Actually, I don't know what I want.
It's like, I want you to know but somehow, I don't want you to know. [Internal conflict] Sucks everytime I have internal conflict. Then devil Cheryl and angel Cheryl will squabble and my head will just *explode*
Obvious or obvious not? Ooooooh wells.
Everytime I have "You" in my pm, I wonder if people knows who I'm referring to.
I wonder if people actually think I'm referring to them.
I wonder. Too much. HAHA!
Like just now on MSN, I saw someone's pm "I have a crush on you". It's damn obvious it's not referring to ME since she's a girl and we haven't really been keeping in contact also. So sometimes, I guess, it's .. Unless you're aware you're in someone's life, if not you just wouldn't think it's you. Isn't it?
Sometimes, it can be quite mind-fking (read: mind-boggling)
I knew there was a non-crude way to put it.
Anyway, I've been staying out of a lot of people's lives, I realized. Like, I do know we sometimes feel crappy within ourselves but sometimes, I really just don't feel like asking. I don't feel like caring. Don't know don't know don't know. I think I'm anti-social at times. Which sucks. And I know I really am too dao at times but omg, I can't help it. I can't help it if I don't wish to talk to anyone besides people I feel like talking to. I feel bad but I really cannot help it. When I'm sociable, I'm sociable but when I'm not, I'll just. -.- Well, so for people who don't know, this shall be a warning. And well, it's veryveryvery obvious (from what I've been told) when I'm not in the mood. I'll try my very best not to dao. I'l tryyyyyyy. I know the font size is "smallest" but I did that on purpose.
Hm. Actually, this font size is nice. :)
So I shall continue to use it.
Whatever it is. School's starting in a few hours time. We're all gonna be so excited for it. Yay.
I bet I'll get lost in school tomorrow--> starting with the terraces area.
Last day of holidays. No sulking. Just gotta accept the fact we're all schooling. We're J2s. I still cannot get used to this.
Why can't 11th January be a day for Open House prep???
I'm not exactly feeling low low low
but I'm just not high. I feel cold.
I want to try going to bed at 11.30pm tonight.
Sang a little "Baby" today. While trying to study Math.
Didn't go to Town because I'm low on cash.
MM, feeling kinda hungry right now so I guess I'm just waiting for dinner then after, pack my bag and stuff, read up a little more on Math (all the last minute work but I don't want to stress myself out too since it's the LAST day of our school holiday) then maybe come online again & sleep after that.
And sooooon. I'll be on my way to school. I hope for the bus not to be late (ok, I hope I'll take a shorter time to tie my hair etc.) Probably gonna wear pink socks to school tomorrow (first schoolday, I need something bright to brighten my day). New contact lenses. Earrings. (HAHA! I don't know, I'm geared for shopping and so not studying.)
Anyways, after yesterday, my list of regrets is now empty. Congratulate me.
Black and yellow black and yellow black and yellow black and yellow~ crapsong.
Craving for: Egg tarts from KFC. ++ Frappe will be nice. (Even better if it's Dark Cherry Mocha Frappucino from Starbucks.)
I reallyreallyreallyreallyreally miss wearing the IJ uniform. HAHA! I have only a few in it.
O-M-G. FREAKING RETARDED. Why did we do that?! I still have MORE.
This one, we were trying to take a picture with Photo Booth. And yes, we were bored from studying so we were having some fun.
OK LAST ONE. (I have more but I shan't upload)
OMG. I ended up laughing at myself after watching all these.
