Hello everybody, I'm freaking out.
Went out to town with Chan today and we watched "What to expect when you're expecting" which convinced us that pregnancy and child birth is indeed painful and scary.
Then after, we went for dinner and a little shopping. We went into this shop selling accessories and I got myself two hairbands (again). I can't help but still feel guilty whenever I look at the hairbands I bought because I kinda.... broke one accidentally in the shop. ><
I don't know if it was already faulty in the first place or what because I merely pulled it over my head (like how I did for the other hairbands) and it just snapped. I was left stupefied. Seriously.
Part of me felt like it was not my fault because how can that hairband just snap so easily when it's supposed to be ELASTIC and the others I tried (using the same method) didn't snap.
However, the other part of me felt like it really was my fault because it snapped while it was still in my hands. I was the user at that point of time and that means I broke the hair band. :(
I was so scared I just left the hair band back wherever I took it from and I just wanted to leave the shop immediately. So I went to the counter to pay for whatever I bought, together with Chan and the sales assistant said "You get one more free when you buy two" so I just got another hair band I tried on just now.
Guilt took over me as soon as we left the shop and I just told Chan "omg........ I cannot take it. I broke a hair band. It snapped when I tried to put it over my head but it wasn't supposed to just break like that. WHY DID I ACCEPT THAT FREE GIFT. I shouldn't have accepted that free gift right?! I FEEL SO BAD." And I repeated myself after every few minutes.
"I FEEL DAMN GUILTY. I BROKE THEIR HAIRBAND AND THEY STILL OFFERED ME A FREE GIFT."
"What if there's a surveillance camera and they caught me trying it on........?!"
"Maybe I should return them the free accessory."
"OH MY GOD. I'M SUCH A BAD PERSON. I BROKE A HAIR BAND."
I really feel like I don't deserve that free hair band I got because the one I broke should have been MINE. Now it's left hanging there........... :(((((
And the DN anxiety made everything worse. My mixed emotions were displayed so clearly on my face and Chan just kept laughing.
It was just a broken hair band but I feel so guilty like... like as if I just killed somebody by accident and ran away. :(
What will they even say if I go back like a few days/weeks later to tell them "I think I don't deserve this free accessory because I broke one of yours and that should have been mine"
a) They may just think I'm retarded.
b) They'll forgive me because I've been honest.
c) They'll report it to their superior or something.
Sighs, can't believe this broken hair band's causing me so much distress.
