Again, I missed school. Shit. I'm really getting from bad to worse.
Yesterday, I was so tired, I didn't bother to blog. OH! I remember, I was late for school yesterday.
I don't know if my CT recorded it down or not because I was already in the central plaza!!! :( I ran to school and placed my bag at some random corner, stood in line with some random J2 class during the singing of national anthem and pledge taking. I skipped over to my class while they were making announcements. And damn it, some teacher came over to ask me for my name and class.
He asked me if I knew I was late for school and why I walked over to my class while they were making announcements.
"MMM.. They didn't collect my EZ link card so I wasn't late! The teacher allowed me to just go into the school so I presumed so. I was already in school."
"You know that as long as you're not with your class, you're considered late? BLAH BLAH BLAH"
Damn it. That ruined my day. That's one thing PUSHING me away from Hwa Chong. HAHAH!! Yeah, I was thinking of making a transfer over to CJC. And I even came up with some "mind-map" to sort out my thoughts. It was really crazy.
HAHA! Up till today, I'm still like.. leaning towards the CJC side. I keep telling myself to live in the present, to accept this school but somehow.. there're still push factors and I think, the pull factors coming from CJC are stronger. The ONE MAIN thing that's keeping me here in Hwa Chong is not wanting to leave MAD Hip hop :( Because we've all trained and practised so hard together and I feel like, I don't want to give up something I yearned for... Yeah. I don't want to lose all my close friends.
Talked to Jeslyn before going for CCA and I told her how much I wanted to leave this school. I told her my reason - I think I'll never be able to FULLY INTEGRATE into this school because I wasn't from Nanyang or whatever.. Yeah.
I even consulted my CT about it. That shows, how much I really want to leave Hwa Chong.
But I know, out there, there are people who feel like me.
Oh well, but Madam Ong said I'll have to find a JC where I can go to. Then, I'll have to go talk to Mr Chan (When I don't know who he is) and mmm.. I heard there'll be counselling and all those stuff too. She asked me for my reasons. At that time, I really don't know what crap I gave her. She asked me if it was stress but I said no. I feel no stress at all, I'm laxing my way through my schooldays which is TOTALLY BAD. I think I'm only stressed when it comes to PW. HAHAHAHA!! Because all the EOM and shit. What PI.
I don't know. Amanda Chan was against my idea because she said it'll be a lot of trouble. Madam Ong also advised me not to because she said it's just a few months left.
But you know how long I have to tolerate (not accept) this "FEW MONTHS"?
Maybe if I go to school just for dance, dance and nothing else then ok, I don't mind the "few months" but now. SUCKS. School is just a place where I learn nothing (because really, nothing goes into my head) and where I keep getting demerit points. How can you ask me to stay in a place like this...
School everyday is like.. something I really dread. Every Monday, I go to school and I'm waiting for the week to end so that I can get away from school. That's how much I dislike school. It was never like this for me. I don't know.. oh well.
I shall go to school later on for that dance meeting then.. PW.
