IT'S FINALLY OVER

OVER. Finally.

LOVE THIS SONG.

I heard this song in the morning and I was like "Whoo~" Makes me feel like dancing somehow.

Yesterday, I was feeling so so so upset. :(

I was fretting over Chemistry. I knew I wouldn't have time to finish studying and I just didn't want to go to school to do a paper I knew I would FAIL for sure. I just felt, my 3 hours there would be really a waste of time. But anyway, I went. The few minutes before Chemistry paper actually started was kinda stressful for me because I saw everyone trying to memorize some Chemistry related stuffs.. Some talking about Chemistry..

And I felt really bad because I know I was REALLY REALLY REALLY going to DIE for SURE.

At least the other people knew something. I felt as if I totally didn't know anything.

Calmed myself down and went for the paper anyway because I didn't want to escape from it.

At least I attempted.

YOU KNOW SOMETHING AMAZING?

HAHA! They gave out Data Booklets right? I TOOK THE ONE I USED LAST TIME, when we had some Chemistry test. I got the Data Booklet and they asked us to check to see if there're no words on the booklets and I SAW MY OWN HANDWRITING (ROCKS!)

Anyway, I want to thank a few people.. KELLEE! ALEX! HAZEL!

I was really touched yesterday. HAHAH! I just didn't type it out on MSN because I was already troubled enough. But yeah, really, I felt so touched. HAHAHA!!!

If not for these people, I probably wouldn't have gone to school. \m/

After the paper, I saw people discussing about Chemistry and I was like "Oh well! IT'S OVER.. SO IT'S PARTY TIME....."

I always don't bother discussing about whatever paper's that just ended because it will only make me feel... more uncertain and I don't want to feel that way.

Why feel negative when we can choose to feel positive?!

I wanted to go home after that but ended up going out with Sylvia Chung anyway.

WATCHED TOY STORY 3. :D --> Been so long since I last watched a movie.

And we kept getting.. kinda lost at Orchard. HAHAHAH!!

But yeah, it was fun roaming around aimlessly. I never felt this free for quite some time already.

After that, I went over to Vivo City to walk about by myself because I just didn't feel like going home yet. Tried on a few pieces of clothings but didn't buy them anyway.

I BOUGHT. SOMETHING. HAHAH! Tuesday. It's gonna be a surprise.

Oh yeah, that day, I cooked myself instant noodles. :D

You may think it's nothing much. BUT YOU KNOW WHAT? I cooked it using a different method. HAHAHAH! I was thinking of doing it because I was so lazy. The instant noodles I have at home were those in packs. I didn't want to wash the pots and stuffs so I was thinking if I can do it the "Cup Noodles Way". I wanted to just pour the noodles and the condiments into some bowl then add the hot boiling water but I wasn't sure if it'd work.

THEN

I saw the method of cooking on the pack and it was exactly the way I wanted to try! HAHA! AND THEREFORE, I cooked my noodles that way. :D HEEHEE.. Sense of accomplishment.

Ok, nothing else. I'm gonna.. go out again... tomorrow, Saturday and Monday. Maybe, Sunday too.

Random thought of the day: I realize we don't close our mouths when we put in contact lenses. It can't be just me?

Something weird about our school skirt..

MMM.. That time, I posted something about myself and I know I didn't know how to explain. WAIT. I shall search for that post!

I'm a powerful and unique individual. :D

YEAH! That was the one!! The lady losing her fiance and using some weird method to answer her own doubts...

THIS VIDEO! From 8 mins to 10 mins 30s?

http://v.youku.com/v_playlist/f905862o1p2.html

(in Chinese..) But that was the show I watched :D IT'S SUPER NICE.

Or maybe it's just me. HAHAHAH!!

Yeah, because I remember Zephyr said she understood what I was trying to say then when she tried to explain, I was like "MMM.. Something like that" YEAHHHHH.... This video. This show. I LOVE this show simply because I'm like the actress. HAHAHHAHA!! COMPLETELY. The only difference is that.. mm.. I don't hallucinate that much! But I must say, this year, I've been really like that.

And anyway, I know I'm not the only one doing that now! :D I know someone else who do so....

And I always thought I was weird for doing so but I guess not?

HAHAHAHA!!!!!!

Math paper tomorrow. I BETTER do something about it.

Monday's gonna be party day! WOOHOO. And Thursday and Friday too! :D YAY YAY YAY.

Not to forget, Saturday! WEEHEEEEEEE! :D

Anyway, today I saw this girl from our school on my way home. Her skirt was slightly mmmm... I don't know how to describe, it was like "lifted"? and the shorts underneath could be seen. I saw it since I was walking behind her and I didn't know if I should tell her or not. I mean, she'd feel embarrassed? BUT WHATEVER. To save her from further embarrassment, I told her about her skirt. Talking about the skirt, I always feel as if it will get rubbed upwards somehow. REALLY. HAHHA!! There was once when I didn't wear any shorts underneath (Don't ask me why, I can't remember.. BUT IT'S NOTHING) and I just felt as if the skirt was moving upwards (Thanks to friction against the school bag?) yeah and it felt SO AIRY... REALLY. HAHAHHA!!

Oh.. Then I saw something rather puzzling when I was on my way home. I was on the bus, looking outside and I saw this tree with many pigeons sitting below it. They were like resting in the shade and it's totally GROSS. I think, if I had to walk there, I'll...... take another route or something. REALLYYY... It's so scary! Imagine the pigeons all flying towards you?!

That day, Jing Rong called me out for a date. NAH. HAHAHHA! STUDY DATE. Yeah, we went over to National Library on Sunday. Don't ask me why, I told Sim Zhi Jian about it and yeah, so we went there altogether.

I will never forget that embarrassing moment. HAHA!!

There was this guy who was smoking and I just don't like standing behind people who smoke so I walked all the way to the front (with JR and SZJ somewhere behind). Then the lights turned green so I walked VERY QUICKLY and when I reached the opposite end, I felt accomplished somehow. HAHAH! Because I managed to escape from the smoke! I looked at the building in front of me and I was like "Eh? This is not Bugis?" and I saw JR and SZJ still on the opposite side of the road (Probably staring in amazement/in awe). ---> I crossed to the wrong side. So, I had to make my way to somewhere opposite again. HAHAHA!

OK. Whatever... I didn't know I walked that fast.

Hate it when people walks slowly in front of me. HAHAH!! I just don't like it. On that day, after the first day of Blocks, I tried to rush home to study because I know I still had loads to study for then there were like so many "OBSTACLES" on the road. SUCKS MAN. Everyone seemed to be blocking me and to be in my way. HAHAHHA!!

But I couldn't say anything! BECAUSE those were elderly! I don't want to be... mm.. labelled as someone who's ill-mannered or whatever.

Two days without blogging was :(

No excuses. No apologies. No regrets.

Don't you just love it when you get "linked" to something that you weren't even involved in the first place?

I just experienced that. DAMN shit.

I was sitting in the living room, trying to revise Econs and *knock knock KNOCK*

-Opened the door-

And I saw my mum and my brother. She was obviously displeased with something but I didn't know what. I thought it was already made clear to her that I'll be having my block tests and so I'll be spending my time, studying for it at home.

She started nagging at my brother for something.. I don't know what and then I got arrowed.

"If you're not happy with going over to your grandparents' place then stay at home. You can just follow suit. I don't care."

I bet my mum aced her Social Studies given her SUPERB links.

8-) And so.. I tried my VERY BEST. I didn't roll my eyes. I didn't answer back. I just packed up and moved to my room. That was the BEST I could do.

I tried not to drop anything because I don't want to give my mum another reason to nag at me for like.. "WHAT? If you're unhappy with anything you can just tell me.."

NO. I want PEACE.

So.. In the room I am.

Ok. I feel so much better after blogging. HAHAH!!

Blocks. I never felt this screwed before. Really.

I need all the blessings. There were times I asked myself "Should I have played less?", "If I could rewind time, would I choose not to do that?" Nah.. I don't think so. Everything I did for the past few weeks, I enjoyed myself. I didn't regret spending time, going to school just to dance in the gym then going off to Vivo City for my failed study session. That explained the title of my post.

No excuses. No apologies. No regrets.

And I didn't update my blog last night..

Anyway.. I noted down whatever I wanted to blog about.

Damn shit, my mum was nagging again.

Can the world please shut up???!!! I want to be aloooooooone. I want to be all alooooooone at home. I don't want to talk. I am really tired. PEACE. I just want that. Can't you give it to me?!

Ok. Whatever.

I'm just in my own world. BLAH BLAH BLAH~ And

I refuse to come out of it.

And I feel like swearing now, but NO. CANNOT! I cannot be influenced by a Sim Zhi Jian!

NO NO NO!

Yesterday, I went over to Vivo City for dinner with my family.

Yeah, it was good because at least they've SEEN me.. if not, they'll keep saying "I haven't seen you for very long.." It's not that I don't like people being concerned for me. It's just that.. you have no idea.. how bad you'll make me feel. Ok, nevermind.

I saw some weird trends yesterday..

There was this guy who wore tights, underneath the bermudas he was wearing.

It was so GROSS. What's the world coming to?!

There was this lady beside him and his legs.. are.... mmm... thinner that those of the lady's.

It's just weird! And I kept staring at his legs! The tights, to be exact.

There was this group of guys who wore straw hats in Vivo City. I was again, staring because I didn't understand why.. It's not sunny in there?

They just remind me of some.. scarecrows. STRAWWWWW...

Oh yeah! And I saw a dog, it was HUGE! And I think it's even larger than me! TSK!

And today, was a rainy day. It was raining very very very heavily.

Went over to KAP to study then to school (wanted to study but ended up.....dancing).

Yeah, I went over to High School with Polo Chiang. Because I didn't want to jump down (I'm really scared of heights!) so I stayed up there and I just danced to Eminem.. OMG. IT WAS DAMN... AWESOME.

I felt like I was on top of the world, because the area where I was standing was elevated and then I could see the entire gym.. Don't think you'll get me but anyway, I felt as if I was on a huge stage and it was really cool!!! :D

Dinner by myself.. at Asian Kitchen!

I had these.......

PLUS some dan dan noodles.. BUT EH?! It's not dan eh! HAHHAA! Like, I wanted it to be noodles with soup.. like clear soup but it was something like peanut paste?!

And after that, over to Gloria Jeans, supposedly to study but I felt real tired.... SO SO SO SO TIRED!! :( And nothing actually went into my head so I went there for 3 hours? To eat that carrot cake.. took me 3 hours and I didn't finish it in the end.

And I wanted to puke. HAHHAH!! On my way home, I was like.. really feeling uncomfortable and I tried to listening to Bieber but I guess.. he was a little too sweet so I listened to MISERY! :D

And since it was raining so heavily today, my imagination got a little wild...

IMAGINE... Wild Wild Wet

There shouldn't be too many people over there since it was raining that heavily

Then, they allow free entrance for the snails....

And they slide.... ON the Samsung Slide Up.. or.. that one.. Shiok River (Yes!)..

Quite cool huh..

California Gurls

OMG. THIS SONG.

I liked the way it sounds but... do you have any idea how ridiculous the MV is?!!!!

California Gurls.. aren't they supposed to be at California?! What's with the Candyland??!

Go watch if you haven't but MAKE sure no one's around you. HAHAH!! Because Katy Perry was sorta.. naked. Covered! But still naked.. so it might seem a little wrong.

California Gurls' MV

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mDXkVVG0Kvs

And the lyrics also! They make no sense at all.

California Gurls with lyrics

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CTVJTt-Gfx8&feature=related

Mhm.. music these days. I seldom listen to the radio because of all that's playing. Not ALL are bad but.. mmm.. I just think it's not as good as it was before. Yeah. I was watching that MV and it just struck me "Like, what the shit is this? Makes no sense but the song's catchy though.." I searched for it on Youtube because I thought "Ok, I need something else besides Eminem. I've been listening to him these few days and I thought a change would be good but WHAT... No way."

And I just liked another song from Eminem, off his new album, Recovery.

"No Love" by Eminem featuring Lil Wayne.

Frankly speaking, I don't like Lil Wayne. HAHAHAH!! I don't like the way he sounds.. There was this Justin Timberlake song "I Heard Something" and it featured Lil Wayne. The song is actually not bad, but.. Lil Wayne just spoilt it. IMO. Hate his voice.

It's as if.. he needs LOADS of lozenges. He sounds like some duck. Donald Duck.

And the way he raps... HATE HATE HATE him.

There was this song "Forever" by Drake, Kanye West, Lil Wayne and Eminem.

I listened to it because it was one of the "Top Songs" on Eminem... THEN.. I decided it wasn't nice because I just didn't like Lil Wayne. HAHAH! But "No Love" is good!

Cheryl Tan Si Rong is tired

Of school.

School sucks. Big time.

I can't sleep at night.. :(

It's bad because I'll compensate myself, by sleeping MORE, till 11 plus in the morning?

Study session at Holland Village today.

I did more than what I would have done at home of course, but then I still feel like I'm WAY BEHIND.

What happened to Cheryl Tan Si Rong, the over achiever?

What happened to Cheryl Tan Si Rong, the perfectionist?

What happened to Cheryl Tan Si Rong, the optimist?

What happened to Cheryl Tan Si Rong????!!!!

MMM.. I don't know.

I'm still crazy. If not, crazier than ever.

but I know this year, I've definitely changed a lot.

And I don't know if it's good or bad. Life isn't THAT HARD. I know it.

I think, it's just me, making it hard to live for myself. I always feel like I should give my best to whatever I'm doing, yeah it's the FEEL but no, I can't do it. Simply because, I lost my motivation. I don't know what my motivation was last year but.. nevermind.

Anyway, I lost it, probably since... February/March?

Please come back because I need you MUCH.

I always say "I must study hard because everyone else seems to be doing so" but I end up.. what? On Facebook.

GP lesson tomorrow.

Sometimes, I wonder if people will think I'm pretentious. Like, pretending to be all so nice and angelic. Oh well, who cares?

Anyway, I'm living in my own world. And it's been like that since.. February/March?

Ever since you left me, with all the questions in my head.

I feel kinda dumb sometimes. I know I'm that sort of foolish girl, who can give up almost everything for someone I love/like.

Anyway I had a weird dream last night. I dreamt I killed someone. HAHAHHA!! Which is totally impossible because I'm very anti-violence.

I didn't know I was that serious about you until you left me.

I can't even stand all the gory stuffs in games as well.

I don't know why am I still emo-ing after 3-4 months?

But anyway, I woke up, feeling a little scared. There was something funny about my dream. I couldn't carry the victim because he was too heavy for me but I knew I simply had to dispose his body..

I know I should stop. So I guess, lyrics of love songs just aren't that accurate after all.

And I actually cut it up into squares? HAHAHHA!! Ok, the squares weren't separated but I remember there being lines on his body.. OMG. I hope I'll have SWEET DREAMS tonight.

People don't know how I feel. They don't know what you've said to me. But it's alright. It's over anyway.

GOODNIGHT!

Now, it's a PLAYLIST

YAY! I always had trouble trying to decide which song to put in because they're all so GOOD.

HAHAH!

So now, it's a playlist and it's on shuffle

And you can SEE Justin Bieber! HAHAHAHAHHAHA!!

SO YAY! :D

And you can click on the "forward/next"! HAHAHA! JUST IN CASE, you don't want any Bieber.

Yeah, the playlist is made up mainly of Justin Bieber and Eminem.

LOVE LOVE LOVE my taste. HAHAHAA!!

Enjoy Bieber! :D

Off to shower then.. OUT I'll go!

Lose Yourself

And again, study session later.

I always can't decide what to study because I simply have too much to study for.

Listening to Eminem again. HAHHA!!'

So now, my iPOD will be filled with... Justin Bieber, Justin Timberlake, Shayne Ward then Eminem.

Cool. I LOVE the song on my blog. :D Quite an old song but then.. STILL. LOVE IT.

The starting's a little slow but WAIT!!! Just listen to the song.. You'll love it! (Ok, if you don't then.. mmm.. listen to Bieber)

"You better lose yourself in the music the moment you own it. You better not let it go.."

Love the lyrics. If you've never heard.. "Till I Collapse" by Eminem then you should too. HAHA!!

I don't know.. but these songs seem a little contrasting.. to.. mmm.. me. HAHA!!

Yeah, so on the outside, I look all innocent (not that I'm not) but actually, in my ears...

There's Eminem, rapping and rapping with all those vulgarities. HAHA!

Feels weird. Bieber suits me better huh?

So in love. HAHAH! With the songs!

Ok, time to send them to Spiny, Gao Wei, Jun An (Amanda Chan! I don't know if you listen to Eminem or not!) HAHAH!!!

I shall sleep soon.

Back from Kim Jiwon's birthday celebration!

YAY! It was not bad today! :D At least, I didn't have to face those stupid, boring lecture notes. AARG. I HOPE and PRAY (Wish) that our friendship will continue to last.

I don't ever want it to end up being awkward. Mhm.

Because only the friends I made in STC, I guess, mmm.. know me better.

I don't want "Close Friends"/ "Friends" -------> Strangers

Nah, it's really not good.

We had dinner at Pastamania. I don't know but the staff at Pastamania seem to have mmm.. some difficulty saying some words/pronouncing the names of food that we ordered. REALLY.

When I was ordering, I couldn't understand the guy COMPLETELY. I chose the pasta then he said something I really couldn't understand but still, ya know, we have to act smart and so I.. "thought and considered" for a while then said "MMM.. Ok ok"

HAHAHA! And I don't even know what he said. Yeah, then some guy who came over to give us the "Chicken ham crumble" or whatever also.. Everyone, I think, just stared, bewildered then I was like "HUHHH??!!" Because I really COULDN'T hear what he was saying.

Oh, and while I was out, I saw some kids wearing Heelys (I think that's how you spell them?)

Yeah and I wonder if the "ghosts" wear them in those horror flicks.

Like, when they glide... ya know...

OK. Nevermind.

We saw Cassandra (??) at the Frolick area.. and I thought I saw Charis.

Somehow, I hope Cassandra gets into HC! HAHAH! Yeah, it'll be fun! And also, increase the population. Now, it's what? Just Jeslyn and me.

I took a train back from Orchard and almost forgot to alight at Dhoby Ghaut.

At Vivo City, I was caught by those "hairdressers" who want to straighten/perm/curl your hair. YEAH! And I was so scared! The guy kept wanting to style my hair and I told him "ERRR.. I have no money!!" I didn't want to give him false hopes you see but he insisted anyway and he asked me "What's your name?", "Where are you from?", "How old are you?" blah blah blah.

I repeated my name like thrice and he called me "Michelle".

Should've just let myself be named that. Then, the guy asked me to teach him Chinese and asked me how to say "Stop" in Chinese. ERRRRRRR.. I think I said "Ting2 Zhu4" ERRR.. Don't know whether if it's right or not. HAHAHHA!!

The funny thing was that I kept attempting to run away and I asked his assistant while the guy was busy "Can I go?????" and I looked like.. I was going to cry or what. HAHHAHA!

AARG.. Just so weird.. People were looking (Could see that in the mirror).

After he was done, I RAN AWAY. I bet, the two guys laughed at me. SIAN. And I go to Vivo City so often! AARG! They won't remember me.

The Bieber Fever

Yeah, the Bieber Fever's still around.

No doubt, there're MANY who think Justin Bieber's CUTEEEEEE (HAHAHA!) And there're MANY out there who thinks Justin Bieber's GAY.

Warning: This post might be a little mmm.. Biased because I'm a JB music fan.

I was searching for something online. It wasn't about Bieber but anyway, I saw these hurtful and nasty comments on Bieber.

• Someone give me a pair of scissors so I can cut off those ridiculous bangs
• I wonder why the Biebers named their daughter Justin, is’nt that a boys name ???……………
• Check out his shoes on the Black Monday photo. How gay! If this “thing” (I’m not sure if it’s a boy or girl) got famous then our world has totally lost the ability to tell good music from bad. So Justin, get your a*s of my lawn. : )
• Please put him in the centre of Hiroshima on August 6th 1945 at 8:15.
• I would ask you to photoshop Bieber into Auschwitz, but I think the Jews have suffered enough.

AND THIS RIDICULOUS conversation.

Burnsy: I would rather my daughter be a stripper whore than listen to this kid.

Robopanda: I would rather be Burnsy’s stripper whore daughter than listen to this kid.

Jacktion! : I would rather bang Burnsy’s stripper whore panda daughter than listen to this kid.

spazmodic: Listen, Jack. I would rather pander to stripper whores while this kid burns.

BANG!

Oh man, I pity him.

In my opinion, Justin Bieber CAN sing. He's just a 16 year old kid who managed to make it BIG at such a young age and I bet, people are just plain jealous. Mhm.

Not siding with HIM entirely. MM.. If you watched this video

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JMtvIgkksTM&feature=player_embedded

JB was asked who he gave his first kiss to and he actually don't remember? I don't know, with all those fan girls drooling and going all crazy over JB, I guess he might turn out to be.. mmm.. Not that great a guy. I mean, there're so many girls going crazy and I guess he will just feel like "There're so many out there.. I'm so high in demand.." HAHAH! Yeah.. That's what I don't exactly like about him.

But! I MUST SAY. IMO, he's NOT GAY.

Just because he can sing at a pitch most NORMAL guys can't, he's gay?

Just like how people said "Justin Timberlake is gay"

Now, now, why is he gay again?! He's got a hot bod please~ And he's got a cool name! (Justin) And he's got girlfriends before! (Ok, that doesn't prove anything) but mm.. If you realize, his voice.. is DIFFERENT.

Yeah, and I don't think that makes him GAY. Sexy's the word. HAHAH!!

In conclusion, I feel we shouldn't hate on Justin Bieber. Yeah, "Baby" is everywhere. "One Time" is everywhere. You may find it irritating BUT! That's no reason to hate on him and what have all those nasty comments! :(

TSK. It's just WAY too mean.

Yeah, his MVs aren't exactly GOOD. But he's just a kid and I don't see how BAD he is. We can choose not to listen to his music so.. just not listen to them if you DISLIKE him. :D

Woah, I wonder if we'll be tested on The Bieber Fever for GP.

"What are your views towards the current Bieber Fever?"

Don't hate on Justin Bieber.

Hint: Invisible.

Today's Math test was considered easy. No joke.

But I know I wouldn't do as well as I thought I would have.

BECAUSE. My brain just wasn't working today. SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS.

I woke up and I still felt feverish. I didn't want to go to school but I didn't want to miss the test either. Not like I studied for it actually. I read through the notes in the morning while on the bus. Yesterday, I ended up doing that note on Facebook (100 Truths). AARG. Then my mum said I should sleep early so I just slept. Yeah, shucks.

But no, it wasn't a good night sleep. I was tossing and turning and I just couldn't bring myself to sleep. TSK. And I think I was still awake at 6am because I heard the alarm clock ringing.

Then, just after I had breakfast, I had a tummyache (like really really bad).

Nevermind, now that the test is over, at least I know where I sorta "stand" and I know I need to do better for Blocks. Yeah.

Today was just trial. It'll be better, I hope.

Birthday Celebration later on! YAY!

Not my birthday, Kim Ji Won's! :D

Ok, so it'll be Orchard Road and mm.. dinner, chat and loads of pictures I guess.

I know I should be studying for Blocks but then, still, I shouldn't neglect my friends huh. This will probably motivate me to work harder because I'll feel the time constraint.

Mhm..

I wonder if he'll even wish me "Happy Birthday" on my birthday.

Shit and now, people will think I'm out of love. But nah, I was just wondering.

Should I stay at home or.. go over to Harbour Front?

I did the Math. A cup of hot chocolate costs mm.. $4-5 at Gloria Jean's. So if I were to go over like everyday, I'll spend.. $20 and I have 40 plus with me now. I must STOP relying on my card.

But I'll be tempted by the cakes!

MMM... Ok, so.. if I have the drink, I shall.. forsake the cake.

Then sometimes, I'll feel like eating at HK Kim Gary Restaurant. TSK. SIAN...

Thai Express.. HAHAH! (Amanda Chan!)

There're way too many temptations in life and I need more money.

But I don't think it'll actually roll in now... So the only thing to do is SAVE. I think I spent whatever was given to me for Chinese New Year already.

Tsk. Ok, bathe then go over to Harbour Front! :D I must really do something before going over to Orchard. If not, I'll feel real guilty. Gloria Jean's? Sounds good..

The (living)things I fear

And I was thinking about that.

I fear, way too much.

If we're talking about living things:

1)Pigeons

I'm way too scared of these birds. Sadly, they're found in like, almost every corner in Singapore. You see them EVERYWHERE. At least, in my case. I just don't like their colours and the way their feathers are arranged. Just look at them, you'll see they have "scale-like" feathers and that totally sucks ok? That's one thing. Secondly, I hate how they sound. Their coo-ing makes me shiver.. They move in a way that looks as if.. they're vibrating or what. Yucky yuck! I don't like their eyes too. (Yeah, I have loads against them) THEY JUST LOOK WEIRD and they scare the shit out of me. Everytime I see them on the streets/pavements, I find ways to avoid them. I'll take another route (even if it means a longer one) just so that I won't be CLOSE to them. I just feel as if they'll fly towards me or what. I once imagined myself having a bed sheet, with some design - pigeons in their different poses and the thought of it just makes me feel like puking. I'll probably scream if someone pushes me towards that piece of.. cloth.

2)Lizards

They just look like they can move very fast and I just DON'T LIKE THEM because they have skin. Humans do have skin but the ones on lizards just look wrong. Some lizards (like those in the wild) have colourful skins and I just feel like "Aiya, ugly means ugly, whatever the colour your you have on" I don't call people ugly but creatures like lizards. YUCKSSS!

They all look alike! It's just that their colours are different. House lizards are totally gross. Some are fat. I wonder if they actually can differentiate each other. Oh yeah, and their tails. YUCKSSSS! Why is it detachable? GROSSS!

3)Worms

These are bad too. HAHA!! They just look like.. mmm.. They make me feel/think "Why are you so long and skinny? I just wanna make you shorter so that you'll look way normal." HATE WORMS! That day, when we were sorta rehearsing for "Come Home", I saw the earthworm. OH GROSS. You know, I totally forgot they exist on Earth? After seeing that worm, I just didn't really dare to step on the ground anymore. I JUMPED. HHAHA! So that the probability of encountering one will be... smaller.

4)Chickens

JUST DON'T LIKE THE WAY THEY LOOK. HAHAH!

They can't fly right? Then it seems to me like they're always attempting to jump and fly. YUCK! And do you realize they all have the same pose as they're hung at those chicken rice stalls?

WHY MUST THEY DIE LIKE THAT? Can't they pose differently? :S

5)Snails

They move slowly but they still scare me because, they're SLIMY. YUCKS! And why don't they have legs?? It's just weird! I wonder if snails can dance. EEEKK! If they can, what sort of dance can they do? With no legs? They can only "slide" and "glide" about. Imagine. It's a rainy day then you see snails sliding on the slides, at the playground. HAHAAH! OMG! That'll be COOOOL

6)Cats

Their eyes! HATE HATE HATE IT. "Hey kitty, I don't like it when you're staring at me like that.

7)Frogs/Toads

They CAN hop about! And that makes them faster than me. Therefore, I'm scared of them I'll scream if they ever touch me one bit. HAHAH!!

8)Rats

Just Gross. Their tails are mm.. pink right? Yeah. Tails shouldn't be pink. Pink is just like some skin-like colour and it's totally wrong for tails. Tails should be covered with fur or something. HAHHAHA!!

TO be continued.

Guilty.

I feel. Gulity as hell.

I shall explain my reasons later.

Today was considered.. peaceful. At least, my mum didn't nag at me.
And plus, I had the chance to talk crap. Yeah, so it was good.
I spent the day reading a novel and woah, I think I finished half the book when I should be studying for the upcoming exams.
Oh well~ What's done can't be undone.

Integration test tomorrow and I haven't finished my revision. I shall start on it after blogging.
MMM...

My reasons for being guilty.
Just now, there was this ad on "Filial Piety"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ybxNkpS5q-g

Yeah, the one above. My mum was asking us (my brother and I) to pay attention to that.
MM.. And after it ended, my mum was saying about how my absence for the family gatherings actually affected my grandparents. (Or rather, how much my presence mattered)
According to her, my grandma was asking why haven't I been going over to their place these Saturdays.
She asked if it's because I'm angry over some stuffs or what.

As I said before, for the past.. 3/4 weeks, it was really because of practice and rehearsals for Dance Night.
After Dance Night, I shouldn't have any reasons not to turn up huh? But still, I didn't go.
I'd rather stay at home, all by myself, with Japple. (Sounds stupid)
I don't know, it's not like I DON'T WANT to. I just DON'T FEEL LIKE IT.
My weekdays are totally like.. school days and I just want to spend my weekend peacefully. I just feel that if I were to go over on Saturdays, I'll get questioned, a lot (Since I haven't been going over for so many weeks).
And I'm that sort who tears really really really easily, over the slightest incident.
I bet I'll tear if my grandparents start asking me, being all concerned about me.

When my mum told me whatever my grandparents said and asked "Is she not coming over because of some reasons? Is she angry? BLAH BLAH BLAH" I felt so guilty. I teared.
I don't know, it's as if my grandparents feel BAD for me not going over to their place.

And for that, I'm angry with myself.
How could I? I don't go over to their place but still, every Saturday, I'll receive money from them (via my brother).
ROTTEN. To the core.

This is selfish. Mhm.

What should I do tomorrow? I've got LOADS to study for but I'm still in my own fantasy world~
Perhaps, I'll camp at Harbour Front.

The thought of having to go to school in my school uniform totally sucks.

OMG!!! HOW DUMB CAN I BE??!
I've been trying to edit the fonts of my posts. I know I clicked on something accidentally and that font thing was GONE.
NOW, I know what I clicked on! HAHAHAH!!
I'm in the "Edit HTML" tab when the fonts are at the "Compose" tab. OMG.

I'll probably update my blog again later on.

What I use Facebook for

1) To keep in contact with my friends who are all, sadly (Actually, NO because we're still so crazy together) in different schools.
2) Upload loads and loads and loads of photos/videos

Don't you just love it when you get tagged in a photo? Then, you move your cursor over to the picture and you get to see people's names on their faces/body whatever. Imagine. When this someone you find cute/hot/WHATEVER crashes your photo. You've been looking at him/her all the time but you just don't know his/her name. AND THANKS TO FACEBOOK AND TAGGING, you got his/her name. But that's not what I do ok? HAHAHHAAHA!!!! It was just an example.. I only like seeing my own name.. HAHAHA!! On me. Yeah, branded on me. LOVE IT. HAHAHA!!

3)Write on people's wall

It's cool! And that won't be called graffiti or vandalizing. And sometimes, it's just cool because, for me, I enjoy reading wall-to-wall conversations sometimes. Really. HAHAH! I know I'm NOSY. HAHAH! But, since it's on News Feed, I shall.. allow myself to be a busybody. Yeah, sometimes, there're juicy comments beneath those status and it's just HAHAHHA!! EXCITING HEH..
Like, who broke up with who or who quarreled with who.. ALL THE GOSSIPS. :D

AND YOU CAN SPREAD THE BIEBER FEVER TOO! WEEHEE! HAHAHAH!!

4)Status

I simply love updating my status.
The status thing just allows us to share how we feel and think. It's just something that not all of us will really show it in our lives and so.. Facebook gives us the opportunity and courage to share (Since we're all behind the "screen")
HAHAH!! Sometimes, I wonder if the world will be a better place if we can all have like speech/thought bubbles floating above our heads.. So, it's like, as you're walking along Orchard Road, you'll see what everyone's thinking of "Ooooooh.. hot bod.." etc. HAHAH! THAT'LL BE DAMN COOL. But, no privacy.

5)Profile

I always visit my own profile. HAHAH! But I don't think I'm the only one huh..
LOVE my profile! Because sometimes, when you do those quizzes and stuffs, they'll get posted up there. I think, it's kinda like a reflection of who you are truly. MHM. At least, in my case. Yup yup!

6)Fan Pages/Groups

And I thought groups were boring like "Math Group", "I LOVE SCIENCE", "Biology Assignments here"
BUT NO. HAHA! Those.. are the shit you find in school portals.
On Facebook, it's a completely different story! You get to become a FAN of JUSTIN BIEBER.. JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE.. CHANNING TATUM.. GREYSON CHANCE.. ANTON YELCHIN.. (Ok ok, enough.. I know my taste is good.) HHAHAHA!!

*SHUCKS! My ego.. AARG. AHHAHAHA!!
And I get will be updated of whatever new videos/songs JB, JT are into.. :D
Then, also, track your favourite shows.. with those updates.
But THEN! There are again those VERY IRRITATING pages like what? I can count to 300,000 or whatever. THOSE ARE.. REALLY..
They're just stupid.
What're you trying to prove? That you can count?! It's just BRAINLESS. HAHAH!! REALLY IRRITATING!

And now, what do we have? Those "Can you believe it? She took a picture of herself for 20 years" and there're other versions with oranges and don't-know-what-shit
Actually, you know what? I thought of doing that before. HAHAH! Yeah, I thought "It'd be cool if I take at least one photo of myself each day then I can see how I've grown/changed". HAHAH!! I thought of doing that like... don't-know-how-many years ago.

And also, some of the irritating ones are.. "Become a fan to see this". REALLY. Sometimes, the results are just.. disappointing.
Then, also we have the "press control v then alt blah blah blah"
Irritating. One is ok but MANY get on my nerves.

7)Games

I used to play them but I realized how time-consuming they actually are. I would wait for 30 mins for some roasted chicken to be ready then I'll keep waiting 5mins, just 5 mins and more 5mins for some fruit salad.. Cafe World, if you ever played it.
Before that, it was Farmville. I will have to check on my farm frequently to ensure that I get the milk/cotton/collect fruits/harvest crops.. HAHAHA! REALLY CRAZY. And we'll be talking about "Farming strategies" in school as if we really won some farm. HAHAHHAHA!!

Facebook IS just too ADDICTIVE.

And I was supposed to be doing my work. SHUCKS. Enough of Facebook. HAHAH!!

I want a break. A longer break.

I woke up in the morning, feeling ever so aimless.
Shucks. The "holiday"'s ending in one week's time. AARG. One week.
Sometimes, I wonder why is it even called "Holiday" for JC students.

According to the dictionary, holiday is a day of festivity or recreation when no work is done.
When "NO WORK" is done.
But I seem to be doing something everyday. No, it's not productive but then, I don't really recall myself having LOADS of fun, feeling relaxed..
This is bad.

I put my Geography notes by my side, switched on Japple and no work gets done.
Japple's my biggest distraction.
I need more colours in my life. I think, I'm going to change my blogskin again.
And if I do so, the rap music shall be replaced by... Some JB song.
HAHAH!! That's to lighten the mood.

Woke up at 12 today? BAD.
But that's because I slept at about 2 am in the morning. I stayed up, doing nothing. This is BAD.
I'm SO SO SO SO SO SO SO BAD~ (So Bad is a VERY COOL song by Eminem, from his newest and yet to be released album, Recovery) Damn cool!

I want to spend today all alone.

At first, I was thinking of going to Harbour Front but the thought of Gloria Jean's, Starbucks, Coffeebean etc. I thought, better not. I'll definitely spend money again! And I can't afford to do so because I'm SO BROKE.
I think, I should probably just put 10 dollars in my wallet. I shouldn't bring my card out.
This way, I'll feel the need to really control my spending.
AARG. The temptations in life. FOOD. Really. I spent quite a sum on them these days.
Then, sometimes, I'll feel the need to reward myself and I'll buy myself a cake from those coffee places and POOF, $6+ gone.
If only I can bake.. then I won't feel as guilty. Can't wait for tea break later on. HAHAH!!
Love it when I'm all alone at home, with nothing but music in my ears.. then, coffee and some cookies.
:D HAHAHAHA!!

Kelz and I saw went over to some Chocolate place at Vivo yesterday. Can't remember what's the name.. Max Brenner or something. Expensive chocolate... TSK. HAHA. Being random now.
Should get to work huh?

MMMM... And I just got reminded of something again. HAHA! Please don't ever ever ever "LOL" me. I think, we should all laugh naturally like "HAHAHAHAHAHHA" REALLY. "LOL" is just weird. You're not even laughing! Sometimes, people "LOL" but their faces are like.. -_- So... it's just contradictory. I don't really like it. HAHAH!! You'll make me laugh, at you.


Sometimes, I feel, words seem to have a weird spelling. HAHAH!! Really! It's like, when I really have to THINK and SPELL them out, I'll feel as if "they don't seem to make any sense? Who came up with them?" I don't know, maybe it's just me. HAHAH!!

Nothing interesting.

Hmmm... I'm TIRED.
Studied at Harbour Front's Food Junction and then, Gloria Jean's with Kelz.
Camwhored.
I know I said loads of random stuffs.

HAHAH!! AND. What were we talking about? Marriage. I postponed my age/date already ok?! KELLEE LIM.
HAHAHHA!! I want to see you first! :D YIPPEE!

I want to play and have all the fun I can have. I want.. freedom!!! Therefore, Kellee Lim, you first. HAHAHA!!

I've been praising myself these days. HAHAHAH!! I was saying "Hmm.. Actually, I think I'm nice."
"Really."
And Kellee Lim just stared at me, not knowing what to say. But then! I think, I'm nice eh! HAHAHA!!
I'm nice because I can't bring myself to hurt others! And be mean to them! YUP!

And today, Kellee Lim let me watch some sick video. OMG. HAHHA! I don't want to pollute your minds.. and therefore, I shall not blog about it.
Actually, I was thinking about something today
Coffeebean, Starbucks, Gloria Jeans, The Coffee Club, TCC, Pacific Coffee Company etc. They are all, coffeeplaces. They're like coffeeshops actually. HAHA!! I've been spending quite a lot at these places. AARG.
Stupid cakes. The Tiramisu!! I chose drinks over that but I couldn't resist the temptation after all!!!! :(


I should lock myself at home. HAHA!!
And we were talking about the bands I was wearing.

Kelz said something about some girl being raped. I don't know, her band broke (When one of them breaks, it means.. yeah, you already had it) and AIYA, ANYWAY, SHE WAS RAPED.
So.. Kelz thought it was hmmm.. just, not very right for me to wear them.
HAHAHA!! I know Karin said the same thing too.

Can't think of anymore stuffs. I shall end here for today.

I got nagged at again.

HA HA. I just got nagged at again.
Oh well.

But WHAT. I'm not supposed to.. let that get me all DOWN DOWN DOWN DOWN.
Things that make me unhappy? Ignore them.
Yeah.

I can't remember what I wanted to blog about inititally.
Oh yeah. There was this funny and contradictory wall-to-wall

My Facebook status:
Cheryl Tan Si Rong Ever since I came into Hwa Chong, I think.. mmm.. I mentioned the F-word a few times already. AARG.
Vanessa Koh Yu Sim Hello CHERYL! Seems like you're doing great in Hwa Chong! Thank you and take care! ^^

HAHAHA!! I was totally laughing at it. Yeah.
SHUCKS, I DON'T LIKE THIS!

I actually used vulgarities. I never really did before!!! AAARG. :(
Learn. To control. I don't want to become some vulgar kid. NO NO NO. NO way man.

My eyes are super dry. I want to go to bed.
Class party this Saturday but I doubt if I'll be able to turn up because again, it's at ECP.
HATE ECP.
It's like some sort of maze for me.
Always getting lost there.

Study session with Kelz tomorrow. I hope and pray, it'll be productive.
GO GO GO!!!

I was so high.. and all smiles and was just about to go to bed when I got nagged at. AARG. Oh well.
When life gives you lemon, make lemonade.
Be like the coffee beans, make coffee when placed in hot boiling water. :D

YAY! I'm smiling. Though like a retard, but at least not emo-ing. :D

Ok, pick some random photo. HAHA!


Check out my idiotic look. HAHA!
Gonna drink some MILO now! :D

Nothing much today.

TODAY, I WAS SO SO CRAZY --> This, only the J1 MAD Hip Hoppers know. HAHAHAH!!
WARNING: DON'T TAG ANYTHING ABOUT IT ON MY BLOG, OR MY WALL.

I shan't disclose it. TOO, HAHAHA! SHY!

Tried to study at KAP with them. AIYER, should've used JAPPLE then had I known the battery wouldn't DIE OUT THAT quickly.
Oh well. No JB songs AT ALL when we were at KAP.
Dance ex-co elections in the morning.
Nothing much actually.

Met Karin and Tin Wei in the afternoon.
The only reason why I have Japple with me is so that we can take pictures quickly and efficiently. :D
Yeah, but I think there were people staring. AIYA, who cares about them?! HAHAH!!

Oh yeah! I was SO SAD at one point, because there was a fold.. on my new book. :(
I wrapped it up this morning so that I could bring it out and read it on the bus.
Cheryl Tan Si Rong never brings an unwrapped book out of her house. :D
Yeah, because I'll feel heartbroken if anything ever happens to it. Seriously. HAHAH!!
I cried when my textbook got folded ok?! HHAHAHA!! LAST TIME. But, aarg, just can't stand folds and tears.

There wasn't anything much today. Nothing exceptionally interesting?
Oh, we went to Prologue--The Higher Class version of Popular.
Karin and I played with some "Magnetic Men" HAHAH!! And some football game with an imaginary football.
MMM.... We're supposedly meeting up next week. So, we'll see how.

I'm a powerful and unique individual. :D

WEEHEE! HAHAH!!
I'm smiling.. smiling.. smiling now.
Don't ask me why. I don't exactly know.

Maybe, it's because I was watching some show hosted by Pornsak. :)

Just now, I was thinking "Hmm.. I'm real weird. I can feel so happy at one point and become so emo at another."
And I realized, I'm the one in control of my own emotions and feelings.
I can make myself go all high and crazy with my own inside jokes (INSIDE-MY-HEAD).
But I can also become melancholic if I start thinking.. of random unhappy events..

Therefore, since I can control everything, I'm POWERFUL yeah!

And unique, because no one seems to be able to get what I'm trying to convey sometimes..
HAHAH! It's just like, "A Cheryl Thing"

I used to think I'm weird. Actually, I still think so.. HAHAH!!
There was this period of time when I actually.. did something REALLY REALLY.. weird..
But I felt weird no more after watching some show, I remember there was this actress who did the same weird thing I did..
I shall explain it using that show..

That show was about some lady who kinda lost her fiance. They were really really really deep in love and she was grief stricken when she found out he was gone (I forgot how he got lost). Everyone around persuaded her to give up the search for her fiance because they believed he must be dead after so long (Like, a few years). But she couldn't bring herself to forget him and she insisted on the search. Then one day, she probably wanted to give up.. then she felt like, she just needed one more try..
She wanted to know if he was dead or not.. (If he's dead then don't bother searching but if he's not, then continue). There was this car.. driving down some road and she thought "Ok, if I can outrun that car, then that means I should continue the search because he's not dead yet." --> The car will reach some road and yeah,she just had to reach that road before the car does..

YEAH. YOU GET IT?! HAHAHAHAH!!
I know I used to do something like that. Not with cars though.
I have serious problems trying to make up my mind and I used to do things like.. "If the first person who alights from this bus is a guy/girl then I shall do (a) if not, then (b)"
That was all in my head though. Then sometimes, I just feel like I need an answer then I'll just.. yeah, do that sort of stuffs "If the first song I scroll to is a JB one then I shall.." There were definitely more instances but I can't recall.

I went over to Harbour Front's Food Junction to study by myself just now. Oh, today's weather.. I don't know how should I put this. I felt kinda.. cold so I thought I should put on a hoodie then, I was afraid I'll feel warm once I step out of the house with my hoodie so I couldn't decide if I should wear another top beneath the hoodie. Then, I decided not to because the hoodie was thick enough.. and I realized, it felt.. kinda "airy". HAHAH!! Yeah, the wind blew and I could just feel it on my skin, my tummy. HAHAHHA!!! But it was comfy!!!!!!! :D

I bought a book so that I will spend more time with it and lesser time with Japple.
YAY!! Can't wait for tomorrow. :D
HAHAHA!! I'm really smiling.. like some retard now.

"Come Home" Concert

I OVERSLEPT.
And therefore, I missed dance practice! TSK.
Thanks to the rain. It was just.. too comfortable!
:( Now I'm sad, everyone else is in school and I'm here.

SIAN.. And I bet everyone thinks we pon PTP for Midnight camp. TSK. When I already said we only decided to camp after we knew we couldn't go for PTP.

-"Come Home" Concert



"Come Home" concert yesterday was not bad.
HAHAHAHHA!! The funny thing was that the performers made up quite a portion of the audience.
Not a lot of people.
I think, it's all because the tickets are too expensive.
$15. Just to watch performers who aren't even known.. It's really expensive.
Oh yeah, I saw this lady and I just couldn't stop staring at her because I think, she's damn hot. HAHAHAH!!
She's SO PRETTY.
She was with her friends, helping them to take group photos and I was thinking "Why isn't she in the photo??!! She's so so so so so...pretty!" Pretty IMO of course.

Then, there was this group "Smelly Feet" from Kelz' school. (Some Talentime winner)
THEY SANG... BABY! HAHAHHAHA!!!
OMG. First was "Perfect" by Simple Plan then..

Emcee: "Who's a Justin Bieber fan over here?"

Cheryl Tan Si Rong: "MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!"
Emcee: "Yeah, I see some kids waving over at the back"

Emcee: "Sing along yeah?"
ME: "No problem!!!!! YEAH!!!!!"

Then, I was super high. HAHAHHA!! I think.. I screamed a lot.
When the song ended, I screamed again and clapped then..

Emcee: "We've got some Bieber fever over here.." "Those girls cheering over there."
ME: "YEAH!!" -scream and cheer-
Emcee: "Ok ok, Bieber is over."
HAHAHHAA!! OMG.. Eh, the other audience were not really.. appreciative. TSK.
They're so not high! HAHAHA!!!

After that, I felt so dirty and sweaty and I just wanted to go home to bathe..
But upon reaching Vivo City, I thought "Studying at Coffeebean will be not bad an idea." That's what I did, till 11 plus?
Yeah, alone. HAHAHA!! I regretted ordering "Iced Coffee", it was so so so bitter.
Then, I had "Homestyle Carrotcake". I almost couldn't finish the cake but since it was kinda.. expensive, I decided, I should still finish it. HAHAHA!!

Can't wait for "Come Home" video to be posted on Facebook!

Oh yeah! I was so pleased with myself yesterday! People actually got my joke eh!
HAHAHA!! I wanted to order some dessert and it was called.. "HK Style barley with beancurd soup with ginko nuts"
ERRR.. Something like that. HAHAH! Then, I started laughing because I was wondering "What if I don't want to have it HK style? I want it.. to be American or Chinese or whatever?"
"What will they give me?" HAHAHAHAH!! It's funny ok?! If you actually spent time thinking about these sort of stuffs.

NO PTP/Embarrassing --> VERY VERY VERY.

I didn't go for PTP!
Not because I DIDN'T DIDN'T DIDN'T want to. I just.. really. I'll feel weird.
And I'll GET LOST ON MY WAY HOME!!!!
Also, not like my mum actually wants me to go for it..

She allowed me to stay out late simply because I said I was studying.

Anyway, since there was no PTP, I went over to Harbour Front to study.
Thai Express for Dinner.
That was SUPERB. HAHA!!

Green Curry for me. Phad Thai (I think that's how you spell it) for ACYL.
Tom Yum soup for the both of us.

Amanda was supposed to have her gathering.. but I don't know, I think it ended or something (earlier than expected?) so.. we just went out together. Can't remember what her reason was..

Anyway, both of us got kinda lost.. on our way to Eunos MRT from Zephyr's place. We took bus 55 and that bus stopped at some random bus stop and we saw the driver getting out, then he just stood there and ACYL and I just didn't know what to do..
So.. we pressed the bell after some time because we really didn't know why the bus just stopped there.
Then, the bus driver told us that that was some.. terminal. So, we're supposed to stop there and wait.
HAHA! But we had the entire bus to ourselves so it was GREAT!
We took bus 55 to "I-Don't-Know-Where" and then we had to take some other bus back again (in the opposite direction) because we missed the bus stop.

Therefore, I got lost, TWICE today.
I got lost while on my way to Zephyr's place. I didn't know where to stop then I changed buses like.. twice? The same bus. I took bus 13 in the first direction then the second time, the opposite direction. And I still didn't know where I was.
I WAS TOTALLY LOST! And it was kinda scary!!!
Then, there was nobody else around so I asked some boy (He looks like he's younger than me) where the nearest community library was. And YAY! I found it!

Harbour Front-
IS TOTALLY COOL AT NIGHT! :D
Really. We stayed at Starbucks till ten plus then they were closing so we had to leave. I suggested going to Ya Kun's, we can probably occupy their seats since they're closed, if they didn't keep their chairs and tables of course.
But they did. And I wanted to JUMP over to the inside of the cafe but ACYL said there's surveillance camera.. HAHAHHA!! THEREFORE.. We went back down. "AIYA! If really desperate, then.. just sit on the kiddy rides.."
HAHAH!!

Here! Ya Kun late at night! The seats are really comfy ok?! But we can't jump over...


I HAD A LATE NIGHT SUPPER! Woohoo! Macdonald's Happy Meal!



We were both trying to take photos while waiting for ACYL's parents to reach Harbour Front and yeah, people were staring but who cares?!





Harbour Front when it's really really really closing.


OH OH! THE ONE VERY VERY VERY EMBARRASSING THING HAPPENED TODAY!
ACYL wanted yogurt after dinner so we went to Ygloo (I think??)- The one at Vivo City.
Then, the toppings for the yogurt are free-flow so you take as much as you want but there's no refill.
Yeah. Then Amanda was saying that the yogurt already took up so much space then there isn't much room for the toppings so I saw this small plastic container and had a crazy idea. I filled up random toppings in it and then told Amanda, she can have her "FLOW" of toppings now. SIAO.
And I was caught doing that ok?! DAMN SHIT. It was damn embarrassing. Luckily, there weren't customers around.
The lady was like "Errr... Sorry, I told you you can only fill it up and.. not in this container.."

Cheryl Tan Si Rong - *Passes the container filled with random toppings back to lady*
Lady- Err.. it's ok.. you can.. just take it
Shucks. I totally felt damn. AARG. HAHAA!!



THEREFORE, DON'T EVER EVER EVER.. DO what I did. HAHAHA!!

"COME HOME" CONCERT!!!! Today!

Indecisiveness.

I can't believe I'm actually still contemplating..

Should I go for PTP or not?!
SHUCKS.

It's the same thing all over again. Just like when we had our JTS for MAD Hip Hop.
ERRRRR.. TSK.
Amanda Chan and I will probably stick together most of the time since we don't really know EVERYONE.

SIAN.. I don't really like this feeling.
I'm not a VERY VERY VERY sociable person. Befriending random people? I'm ok with that.
But having a party.. I don't know!!!!
AARG.
Plus, I can't stop thinking about the amount of work left undone!
The amount of revision still not yet complete.

How how how?!
Dance practice at 2pm.
Then, what? We'll have to go there all smelly and sweaty?? Yuck yuck.

PTP's supposedly at... ECP? I don't know how to get home from there! :(
I'll probably stay till 7 plus if I were to go for PTP. 4-7, approximately 3 hours.
According to Amanda Chan, PTP will start OFFICIALLY only after dinner. HAHA! So that means, I'm going there only to eat?
I definitely can't stay for too long!! I've got insufficient cash to cab home.

I was supposed to wake up at.. 8am today but I overslept! I didn't mug by myself at Harbour Front. :(
Tomorrow! I must! MUST!!!!!
But the main problem I have now, is.. I've got no money!!!!
I can't withdraw from my bank account THAT many times. I need to get my money back from... those who still owe me for the Transcendance tickets. $21. Money money money. I need you!

Not like I can work now.. HAHAH! That was a crazy thought.

It's Sunday

Another week's gone.

That's fast.
Post Transcendance Party+Practice for "Come Home" concert tomorrow.
I HOPE and I really really really WANT TO wake up earlier to study tomorrow.
I need to mug!!!! :( It isn't fun but I really don't want to do badly and I don't want DANCE to be like.. an "excuse"

"I didn't do well for Blocks because I was too busy dancing." Nah, I can't say that.
I'll feel DUMB if someone from MAD can pull through blocks, well enough.
THEREFORE! I MUST MUST MUST force myself to.
No regrets!

Sometimes, I wonder if I can make blogging my profession.

Anyway, I bought something today. I bought this hoodie from Gmarket because it was really really cheap.
I finally talked to my mum, like, I don't remember when was the last time we actually talked about something random.
And she brought that up too. I think I replied "Who asked you to keep nagging?!".
Oh well~ At least, everything's better now.
Yeah, back to the hoodie.
My mum said it was cheap because it's under "ODD SIZE".
TSK. ODD SIZE just doesn't sound really nice?
ODD. I don't think I'm that ODD. HAHA!

I think I've been spending a lot. SHUCKS. Bad.
I must control my spending. I must know how to spend and use my time wisely.

If I wanna do something, I must DO IT WELL!
I didn't get into HC to fail everything! HAHA! SO I MUST work harder.. though it's really... not a very nice feeling.
Thanks to all the distractions in life.

HAHA! AND THIS DESIGN IS SO GIRLY~
Pink, cute animals... HAHAH!
Like it because it's colouful!
(You know I like eating mixed vegetables - the peas, carrots and corn? SIMPLY because they're colourful.) :D

Dance dance dance!

Nothing much happened today because I was danced for 4 hours? Starting from.. 1 plus.
I went to Harbour Front in the morning.
THAT'S LIKE.. the FIRST time. I always said about waking up early to study somewhere and today was like.. HAHA! I WAS SO HAPPY! :D
I set 6-7 alarms, starting from.. 6.45am. I woke up at 7 plus, close to 8am.
Breakfast at KFC wasn't GOOD. It wasn't as good as I expected.
The egg wasn't nice! :(

Oh, the one embarrassing thing happened at KFC today.
I switched on my phone (and whenever I just switch it on, it'll be on General mode), waited for the messages to load.. and I just continued to listen to my iPOD.
I had no idea how many times "Baby" was played --> My message alert tone
because I was just totally, in my own world, with my music in my ears..
I sat down at some table then this old man had nowhere else to sit so he had like "no choice" but to sit with me.
He SHIFTED his table away from me ok?!

I didn't hear "Baby" at all until, I was finishing my breakfast and my earpiece dropped by accident.
Then, the funny thing was that my message alert tone was louder than the radio (whatever KFC was playing).
And I.. felt kinda embarrassed! BECAUSE I DIDN'T KNOW IT WAS THAT LOUD!

So, I GASPED. I made it a rather loud one so that people will know that I actually was unaware of my phone's ringing. HAHAH!! RETARDED HUH?

Dinner at Ajisen again and Amanda and I TALKED TALKED TALKED.. HAHA FOR.. Rather long then we went to Macs and tried to mug but I almost fell asleep!
I must remind myself, never to buy chocolate milkshake ever again. It's so SWEEEEEEEEET. Not very nice.
Even though, JB's SWEEEEEET too.

Oh right! Wei Qing liked my JB songs! :D
Our taste's kinda similar when it comes to songs! :D

I was "umchio-ing" for almost the entire day. HAHA! I just didn't know why. But I guess that's better than emo-ing.
On the bus, while I was on the way home just now, I saw this lady. She really looked like she was "umchio-ing" and I totally felt like laughing.

I shall go to bed soon! GOODNIGHT!!!!!!!! SWEET DREAMS!!!!!!!

The Girl In Pink Dress

Bedtime story.
If you ever wondered "Do I have a guardian angel?" "Where is it?"
You can read this then.

There was this little girl sitting by herself in the park. Everyone passed by her and never stopped to see why she looked so sad. Dressed in a worn pink dress, barefoot and dirty, the girl just sat and watched the people go by. She never tried to speak. She never said a word. Many people passed by her, but no one would stop.

The next day I decided to go back to the park in curiosity to see if the little girl would still be there. Yes, she was there, right in the very spot where she was yesterday, and still with the same sad look in her eyes.

Today I was to make my own move and walk over to the little girl. For as we all know, a park full of strange people is not a place for young children to play alone. As I got closer I could see the back of the little girl's dress was grotesquely shaped. I figured that was the reason people just passed by and made no effort to speak to her.

As I got closer, the little girl lowered her eyes slightly to avoid my intent stare. As I approached her, I could see the shape of her back more clearly. She was grotesquely shaped in a humped-over form.

I smiled to let her know it was OK; I was there to help, to talk. I sat down beside her and opened with a simple, "Hello." The little girl acted shocked, and stammered a "hi," after a long stare into my eyes. I smiled and she shyly smiled back.

We talked until darkness fell and the park was completely empty. I asked the girl why she was so sad. The little girl looked at me with a sad face said, "Because I'm different." I immediately said, "That you are!" and smiled. The little girl acted even sadder and said, "I know."

"Little girl," I said, "you remind me of an angel, sweet and innocent." She looked at me and smiled, then slowly she got to her feet and said, "Really?"

"Yes, you're like a little Guardian Angel sent to watch over all those people walking by." She nodded her head yes, and smiled. With that she opened the back of her pink dress and allowed her wings to spread, then she said "I am. I'm your Guardian Angel," with a twinkle in her eye. I was speechless -- sure I was seeing things.

She said, "For once you thought of someone other than yourself. My job here is done."

I got to my feet and said, "Wait, why did no one stop to help an angel?" She looked at me, smiled, and said, "You are the only one that could see me," and then she was gone. And with that, my life was changed dramatically. So, when you think you're all you have, remember, your angel is always watching over you.

Source: http://www.great-inspirational-quotes.com/the-girl-in-pink-dress.html

Dance tomorrow! :D

I CANNOT REMEMBER WHAT I WANTED TO BLOG ABOUT ORIGINALLY!

I seriously should appear offline, think, blog then go online so that my thoughts wouldn't be disrupted.

TODAY! AHA! I REMEMBER SOMETHING EMBARRASSING.
I waved to the wrong guy. I waved to some guy from SJI. OMG.
I thought I saw some friend of mine (That one wearing some SJI top) looked like him so I waved and I was smiling so happily, then he stared at me intently. He was wearing spectacles and I saw him like, trying to push his specs inwards to get a "clearer" and "better" view. HAHAH! And I was still waving to him because I didn't know I made a mistake!! Then, I remembered "Eh? Daniel's in.. softball and not canoeing! SHUCKS!" OMG. THEN! Hanquan was behind that SJI dude so I pretended I didn't make any mistake and continued waving, just that, I was looking at Hanquan now. OMB.

Yeah, and I saw Qin Hong a few times here and there.
I was so tired after dance practice. Hmmm.. and I was SO SO SO SO SO PLEASED WITH MYSELF.
Because, I think, I finally can get my steps right. HAHA!!
Like, I know what comes after what. YAY! :D

Then avatar_sai said the intro was like.. the better one (YAY!) because the steps were easy and kinda retarded (HAHAHAHAH!! Who choreographed it?!) HAHAHA!! I did it while I was dancing in the toilet. :D :D
Not the WHOLE thing of course. Not that capable.

RETARDED BUT WE'RE ALL HAVING FUN YEAH~ :D

Post Transcendance Party.
ERRR.. I don't exactly know if we're going or not? Because we'll be having a performance the next day and SHUCKS, I just remembered I'll have GP lesson the next day. EEEEK.

Eh? I can't remember, that day when I went to Orchard with Kelz and all, I remember, I ALMOST kissed someone.
It was damn gross~ I always ALMOST KISS someone. That day, it was the guy who sorta ran past me and I was looking backwards and walking, walking then I turned my head and almost kissed him. LUCKILY, I DIDN'T.

Dinner with Shuting and Amanda at Plaza Singapura when we were supposed to be at some food court in Harbour Front, studying. STUDY PLAN FAILED! AARG.
We went to some Japanese restaurant because Ajisen had a long queue.
ERRR.. And I saw Kelz today. HAHAH! While I was on the bus with Shuting and Amanda. I was like "How come, that person.. looks so.. familiar" and I realized I wasn't wrong after all! :D

Dance dance dance tomorrow. I doubt if I'll be able to go for class outing.
Oh well~ The concert is priority now.
I want to go for the Sushi buffet with Shuting and Amanda!!!!!!! BUT I THINK, I shouldn't. I'm broke and I really need to study. :(

I hope my study plan with "THE CINGLES" --> Because we're COOL and ? :D next week, will be a successful one. May God Bless.

Maybe, I should wish for "I HOPE STUDYING GETS DONE" before I got to sleep.
You know, I always make a wish before going to bed? But I can't remember what I wished for the next morning, when I wake up. So, it's kinda.. futile. HAHAH!! I feel like some retard.
BUT IT'S OK. I'M A HAPPY ONE! :D

GOOD GOOD MORNING~

HAHHAHAHA!! I LOVE THIS! :D

Now! Everytime, I go to my blog, it'll be a happy one! :D SO COLOURFUL~
But somehow, everything just.. don't seem to match.
Firstly, Cheryl just doesn't really go with Eminem (But he's cool so..and you know how cool I am. HAHHAHA!) then, Eminem just doesn't seem to go well with colourful jellybeans. But what's the title of my blog? "Cheryl and her colourful, wonderful life." so I thought adding more colours will be better. I like this one with the jellybeans!! There's the other one with a radio and I thought it was kinda cool~ but it just will make everything dull. There's one with chillies everywhere and it's sorta cartoon! BUT I KNOW, I SHOULDN'T USE SOME CARTOON TEMPLATE because it'll just make myself seem more childish. THEREFORE, jellybeans - the way to go! :D

I woke up at 11 plus? When I set my alarm at..

EEEEEEEK! SOME BIRD JUST FLEW IN!!!!!!!!!!!!!! EEEEEEK!

OK. IT'S OUT.

I created 6 alarms and the times were 8.30 then 9 then 9.20, all the way till 10?
I was so blur in the morning..

Wanted to make myself some teh tarik (instant ones--> I can't do whatever those people do in coffeeshops, the tea will just be all over the place.) Yeah, then I poured the powder in and I was waiting for the water to boil then I don't know why I was actually stirring the "tea powder". HAHAHA!! WHEN THERE WAS NO WATER. Then I was like "What am I doing huh?!"

Then I took out my laptop and I put on my earpiece then I heard some sound coming from the laptop and I was like, "OMG. The earpiece wasn't even connected."
That day, while I was on my way to school, I did the same thing too. I wanted to watch the video I took during dance practice, to recap then I always blast my music.. so I did that.. and I really think my earpiece wasn't connected to my phone properly. AARG. And I was still like "Aiya. On to the max, not like anyone can hear." and I replayed the video a few times. HAHAHHAHA!

Dance practice at 2.30pm. I'm gonna have to act for some transition and I hope, I can.. do it. HAHAH!!

Stories that make you think

I was just being random.. and well, I googled for some stories to make myself smile. Here's one! I think, it's a really great one.

Late Night Story huh. It's 1.27am.
Dance practice in the afternoon so.. I shall go to bed now.

THE MOUSE TRAP

A mouse looked through the crack in the wall to see the farmer and his wife open a package. "What food might this contain?" the mouse wondered. He was devastated to discover it was a mousetrap.

Retreating to the farmyard, the mouse proclaimed the warning: "There is a mousetrap in the house! There is a mousetrap in the house!"

The chicken clucked and scratched, raised her head and said "Mr.Mouse, I can tell this is a grave concern to you, but it is of no consequence to me. I cannot be bothered by it."

The mouse turned to the pig and told him "There is a mousetrap in the house! There is a mousetrap in the house!" The pig sympathized, but said "I am so very sorry, Mr.Mouse, but there is nothing I can do about it but pray. Be assured you are in my prayers."

The mouse turned to the cow and said "There is a mousetrap in the house! There is a mousetrap in the house!" The cow said "Wow, Mr. Mouse. I'm sorry for you, but it's no skin off my nose."

So, the mouse returned to the house, head down and dejected, to face the farmer's mousetrap alone.

That very night a sound was heard throughout the house - like the sound of a mousetrap catching its prey. The farmer's wife rushed to see what was caught. In the darkness, she did not see it was a venomous snake whose tail the trap had caught. The snake bit the farmer's wife. The farmer rushed her to the hospital and she returned home with a fever.

Everyone knows you treat a fever with fresh chicken soup, so the farmer took his hatchet to the farmyard for the soup's main ingredient. But his wife's sickness continued, so friends and neighbors came to sit with her around the clock. To feed them, the farmer butchered the pig. The farmer's wife did not get well; she died. So many people came for her funeral, the farmer had the cow slaughtered to provide enough meat for all of them.

The mouse looked upon it all from his crack in the wall with great sadness. So, the next time you hear someone is facing a problem and think it doesn't concern you, remember: when one of us is threatened, we are all at risk. We are all involved in this journey called life. We must keep an eye out for one another and make an extra effort to encourage one another. Each of us is a vital thread in another person's tapestry.

Source: http://www.rogerdarlington.me.uk/stories.html#Story7

I DIDN'T GO TO SCHOOL TODAY..

BECAUSE I OVERSLEPT! :(

I WAS RATHER UPSET ABOUT IT! :( I woke up at 12 plus when the "audition" was at 10 plus. AARG.
I stayed at home, feeling rather bad about it. :(

-Sex..with Mom and Dad.
That was what I was watching, just for a while only. It's EDUCATIONAL.
The case studies were so... exciting. The show was about talking about "it" with your folks.
So, in most cases, it was the parents who wanted to go onto the show with their child because the main problem was.. their child. There was this peculiar one though. It was the other way round.
The girl wanted to go onto the show (They will get help from some doctor) because she was disturbed by her parents' ... life. Because they're porn stars. THAT WAS TOTALLY "O-M-B" --> Oh My Bieber (I learnt that somewhere.)
Yeah, she got teased at school because her schoolmates saw the videos and pictures on the net.
SUCKS.

I went to Harbour Front to have lunch by myself. Alone time again.
I stayed in Yoshinoya for.. a few hours. I tried to study and I guess, it was more productive than staying at home. I think, it's because, Japple wasn't with me.

Who's Japple? HAHAH!! My laptop. My Macbook. Yeah, because the brand's apple and I just like the letter "J".

Now that I'm talking about "J", you know it's really weird.. I wasn't a JB fan at all in the first place. I became a fan of his on Facebook then I regretted it. HAHAH!! Because, I became his fan on Facebook on impulse (Just because his name is Justin) and I didn't know how to remove myself from his fanpage. So what if his name is Justin you may ask, because.. I'm a Justin Timberlake fan! :D But now, I guess, I'm fine with him. HAHAH! I'm not GOING CRAZY OVER JUSTIN BIEBER OK?! I'm liking his songs.. just his songs. And his voice. Yeah, because it's higher than the "norm" and I just.. like people who are DIFFERENT.
But only his voice ok?! Not the person, because too many people are going crazy over him and I don't want to be the majority.

Sometimes, I think, I tend to smile at the wrong time. And I always smile "accidentally".
Yesterday, while Kelz and I were walking, she was telling me some "story" of hers then I was smiling to it. There were some skateboard dudes and I was thinking "Oh wow.. skateboard.. cool" and I was still smiling THEN the guy thought I was smiling to him and he said "HELLO!" to me. HAHHAA! But luckily, he didn't look... THAT weird. Yeah, at least it wasn't the WRONG kind of attention.

I saw some Facebook group titled "That's a top, not a dress." --> Something like that.
And I got reminded of that ZARA "dress" I bought for Graduation Day. Yeah, it was a top and I just took it for a dress.
I didn't know it was a TOP until I saw the receipt.
It was long enough to be a dress for me. (OK, I DON'T NEED ANY COMMENTS HERE! HAHAH)
That's so unforgettable.

WHOLE NEW ONE.

Yeah MAN~ YOU GOT IT.

I figured it out. The best way, to make myself happier, is.. TO BE. MORE CONFIDENT.
Yes. I WILL BE.
No one should make me feel small.

Today, I felt so so so (SHUCKS I FORGOT WHAT I WANTED TO TYPE)
My mum just TALKED to me 8-)
AARG. It was like what, some Q AND A session? I stood there, leaning against the wall and she asked me "WHY DO YOU HAVE TO GO TO SCHOOL EVERYDAY?"

Like, "How many times have I answered that question" --> That was what was in my head (I couldn't say it out because I just, didn't want to stand there even longer to be nagged at)

I remember telling her "In JC, holidays are non-existent." I doubt if she remembers anyway.
And I just said "My friends' parents are all nagging at them ALSO."
SIGHS....

Anyway, today, I went out with Kelz, Karin, Hazel and Ting Wei after dance practice.
Before that, I went to meet Kelz at KAP and I saw the MAD peeps there. HAHAH!!
LUCKILY, I was with Kelz and not some guy.. If not, I'll definitely get teased (As usual actually) during the next dance practice.

Kelz and I talked throughout when we were supposed to be studying. Oh well, then since we weren't even studying, we decided to just go over to Orchard first.
We went to Kinokuniya and read books. HAHAHA!!
I totally ENJOYED it. BECAUSE, I LEARNT SO MANY NEW THINGS WITHIN THAT.. Short 1-2 hours?
I found this book (I think it's for kids but anyway..) on the answers to many things we never knew ok?! HAHAHAH!!

Do you know why people say "break a leg"?!
NO RIGHT?! BUT KELZ AND I KNOW :D
People say that because of "reverse luck" --> Something like that. They believe if you say "Good Luck" then it will mean the opposite. Then, the other reason is because, it will mean like, you'll be down on one knee and that means, you'll have appreciative audience (Like, your performance was so good, you'd be on one knee then the audience will be like, clapping for you) GET IT?! HAHAHA! NEVERMIND. As long as I get it.

Then, DO YOU KNOW WHAT'S LITTLE RED RIDING HOOD'S REAL NAME?!
It's Maisie!

Why was Cinderella shoes/slippers made of glass?
Actually, it wasn't! It was FUR. The actual story wasn't in English. They translated it and made some translation error. :D

DID YOU KNOW COCA COLA HELPS RELIEVE HEADACHES? PEPSI AIDS IN DIGESTION?!
AND KNOW WHAT?! Pills for headaches don't exactly go to your HEAD. HAHAH!!! They just help to "stop" the pain.

AARG. If only we could stay there even longer.. then, I would gained even more new knowledge. :D
SEE? I don't even have to memorize and these sort of stuffs get into my head. BECAUSE THEY'RE INTERESTING.

And know why farts always smell like rotten eggs?! Because the protein in our food will be broken down or something, I know, hydrogen sulphide will be produced and that's what gave it that "rotten egg" smell.

COOL RIGHT?! :D

Then, as Kelz was reading Narnia, I was reading some book for Girls ONLY. Yeah, that was what made me think "Where did my confidence go to?!" :D Then, after I finish reading that book, I read some book meant for BOYS ONLY. HAHAH!!
I was just real curious about what it was going to be about.
AND I LEARNT A LOT! :D

Dinner at Xin Wang. Then, we stood outside there to talk (HAHAH! WEIRD. We were talking about err.. meeting up next week and what? Swimsuits.)

IDIOT. I CAN'T FORGET WHAT Hazey said. AARG.
Because I said we are supposed to wear one piece ones then Hazey said "Buy the two piece one then just wear one piece."
LIKE WHAT THE HELL MAN~

Dance tomorrow.
I shall. End here. GOODNIGHT AND SWEET DREAMS! :D

P.S. I FOUND A BOOK WHICH TOTALLY. IT WAS JUST ABOUT ME. HAHAHAHAH!!! I SHOW YOU!



Kelz was saying "This is so you". REALLY TRUE.

HUH?! Why do I attract all the..

Weird ones.
Today, I saw some guy who seem a little, weird on the bus (On my way to Zheng Xiang's house).
He was squatting at some corner, with his back facing me.
Then, I found some seat and that seat was you know, those facing, the back of the bus (The Unique Ones).

I took that seat and then, that guy turned back.
He was like, staring at me. I really didn't know where to look at because I HAD TO face the back of the bus?! And he was like, squatting in front of me?! (At the space where people stand)
I looked outside then, I could also see his reflection. 8-)

Then, I just.. looked down.
Oh well~ I was late for dance practice because I overslept and I waited for about 30 minutes for the bus to arrive?!
The journey to Zheng Xiang's place took like an hour?!

After dance practice, I went to KAP.
Tried to study. Tried. I read something but somehow, I feel as if, it just wasn't productive. SUCKS.

On my way home, I met another weirdo. 8-)
After Sylvia left, I walked to the back of the bus so that I can take the "HIGH SEATS".
As I walked towards the seat, I saw this man staring at me. He's old. Balding. Probably errr... late 40s?!
He was really staring at me as I walked past me. Then, he smiled to me.
That totally sent shivers down my spine.
I was SO SCARED!!! I was wearing a hoodie then, as I took my seat, I immediately put my bag on the seat next to mine so that he wouldn't come over to sit and I pulled the hood over my head. I just felt like I needed protection and the hood will make me feel... warmer and safer.
Then, he was sitting at a seat, diagonally in front of me. The guy kept turning back, then stared for a while. His seating position was a little errr.. He sat in a way, his body was slanting towards my direction.
I could feel his gaze on me and it totally suck.
I took out my sweat pants and covered my legs because the guy really kept staring. :S

I didn't dare to turn my head because I just didn't want to make any eye contact with him.

When he finally alighted, I heaved a sigh of relief.
Seriously, I was so frightened and worried. People might think I'm the weird one. AARG.

After he left, I listened to "Not Afraid" by Eminem to calm myself down. HAHAH!! I MUST BE "NOT AFRAID".