Shucks, I should just stop emo-ing.
I want to but it seems like, there'll always be something for me to brood over, to think about.
Today, I did something rather surprising? Actually, I don't know what was I even thinking about.
I told myself "No, you shouldn't. You should just forget everything" but somehow, I just can't.
It's really irritating. The only times when I can really forget about these sort of stuff will be when I'm pulling someone's (Only someone) shoelaces. HAHAHAH!!! Or when, someone just comes over and say or do something really random but funny. Well, this just sucks. Oh man, it's turning into another emo post.
We were supposed to have Principal's Dialogue today but somehow, the machine/laptop/whatever was screwed up. Jabez and Russel kept hitting my head so I turned back to hit them.
Yeah, there was a camera in front of me but I thought the entire thing wasn't working or if it was working, they would've switched it off because there's nothing for them to see. Walao, then, it seems that the people in the auditorium (those who were paying attention to the screen) saw me hitting Jabez and Russel. Oh man, I think, I did even more than that. I remembered trying to snatch his file/pencil case/ear piece then placing it on some random spot. Shucks man. But anyway, I doubt if they can remember my face.
During Geography lecture, I felt really uncomfortable because I couldn't stop thinking about it, which explains why I went to the toilet while the lecture was ongoing. The conversation was really short. I wanted it to be longer but I realized, I couldn't think of anything much to say either. I have LOADS to say but I really don't know where to start. Then, before I realized, I was tearing (just a little) because I felt like "It wasn't like this. We're like complete strangers now."
It's like, I've really lost someone, for good and I really hate that feeling.
I spent break time alone because I was really tired. I wanted to sleep but somehow, I couldn't bring myself to sleep. Yue Quan asked me why I was emo-ing again. HAHA!!
Tsk, it's really hard to explain. I don't wish to be like that either.
Chemistry lecture wasn't as bad because I had someone to distract me so I wasn't thinking that much.
School ended at 1.30pm. I didn't feel like going home but well, since there'll be no one to keep me company, I went home.
I miss the days when I was in sec 2. Those were the days when I really had loads of fun.
I remember the days I'll stay back in school with the dance clique then we'll practice dance at some random place (or sometimes, my house) and we'll play "Stalking" in school. HAHAH!! That was damn fun. We didn't really stalk, of course, we played really stupid stuffs from what I can remember. There was this time when we picked up someone's love letter/some love note and we began to "solve the puzzle". HAHHA!!
As I spent my time alone during break time, I looked at the clouds and wondered "What will happen if I fall from the sky, will the clouds catch me or just let me drop?" "Will the clouds fly me to CJC?"
"What would have happened if I just went to CJC?"
Everything will be different.
That day, Kwang Yu suggested playing "Truth Or Dare" and he said he'll aim at me because I seem to have a lot of secrets.
Well, that's not really true. I mean, I wouldn't go around telling EVERYONE EVERYTHING because people will just think I'm really weird, when I'm already weird enough. Yeah, so.. if you want to know anything, just ask me. I'll gladly tell you. HAHAH!
