Be there.

I'm really really really really really really really tired.

:o/

I went for PE todayyyyy~ ^^ HAHA! Though I did a bit of short cuts here and there but well~

Snoopy attracted a lot of attention today - the balloon. It's damn cute. HAHAHA! Which explains why I chose it and I'm gonna bring it to school again tomorrow.

Rena and I talked to the cleaner uncle again today. As usual, he was sitting alone and both of us were feeling really bored so yeah~ But I didn't talk much. Surprisingly yeah~ I learnt today that the cleaner's pay is approx 400 per month --> about 20 per day. After talking to the uncle, Rena and I both felt damn guilty. Sometimes we spend more than that in one day (errhum. that's me. But eh.. I haven't been doing so for about....................... maybe 2 weeks?) And I really cannot stand the fact that he is so. Alone. He invited over to his house again today but well, I guess going over to his place will be kinda, over? And he kept wanting to treat us to food and told us we're really nice girls because nobody really pays attention to him in school. Just dao~

Sighs.

Then Math lecture was hilarious because we thought the lecturer looked like some actor but we couldn't remember the actor's name so I just called out whatever names I could remember -Tony Leung, Andy Lau, Dai Yangtian etc. etc. HAHA! Now we know who he looks like already. I show you.

HAHAH! So we were saying how the lecturer probably is his double when acting.

//

Dance prac then after that, MOS burger. -.-

Oh, the model agency called during Geography lecture. HAHAH! And there's supposedly an interview tomorrow but I doubt if I'm gonna go. It's crazy.. ...

Just saw this on Tumblr:

I love food too. Especially desserts. And a dessert without cheese is like a beautiful woman with only one eye. Do you think so?

-.-

Alright. Goodnight.

I shot for the sky, I'm stuck on the ground~

Totally forgot about Time tunnel. :S

Lazy Sunday with no tuition

Woke up at 12pm and now I feel like sleeping again. [Ok no no no. Stay awake.]

I see my ex-maid posting youtube videos with sleazy pictures on Facebook. HAHA!

Yesterday, I thought I saw people in Hwa Chong uniform on the streets of Orchard and I was thinking who they were and why HC uniform on a Saturdayyyyyyy..

Then I walked over and realized "Oh. Oops. They're not from Hwa Chong. They're from Pepper Lunch."

Promoters or something, giving out flyers. But they really look like they were wearing the HC uniform.

Emo music with Newsweek magazines --> not bad a combination. Hah. (Not emo-ing, just saying.) Oh freak. I tore Time Tunnel by accident.

I thought I could fly so why did I drown~

I'll never know why it's gonna be down down down.

-

Back from Jabe-z's birthday party.

Tireddddddddddd.

Tuition got cancelled today and the only place I could think of to spend 3 hours ++(since I was meeting Audrey and Yvonne at 5pm) was Orchard. So I went OC and tried to study but it kinda failed because I kept thinking of changing into another top. And so, I bought some white tank at FEP then wore it over the black one. The main reason for buying the white tank was because the black one I wore initially kept revealing my bra and I didn't want to tug at my top every few minutes. ..

Alright, so I shopped around Orchard by myself. Gave someone a hug because he was wearing this "Hug Me please" sign around his neck. It was for charity purposes. ^^ So I felt good about it~ I thought it was just "hug and leave" but they wanted to take a picture and I was in a veryyyy awkward position. Like, I was hugging the person and the camera was kinda like, behind me and I didn't know if I was supposed to be straining my head to look at the cam or what. -.- Felt like a koala bear.

Then before that, this woman came forward to me and she was just talking and talking and I thought she was speaking in a foreign language then she gave me a namecard and I asked her what was that all about. I realized she was speaking in English. -.- Well apparently, she's from some model agency. But woah, she really don't know how to choose her words. She said "You don't have to be very tall" <-- Height. Walao, sensitive topic.

"We look for babies and kids as well" <-- what the hell. -.-

But anyway, she asked me for my contact number and name and I just gave her. No harm anyway. But aiya, I think she was just desperate to fill in names so she can be done with her job.

The day before, I wanted to go to Supercuts for a haircut but there were loads of people who made appointment before me so.. I was asked to leave my contact number behind. But I forgot my number. -.- I remember the digits but well, not the combination of the last four (PNC. HAHA) so I gave her two different combinations. zz

Party time~

I think I look quite pale today. Byeeee.

POP

Ooooommmmmgggggg. 36 PERCENT LEFT --> battery life.

Uurg.

Back from POP! ^^

Today was, quite fun.

• In school today, I exposed myself accidentally to CX. HAHA! I didn't realize one button came off and he reminded me of it but he got called "pervy".
• MM, took one hour to blow a balloon because I didn't know how to.. But I felt kinda accomplished after that~ ^^
• After school, I met Amanda then we went Orchard and I shopped and cut my hair. I didn't spend a lot. Bought a pair of shorts with belt and that's it and since my mum knows I spent on shopping then well, it's fine.
• At the salon, the lady who was supposed to wash my attempted to massage and that made me laugh. I tried my best to control but.. I couldn't since the I'm damn sensitive to the area near my neck.

What's with the point form?

What elseeeee...

Then it was back to school for POP. I couldn't make it back in time for blockings, like they were halfway through and I was still in HC uniform -.- So I ran to change quickly but there was a queue in the ladies and I was already panicking so... I ended up changing outside the cubicles. Nah, didn't show much since I wore my jeans over shorts and just when I was about to unbutton the last button on my blouse.. some girl let me go into the cubicle to change so yay to that.

Mingled a bit with the junior class because I couldn't find my class. But yeah, it was nice.

Mass dance was crazy because I was quite high. HAHA! Dancing whatever I felt like dancing~ (oh, it was the Dynamite batch dance thing)

Played with water gun~ ^^

Had dessert after that. Like, kinda impromptu.

Rolled over someone on the bus - while standing. The bus came to an abrupt stop and I lost balance, but since I was holding onto the pole, I rotated about it. -.- Nah, not 360. Maybe just 90 plus? but it was bad enough since there was somebody sitting next to me. Damn embarrassed and I kept apologizing but she said it was alright.

Bedtime. Goodnight ^^

-

Ok. I edited my previous blogpost.

I shouldn't have posted some emo stuff. -.-

Anyway, today was erm... hm.

There were really really (or maybe just kinda) awkward moments and I seriously didn't know how to react. And Weiqing asked "Isn't that your friend?" -.-

Ahhhhhhwell.

Rained during POP blockings. and ruined everyone's fringes.

Watched MAD auditions then I went to some toilet to dry my fringe using the hand dryer.

So, yes. It was that retarded position again. Thank God nobody was there and no one came in while I was looking retarded. But I forgot that I still had to walk under the rain for a distance to get across to the class bench area. And so, I used my wallet to cover just my fringe. zz.

After that, Amanda and I went to study at OC.

My dinner consisted of 3 chewy juniors and 1 cup of soymilk. Not much of an appetite.

Rena and I struck up some conversation with some cleaner uncle today. ^^

He was nice and he kept telling us how important it is to study hard blahblahblah~

But when it was time for us to leave for lessons, he told us we actually don't have to go for lessons. Mmm but yeah, the old man was lonely. He told us he lived alone in a 4 room flat in Clementi area (and he invited us over to his place). I think it must be sucky for him- to see us students, laughing retardedly, chilling out/studying at class benches --> Like, at least we're not sitting alone, in some obscure corner of the school, unnoticed, unappreciated.

But then, I kinda want to get onto those garbage vehicles. I just want to experience standing on that "platform" thing and feel the wind~~~

But yeah, still, I definitely think I'm blessed enough already. The grass will always be greener, or at least, some parts of it will be, on the other side.

so yay to having a new friend and well, for making someone's day.

And yay to Jabez's words of wisdom just now. At least, I came to a conclusion. Though I'm not exactly really really really happy about everything the way they are now. But I can't do anything about it right? So just leave it.

Goodnight. POP tomorrowwwwwww~

-

Watched a movie with Amanda todayyyy. The tickets weren't complimentary after all -.- (Some terms and condition I don't feel like explaining right now.)

Anyway, we watched 157 hours - NC 16 (I think they stated that it was NC 16 because of coarse language and gory scenes)

.. but we didn't think it would be that gory~

So both of us were totally squealing in the cinema. We sneaked mee sua in to the theatre but omg, the gory scenes so totally turned us off.

Amanda and I covered our eyes at a lot of parts because we couldn't take it and we were sliding off the seats. (I know the guy sitting beside me was kinda, laughing because the starting was just a bittttt of blood but I couldn't take it and I was covering my eyes already.)

Traumatized after watching the movie.

A quote from Jabez during today's math lecture: "crying only shows people how weak we are.." <--something along those lines, I can't quite remember. Then I guess everyone knows how weak I am. ..

Hate myself for tearing so easily.

Dreadful

Once again, I cut my fringe on impulse. While I was showering just now. -.-

Whatever. I can't do anything about it right now and it won't stay to the sideeeeeeeeee.

Anyway, today wasn't too bad a day~

But nothing much really happened.

Econs tuition till 9.30pm. Amanda and I saw the green laser again todayyyyyy! And we couldn't find the moon but there was this "patch" of yellow-greenish clouds and we totally let our imagination run wild --> UFO, we said. Then the laser beams were signals from aliens or something.

Tomorrow, we're both gonna catch a movie. ^^ --> complimentary tickets thanks to Amanda.

That's all. I know my fringe zz.

Nevermind. BYE.

(Shall go emo a bit on tumblr first then bedtime-)

Today hadn't been good.

I don't know what to say. On one hand, I found someone I can finally talk to.

On the other hand, I got myself to the harsh truth.

Ok, it wasn't all that harsh but it kinda, made me cry?

For a short while. I couldn't even bring myself to force a smile. Which sucks because I don't want to worry everyone else.

I sound dumb. Spent this entire day in school feeling upset.

On a positive note, I'm really glad to know I can talk to you. ^^

We cried together. We revealed our feelings. We locked ourselves in our emo bubble.

But it's always good to know there's someone like me out there, who feels the same way.

Who cares about all those people who walked past the stage, staring at us, two emo girls with teary eyes -.-

Then I received a letter from my mortal who made the effort to put colours in his letter so that it'll cheer me up. And I received wall posts and comments from people whom I wouldn't even think would care about me, asking me to cheer up etc. I'm blessed, really. All the unexpected.

+My mortal introduced me to this song : click HERE.

I find the lyrics rather nice.

On a negative one, I feel like I've been dumb and foolish. Seriously.

Perhaps it's an all-girls thing~

I really don't know how I should be feeling right now. But not like it'll change anything.

No trust anymore.

Dwelling in negativity will make me look weak so no, I reckon I wouldn't want to. [Kinda ironic since I'm doing so right now.]

I really hate this feeling. :o/

Take a smile.

Had a two hour nap todayyyyyy~ ^^

MM. Today, someone asked me why I'm always laughing. .. Come to think of it, I really have no idea. But if I'm not laughing then I guess I'm not feeling as alright. Oh wells.

Just went onto Tumblr and I saw this : Life is like Facebook. People will like your problems and comment, but no one will solve them because everyone is busy updating theirs.

This is why I don't really bother updating my status. Sometimes, you post a problem and you get comments like "Cheer uppppp! I miss you~" I don't know, but I'll have doubts. Or maybe it's just me. I find it kinda, fake. It's as if "I missed you. Catch up soon!" is like some... filler. Like, you're trying to show that you still care etc. but..... I don't know~ I don't feel like it's real.

Sometimes, we make promises and we break them unintentionally.

I do remember the promises I make. And I do mean what I say when I said it right at that moment. But, when people drift apart.. I guess it'll be kinda awkward when you still try to show concern. Especially when they probably don't even care anymore. :S [But they're not obliged to anyway so well. No hatin']

And then when you see things that remind you of these people.

Feelings and memories rush back to you but yet, you can't do anything about it.

Sometimes, you don't want to.

Or else, you shouldn't.

And then I'll just laugh everything off.

Complex. Even more complex than complex numbers.

Sucks. Guess things will work themselves out so I shall just shelve these thoughts aside.

No. I'm not emo-ing. The above made in reference to everything in my life, and not to any particular one person/event/whatever.

-

I'M TIREDDDDDD~

But today was not too bad. ^^

For some unknown reason, I was happy. Ok, quite~

After MAD auditions, I went out to study with Amanda. Or well, at least, tried to.

We had dinner at about 9 plus~ And since malls usually close at about 9pm.. we were sorta, panicking. On our way to PS for dinner, this lady carrying lunchboxes in some plastic bag asked us "Have you all had dinner???" Apparently, she was selling those lunchboxes at $4.50 each. But it was kinda freaky. Like, how did she know we were hungry. Did we look like we haven't had dinner.. .? But well, I smiled then rejected her and she gave me this irritated look. -.-

Oh yeah, I think I didn't blog about this. Yesterday, Amanda and I tried to sneak ourselves into M18 movies. ^^ --> Wanted to watch "Black Swan"

But we failed.

Nevermind. This just shows how youthful we both look. Bleahhhh~

//

Uurg. "Brick wall" on Monday.

But well, brick walls exist for a reason - to show us how much we want something and THUS. I will not skip school. . ...

Tumblr then sleeeeeeeeeeep. Goodnight.

Predicted it but still.

And the light turns red.

//

Watched a movie with Amanda after school today. Laxing~ HAHA!

We sneaked cheese cake, sushi, pretzel, Chippy's, nescafe into the cinema. ^^

Then after, we tried studying at MOS Burger and yes, I just reached home (finished showering).

Shall tumblr while I wait for my hair to dry then SLEEEEEEEEP.

Blah blah blah

I WOKE UP AT 8PM~

Feeling all so refreshed right now. ^^

Time to complete some Econs "group work". -.-

Anyway, today wasn't toooooo bad. It was quite fun dancing with the J1s today. Well, at least it gave me a chance to interact with a few of them. After fac dance practice ended, I went home~ ^^ I still find most of them to be quite intimidating since they're all like way bigger than I am. The girls were fine though~

So yes. I spent less than 10 today. Woah, I deserve a few pats on my head. :)

My afternoon-evening nap lasted about.. 2 hours? Weird. I drank coffee to keep myself awake but well, I ended up sleeping.

Didn't go to Orchard today~ Probably tomorrow. Then maybe.. catch a movie or something. Hee~ :D

Won't bring me down.

I was affected. But I decided not to be.

Whatever will be, will be.

Diverted my attention to complex numbers instead. I think I sound like a nerd. But whatever.

. . .

It brought me down a little and got me thinking and subconsciously, I was emoing and it was kinda on my face. Sometimes, I do hate myself - I just don't understand why I'm that easy to read. But well, because I'm that easy to read, I got reminded "Don't think so much". -.- So, in a way, it was good.

It didn't ruin my entire day because I spent after school hours with Amanda, studying at Provence. The bread there smells damn goooooooooood. I was always strongly against eating breads for lunch because I felt they just don't make proper meals and definitely can't fill me up (Ironically, I always cannot finish eating breads). Hee. New hangout~

And we spent less than 10 on both lunch and dinner againnnnnn~ :D

I'm glad I cured myself of misery. That's the way-

Things will work themselves out. I just have to chillax~ ^^

//

A picture taken off tumblr.

But yes. I'll be like this.

Things will sort themselves out.

Today's gonna be overrrrrrr~

Econs tuition after school today, at about... 7pm till 8.30pm.

Damn tired after tuition but somehow, I'm feeling fine right now.

Anyway, Amanda and I changed location today. We went to Provence at ION.

And we spent less than 10 on lunch and dinner today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

What happened today. ..

I remember I knocked my head against a wall by accident today. But I don't think anyone saw so that's ok~

Got extra serving for lunch at ION food hall today. *Grins*

Had miscommunication with some food seller at PS.

That one was damn lame~

It all started like this. I wanted sliced fish soup with rice and I ordered in Mandarin~

The seller kept asking me if I wanted "chu mi fen" or "bai huan"

And so I was wondering "What the hell is bai huan. ..it sounds. exotic." so I stoned for awhile then said "I don't want the chu mi fen but I want rice"

Then she said this to me in Mandarin "I asked you if you want bai huan then you say you don't want. What were you thinking.." -.-

How was I to know bai huan = bai fan

Anyway, I almost couldn't come to school in the morning.

Fell asleep on the bus and bus 855 doesn't come straight to school. It'll go to MacRitchie Reservoir area but well, some HC guy woke me up and so I managed to go to school. I wonder what would have happened if he didn't wake me up. .. . But I haven't thanked him because he walked too fast.

Yesterday, while on the bus from Orchard to school, I was being pushed by this lady who was shorter than me. The bus was packed and this guy with a bulging tummy was standing next to me. She pushed and I realized I actually was resting on the guy's belly. .. . Felt kinda weird~

Alright. I shall try to sleep a little earlier~

Goodnight.

A Valentine's Day special.

Today was both good and bad. I shall be positive and blog about the good stuff first.

Alright.

1. PE was very laxing~ And we had early break ^^ So that was a good start.
2. Received sweets and little notes for Valentine's Day...
3. Geography test turned out to be open book.
4. Econs tutorial was laxing as usual but again, there's some group work on essay to be done so well, I gotta do my part ASAP.
5. Finally talked to Charis.
6. Satisfied my craving for curry chicken and I didn't spend a lot on food. :)
7. Danced.

Ok. The bad part.

I went to Orchard for lunch before dance prac. And over there, I saw like people holding bouquets of roses... which made me totally sian

After dance prac, Amanda and I had dinner at Orchard area sooooooooo once again, we saw couples with their roses, teddy bears, balloons, matching couple tees (gross~) and loads and loads of hearts EVERYWHERE. -.-

The menus all had Valentine's Special as well. uurg.

Love was in the air~

This sucks ttm. Like TTM. Hmph.

Before I left the house, my mum called out to me and said "Happy Valentine's Day!"

Woah. sian. Because I already knew what to expect~ Roses everywhere.

Then the messages I received for today even more sian (Except for Charis's).

• Reminder to pay money for don't-know-what.
• From some customer service: "Love is in the air...blahblahblah" In my head, it was "abcdefg you" Delete.

I think I'm being bitter. Like Scrooge hating on Christmas.

But I can't help it. Yes, it may be a special day.... but not for all of us~ It's totally like "Singlehood-awareness/Forever-alone day" Gahhh~

Nevermind.

I know it's not like we can change anything so well, I'm just. ranting.

I say "Nahhh... I'm too cool for those flowers~" but actually...

Alright. I think I kinda spoilt Valentine's Day... ..

P.S. Hopefully, they'll take down the "Valentine's Day special meal" menus and the huge, pink heart outside OC. I'm kinda sick of walking through that "tunnel of love".

Tumblr time. Then I'll see more hearts and roses again~

The Last Lecture.

I think I need to keep this book with me, wherever I go.

Highlighted parts of it, here and there, like as if it's some lit text.

Here's one part I highlighted.

"When you're screwing up and nobody says anything to you anymore, that means they've given up on you." "You may not want to hear it, but your critics are often the ones telling you they still love you and care about you, and want to make you better."

Sighs. I knowwwwww... so yes. That's one mental note to make. At least I admit I'm not very good at accepting criticisms. They get stuck in my head and so, makes me miserable.

Come to think of it, I'm missing the literature lessons after school.

Missed tuition today because I didn't know it was starting at 2pm. -.-

And oh, my phone's on. I realized I cannot keep it switched off since there'll be reminders etc. via sms-es. Shall tumblr for awhile then get back to studying. ..

The Last Lecture.

I used my voucher todayyyyyyyy, to get myself a book. So I guess I'll be spending time with it for the rest of the day. Music and books make good combination.

Oh happily ever after, won't you know

Author of the moment, can you tell me, do I end up do I end up happy~

Once again, I think the song on my blog is nice. ;) A little bit of self-praise is good. HAHA! At least it makes me happy.

Just now, I wanted to photocopy some stuff but was told photocopying's self-service. So I decided to just give up on that already. Photocopying a few hundred pages will drive me crazy. Imagine doing the same repetitive action. It will ruin my day and I'll probably curse at the machine after half an hour. Come to think of it, I haven't used any vulgarities this week. ^^ (I think) On my way to heaven~ (Yeah, I'm sure. -.-)

Ok. Shall go tumblr or something.

My phone's off. I think I want to go MIA for a few days. HAHA! omgg... haven't done this for a really long time. Exciting~ But I bet I'll drive people crazy, especially since we haven't settled on the time for tuition tomorrow.

Do I end up happy~

~

At 11.11, I wished for.

Anyway, I'm feeling kinda miserable right now. Which is sorta "inappropriate" since Orientation was so high just now.

Nevermind. Misery loves company. I shall be kind and not ask it to leave.

Well, on my way home, I was totally sian-ed. So I was just expressionless and stoning. Then this J1 guy who's probably too high after Orientation said this to me "Why we so imba?! We are Athena". Just that moment, I felt like, he totally did the wrong thing. Why would anyone even talk to someone who looked like, she's emoing. -.-

In the lift, I overheard this father's conversation with his son. They were talking about mouse and for some reason, I linked it to Mousehunt. And yes, I realized they were just talking about Mousehunt, which was kinda cool~ Like, your dad and you, talking about.. lame things like "Mousehunt". Though I played it too.

MMM, I wasn't high throughout the whole thing if anyone actually did notice. Only a few high moments here and there.

One was while we were dancing fac dance on the stage. Backstage was hilarious because everyone started getting panicky.

Two was when I joined Lejing and Amanda then we joined random trains. And I was at the end, so I had random people behind me all the time.

Three was during the school dances. Retarded Melvin was next to us, and he had this friend who could shake his butt like, well. HAHA! Yeah, I guess that was really funnnnnn. Retarded dancing with retarded people~

And ohh! The dancing in the random classroom with WQ and Steph. That was quite crazy. Lights off, blasts music. Dance! HOW COOL MAN. Then I wanted air con so I danced on the table and I almost fell down, a few times.

That's all for tonight. I'm off.

~

I was staring at the time. 1 min seemed so long when it was 11.10pm, while I was waiting for 11.11pm.

Ohwells. I'm back home. Just finished typing some econs essay so yay, I'm sorta free~ now.

Same thing, different day. Studied at Orchard area. Today wasn't too bad, quite. productive.

The past few days were crazy. But I really enjoyed them. It's been kinda long since I actually, laughed like, thaaaaaaat crazy. And 3 consecutive days-

I actually had loads I wanted to blog about but my mind's currently blank.

Campfire tomorrow.

Didn't see the green laser beams tonight. Yesterday, while Amanda and I walked along the same route to Plaza Singapura after studying, we saw these green laser beams and for some unknown reason, we linked them to aliens. Like as if aliens were sending us some signals. Then there was this guy walking next to us and Amanda said he looked like Justin Timberlake -.-

Hallucinating already~

And everytime we walk into OC, we just feel like laughing because there're hearts all over~

The main entrance has got this really huge pink heart-

I hope and pray we stay sane. Until today, we're still fine. :)

//

It's really weird how the grass on the other side always seems greener. And the more we spend time pondering, lamenting, the more attractive the other side gets.

Guess it's all in the mind. So I'm telling myself to just believe I'm all good the way I am right now.

Don't try too hard.

Please stay this way.

Today was not too bad.

I kinda hope school days remain like this forever. Laughing fits ftw.

Although we look retarded. And most of the time, it's always just Rena and me laughing but nevermind. Laughing like a retard prevents me from overthinking.

Munshi was not bad. Like seriously not bad. I feel like, I haven't done this much Econs during tutorials. But omg, I'm kinda sick of MOS burger. The tracks they play in OC's MOS burger- always the sameeeeeeeeee. It's getting kinda irritating.

And I see the same staff. I think the Joanna aunty works afternoon shift. Then in the evening, there'll be this old man.

And MOS burger at OC doesn't serve Cappucino. When it's on the menu. -.-

Alright. Goodnight.

We Must Not Look Like Jokes

Today was crazy laughing. Actually, I don't know why. But Rena and I really laughed at almost everything, everyone we saw. Until we were so tired. And felt dizzy.

So we went to cool ourselves down, washed our faces, came out of the toilet and saw. The running boy. Again. So I started laughing again.

And we said. "We must not look like jokes".

"If there's a need to laugh, we have to laugh. But still look cool."

The school's got many things to laugh at. Like. Really a lot.

Or maybe it's just us being lame but whatever, it made school day better than normal.

After school, Amanda and I went back to our "routine".

Tomorrow's Munshi day. I hope to see light.

Anyway, I was looking at this guy while on the way home. NO. He's not good-looking. As innnnnnn, just.. not. my. type.

So, I was wondering why I was looking at him. Then I realized.

Oh, it's because he's got the Justin Bieber hairstyle. HAHAHA! Ok. Lame. GOODNIGHT. :D

Single Girls

Single Girls by Laura Jansen is on replay.

I have nothing to say about today because today's just a normal school day.

I have this urge to skip school tomorrow. but NO!! Cannot succumb to temptation. Time to do tutorial?? Endure~~ Soon, I'll be able to go to bed. :D CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D GOODNIGHT WORLD.

Palaeontology-

Read the papers just now and I saw this section about this guy in Singapore who has owns a collection of fossils. But because his wife doesn't like seeing fossils around at home, he actually has this "hidden study room" for his collection. [Anyway, what a wife. Fossils are damn cool.]

So this guy is really keen on Palaeontology and Archaelogy. He went for archaelogical digs and uncovered fossils beforeeeeeeeee! You know that sort of excitement and that. that sense of accomplishment you can derive from uncovering a fossil?????????? You'll just jump for joy and will dance around the site --> ok. That'll be me.

But I just found out. Palaeontology isn't offered as a course locally. :o/

Then I doubt Ufology will be offered huh... .. .

I don't wanna dream about, all the things never were.

TODAY = Tuition + Kelz.

Finally. We met up. It's been quite some time. Well, anyway.. we watched a movie today.

Went to Plaza Singapura. Business was back to normal [Speaking as if I own PS].

Lunched at Thai Express. Saw the weird worker who breathes down customers' necks and who's always nervous.

Actually, today's really nothing much. I slacked away. Laughed like crazy in the cinema - We watched "Mr and Mrs Incredible". Well, both of us didn't even know what the show was about. I thought it was cartoon. Didn't even know this show existed. Oh wells, but anyway, this proves again that unplanned decisions give us good outcomes.

Something's stuck in my head.

That outfit in Zara.

It's in my head. And has been there for very long.

I even dreamt of it. The outfit's like this - this Yogi bear and Booboo top, with a pair of shorts and suspenders.

Don't know why but I like it. BUT. MM. The whole outfit costs more than a hundred soooooo.....

But it appeared in my dreams. :o/ I dreamt that my maid sent them over to me as a birthday gift. HAHAH! Birthday~ Dreams are random. Ahh wells.

Alright. Goodnight. Tumblr~~~~

She's got a love like woe~

Hello. I'm back from visiting already. FAST RIGHT. HAHA!

Well, I went over to my aunt's place --> it's a common meeting point for everyone. So yeah, I just had to go there and most of my relatives will be over there. HM. I met only a few relatives today. Some uncle who forgot who I was. -.- I don't think I changed that much. ..

The usual stuff like how I'm still small. -.-

Anyway, my aunt moved so I was "exploring" her new place. Then I saw many photos. I saw this photo of my dad and this little kid --> My nephew, I reckon.

It was weird. Don't know how long it's been the last time I actually saw him. -.- And to mention, a photo. Hah. I don't even remember taking a photo with my dad.

Well, ok. So that uncle who couldn't remember who I was asked to take a photo together. He resembles my dad. Like... 90 plus percent. Except that he's a bit gay-

Yeah, so he was sitting next to me. omg.. it felt damn weird. I felt as if I was sitting next to my dad. And I was back to being his favourite girl all over again. But. That didn't last long duh. I know reality. [I'm not emo-ing, just saying.]

So I cleared my head. And did my best to come up with very random topics to keep the conversation going on. Proud of myself. I didn't make myself feel too awkward in a supposedly awkward situation.

Bieber's got new music. hurray to that.

"Who do you think you are. Running around leaving scars. Collecting your jar of hearts and tearing love apart. You're gonna catch a cold from the ice inside your soul. Don't come back for me. Don't come back at all~"

Alright. I'm going to meet Amanda soon. :D But I don't feel like dressing up.

Just remembered I haven't camwhored in my new hoodie. Here you go! HAHA!

I love this hoodie. Can you see the cartoons?! omg. The cartoon statue of liberty and the aeroplanes~

Then more camwhoring while waiting for Amanda's reply.

Welcome to Pandora.

The above photo is me sian-ing around while waiting..............

I feel like. I'm too casual. Aiya, but I'm just going out to chill with Amanda. BYE!

Over.

STOP. Listen to this song. Jar Of Hearts by Christina Perri.

Woke up at about 9 plus in the morning. There was no "Ooooh! It's Chinese New Year" kinda feel. Unlike... well, a few years ago? Chinese New Year's actually both good and bad to me.

I think it started turning bad ever since the time my dad and I actually, kinda, stopped communicating with each other. And today, I finally made the call over to my paternal side to well, say.. "HAPPY NEW YEAR". Then after, I don't know what else to say. Probably going over tomorrow. No matter how reluctant I actually am. Heard my dad's gone MIA. Nobody actually knows of his whereabouts because he changed his number. Hope he's doing fine (Ok. Everyone says he is and he's ignoring us already. He's not going to let us find him so he won't have to pay for the alimony.)

I hope that's not true. .. You wouldn't be this cruel to us. right?

Anyway,

visiting ended at about 2 plus, 3? Then everyone we visited went back to my grandparents' place (also where I'm staying). HMMMMMMMMMM...

Nothing much happened.

I broke a toe nail? Thanks to my kiddo cousin again. And omg. Yes, the topic on me having a boyfriend was raised again. -.- But today, I really made things super clear. I just hate being accused of having a boyfriend when I clearly don't.

MM. Today made me feel like an adult. A bit not used to this.

Everyone I visited said I grew --> in a sense, not as small. HAHA! Gooooooooooood.

Then my kiddo cousin also kept making me hold her hand soooooo well... I had to ensure she doesn't walk out into the road etc. -.- But well, she was the one pulling me most of the time. Kids are really........... .. They totally went crazy in my room. omg. They were jumping on mattresses, stacking mattresses on each other, doing high kicks, climbed up onto my bed...

And I just sat there, in one cozy corner of my bed, stoning......

My aunt made things worse for me - she asked my kiddo cousin to ask me to play with her -.-

And I gave her the sian look. But eventually, I still had to entertain the kid. Played "throw the pillow" with her. -.-

Then we visited some relatives I don't even know who they are.

There was this lady who kept laughing while talking. Hah. I find her cute. But then.... she's the only person who thought my brother's older than me. Well. Perhaps this is her first time seeing me. No idea.. ..

Camwhored just a little before I left the house for visiting. This year, I didn't spend much time thinking of what to wear. Quite casual actually.

I'm kinda glad today's over.

Very unsightly background but whatever. HAHA!

Another happy shot because the day's overrrrrrr.. No need to entertain kids anymore.

I hope and pray tomorrow will go well.

Most probably will spend time on Tumblr again later. Yesterday was crazy Tumblring but well... I think Tumblr speaks my emotions better sometimes.

There were the tears and the joy.

Today was kinda awful.

But meeting up with WY and Tin Wei made things better. We went to Vivo City after school. Had lunch then walked about aimlessly --> although I walked about with this super sian look on my face (I was tired and my eyes were really dry). Walked into Adidas, looking for NIKE -.-

Had some fun irritating Tin Wei. Ranted and well, listened to Tin Wei rant. Amazingly, I found someone who feels the same way as I do. But whatever. We'll get through all of it. :)

Yeah, all the nonsense today.

What fortune telling.... -.- Then the random walkabouts with WQ. Performance was over within just a few minutes.

I remembered I came to school with this super tired look. I wanted to just fall asleep in the pe studio.

Oh. I remember. I saw this half naked guy, with a towel wrapped around his bottom, standing outside the gents at the toilet below the pe studio. It was hilarious. He was just standing outside the gents, talking to his friend who was diagonally opposite him. Like as if he was living in his own kampung village or something. -.- He didn't seem embarrassed though, when I was just standing there, staring --> because he was blocking the entrance to the ladies.

Yeah, so that basically wraps up the positive part of today.

As for the negative part. Highlight to read.

I think I'm driving myself crazy. Perhaps, I shouldn't always be as frank. I didn't mean for things to end up ugly but. [I don't know how to continue with this]

To ensure I don't end up hurting myself, I tell myself "CTSR, you should just keep everything to yourself". But it backfired and I end up hurting myself and also people I wouldn't even want to hurt. And I don't want to explain. Because explaining just makes everything worse, to a certain extent. I'm really sorry for everything but, it's really just these sometimes when I can't even sort my own thinking out--> end up screwing up my head and then irritating people in the process. I'm sorrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrry. Cheryl Tan Si Rong, you're damn irritating. I know, I know.

Because of these things, I really hate myself at times. At times only. Most of the time, I'm quite ok with myself. hah.

I shall go rest now. Felt kinda dizzy and nauseous just now. Perhaps my brain's overheated.

Oh. Wait. Tumblr first.

Bye.

I really hate this. My bad.

I tried straightening my hair with a curler.

omg. I smell food.

I thought I just drank soup -.- (no, soup wasn't for dinner. I had dinner before that.)

Cheryl Tan. Stop eating so much. No, I'm not trying to "lose weight" but, it's better to eat in moderate anyway.

CNY celebration tomorrow~ Finally. A day when I don't actually have to go for lectures/tutorials.

(omg. Whatever's outside smells really good.)

Concentrate on blogging.

Well, so I don't know why but I wanted to try to straighten my hair. My hair's naturally quite straight already but I just can't stand the ends. Ahh whatever. I think. I'll most probably still end up tying my hair. Can't stand my hair when it's down anyway.

Okok. Gotta go look for what to wear tomorrow. I don't even know what I have in my wardrobe. And what. We can't have black. -.- And what sucks is that, most of my clothing are either black. Or grey. Or black with white or grey. Ok~ You get me~

Good luck to me now.

I feel hungry~

omg. Time to sleep soon. yay. Tomorrow will come soon.