I'll be out tomorrow. Finally.
**Perhaps you'd like to pause the music playing before continuing to read this post because it feels kinda weird, reading my rant while listening to Christmas songs**
Been staying at home the past few days and so very unfortunately, there was neither dinner nor lunch. Used to not having lunch but omg, even dinner. I just felt so sian that I have to buy food from the same place every single day (since I'm home). --> So it's practically like you see the usual people at the stall, the cleaners etc.
And I hear my grandparents nag and nag and nag and nag until it drives me crazy. I just want to be left undisturbed and not irritated. Sometimes I feel so frustrated I feel like, I should just take my passport and attempt to cross over to Malaysia. I really thought about it - I mean, since I know where the passport is and I know there's bus 170 hahaha~
I really wouldn't mind studying right now. At least when I'm studying, people can see I'm doing SOMETHING. It just gets on my nerves that people seem to only pay attention when they see me relaxing and it gives them the opportunity to use sarcasm. What about the times when I was studying or doing something serious.
And it's not like I'm not even trying to look for a fucking job but, how can I even plan when I don't even know when I'm free. Everything's on the pending list.
Before A's: study now then you can play and relax for all you want after that
After A's: Why are you always outside/relaxing whatever
what the fuck?
I can't wait for tomorrow, really. I want to be out out out out out out out. Walking along the streets by myself beats staying at home, listening to all these nagging. At least when I'm outside, I do what I want and I don't have to listen to anything I don't wish to.
Guess it will be a little better after I move. Because nobody will be at home *HURRRRRRRRRAY*
I can be alone at home (+ I have a pretty nice view of the Singapore flyer and whatsoever from my room) I miss that a lot. a lot. a lot.
*end of rant* (or maybe I'll continue later)
**oh right, somebody asked why I looked so sian on prom night. I didn't know it was that obvious.**
