Somehow, I still don't feel very happy. Maybe I'm just bored at home - I can't exactly go out because my mum will say "Why are you always not at home". If I were to take out a book to read, she'll say "Why are you so free?". If I were to be at school for dance (but then again, there isn't any dance prac today), she'll say "Dance again? How will dancing help you in the future? You think you're going to make a living out of it?"
That was basically all she said this morning. I almost wanted to reply "Why can't I go back to school for dance? I know it doesn't earn me cash but then again, why are you playing tennis?"
but I guess the angel side of me convinced me not to say whatever was in my mind so as to prevent more nagging and arguments. uurg Sundays.
It's like I don't even know what I'm supposed to/can do on the internet. I googled "games" (hahahha "games" sound noob) but I am simply not interested in any. I went onto Youtube but huh.. what's on Youtube............
Tried to look for dramas but the links just wouldn't work. The video cannot be found - then why was the link even there? zz
So I ended up watching The Notebook - which makes me feel even more depressed because a love like Allie and Noah's probably doesn't exist --> The reason why I didn't want to watch it in the first place but today, I just needed something, anything.
I'm going to keep myself busy with work this coming week. Think I'm going to work on four weekdays and maybe dance on one day if there is going to be dance prac (and if there isn't then maybe I'll go out or something, I'll find something to keep me entertained). For now, I guess I just want to keep myself busy with my friends and whatever preparations for DN (Didn't even know it was that soon ><) --> guess it'll help reduce the ~overthinking~ part.
gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh hating this.
