Or rather, life in school. The first week's over and I seriously don't know how I feel towards it. The good part about this week was that I actually felt like I did work this year. (Like finally. Which led me to think, "what was I doing last year. ..How did I manage to let one year pass by without even having to do much work, paying attention in school, skipping school etc.etc.) The bad part about this week: I'm very very very tired. Not physically right now (I feel a little more refreshed after hanging out at Orchard doing nothing much.)
This is just the first week, I don't know how I'm going to survive the following weeks.
But I will. And so will everyone else out there, I believe.
This morning, I felt really bad. Bad in a sense, I just was so upset with the school I refused to talk to anyone. Silent treatment - nodding, shaking my head etc. But well, I didn't want to make everyone else around me feel weird and start asking me "What's wrong?" so I decided to talk and I tried to look for things to laugh at. And yeah, I saw the guy who's always (ALWAYS) in a state of nervousness. I don't know what's he nervous about, or where he's rushing off to but yeah, I always see him rushing past me. -.- While I'm walking, square by square.
At home, I keep quiet because I'm so damn tired after one whole day of talking (sometimes, a little forced because yeah, I don't want people to get all worried about me). But then, it seems like the "silent treatment" isn't accepted at home as well. I kinda dislike this. Because I'm really tired of having to talk when I don't feel like it. And I get labelled "attitude problem" for just staying silent.
At times, it sucks. I try to put myself in everyone's position as much as possible. I may not talk, but at least I respond by giving a nod. I do respond and I don't understand why. ..
Oh wells. Nevermind. I shall talk more then, if that's what everyone expects of me. Yes, I'll be so noisy you can't wait to ask me to shut up. :)
So after school, I went Orchard. AGAIN. But it definitely beats staying in school, staring at people study.
And changed out of the school uniform because I felt like I totally need OUT from HC.
RLee, WQ, Amanda and I went to OC and tried to study. Well, we ate first. And while eating, we talked and laughed. The studying was soverylittle but nevermind. Today's Friday. PARTY DAY YO~
Goodnight. School really sucks but I'll learn to love it.
I LOVE HWACHONG. <3
