I shall explain my reasons later.
Today was considered.. peaceful. At least, my mum didn't nag at me.
And plus, I had the chance to talk crap. Yeah, so it was good.
I spent the day reading a novel and woah, I think I finished half the book when I should be studying for the upcoming exams.
Oh well~ What's done can't be undone.
Integration test tomorrow and I haven't finished my revision. I shall start on it after blogging.
MMM...
My reasons for being guilty.
Just now, there was this ad on "Filial Piety"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ybxNkpS5q-g
Yeah, the one above. My mum was asking us (my brother and I) to pay attention to that.
MM.. And after it ended, my mum was saying about how my absence for the family gatherings actually affected my grandparents. (Or rather, how much my presence mattered)
According to her, my grandma was asking why haven't I been going over to their place these Saturdays.
She asked if it's because I'm angry over some stuffs or what.
As I said before, for the past.. 3/4 weeks, it was really because of practice and rehearsals for Dance Night.
After Dance Night, I shouldn't have any reasons not to turn up huh? But still, I didn't go.
I'd rather stay at home, all by myself, with Japple. (Sounds stupid)
I don't know, it's not like I DON'T WANT to. I just DON'T FEEL LIKE IT.
My weekdays are totally like.. school days and I just want to spend my weekend peacefully. I just feel that if I were to go over on Saturdays, I'll get questioned, a lot (Since I haven't been going over for so many weeks).
And I'm that sort who tears really really really easily, over the slightest incident.
I bet I'll tear if my grandparents start asking me, being all concerned about me.
When my mum told me whatever my grandparents said and asked "Is she not coming over because of some reasons? Is she angry? BLAH BLAH BLAH" I felt so guilty. I teared.
I don't know, it's as if my grandparents feel BAD for me not going over to their place.
And for that, I'm angry with myself.
How could I? I don't go over to their place but still, every Saturday, I'll receive money from them (via my brother).
ROTTEN. To the core.
This is selfish. Mhm.
What should I do tomorrow? I've got LOADS to study for but I'm still in my own fantasy world~
Perhaps, I'll camp at Harbour Front.
The thought of having to go to school in my school uniform totally sucks.
OMG!!! HOW DUMB CAN I BE??!
I've been trying to edit the fonts of my posts. I know I clicked on something accidentally and that font thing was GONE.
NOW, I know what I clicked on! HAHAHAH!!
I'm in the "Edit HTML" tab when the fonts are at the "Compose" tab. OMG.
I'll probably update my blog again later on.
