What. I see red.

Needed some fun. I'm falling asleep~

omg.. all of a sudden, I remember times in secondary school when double periods of lessons actually weren't too bad.

Anyway, it was raining for the whole of today again.

I'm veryveryvery tired. Tom kept me company for today, which sucked. Because he brought his friend along - M.C. in the house yo~ (ok. Menstrual Cramps. -.-)

Damn sian. I seldom get cramps.. . And the suckiest part, Tom paid me a surprise visit. Thank God, he didn't leave me with any gifts - stains. And I forgot to replenish my supply of pads.

Ok. Enough of Tom and M.C.

-o.m.g.- retarded. I'm listening to songs on my ipod and I'm trying to adjust the volume on my laptop. -.-

I made pudding. Ok, it wasn't exactly made- like made. HAHA! It was quite easy. But I haven't tried it myself. Actually, the main reason I'm making pudding, is because, I feel like eating one.

Sian. DE tutorial still not done yet. I'm falling asleep.

I think I need some hyper Britney music to keep me awake.

Actually, today was both good and bad. Rena and I went crazy after hearing some gay news. And we laughed for super long. The bad part wasn't exactly bad bad. But it was just. welllllll.. let's just say. Sian on my part.

I just don't like it when. Ok nevermind. Don't care~

PE was superb. I like it~

It was some tour and then the PE teacher was explaining about the equipments and stuff. After the first round of tour, I think we were supposed to go for another one but then Audrey, Rena and I toured the toilet instead. And there, I saw Sylvia. So we all camped in the toilet to talk. And well, how fast time actually passed. And so began break and the laughing fits. Somehow, I can't wait for Wednesday. I want a day of school without studying. And hopefully, loads of crazy laughing.

Today, someone knocked into me accidentally. Well, I was feeling quite sian so if someone knocked into me, I probably will be either 1) expressionless or 2) "tsk"

But today, this lady who knocked into me. She was so nice.

She said "Ooooh. I'm sorrrrrry dear~" Woah. "Knock into me again. I won't mind." <-- That was how I felt.

Anyway. Retarded photo from our J1wannabe mission. HAH! (I don't know why I ran to the tree)

Looking like angels. HAHA! But we were like this for only a veryshort while. Because people were staring. (But I think we look nice eh. HAHAH! Though quite retarded.)

Wearing the pinafore rocks. Can cross my legs when I sit. And wooohoooo~ airy. HAHA!

Ohoh. Last night, I had this nightmare. I dreamt I was pregnant.

It was damn scary because the baby's due like near A levels.

Thankfully, it was just a dream.

Rain, rain, I don't need you to go away~

Wooohooo~ Done with the Econs thing. I totally forgot about that.

Anyway, today went quite well.

I went shopping. With my family ---- SOOOO I didn't have to use my money.

And I did try to do some reading for Econs. :)

It rained for the whole of today. And I was walking on the streets, listening to this song "Your Song" by Eddie Goulding.

It totally made rainy days seem more emo.. But still, I love the song.

Nothing much today. I bought moremoremore nuts --> Will go fill my container with them later on.

Tomorrow's gonna be a long day. I don't know if I want it to rain or not. If it rains, assembly will be cancelled. And I probably can reach later. And if it rains, it'll be cooooooooooler. Ohwells. Anything will do. Not like it's up to me anyway.

Today, my mum wasn't pms-y. I wasn't sian. But my brother was in a bad mood. HAHA! Soooo well~

Thinking about Chinese New Year. Kinda dreading it.

How awkward. ... Everyone's asking me to go but. Nobody seem to be able to understand how I'll feel over there. I know we're not strangers but. Ahhwhatever.

Second post of the day

Oooh, doesn't this song sound niceeeeeee?! :)

It made me smile.....to the laptop. But still, that means it managed to brighten up my day a little.

Currently listening to "Science & Faith", an album by The Script~

I like this song and the second song on my blog, both from the album. Woah, it's been long since I last listened to The Script.

Ok. Anyway... prac was short today.

Just recapping and rehearsal then after that, I went Orchard. -.-

But I stayed there for just a short short while. Thennnnn.. reunion dinner at home.

I was interrogated. -.-

Well, the case today is : Suspected for having a boyfriend.

wth....

I came home feeling damn sian and then imagine you're me.... sighs. whatever~

So well, my cousins came over for dinner.

Walao. Damn awkward when they kept discussing on the topic on boyfriend. -.- (On a random note, awkward sounds awkward.)

They're like young kids.... so my mum was "manipulating" them to some extent. She was like saying, "Ask her who the boy is. Never ask the name?" Damn irritating.

But you know, not like I can scold them. -.- So I was watching cartoon because they switched the channel - Archie's Weird Mysteries, brings back old memories

After watching, I went into the room to make myself look busy so I don't have to entertain anyone. Then omg, the kids came in.

-Awkward silence- when they ask me questions.

Damn. Kids leave me speechless.

Then they were climbing up and down, and I had to ensure they don't climb over to the window.

And all I said was "Don't climb." "Go down."

Monotonous.

And then I was trying to do something on my blog but the kid was beside me and I want some privacy~

Soon after, my mum walked into the room. And again, started telling the kid to ask me "So who is the boy...?" o.m.g.

Conclusion: I really cannot handle kids.

Ruined.

o.m.g. my plans are ruined.

This is seriously bad.

I was supposed to have some gathering and dinner after dance prac. But I just found out about some reunion dinner at home today. So I can't skip it. Not when my mum just lectured me yesterday~ And anyway, this is probably the only reunion dinner where everyone can be present.

And I cannot be home too late. Because everyone's waiting for me at home. omg.

I'mthequeen~

Ok, but it doesn't feel good. Pressure.

My plans to go out with Charis got ruined.

My plans to have some dinner with my secondary school friends got ruined.

My plans to go out to study, also ruined.

My plans to stay at home and try to study (because studying at home is highly impossible), so it's ruined again.

-.-

- - - - - - - -

My granny just gave me 50 dollars. To buy new clothes. omg..... My mum's probably gonna kill me if she sees the money. I'll just leave it on the table first.

And shucks. I just remembered I have one uncompleted task. omgggggggggggggggggg. And it's not homework. I have to make my way down to Queensway which is kinda out of the way. Which explains why I've been procrastinating it.

Okok. no stress.

I realize I'm always doing this when I feel unhappy. I'll "puff up" then release it with a sigh. HAHA!

Give the peace sign to everything in your life.

And two peace signs. Gives you a W. Say WHATEVER to all the negative ones.

Ok. Time to go to school. BYE.

Highlight to read. But you're not in for anything good or nice.

You don't even know what's going on in my life.

So, why not just stay out of it completely?

I hate it when people just hold on to my mistakes. Like fuck. What. I'm not perfect. You're not either. And I don't harp on your fking mistakes.

whatever you're doing right now, you're just gonna make me rebel. and repel.

You don't seem to remember what I've done well so far.

Or perhaps it's just all plain insignificant.

Fuck it.

Forget it, seriously.

And I was so trying very hard to stop swearing but when things like these happen.

I know how wrong I am. I know. I felt bad enough.

I didn't give attitude. I was fking tired. Fking tired.

You don't understand. Studying has always been the easiest task on earth to all adults anyway. Fk. Studying today, isn't what you think it is.

You don't fucking know anything alright.

Now you see why I don't want to open up. Fk everything.

I don't know if I should TGIF or not. It seems like stuff like these always come up on Fridays.

-End-

On a side-side-side-side-side-side note. (digressing to a very random topic now - my day for today)

ha ha. Today passed by quickly too. It was just GP, Econs and then Chemistry. And well, the frequent breaks in between make life in school better.

Rena and I were just doing something retarded during Econs tutorial. We were trying out some daily exercises to do while sitting in a classroom. So we were told that we can just have a file in between our legs then sit in a way, like, with your toes pointing to the floor. It supposedly is able to tone your thighs or something. That one was retarded.

Saw the mysterious running boy today. Because it was raining so the floor was like really wet, then that guy, running as usual, almost slipped.

That one, I laughed. Not because he almost slipped but seriously, if you see someone running around HC, always looking flustered, you'll probably laugh too.

Then before Athena fac dance prac, we took this 171 which smelt damn gross.

Actually, it wasn't that bad when we first boarded the bus but omg, as we moved back, we understood why nobody occupied the last row of seats. There was this man who was really weird. He was murmuring and yeah, smelt very badly... I felt quite bad if I were to just stand up - Like, I mean, wouldn't it be obvious to him that everyone's kinda shunning him? Then that'll hurt his feelings.. . so I continued sitting there. But then, suddenly, I felt something sliding a little down from my hips. And eeek. I saw his hand there. So I stood up and just, yeah, away from him.

Then dance prac.

During break time, we were just sitting there, chatting about random stuff. Then we came to the topic on swimming. (I still haven't learnt it yet. I just remembered I took swimming tests before.. . .) So we were saying how worried we'll be if we get leg cramps all of a sudden. I don't know why but dancing just came to my head so I said "We can dance before we swim". And the image of dancing in a swimming costume just floated to our heads.

yuck~ HAHA!

After dance prac ended officially, I couldn't decide between studying or to not study.

But I was trying to control my spending as well soooooo I went home eventually. And the sky was still rather bright.

sighs. ok. bye.

Today was not too bad.

One day of shopping with Weiqing and Amanda (and Charis before that).

How cool can my schoolday get right?

But well. I spent a bit too much today. I knowwwwwwwwwwwww. And I'm feelin' bad enough already but it's really very seldom when things actually catch my attention at first sight. That hoodie. IS. REALLY. NICE.

It's a bit like doodlings and the cartoon version of the statue of liberty is sooooooooo cute. :)

And I really wanted it. So I spent 60 dollars on the hoodie.

Then twenty was on some long sleeved top - also cute enough to catch my attention.

Then dinner at some Thai restaurant and again. Money spent on food~

Very tired right now. I didn't know shopping could wear me out this much.

Probably going to pack my bag then go to bed very soon.

I'm still thinking about my new hoodie. (ok.noregrets. The money's already spent.)

Anyway, I didn't go for swimming today. I felt damn loser when I saw some girl who could swim like a fish. -.- It's like, she uses swimming as her "mode of transport".

Unfair

++

Satisfied my cravings for today. :D One day going to Orchard not to study felt. Great.

But sighs. The money.

Ok. I should stop thinking about the money.

So well, my mum updated the bankbook and saw how much I spent. And was well, just shocked and demanded explanations and stuff. Why is it so hard for her to see I cannot study at home. At all. Which explains why I stay out till late. -.- And when I stay out, I definitely will spend money duh~ Which also explains why my money depletes so fast.

Ahhwhatever. The day's gonna be over soon. Once I hit the bed and drift off to dreamland, I'll be a free girl. :)

Today's "wear-our-secondary-school-uniform-then-camwhore" a bit fail. HAHA! But we're gonna try it again tomorrow. :D

Wearing the pinafore really felt different. It felt so airyyyyyy~ But my uniform still fit me (Thank God).

On a side-note.

Reminder to self: Stop doing stupid things seriously. You don't even know if you're on the right track or not.

Alright. Goodnight.

Today, I learnt something.

Clumsy is one of the signs of PMS.

COOOOOOOOOOL~

But I'm always clumsy.

I almost walked to the wrong unit just now. Sighs.

Anyways, today was. Not super productive for me. I was on the same page for God knows how long. I don't know why. Maybe because my head was busy dancing.

Everywhere's playing the same songs. I'm getting sick of them. The ones on my ipod also. (omg. I cannot be sick of Baby. Superdog's playing it like it's on repeat.)

Hm well. This was meant to be some emoemo post. Maybe not exactly emo, but I just wasn't feeling my usual self. But nevermind. I'll cast the emoness away. Waiting for tomorrow. (I hope I haven't grown much. I think I shrunk actually.)

Monday's timetable tomorrow so thaaaaaaat. means. PE. Which. Once again. Sucks.

Why can't PE just be running.

Oh. It's 11.12.

I didn't make my wish in time. Just when I felt I needed one.

Sighs.

Alright. Goodnight.

I spent less than 10 on each meal today.

GREAT ACHIEVEMENT.

But I don't know why, today just wasn't too productive. My head kept drifting off to somewhere else- I was thinking of cutting my fringe (cut it myself in the end). And mmm, I was just thinking of spending money on health products etc.

Ahh wells. The day's sorta over for me. Just dried my hair. Pack my bag, wait for 11.11 then I'll go to bed.

My hair smells quite nice. I think it's the Sunsilk thing.

I don't know when I'll get sick of this routine Amanda and I are following now. I just. Really hope I won't breakdown one day. Like cry in school or whatevernonsense because of stress. HAHA!

I don't exactly know what I'm doing with my life right now. But well, trying to enjoy the process of studying - since I'm like, studying at Orchard instead of school+With Amanda so that means we will just crap and laugh a lot but also study+can eat and drink+I'll feel a sense of achievement when I reach home+I can just relax and not worry about stupid work anymore when I'm at home.

But yeah, I've been going home from Orchard so often I feel weird if I don't go to Orchard for a day.

Just that day when I went home from school, after dance prac I think, it totally felt wrong. I had a little panic attack, thinking if I'll miss the bus stop where I'm supposed to alight at (been so long since I took bus home from school).

Maybe we should follow the meritocracy thing - work for reward, reward for work (??) <-- The thing we learnt in Social Studies

So after each study session, maybe, but a piece of clothing or something.

But my money will deplete really fast. Since I'm spending on food and drinks also.

Ohwells. Things will work their way out.

Goodnight.

All of a sudden, I feel like dancing.

Hold It Against Me - Britney Spears is playing almost everywhere.

I think I'm more or less done with HBL.

Finally, I logged into Moodle and Wikispace. Don't even remember going there before. And what HCI email.. I never even checked it, not like anyone emails me there.

Woke up at 9.30am when I was supposed to be up at about 8am.

All for the love of HBL.

Shall see how. And yesterday, we were talking about what will happen if the world really does end in 2012. I think I'll really die at Orchard.

And maybe at the Ya Kun Kaya Toast at OC. Or maybe at Cotton On.

Aiya, anywhere is better than dying in school.

And I still haven't learnt swimming. It's either a drown or swim thing already. Good luck to me.

11.11

So I guess 11.11 is the only "special" time simply because it's the only time when all 4 numbers are the same --> if we're not going by military time. And if it's like 11.10 then I'll wait. Until it turns 11.11

Weird habits. I tried googling for "11.11 meaning" and there were some articles on what "time prompt of the Spirit Guardians".. kinda spooky.

So since I was on weird habits. I was linked to some other weird ones like... following a routine when you shower.

I do that. So I start with washing my hair then conditioner then wash my face then body. And sometimes, if I do forget, I'll just start all over again.

Then also, the tile thing. If I put something on a tiled countertop, for example, then I have to ensure that there're the same number of tiles on each side. And also, I can't stand floor mats which are not straightened out.

And omg. 1 quirk I have (from my days spent in Orchard area) --> 313 has this escalator with blue footprints printed on them. I have to ensure I stand within the blue footprints (I fit in perfectly) everytime I'm on the escalator.

I'm now reading one some paranormal and oddities stuff. damncool.

HAHA. ok. very randommuch.

Goodnight.

omg today passed so quickly.

I woke up at 12 plus, had lunch then went to school for fac dance rehearsal then stoned awhile after that because I couldn't decide where to go - to study or just go out to have fun.

After a rather long process of thinking and pondering, I decided to just not have fun. Sighs.

Because I couldn't think of anywhere to have fun anyway. And with tuition tomorrow+tuition work undone --> I should be studying.

My life's been not very fun. I haven't encountered interesting events like getting attacked by monkeys unlike some people. hah.

Well. Really nothing much to blog about.

Can I ignore HBL?

I think I have a sore throat coming on.

just those sometimes.

Fac dance rehearsal tomorrowwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.

Today passed by rather quickly.

I got my new timetable. And decorated it.

I don't feel like rotating this picture because it'll take me quite some trouble. So, yes...

I added colours to my wonderful school life. It's just filled with colours and I don't care if it's ugly or whatsoever - the main point is : to make life in school more colourful.

It's like, I'm trying to get out of school everyday BUT the funny thing is I wake up before 5.30am these mornings without any alarm/whatever. It was just, a sudden wake up thing and I will have a little panic thinking I'm probably late for school. Rena said it's stress. I kinda think so too. Subconsciously. I'm putting stress onto myself - force myself to study after school, after dance prac

Hate the new discipline system thing.

I currently have 1 demerit point. I THINK.

Good good. Not bad an achievement already. Although skipping school crossed my mind loads.

Two days of "rest" and it'll be Monday again. Now, everyday's just like some routine.

Aim: It seems to be just survive each day as it comes + take as many breaks as possible while in school

whatever. I just hope and pray I won't fall sick nowwwww since many around me already are.

Tuition tomorrow cancelled. I hope fac dance rehearsal ends not too late. So I'll probably stay out late to do my work outside.

Yay. Bought more almonds.

omg. I really need to stop swearing.

Life's probably been down for you but welllllllllllllllllll, just know I'll always be there for you...

Goodnight.

TIRED.

I just reached homeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. After dance prac, it was study session as usual. omgg. I think Amanda and I can remember the stuff MOS burger sells already. They play the same playlist over and over again also and I actually remember part of it already. I know the staff's name - this older lady named Joanna who talks to me as if I were her granddaughter.

This is kinda tiring but well, satisfactory.

So well, I guess some war started before I reached home - once again, because of something minor, like a thumbdrive. -.-

Well, can't really be bothered with that because I just want to go to sleep. But I thought I should spend some time reflecting on what I did for today.

What did I do?

Dance.

Cramps.

Did work.

Talk crapped and laughed as per usual - PNC drove Amanda and I nuts just now. I was like saying, we can totally just experiment using the tables and chairs in MOS already. Since there was nobody else but the two of us. And they played "Baby" just when we felt like we totally gave up on some question.

As usual, my head was crowded with loads of thoughts.

I wasn't alone because Amanda was also busy in the mind.

And everytime we see each other's siannnnnn look, we just go "Siannnnnnn~"

I felt damn tired on my way for dance prac, and I actually fell asleep on the bus.

I just remembered how crazy yesterday was. When I was sooooo hungry. And I had no cash - 2 dollars and a few coins and card. But I just couldn't find some atm machine. I thought I was going to die of starvation. I should be spending my time on sleep now but I'm blogging- at the same time, charging my ipod and phone. Sighs. Well. Life of a student -that's what I tell my mum every morning.

This week's gonna be kinda busy, again. -.-

I'll treasure and enjoy everything I have now, as much as possible. Because I don't know how long things will/can last.

Surprise. Surprise. I came home during the day --> meaning before the sky turned dark.

And I don't know why.

Fell asleep at MOS burger. -.- Failed studying session but nevermind, I came home (Oh, before that, I went to shop a little. For colourful pens and frivolous stuff like hairbands --> I couldn't find the one I was looking for at home) then watched the Taiwanese drama on Channel U? 8? Don't know.. I can't believe I actually sat there and watched "Ai" HAHA! WELL. Because I was having dinner at home (quite rare) and that was what my granny was watching.

I satisfied my craving for clam chowder at MOS burger, had unagi burger, drank hot milk tea --> And fell asleep. -.-

Doing research on the GP thing now.

Probably will just go to bed after this.

"Baby you're a firework~"

Sighs.

Hello. I'm. TIRED.

School's draining me of my energy. I just completed my human geography tutorial hastily. Aiya, whatever already. ANYHOW DO. As long as there're some words there, I guess it should be fine.

I don't know why I let the slightest thing bother me. This morning, I was really veryveryverybothered about what I heard. I probably didn't show it. But well, everytime I do that, lotsandlotsandlots of thoughts were actually in my head. And I just felt damn miserable, seriously. If only I could tell you and not be afraid of what comes next.

I think I'm so good at pretending, at times.

Ahh, whatever.

Life after school's always much better, when I just leave school with Amanda for Orchard--> to try to study. Chem lab tomorrow. -.- First thing in the morning I think but whatever. No other choice but to face it. I'm tired enough so well, goodnight.

SEWING DAY.

I just took all these.

I'm so serious.
FINALLY DONE.

Anyways, today was really nothing much besides sewing. HAHAH! I'm quite happy with myself because. The last time I sewed was in sec 1 for Home Econs. And omg, today, I did everything myself. :D When my granny actually has a sewing machine. I don't know why but everyone seemed to want to help me with sewing-- I'M NOT THAT BAD OK. At least I DID IT TODAY.

Mission

Accomplished.

Went over to SMU, supposedly to study BUT I ended up sewing. HAHAH!

I BOUGHT A PACK OF NUTS FOR SCHOOL. YAY~

Time to have my egg tarts now. Then I'll prepare for school and then go to bed. GOODNIGHT.

3 x coffee + 1 x tea = How do I sleep?

I said it was going to be a stay-home day but I ended up going out.

To OC againnnnnnnnn. Because Chan was there and I couldn't think of anywhere else to go to.

Just had grilled fish burger and fries (satisfied my craving) from Superdog.

Monday's gonna suck for PE. Swimming. What the hell.

Swim Test Components

Item 1

1. Swim 25m in PE attire (from end to middle of pool) using any stroke, no required timing.
2. After swimming 25m, immediately tread water for 10 seconds (count 1 thousand, 2 thousand….10 thousand). While treading water, swimmers must be in a fixed location and not be swimming around.
3. After 10 seconds, swimmers can exit the pool by the side. Walk to the start again for item 2.

Item 2

1. Swim 50m in swimming attire (entire length of pool) using any stroke, no required timing.

What the hell. I'm no fish. -.-

Students can declare that they are non-swimmers and be exempted from the swim test. They will then attend the swimming module during PE lessons. During the swim test, these students will learn basics of swimming at the beginners’ pool under the supervision of the lifeguard.

What the hell~

(I'm so into this song. HAHA! But seriously, what the hell.)

Whatever. First step to take : declare I'm a non-swimmer.

After that. HM. Aiya, God bless me. I really don't want to swim. I just found my "Prayer of a student". Please, just let me get out of this swimming thing.

Please. I'LL NOT EAT FISH FOR 1 WEEK OR SOMETHING.

IF I CAN GET OUT OF SWIMMING.

Peanuts. [Just a very random post]

Snoopy's adorableeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Woodstock <-- Snoopy's best friend.

Love Woodstock. <3

Saturday started at 12.03pm.

MM, The day hasn't exactly started for me so I don't know if it'll be good or bad. Guess it'll most probably be a stay-home day since I'm kinda sick of Orchard already (HAHA).

I'll start my day well by listening to some Britney songs.

Tomorrow's gonna be tuition day (I think) so I'll try to have fun TTM today.

Just found out about some stupid swimming test that I'm supposedly having on Monday. Damn. I can't exactly swim BUT then, that'll mean I have to take the swimming module (wth). This is making me hate school even more.

Things will work their way out but, I'm really hating this.

Have a good day.

Picture above taken from google. I love clouds and balloons.

Dear world, life hasn't been very good.

Or rather, life in school. The first week's over and I seriously don't know how I feel towards it. The good part about this week was that I actually felt like I did work this year. (Like finally. Which led me to think, "what was I doing last year. ..How did I manage to let one year pass by without even having to do much work, paying attention in school, skipping school etc.etc.) The bad part about this week: I'm very very very tired. Not physically right now (I feel a little more refreshed after hanging out at Orchard doing nothing much.)

This is just the first week, I don't know how I'm going to survive the following weeks.

But I will. And so will everyone else out there, I believe.

This morning, I felt really bad. Bad in a sense, I just was so upset with the school I refused to talk to anyone. Silent treatment - nodding, shaking my head etc. But well, I didn't want to make everyone else around me feel weird and start asking me "What's wrong?" so I decided to talk and I tried to look for things to laugh at. And yeah, I saw the guy who's always (ALWAYS) in a state of nervousness. I don't know what's he nervous about, or where he's rushing off to but yeah, I always see him rushing past me. -.- While I'm walking, square by square.

At home, I keep quiet because I'm so damn tired after one whole day of talking (sometimes, a little forced because yeah, I don't want people to get all worried about me). But then, it seems like the "silent treatment" isn't accepted at home as well. I kinda dislike this. Because I'm really tired of having to talk when I don't feel like it. And I get labelled "attitude problem" for just staying silent.

At times, it sucks. I try to put myself in everyone's position as much as possible. I may not talk, but at least I respond by giving a nod. I do respond and I don't understand why. ..

Oh wells. Nevermind. I shall talk more then, if that's what everyone expects of me. Yes, I'll be so noisy you can't wait to ask me to shut up. :)

So after school, I went Orchard. AGAIN. But it definitely beats staying in school, staring at people study.

And changed out of the school uniform because I felt like I totally need OUT from HC.

RLee, WQ, Amanda and I went to OC and tried to study. Well, we ate first. And while eating, we talked and laughed. The studying was soverylittle but nevermind. Today's Friday. PARTY DAY YO~

Goodnight. School really sucks but I'll learn to love it.

I LOVE HWACHONG. <3

Second day of school sucks. TTM.

I was already tired when I reached school. So well, needless to say about the later parts of the day. Then I felt a little feverish also. And I don't know what's my problem with eating - I get hungry but I just don't feel like eating once I step into the canteen. So I try to drink MILO to fill myself BUT then, I'll feel hungry again. -.-

Ohwells. School's kinda wearing me out but it's just the second day.

Open house tomorrow.

The thought of studying sucks. I don't know if I want time to go by faster or slower. Ahh well, I shall look forward to my birthday. Maybe time will pass by faster this way. :D

VERY TIRED. but. I'm not going to skip school tomorrow.

And I won't be late.

I'll try to stick to this. New Year's Resolution: Be punctual for school. Do not skip school (mm, maybe a few times is ok if it's to sleep in on PE)

Tomorrow's gonna be long. Till 3pm I think. Then rehearsal. So I'll be veryveryvery tired tomorrow. But whatever. Wednesday will be fun, I hope.

Today wasn't too bad actually. But hmm, my shoes seem to be a little dirty already. :o/

Need to keep them white.

I&I not finished but I tried doing so mm, not bad for a start. Urbanization- probably gonna dao for now. I JUST WANT TO SLEEP, heck whatever article.

Anyway, I went Orchard today with Chan after school. I kinda like today. It's schoolday+holiday. Alright. Goodnight.

I swear I didn't know I was that retarded

Actually, I don't know what I want.

It's like, I want you to know but somehow, I don't want you to know. [Internal conflict] Sucks everytime I have internal conflict. Then devil Cheryl and angel Cheryl will squabble and my head will just *explode*

Obvious or obvious not? Ooooooh wells.

Everytime I have "You" in my pm, I wonder if people knows who I'm referring to.

I wonder if people actually think I'm referring to them.

I wonder. Too much. HAHA!

Like just now on MSN, I saw someone's pm "I have a crush on you". It's damn obvious it's not referring to ME since she's a girl and we haven't really been keeping in contact also. So sometimes, I guess, it's .. Unless you're aware you're in someone's life, if not you just wouldn't think it's you. Isn't it?

Sometimes, it can be quite mind-fking (read: mind-boggling)

I knew there was a non-crude way to put it.

Anyway, I've been staying out of a lot of people's lives, I realized. Like, I do know we sometimes feel crappy within ourselves but sometimes, I really just don't feel like asking. I don't feel like caring. Don't know don't know don't know. I think I'm anti-social at times. Which sucks. And I know I really am too dao at times but omg, I can't help it. I can't help it if I don't wish to talk to anyone besides people I feel like talking to. I feel bad but I really cannot help it. When I'm sociable, I'm sociable but when I'm not, I'll just. -.- Well, so for people who don't know, this shall be a warning. And well, it's veryveryvery obvious (from what I've been told) when I'm not in the mood. I'll try my very best not to dao. I'l tryyyyyyy. I know the font size is "smallest" but I did that on purpose.

Hm. Actually, this font size is nice. :)

So I shall continue to use it.

Whatever it is. School's starting in a few hours time. We're all gonna be so excited for it. Yay.

I bet I'll get lost in school tomorrow--> starting with the terraces area.

Last day of holidays. No sulking. Just gotta accept the fact we're all schooling. We're J2s. I still cannot get used to this.

Why can't 11th January be a day for Open House prep???

I'm not exactly feeling low low low

but I'm just not high. I feel cold.

I want to try going to bed at 11.30pm tonight.

Sang a little "Baby" today. While trying to study Math.

Didn't go to Town because I'm low on cash.

MM, feeling kinda hungry right now so I guess I'm just waiting for dinner then after, pack my bag and stuff, read up a little more on Math (all the last minute work but I don't want to stress myself out too since it's the LAST day of our school holiday) then maybe come online again & sleep after that.

And sooooon. I'll be on my way to school. I hope for the bus not to be late (ok, I hope I'll take a shorter time to tie my hair etc.) Probably gonna wear pink socks to school tomorrow (first schoolday, I need something bright to brighten my day). New contact lenses. Earrings. (HAHA! I don't know, I'm geared for shopping and so not studying.)

Anyways, after yesterday, my list of regrets is now empty. Congratulate me.

Black and yellow black and yellow black and yellow black and yellow~ crapsong.

Craving for: Egg tarts from KFC. ++ Frappe will be nice. (Even better if it's Dark Cherry Mocha Frappucino from Starbucks.)

I reallyreallyreallyreallyreally miss wearing the IJ uniform. HAHA! I have only a few in it.

O-M-G. FREAKING RETARDED. Why did we do that?! I still have MORE.

This one, we were trying to take a picture with Photo Booth. And yes, we were bored from studying so we were having some fun.

OK LAST ONE. (I have more but I shan't upload)

OMG. I ended up laughing at myself after watching all these.

Wazzup tomorrow

My timetable's like

1. PE
2. Math Lecture
3. Econs Tutorial
4. Geography Lecture
5. Chemistry Tutorial

Then it should be dance prac after that. Well well, I'm not looking forward to school exactly but we can't avoid school so well, some things to make schooldays better : I found a suitable rubber band to tie my hair, I found some white watch so yay, it matches with my shoes, and yes, the best of all --> My shoes. HAHAH! (Don't know why but I'm sooooooo in love with it)

And one great way to start school --> PE replaced by CT (Sorry, I hate PE simply because of swimming.) I hate it when the school gives earlier notifications so that we can bring our PE t-shirts because then I'll have no excuse to say "I didn't see any notifications/I forgot"

And I reallyreallyreallyreally hope I won't skip school this year. HAHA! UNLESS the day's really useless and I'm like, free of demerit points then maybe ~

But for now, I'm determined to go to school everyday. NO TRUANCY!

And my mum was asking me if I can stay out of Dance Night 2011 --> No way duh. Then I'll start to skip school probably if I have to go to school just to T.T study. (Woah, my first time using that emoticon)

Lame. I shall shower then pack etc.

MY AIM: Not to be late on the first day of school (I'm always late)

Tears of joy.

All you people won't know how I'm feeling right now. (Ok, maybe some will since I told you guys)

I've been hoping and wishing and praying for things to turn out better and yes, I really really really really was very sincere. And everytime I wished for that, I felt dumb but today proved me wrong. My sincerity probably touched the Gods or something and they gave me what I wanted (for really long) today, so unexpectedly.

I'm touched.

Anyway, I watched Voyage de La vie today at RWS.

It was great. My tickets (8 of them) were free.

And yeah, seats probably at the second or third row and Jon Leong kept coming over. HAHA!

So well, I guess I can say my 2011 is now, on a right note.

Wishes are not stupid. I'm really really really glad for today.

You have no idea how much this means to me. Thank you.

I've been feeling tired recently.

Oh. so. not. fun.

and my eyes were dry from wearing contacts for hm, more than 6 hours I reckon.

Today was supposedly dedicated to S&S but I was so distracted. :o/

Went to Gloria Jean's, had mocha caramelatte and then tried to understand S&S but it wasn't productive at all. Because I was feeling tired.

Like, finally one day without dance prac but I don't feel good not having dance prac somehow.

I feel a bit lost. I'm so used to this routine: Brunch-->Dance-->Orchard-->Home(at night).

And I really do feel weird if I'll have to go home in the day (Definition of day in my sense: bright)

So yeah, after I left Gloria Jean's, I went to *drumroll please*

*claps to some beat*

What starts with O and ends with a D--------> O to the R to the C,H,A,R,D. GO ORCHARD!!

(omg.retarded)

Went to Orchard with a S-I-A-N kind of look and attitude but well, it was better than staying at Gloria Jean's where everyone else was chilling and I was trying to do S&S.

Dinner at Ajisen then mm, walked from Plaza Singapura to Somerset and then to Plaza Singapura and then all the way to Orchard ION. (don't call me crazy)

Anywayyyyy~ Because I'm tired now, and I don't feel like thinking

so I went to play with Photobooth again. But well, took off my contacts since I'm just at home~

Andandand. I was wearing a childish tee. Madagascar! But well, what do you expect.

"Cheryl Tan! You suck for not studying!" said Angel Cheryl.

"Oooh whatever~" said the Devil Cheryl.

This is my new book. HAHA! The cover. Yes, it's about prostitution. I haven't finished reading it because I was tired by the time I reach home those nights.

Say "YO" to my twin.

HAHA. OK. LAME.

I don't know why I'm so tired. Guess I didn't get a good night rest. Ahh wells. Probably gonna watch some circus show tomorrow.

omgretarded.

I remember that time when I was so desperate to get my brain in shape. I wanted to improve my brain very badly because I felt dumb and yeah, I went to Google for "Brain Training" (Don't laugh at me). And until today, that application --> Lumosity, is still emailing me, notifying me their newest games etc. And it just makes me feel like "omg.stopaskingmetotrainmybrainthoughiknowihaven'tbeenthinkingverymuchandifeeldumb"

Today was well, just learning the new fac dance.

And yay, sense of achievement today. HAHA! Since I kinda got it~

Had dinner with Amanda Chan at some pizza place at Raffles City.

The day was basically, just. Like this.

Reflecting on Today:

I felt quite bad.

So well, it all started in the morning. I asked for the alarm to be set at 8am? And well, I couldn't hear it and well, my grandfather became the alarm clock. He called me MANY TIMES. So many times, it was like on "Snooze" and I continued to try to sleep. I did reply saying I didn't have to wake up that early. [Set it at 8am so I can be prepared to wake up again earlier. I usually need multiple alarms. E.g. If I want to wake up at 11am. I'll set it from maybe 9am, 9.30am,10am, 10.30am,11am.]

Ohwells, so yeah, my grandfather called me SO MANY times but I guess my replies weren't too friendly. <--It's morning you see. I didn't flare up but I guess, my tone could have been better.

Anyway, today was just rehearsal rehearsal rehearsal.

Not very very very eventful but well, good enough to pass one day I guess. Tired. Shall go to bed soon.

Dinner at Sushi Tei. Sashimi was great. Sushi on conveyor belt was wrong because they were just tempting us to take more sushi off the belt. And onto our table. And onto our bills. Which will be wrong.

Really need to go on budget for food. S.i.g.h.s.

Tomorrow's gonna be a tiring day again, I reckon. This whole week's been kinda crazy.