HAHAH! I JUST DID SOMETHING STUPID.
I was supposed to type in my email address then I typed "cheryl_tan93@hotNAIL.com"
HOTNAIL. HAHAHAHA!! ISN'T THAT FUNNY???!!
HAHAHA! OK OK NEVERMIND. I shall laugh at it myself.
Anyway, today, I was supposed to go for dance practice but I actually missed it because my mum wasn't exactly in a very good mood. She found out that I blocked her on Facebook (I do that to all my family members).
I know it's not very nice and I'm not trying to say "I don't want you guys in my life."
It's just that, you know when people post stuffs on your wall or write stupid things, seriously, I'll get QUESTIONED.
I find that rather irritating and annoying and so, I thought it's better for my wall to be left "Unseen".
I HOPE AND PRAY my mum doesn't know of this blog's existence.
It'll just be rather awkward.
I don't know. It seems to me as if I can just stay at home and not talk at all for the entire day. I don't even know whether I want to stay at home or not. The grass on the outside seems greener. However, I know I'm not alone. I just saw Jayy's status on Facebook and Amanda's comment.
I don't want to be disrespectful. I DO want to repair this relationship but it definitely won't help if my mum continues to be as ever sarcastic. Now, she talks to me VIA my brother. She'll get him to ask me question when we're in the same place.
She said we might just end up sending messages to each other even though we're in the same house.
True. True. But my phone's switched off most of the time so....
I don't know when will this ever end.
For those who don't know, my parents are divorced and so.. I live just with my mum. Yeah, my dad doesn't give a shit.
I totally feel ALONE now.
The only person I talk to at home is my brother. Yeah, I'll just annoy him and bully him. (Nowadays, I think I spend so much time with my laptop that I FORGOT to play my part as an elder sibling - Bully the younger one and help when I feel like it. HAHA!)
Before Dance Night, I had reason for not going over to my grandparents' house on Saturdays. Now that Dance Night's over, I can't believe I'm actually FINDING REASONS not to go over.
I feel kinda guilty but then, they just don't seem to believe me when I say "I've got to go back to school for dance."
People actually asked "Why haven't you been coming over? Really busy or is it because you don't want to come?"
I WAS REALLY BUSY. But now, I don't know. I don't feel like it.
I'll feel weird because people will be questioning me. I feel as if, yeah, there's no trust at all. And so...
FORGET IT.
I don't know. So what now? What about the upcoming Saturday?
Just now, I tried to force myself to do some work but I felt so dumb...
I couldn't solve a few questions and the answers given were so weird. There was one which didn't even match the question! :(
It got me frustrated. Then, I tuned in to Symphony...
I need to chill. After chilling, I need to study. I really have to.
I HATE PW. I hate PW, not the PW group members.
TSK. I really hate it. Why can't it be individual work?! That way, I account only for myself. I know I'm busy with Dance and stuff and I know I'll definitely leave PW to the last. And because that damn subject is GROUP work, if I don't do my part, everyone will be affected. I really hate this.
It's like, you know, circuits. Lightbulbs. I prefer them to be arranged in the parallel manner, then I'll be the ONLY one in my row so that even if the switch on my row is off, the others wouldn't be affected and they'll continue to shine. HAHA! OK. WHAT AM I TALKING ABOUT NOW?!
Enough enough. I really really need to chill.
Nowadays, "ALONE TIME" is really important to me. OK. DONE WITH TODAY'S POST.
