Haven't been pushing myself much.
Actually, I really don't know if I'm even under stress or not. I know I cried that day..... because of something rather trivial.... Something to do with me being sick --> Didn't take a test --> Cannot retake the test --> And so.. my results will be made up by those other tests I did for the past terms? I don't know but lousy ones.
I cried because I really thought I'd do better for that one I missed. But oh well, it's not like I can do anything about it now.
Then I heard my mum talking to my CT over the phone saying "I never asked her about her studies because I know she'll do her own revision..." AND yeah, I felt damn guilty.
Everyone thought I was busy studying at home but no :(
I'm ALWAYS on Facebook :(
I neglected my studies. :( My bad.
And so I decided to keep myself in school to study/do whatever homework..
Yeah.. so it was dinner time then I just started tearing all of a sudden and everyone just. Stopped. HAHA!
They asked me not to pressure myself too much but NOOOO. I don't think I'm even pressuring myself :( They said it's ok if I don't do well..
It'll be OK as long as I can get promoted (BUT NOOO. Then I don't meet my own expectations.) Even if I retain, it's alright as well. (BUT NOOOO... :( How can EVERYTHING be alright?!)
Optimism is the way to go but if I were to think that way then... I wouldn't even get anything done.
Yesterday was study session with Weiqing, Shuting and Amanda. It was quite productive. The classroom was quiet and mmm... just A BIT of chatting but at least, we all did study something. So proud of myself. :D HEE HEEEEEE
** Oh yeahh! I heard someone laughing like that on the bus that day, "HEE HEEEEE" and I thought "how retarded was that man~" Now I know how retarded I sound. But it's better to sound retarded than to be all serious. *WINKWINK*
Today was study session with Sylvia, Shuting and Amanda... and I did manage to finish something :D So YAY! BUTTTT... I think my Chemistry and Econs still CMI.
On my way home yesterday, I was like thinking of random stuff then I got all reminded of..... Ok, nevermind, skip the EMO part.
Countdown: Excluding weekends, I still have... 6 more days to next Friday. :(((((((((
Today, Miss Chen saw me and the ONE thing she said "Cheryl.. study hard."
I gave her my MC and was about to leave for break and she said "Take your study materials to the shade then study." Oh mannnnn~
Studystudystudystudy. :(
