped when I tried to put it over my head but it wasn't supposed to just break like that. WHY DID I ACCEPT THAT FREE GIFT. I shouldn't have accepted that free gift right?! I FEEL SO BAD." And I repeated myself after every few minutes.

"I FEEL DAMN GUILTY. I BROKE THEIR HAIRBAND AND THEY STILL OFFERED ME A FREE GIFT."

"What if there's a surveillance camera and they caught me trying it on........?!"
"Maybe I should return them the free accessory."
"OH MY GOD. I'M SUCH A BAD PERSON. I BROKE A HAIR BAND."



I really feel like I don't deserve that free hair band I got because the one I broke should have been MINE. Now it's left hanging there........... :(((((

And the DN anxiety made everything worse. My mixed emotions were displayed so clearly on my face and Chan just kept laughing.

It was just a broken hair band but I feel so guilty like... like as if I just killed somebody by accident and ran away. :(

What will they even say if I go back like a few days/weeks later to tell them "I think I don't deserve this free accessory because I broke one of yours and that should have been mine"

a) They may just think I'm retarded.
b) They'll forgive me because I've been honest.
c) They'll report it to their superior or something.


Sighs, can't believe this broken hair band's causing me so much distress.

nah nah nah

I finally feel clean enough.

Today was 10-10 at school. Met the others for breakfast in school - can't believe I'm doing all these after I'm out of school. And LOL The same question popped up when I was in the canteen "Hm, what should I eat?" But this time, it isn't that much of a sian tone. Spend little but still be able to feel full enough. ^^ Appreciating all these after spending all those money on food outside.

I've got bruises on my knees and my mum just started nagging at me for spending so much time dancing in school. It saddens me to know that DN is in 2 days. :(

I really will miss school, alot. ><
Probably will go out with Chan and Sylv tomorrow~ Goodnight.

I hope everything goes well

Scorpio May 16 2012



If you have discovered a problem with a current endeavor, don't make a change just for the sake of making a change. Yes, something has to be done. But it needs to be thoughtfully considered. You thought you were sailing along quite smoothly - and you probably were at first. Then you were met with some turbulence. And, because it was unexpected, you may find yourself in a state of panic. But rushing in to make a hasty change would be like jumping from the frying pan into the fire. Take your time. Think things out. Success depends on good judgment.



This applies to a few aspects of my life currently. I don't know if I made a wrong decision in choosing whatever I did. I have no idea if I can pull this whole thing off. And not just pull it off, I really want to do it well.

Sighhhhhhh. :-|

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Love love me.

I'm gonna go school at 9.30am for breakfast with some of the dance peeps tomorrow~ Cancelled work since there'll be one last full run.

Really trying to spend as much time with these people as possible, before dancenight ends. :/
Shall sleep earlier tonight, mm maybe after watching one episode of my drama. Goodnight

What would you do if I said I la la la la loved you

This is all so impromptu. I introduced some drama to Sylv and she's hooked on it - don't even want to sleep. And we just decided that she'll come over to my place tomorrow. HAHAH

Before dance prac so mmmm I guess we will both go crazy singing random songs and camwhoring with my macbook if we're not too tired. Maybe update this post with pictures again tomorrow. I hope we both wouldn't be too tired. ><

Dancenight in 5 days.

Can I not attend.................................................

Random : I feel like getting their newest album!!!!!!!!!!

Lunatic

**Moonstruck**

I feel like getting a property on the moon >< After watching the news report last night about some people purchasing extraterrestrial real estate as gifts for Mother's Day.

It'll be pretty cool if you actually own land on the moon isn't it... but then again, the whole things sounds pretty dubious.
I will want to buy an acre from the Sea of Clouds! (http://www.lunarregistry.com/land/index2.shtml)


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Each Lunar Package Contains:

• Lunar Deed
• Lunar Plot Map showing the location of your property
• Lunar Codes Covenants and Restrictions

Property on the Moon is:

• Is a great gift

• A potential prudent investment

• An excellent and interesting conversation piece

And the Most Important Point!

The Moon is a symbol of hope, romance, achievement, wonder, and mysticism. There is nothing more symbolic and romantic on Earth one can give to a loved one. When you buy property on the Moon, please enjoy it, because that is what this really is all about. You can look into the night sky and say, "I own a piece of that!"
(copied from https://www.lunarland.com/pages/FAQ/4/)

Maybe one day, when I feel crazy enough to spend that impulsively.

ok I'm going to play Ovenbreak HAHA

Blogging what I've missed out for the past week

These days, I feel like I've been spending rather impulsively.

There was this one day when I was almost late for work and I was still at town area --> I was supposed to take a bus to town and then train down to AMK. The bus alights somewhere around Lucky Plaza and that means I still have a distance before I reach Orchard MRT. It wouldn't have mattered as much on usual days because I like to stroll along Orchard HAHA but the distance really mattered on that day. I didn't feel like running and I wished I had a scooter. Just then, I saw this dude from afar who scootered down from Ion towards the bus stop *Just imagine that scene*

That made me feel like getting a scooter. I couldn't get the thought out of my head and everytime I see someone with a bicycle/scooter/any of those sort walk past me at the paint shop, I just had to say "I think I need a scooter" Met Audrey after work that day and we walked from Ion to Paragon (since I wanted to check out Toysrus. We saw this scooter that costs below $50 and it was foldable. But, I think it was meant for kids -.- I was apparently ~too tall~ for it HAHAHAH) Then we walked to Taka to see if they have any but the ones they had there were quite expensive and branded. I didn't need a branded scooter..... And working at the paint shop made me feel like getting neon yellow spray paint to spray paint my bicycle/scooter if I were to get one. I had both a bicycle and a scooter but I think my mum gave it away to my cousins. SIGHS~

Anyway, we went shopping in the end and I bought a dress while Audrey got her heels.

Then there was this other day when I brought a pink sleeveless hoodie - intended for dance prac but the weather was too warm and so, I headed to Ion to buy two tops from F21 -.-

One white and the other neon. I've been pretty into neon because I see quite a lot of neon on those fashion blogs I follow on Tumblr. But the thing is, neon isn't really a colour in Singapore. Really. LOL

People stare at me like IDK, like I'm wearing something weird. I remember I wore my neon hoodie out on one day and :S I don't even know how to describe how people were looking at me. It was an uncomfortable stare and I don't know if it's because they think neon's ugly or they like my hoodie HAHAH Not like their opinions mattered though because I liked the neon hoodie ^^

and there was this caucasian lady who asked me where I got my hoodie from because she thought it was nice~~~~~~~ *SMUG* HAHAHHAHA Nah, it's just that.. finally, someone's saying something nice after all those uncomfortable stares from all the other people.

And because we (TW, Megz and I) have nothing to do at the paint shop, we've been talking about gameboys/PSPs and stuff. I found this Gameboy Advance at home and recently, I've got myself cartridges but I don't have batteries. Shall get them.. maybe tomorrow, so I can have something to keep myself occupied on Monday.

Shall end this post with a few camwhore pics (with some awkward poses) because I was too bored at home and yaknow what people do with Photobooth~

*Sings Jay Chou song* 

Time for dinner. GOODNIGHT~

How do I even quit my job

I feel like quitting my job at the candyshop although it's pretty slack but I don't know, I feel like I want a change. Need something else after the paint shop assignment (it'll last till end of June).

Anyway, currently addicted to this song. *SWEETTTM*

And because I'm so bored, I decided to add Cbox (on the right) to my blog again so leave me a message if you feel like it ^^

Have a nice day.

Being a teen is tough (or at least I think so)

Ok today was awesome - I meant, when time was spent outside.

Have no idea what my mum is nagging about now - actually, it's the same old stuff like how I'm not working (erm, but I'm working... although my work is 3 days/week but it's still work. Is it not a proper job just because I'm not working in front of a computer from 9-5? wtf), how I never call home to say I'm not going to have dinner at home (erm, but I did sms to say "Please clear the food, I'm not hungry" so wtf is the problem), how I'm spending ALL MY TIME ON DANCE AND NOT WORKING (er, I don't spend ALL MY TIME ON DANCE and I'M WORKING. I'm spending what I earn so what is the problem), how I spend my time on my friends and my laptop (but well, it's not like some illegal gathering/gang stuff right... it's all clean and good fun+company. Why should I not be outside when all I hear is nagging when I'm home......)

uuuuuurg I hate coming home.


How wrong is it of me to just want to enjoy as much as I can right now before I attend uni.

How wrong is it of me to put my shoes on the floor in the storeroom because there just isn't any space in the shoe cabinet. And I get nagged at for putting my shoes outside of the house. Why not just tell me what I have to do -.-

I don't know, parents always think they're right but I'm sorry, I don't see where I've gone wrong. I don't, at all. I can't even spend what I earn? Then wtf am I even working for......
and again, I thought I could do WHATEVER I WANT after A levels. >:o(

I hope my mum will meet a parent whose daughter smokes, drinks, clubs every night. Come home drunk, probably sleep around with n guys, comes home on alternate nights..


maybe then she'll see how well behaved I've always been. I'm just busy with what, dancing in SCHOOL, er....... watching movies, having lunch/dinner/walking aimlessly with friends in town, getting addicted to GONGCHA (and not stuff like what coke, glue sniffing) doing stupid DIY stuff/watching drama at home, taking on odd jobs..

wtf.

GONGCHA. How lame is my addiction.
.....

Met The Usual Peeps @ Timbre for dinner and drinks 
(THANK YOU FOR YOUR TREAT TINGWEI!!!)


and actually met Kelz earlier for a movie in town. Had 1 dollar ice-cream and went to MOS @OC to talk about secondary school math HAHAHAH Ok, just a casual chat~ Because Kelz's going to tutor math. We walked from PS to OC then to ION and then all the way back to PS (and I remember some dude who took our picture as were walking and eating ice-cream...) and walked to Timbre.
Perspired like crazy because it was sooooo warm :S

Really enjoyed today! :) *When I was outside* #justhadtoaddthat

:/

Why why thunderstorm........................

Uurg.

I don't really know what went wrong today but it was just weird. I invited stares while standing next to this jewellery shop (waiting for my dear friend).

Seriously, the people who walked past just kept staring and I didn't like it because too many people stared and that makes me feel like.. like there's something wrong with me/my outfit. Maybe because I'm wearing leggings that aren't black (the norm *yawns*). IDK. Weird.

Then I asked Chan if my outfit was weird but she said it was ok. I would have bought some pair of shoes/change my entire outfit if Chan said otherwise. No joke man.
Ok, I shall wear something more NORMAL tomorrow - maybe er, jeans and shirt? That wouldn't go wrong. I'll BLEND in with the crowd. :S

Ambivalence towards DN

*Bang That playing in the background* HAHAHAHAH

All I hear is the "~T.L.C.~" part. Anyway, I'm so having mixed feelings towards dance night. I can't wait for it to start because the thought of performing on the stage once again is just plain exciting (10% looking forward+ really enjoying right now but the other 90%.......)

I don't want it to end so quickly+I wish it'll start later.

Firstly, because I still feel rather unprepared. Like how the run went today, it wasn't even a run... it was like a second round of blockings+lightings. And we got to run through our item maybe once? using the mini speakers and not like the school's audio system -.- at like 10pm? and we ended at...... 11 plus when we reached school at 6 plus. 13 more days and DN's here!!!!!! zomg. I don't know how many times I cursed while waiting just now.

Secondly, I really have no idea what I'm going to do with my life once DN ends. *Go back to whatever I was going = working on odd days and going out with the same few people*

True. but somehow, things will just be a little different after DN. I won't get to see the people I see at dance pracs as often......... "Alumni item" Whatsapp group will probably be dead as people start leaving once DN ends. I know it's not like we were ever that closeeeeeeeeeeeee friends in the first place but I don't know when I'll see these people again. :( Thinking about it makes me feel like crying a little.. *sob sob* I'll miss teasing StephPang, seeing Sylv so I know she's finally not in Malaysia, buying Gongcha before/after dance pracs, walking to Botanic Gardens with JH to take the train, signing in as ALUMNI at the gate (ok, not really. The security guard can be quite kp at times) etc.
**Maybe the only part I don't really like is when we have to go to Signature Park for pracs because it makes me feel like swimming instead of dancing.**

but I kinda like the Cheers there though.

Thirdly, I have no more reason to go back to school....

I know how I always complained about school in the past and how I couldn't wait to get out of HC but.. somehow, I enjoyed the times I've stayed in school for dance pracs this year. Maybe it's because I'm not FORCED to go back to school like on a daily basis, have lessons and stuff. I don't have to think about how to skip school on some days, when to take OCP, get my mum to write letters explaining my absence from school/PE etc.

I will really feel odd about going back to school once DN ends. It's like I'm OFFICIALLYOFFICIALLYOFFICIALLY out of the school. Really OUT. Like I'm a VISITOR if I were to go back.

ok, it's not like I'll go back to school that often but yeah, DN really gave me a valid enough reason to go back to school and to look at it from a different perspective - not as a HC student with no life but maybe like...... "Oh, I survived HC and the sian days so now I'm like a free bird just exploring the school and coming to school AS AND WHEN I FEEL LIKE IT."

yes LOL

Own time own target.

Lastly.... once I'm really OUT of HC, I guess it means a new chapter of my life is about to unfold~ HAHA And that's UNI.
Thinking about uni really fills me with apprehension. I've been receiving emails regarding NUS social camp and stuff and I just cannot decide if I want to attend it or not.
I don't want to go to a new environment and feel all so noob and junior-ish all over againnnnnnn.
I don't want to have to have awkward conversations and make new "friends"

"friends" because I really don't know if you actually get to forge strong and genuine friendship during the course of 3/4 years since we probably sit next to different people during lectures and stuff.

I don't want to have to give self-intros and tell groups of people what I like to do in my free time. "oh I enjoy reading and watching tv" -.- lame, boring. *yawns* I don't want to play lame games and cheer with people - especially those activities camp leaders will usually get you to do with someone of the opposite sex like IDK, trying to match make or what......

I don't want to move on because I don't even feel like I'm ready for uni and all its big people stuff. Yaknow~ the people there will really be big. but ok lah, I'm used to being small anyway (so what's the problem............... er. I just don't like big people? and especially if they're older than me....that's worse)
I just, I really like how my life is right now. I like the people I hang out with - I like meeting Chan in town almost everyday HAHAHAH And I like going back to HC for dance pracs and see some familiar faces, people you call juniors. Like how you walk about school and still see people you know which doesn't make you feel as odd. I like still being able to hang out with my secondary school friends and not having awkward moments because we meet up frequently enough.


I just don't know how everything will go from Uni. Will I still keep in contact with these people I hang out so frequently with now in 3/4 years time? How will my life be.. will I still be involved with dance related stuff or IDK, maybe join some archery or er, math club.


I'm just really afraid of the future. :S Which is why I haven't respond to all the uni related stuff. It's like as if I'm trying to prolong this ~floating period~ where I feel so comfortable and safe in. (+I avoid talking about uni related stuff. I wonder if people are actually scared... or am I the only one. I can't be the only noob one lah.. I know that. ^^)

even though I know it's inevitable.

OK NOT EMO. GOOD MORNING. BORING SAT&SUN AWAITS.

Dreaddddddddddddddddddddd.

Omg... I dropped glitter all over the house while walking about with my DIY glitter heels in my hands HAHAHAHHA damn, guess I can't wear them out yet. Need more mod podge.

Anyway, today was pretty awesome minus the scorching sun.

Went for some job interview with Aly and Megz and we got the job. A job to keep me busy for 3 days and it'll end before dance prac starts so (Y)

Then met Chan in town where we had dinner at Crystal Jade - I had that lamian/ramen craving and I'm satisfied.

and.. dance prac till 10pm

Can't believe it's Thursday already. Time's passing so quickly, I don't know what I'll be doing with my life once DN's over :/ Wait for uni to start.... **Dread**

Random : My mum keeps complaining about my hair falling everywhere in the house. I asked her to talk to my hair.

zz Goodnight 

I want some bracelets.

If you can use a fork, I reckon a spoon's fine too?

and plus I can coat it with the 3D Magic thing and it'll look just as fine................

omgg Now I feel like going to Ikea. Need to find some really cheap forks and spoons.
It's really funny how I'm spending so much on materials when the assumption made in all those diy tutorials is that you already have them at home. All those stuff like buttons, paper clips, pliers etc. LOL Ok I better think through it before I start spending my money again.

Haven't been checking on the shoes I tried to revamp a few days ago. Shall see how it looks like later in the morning and maybe wear it out or something. MAYBE~

Chasing clouds.

Class gathering, nope. It was more like a class lunch. LOL

I didn't know it will end right after the lunch but I guess I'm glad that there were also other people who didn't have any plans after the lunch and so~ We went to town (HAHAHAH Town is the solution to all problems when you cannot decide where to go) and just sat and talk. But since it's Labour Day, it was really crowded outside. Saw quite a lot of people I know when we were outside..

Didn't even expect there to still be money left in the class fund - it was used to settle the bill for today's lunch ^^

I feel a little sleepy.... today just feels like a Sunday afternoon. 

Decided to work tomorrow because I didn't have plans (Initially -.- Think I'll try asking if I can not work because I seriously think 1 hour is not enough for dinner and to travel from Vivo to Bukit Timah area before dance prac..............) sighs.

I want too many things

which is bad, I know.

Anyway, I went back to work today (LOL Like as if I took some maternity leave or something, well~ I had a one week "break") and time passed very slowly today. :/
As usual, I walked past this shop with a pair of lime green coloured heels on display. Mustered the strength to look and walk away from the shop ok~ Mmmmm but not like I had the time to go try on the shoes and stuff since I was already late for work.

Embarrassed myself quite a few times today. Twice at work.
1. The first thing my manager asked me when I reached was "Are you afraid of cockroaches?" I asked why and she told me she brought her pet cockroach, it was under the counter. I took it for real and I was just calm. I said "Huh? Where's the cockroach? You kept it in some container/cage/whatever right so what's there to be afraid of~" That's when I realized she was just joking when she said she brought her pet ("Why would I even have a pet cockroach?!" -.-). The truth was that there was a cockroach hiding under the counter where the cash register was................... Then, I decided to refill the samples and saw that oh~ Some candies of a particular flavour were stuck in their bottles and I kept knocking the bottle against the counter.

and the cockroach ran out from under the counter! Initially, I kept my cool and didn't scream but it went wherever I went to and so I screamed LOL
Thank God it didn't touch me.

2. I didn't know they were making lollipops to be given out and I was attending to this lady in the shop, offered her the candies and stuff. Then, my boss offered me a lollipop. I stared at it, thinking "why is she offering me lollipops when I'm attending to someone....." but I said "Thanks" anyway.

Then my manager and boss stared at me. They realized I thought the lollipop was for me but LOL, it was meant for the lady I was attending to. The lady laughed and she said "It's alright, we can share it"
omg..... I felt like I turned red with embarrassment. How could I even think it was for me when there's somebody in the shop.

3. My student pass expired!!!!! (which was why I couldn't tap my card when I went to work this morning. Had to use coins on the bus and I dropped quite a few. I didn't want to pick them up because firstly, I heard the coins drop but I didn't know where they rolled to. Secondly, I thought I dropped like 5 cents or some foreign coins so it was fine..... but this auntie helped me to pick up and passed them to me before she alighted. :') Random act of niceness.) I didn't know what I was supposed to do so I went to the control station and I told the guy "My pass expired". His reply was "So what do you want me to do?"

"Er. That's the problem. I don't know what I'm supposed to do."
LOL Now I know, all I was supposed to do was to get a new card and I get to keep my student pass as memory keepsake "Show your husband and your kids next time" That was what the guy said.