I've been thinking about THAT embarrassing day. HAHAH!! Yeah, that day when I ran half a circle, with my hands covering the face.
That was seriously, retarded.
I don't exactly know why I did that. I know I was freakin' embarrassed for sure.
Actually, WHY AM I SO AFRAID AND SCARED of freestyle?!
I do that in class, when there're people around. So why?!
I'm so so so so so not confident.
Oh man~
I remember how scared I was during the MAD Hip-hop auditions.
I wanted to wear a mask in because I didn't want people to know who I was. At least, I wouldn't feel so embarrassed if I did anything stupid during the auditions. No one would have known how I looked like. HAHA!
But then, again, I'll look retarded.
I'm for real. Just look at the way I walk in when it's my turn to freestyle. I'll walk and hop a little then stone for a while. I'll start dancing when I feel the STRESS. HAHAH! Because THERE'RE PEOPLE LOOKING.
I think, I'm scared because the people looking are dancers. HAHA!! It's like, you know, they're pro.. and then, you're like dancing in front of them. YOU GET IT??!! HAHAAH!! OK OK NEVERMIND.
Why am I shouting in my blog?!
HAHA!! I'll never ever get complacent because I'm just not confident enough. AIYER!!!!!!! NEVERMIND. YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND.
This is a very SERIOUS problem. :( I really hate this. I'm not fakin' it. I can't fake fear.
DIE. HOW HOW HOW?!
If only I could be a little more confident..
I think I'll only enjoy freestyle when it's like PARTY TIME! HAHAH! Yeah, then I can just go crazy and dance however I want to.
Or when, nobody's looking! :D
GOING CRAZY-
Dance practice later on. I'll probably go to some corner on the stage to choreograph my part. HAHAH!!
