But somehow, I always find it really really really hard to forgive myself and I feel, I could've done better/should have done otherwise. All the bad decisions I've made.
Yeah, just that day, I couldn't stop blaming myself somehow. I just felt that I shouldn't have done whatever I did... and that alone, screwed many things up. I hated it. I hated the way things had to be and I hated myself for not being able to make things better. I felt awful. REALLY awful because I know it could have turned out better. Every attempt I made, to try to correct things, just seemed to make everything worse. :/
Some regrets here and there but well. Screw all that.
I'll be better.
I cannot rewrite the past. And no amount of regrets can change what happened so I should stop thinking about it. Make every moment count right? And screw what people think. I know what I'm doing and that's enough. Not a question~
So I'll just learn from whatever shit that happened to me and well, learn to handle it better next time. So I'll screw up less. But anyway, screwing things up isn't all that bad. Whatever negative experiences will just enrich your life, to some extent. They're kinda like................. gifts? Just in a slightly different form I guess.
Anyway, something kinda happened to me last night. It was untimely. Because I was just doing math (and it's really hard to get me to do work so when I'm doing work, that's really precious time there). Guess some emotions got in the way. And yes. SMSes just don't convey the tone right. Glad it's turned out well eventually because the problem was trivial.
**FYI. No male species involved**
I hope things will just get better from now on. For myself and for everyone out there.
Yup. It'll all pass. Press onnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn! :)
