So I'll just switch off my phone till, whenever I feel better.
Yesterday was pretty bad. Not the day itself but I just didn't feel as well.
Don't know what's going to make me feel better but I know what I MUST do : Study.
That's a duh~
but I ain't really doing it (No no. I just feel like I'm not doing enough) , which is pretty much one of the reasons why I'm feeling down. In school, I hear people talk about how late they camp in school to study (till 11pm, like wtf) and I just feel so demoralized because I bet their grades aren't as bad as mine but they're studying two/three/five/six/n times harder than me. ><
For this, I really hate myself. :(
I know hating myself will not do my grades any good and I should be devoting more time and energy to my work. But yeah, just saying~
It's funny how I can be so noisy in school but when I'm alone, I'm just like..... "god.. I hate myself.... I'm not good enough........ *insert all sorts of negative feelings/thoughts* " :/
Sighs. I shall just hope I'll feel happier later in the day because right now, I'm just downdowndown. No no no, I cannot just give up like this. uuurg
SCREW EMO.
This song shall keep me going for the rest of the day.
